A Life Plan Without You.

by Christine Wood

  “Our future, should we have one, will be based on truth and honesty at all times… I hate lies above anything else you always have to tell me the truth. First questions a must, Karen and you, what’s it all about?” This one was a deal breaker.

  “Nothing has or will ever happen on my part, I promise you baby I promise you I don’t like her that way or anyway.”

  “What’s that meant to mean? She’s made a pass at you, is she your type Sam?” He laughed. “Oh please don’t laugh Sam I’m totally pissed at her now. She is the biggest bitch-troll-ho, I know second only to Kelly Pepper.” Snake alert, in the lap area. He grabbed my cup, I’m thinking he thought I was about to throw Emma’s prized china mug.

  “She had private lessons on the same nights as me she started a few weeks after I did, with Samantha and Ellie helped, she was trying to help Karen out too. She and Karen used to dance into me, then when that didn’t work in doing anything other than in pissing off Lana, she made a number of really stupid and childish attempts to get me to notice her, from wearing lower tops, showing her fake assets, skirts that were really more of a belt than a skirt, dropping stuff so she had to bend to pick it up or as I said accidently dancing into us. All it did was make me laugh she was pathetic. Really, she is so not sexy or a very likeable girl, and not the sort of girl I would ever consider bringing here to see Mum, no other girl has been brought here by me to see Mum, not until you baby not until you. I don’t have a type at least I don’t think I do anyway? However, the girl I fell so hard for that’s a different story…

  Umm and she literally fell at my feet too, now she is really special. She’s a girl who can teach a class full of children and yet make each one feel they are each her favourite. A girl who with just one kiss had me hooked and wanting more. She’s a girl armed with a smile that is so bright, it’s infectious, so much so that you have to smile with her, even if it makes you look like a grinning idiot, an idiot who looked around the room to see if that smile was just for him, and prayed that it was, and finally no she, she well is totally my type of girl, not Karen by any stretch of the imagination, nor will she ever be baby, how can she be I have what I want right here?” Oh hell do I cry again?

  I laughed instead and blushed. Good answers and he hasn’t stopped looking at me, his eyes are still looking into mine, and his whole face seems to smile, finally… My foot hits pay dirt, my foot has been massaging his bits, and now he has a huge and hard bulge, umm happy to see me Mr Todd? He moves into my foot he wants more? I can do this… I think?

  “She started those lessons to get her mitts on you Sam that much I can promise you. She wants you angel. Right, umm how many girlfriends have you had?” I don’t think this is going to be the reply I want to hear. However the question has been asked so let him answer! He gasps as my foot moves. He still looked at me, but looked really uncomfortable, he didn’t want me doing this? He shuffled in his seat, shit an uncomfortable boyfriend makes sense if he has something to hide or is about tell me a lie? Either that or he needs me to stop with the foot massage? His hand covers my foot and gently moves it, umm over stimulated perhaps?

  “I’ve had, besides you… Just one other girlfriend, sorry Michelle baby but shit you’re going to hate this bit, because I’ve had sex with a quite a few and fooled around with more than a few others. None of the girls I had fumbles or fooled around with, led to anything else. None lasted longer than the one off, and none made it to a second date.

  The sex was always drunken weekend sex, after a party or a boozed up night out with my brother in Heaven. Excessive amounts of alcohol were always to blame and I didn’t have enough sober brain cells to say no. There wasn’t any that I’m keen to remember? That’s a laugh too because I was always too drunk to bloody remember anyhow, they were all quite forgettable.

  Michelle forgive me please because that sounds so harsh, but it’s one of the few things I have done, in my life that I do regret doing, my using of all those girls like that. You, Mi cielo, I intend to do things properly with, but I nearly messed my plans right up, with what I did earlier I’m so sorry baby.”

  Please don’t let her hate me, because I hate myself enough for the pair of us, and wow I hope that smiles because she believes me, and that all that shit is in the past? If your listening God, I made you a promise and apart from the near miss on New Year’s Eve I have not strayed from the promised path, please let her love me, old flaws included, I have changed I swear I have…

  “You don’t have to apologise Sam, please stop. I liked what you did, and it was absolutely a first for me. We just need to get to know each other better and I’m sorry, but sex isn’t yet top of my list Samuel Todd, I’m not saying never just not yet, though I actually thought I was going to be deflowered in first contact alley. Besides I didn’t want to know anything else about the other girls, I just wanted to know if any of them were serious or more to the point, what was I going to be compared to. They were all before me and don’t count as long as I’m the only one your with now I don’t want to share you either angel ever. Thanks, no more questions.” He kissed me.

  “None, of them compare to you, how can they? The feelings I have for you have knocked me for six, and I have never felt this way about anyone before and I’m sorry I grabbed you like that, I was like a man possessed.” I smiled because he was so frigging sexy, when he was embarrassed.

  “Sam do you have any questions for me?”

  Erm, yeah will you marry me now, and there is truth in the power of prayer thank you God, much appreciated as promised I will never let you down again? I am in love like never before, shit her eyes are shining and I need a kiss, wow I need more but coming in my pants just then was hard to keep a lid on, and not scream yes God yes, was harder, he wouldn’t have been happy…

  “Umm what? What no baby you said you’d only been kissed once before me, so I guess all this is new to you. I can’t believe it though because you were very um handy in the alley Mi cielo and wow your kisses, and this here is down to those naughty feet of yours. He likes you too. You really are a virgin? I’m the first person you have done this with?” I know I was blushing because my face was hot.

  “Believe it or not I am Sam, you are the first person to get this close, and you may have to bear with me. I do pick things up quickly too, so hopefully, I will learn as we go on, I don’t want to disappoint you, are you alright with me being a vir...” He cut me off with a kiss, I ummed into them. Pulling back he smiled and then he winked…

  “I like that you’re pure and untouched, that nobody has been this close to you, it means a lot, more than you know, honestly Michelle it means such a lot. Now enough of the chatter. Let’s get round to the fooling around part. That, I think I am going to like doing with you, hell I know I’m going to like it. I’m going to return the favour, from earlier. So baby, shuffle over and put your head here please, it may be a little lumpy for some reason?” He pointed at his lap, as I laughed. “Put your legs down there.” I did just as he asked.

  “Really you want me so near your erh, soldier, what if Sam, I lead you astray? Umm tell me what are you going to do?” I really was nervous, yet excited.

  “Shush and close your eyes, I want to fool around a little, and return the kisses and do stuff from your wish list and who knows, we may even have a few wishes that are the same? Shush and relax we aren’t doing that for a while, please baby we have loads of time and things to discover before we do that. Shit I’m so sorry I’m presuming you do want to do that with me?”

  “I want to yes but not yet I… I’m not ready, not yet, because it’s a big thing for me to give away. I can only give that to someone special the once…” He smiled and as he kissed me, I thought I heard him say it’s mine, all mine… Umm I was all his too, and that was his, only his.

  He reached down and started. First the neck kisses, the kiss behind my ear, where he whispered he loved me again I’d heard him say it once before. Oh hell, what do I say he loves me really? That was so nice to hear, but was
he just saying it? As he bit my bottom lip I realised what he was doing. Oh bad Sam, he was doing my list on me shit… My list and yes I do have written down a proper list of what I want to do to Sam and one I had a load of fun thinking about and writing down, hell I can start crossing stuff off it too, because it’s all in black and white, written for my eyes only to see, in an old school book, currently under my bed, and it ends in us having fantastic sex.

  In a big love, heart on the cover is Sam loves Michelle, for ever. I signed it too Mrs Michelle Todd, oh hell do I want that, am I ready? His tongue wrestles with mine, at the same time his hand moved under my jumper. I arched my back, pushing my breasts at him, willing him to take them, to play with them, massage them taste them, oh hell this was… Christ, what was he doing? This feeling was alien and an all new feeling; it was painful, yes pleasantly painful was that at all possible those two things combined? Oh hell yesss...

  He had my nipple in his fingers as he pulled and rolled it between them. The other hand was on the prowl too. They responded, by becoming hard, the area around them too hardens and they feel extremely sensitive to his touch, I have never seen them this way before, their reaction to his touching them seems to please him, he had gotten to second base on our first date, what a whore. Oh shush voices…

  My nipples tingle and get even harder, it feels like I’m about to explode, the experience is friggin awesome. He’s now sucking on them and caressing the hardened tip with his tongue, sending a myriad of messages and signals to my head and God my sex throbbed as he suckled on them harder. My sex was warm, tingling and it pulsed. Oh lord it’s escalating the feelings are getting too much, oh hell its getting warmer it’s almost burning, As I writhed under him, his mouth’s now over my other nipple as he sighs, he flicks his tongue over it and then suckles on it murmuring his delight, kissing my now heaving breasts sucking at the soft skin and laying tiny kisses across them both. My body is alive, my sex throbbing uncontrollably, its frantic throbs are now painful, the throbbing now getting harder and harder, I shriek in delight as at last he finishes with a frantic kiss, his tongue and mine soft yet the noise we’re both making are far from quiet…

  Down he went, with his finger tracing a line down to my waistband. I couldn’t breathe, the gasp as his finger slips between denim and skin, he’s toying with me, I’m wondering if he’s going to undo the button of my jeans, was he undressing me were we going to do the thing he said I would have to wait for, yes please, now God Sam I want you now, shit did I care? My breath is laboured, I can’t breathe, I want him, I want him now is all that’s running through my brain pleaseee take me now, my hand slips between my jeans and I am wet oh hell am I on my period?

  I slip my fingers further down and wow what is he doing to this place from my breasts, are the two connected? I touch a swollen lump thing, oh hell my finger touches it again and again as Sam kisses me, fuck yes, fuck me now… Please God stop me now. I have an amazing out of body experience and I see myself smiling. I get hot again I get cold, I feel lighter, I feel fuzzy, oh hell I don’t know what I’m feeling right now, I know I feel both pleasure and pain at the same time.

  Damn it he headed my words… God is killing me, damn it I’m dying and still a virgin. I feel like I’m about to die, I’m lightheaded and Sam is now rubbing is hands over my zip and massaging my sex, slowly quickly slowly, I wanted to scream, did I just scream? He kissed me, I’m so hot I’m trembling from the knees, my backside is clenched tight, my sex throbbed hard oh and my chest, I’m having a heart attack, he’s killing me, I held my breath as he kissed me harder and he was particularly needy again, his kisses helped muffle the sounds that were spewing from my mouth.

  I called out his name and I told him, no begged him to fuck me, I cried for him, I needed him, I wanted him to take that piece of me, I wanted him to take my virginity, I think I begged him to? Then oh no, oh hell I got the strangest of feelings, I have never felt so confused so immobilised, I couldn’t move, I seemed to be having a fit of some sort, it came with a fuzzy headed lightness…

  Something must have happened, my heart stopped and I let out a loud gasp, which was the last thing I remembered was feeling a harsher more prolonged la petite mort, Sam, c'était tellement fantastique ange si fantastique… A very fantastic feeling, a fantastic feeling indeed angel, the little death killed me…

  I kiss her neck and with the same tiny kisses she used, following her path to the detail, the nose kisses were nice, as I kissed her open mouth shushing the pleasing murmurs coming from her, umm, I’m following her list, what next, yeah the neck to nipples, fuck do I dare? I kiss he neck and her top is open already so I slid in my hand and as I do she murmurs yes softly, the green light given, wow I love the feel of her soft skin in my hands her breasts are firm and as I play with her nipple her arousal is pleasing to see, her nipples and the surrounding area is taught and as I suckle at her breast her knees come up and she shivers beneath me, she’s coming, I can see it I see her buckle beneath me and yeah I’m turned on, I move to the other and suck hard and my hand is rubbing at her girlie bits, she is loud as she cries out, wow she’s a screamer!

  I kiss her to silence her a little but as I continue to please her, she shudders and shakes she cries and she moves like she is dying, crap as I watch her I find this arousing and fuck I come too I too shake at the tightening in my groin and then wow I find my third beautiful release of the night. This is a first for me watching as she enjoys finding her own release, shit she is playing with herself I look down and really enjoy watching her.

  I try to calm down too before I come again, but shit that’s not happening as I spill yet even more tadpoles into my pants, fuck she is so good to watch. I can’t help but get off. Shit I have never locked and reloaded twice in such a short time, good to know I’m not a one shot wonder, and as I kiss her so as to help silence the next epic orgasm she is having, I think I may have killed her and I panic a little, gently stroking her cheek, shit she is wiped out and exhausted as she slowly opens her eyes, her hair is wet and as she comes around I kiss her again, that was absolutely a first for me, well for both of us it seems…

  Waking me from my little death, I ache, I’m sleepy, I am embarrassed oh hell yeah unquestionably the later one! I’m wet through with sweat; my hair at the back of my neck was in tight wet through curls, between my legs was sore, had we, did we? No? Hell I would have known surely?

  “Welcome back, Mi cielo are you ok, baby are you alright, speak to me baby please?” I murmured yes.

  “What’s happened? What did you do to me? Err I ache.” He kissed away a tear.

  “I didn’t do that with you baby so please relax; I wouldn’t not, without a damn thought for your needs too. Michelle baby, when we do that it will be in a special place in a loving way and we will be both be in it together, and one of us won’t be passed out having been really crude, but you were beautiful to watch Michelle just beautiful. That was I presumed your first orgasm?”

  “Is that what it was? I thought, you were killing me, are you sure you haven’t?” A quick check, my jeans are still done up, everything intact, but I’m wet through.

  “Did you, not enjoy that?” He smiled, though he did look worried? Christ how stupid do I feel? I bet none of his other girlfriends had passed out on him, with him just rubbing her sex?

  “Yes, really I did Sam, but shit is it going to be like that every time?” I blushed. “Because hells teeth, that was err amazing and you’re getting a big head Samuel Todd.” He smiled as his nose touched mine sneaking in a kiss.

  “I’m led to believe it’s different for everyone, but it gets better when you know they’re coming. I can honestly say that was a biggest turn on than anything I have ever experienced Mi cielo, never has anyone done that before, we are going to be so good together. You were fantastic to watch and you seemed to enjoy it, I know I never wanted it to end. You are very responsive very err vocal and very sensitive baby.” His lips touched mine again, he sighs as he kisses me too.

>   “From where did you hear that then? I feel like a prize idiot, you must think I’m such an immature girl?” Again, what did I know?

  “No Mi cielo, you were and are very responsive and well your right, I do feel big headed. I made you come just kissing you, you were fantastic to watch and well playing with yourself turned me on too, do you do that at home baby? As you came it was like nothing I have ever done before, just watching you shake, as your orgasm finished was a little frightening, you looked like you enjoyed it and hell you’re very loud, I had to kiss you to muffle the screams baby, now that was enjoyable, can we do it again, or have I put you off? I swear, the things we will do later on, are going to be fantastic. If you liked that as much as you looked like you did.

  As to the learning… It wasn’t from a woman or girl in case that’s got you riled? Well, I’m ashamed to say this now, after watching you and really enjoying it, I don’t think I cared before whether the girl enjoyed herself or not, just as long as I came, it didn’t matter to me, but watching you, now that was, wow what was that? It was better than any actual sex I have had before. I swear baby I came hard in my pants, at the same time you did. I’d show you, but well take my word for it? You baby hit the spot and didn’t even know you had.

  The learning part came when I listened and well, in the sex education classes we had at school. Our teacher, Matt King was a bit of a ladies’ man, hell that’s the wrong word he was well into porn, he was and still is good at what he does he’s a mate of my brother Andy, it turns out they attend meetings and parties, small world apparently when your into their type of sex?”