A Life Plan Without You.

by Christine Wood

  “Fine Mum, he is my brother I will look after him!” I smiled at Sam.

  “Becky’s not here then?” I was still shocked he wanted to spend the day with JJ too.

  “No, she’s on holiday with her mates, until Saturday. You could have asked me, did I want my baby brother with us? He’s a cute little nightmare you will end up carrying him. So we have to take his pram. He gets tired after all he is only three. He thinks he’s in big school too he’s only in nursery. He has to have afternoon nap too and oh bloody nappies to change great.” I smiled at him, he thought he’d messed up, but it just showed me he was caring.

  “I’m sorry I ruined our day. We have loads of time for things and it seems your Aunty needs your Mum, I don’t think the hospitals the place for JJ. He is called Michael James Joseph or did he fib about that too?”

  “No he is. The JJ stuck because there are too many bloody Michaels in this family it confused him. You should see it when all the Michaels get together it’s hilarious, and I’m only Michelle in case they didn’t get a Michael. No, you haven’t ruined anything Sam it just shows you care about my family thank you. Anyway, we have to be up early and I have things I want to do to you. Get in my bed, now Sam.” I’m going to have some fun, with him and his package and lots of it. “I must have forgotten to tell you, you better not ruin my bed.” He looked nervous. “Sam, the other stuffs still okay isn’t it?” He put his coffee down and took my hand.

  “Yes, but that’s all, now show me your bed, I’m sooo tired.” I led him quietly to my bed.

  “That’s mine.” I shut the door and put the lock on. He looked at it and smiled. I had all sorts of posters on my wall. Grease, Saturday Night Fever, Love Is calendar. All with ticket stubs drawings and photos of dance award ceremonies, notes and poems, another calendar with birthdays. Just accumulated crap, some had been on my wall for years it was a bugbear of mums, she wanted to take it down. He sat on my bed, clear areas, as was his room, mine organised, Becky’s not so.

  “Michelle, get that backside here.” I stood in front of him, my arms around his neck I leant down for a kiss. He pulled my dress over my head, leaving me in his gift. “You look so pretty so very pretty Michelle.” He started taking my new pink underwear off I’m down to just my bra and knickers, as he stood up. He undid his shirt, undoing the buttons slowly taking it off and throwing it on Becky’s bed. He undid his buttons on his jeans, and slipped off his shoes and then his tight jeans, my God I’m going to see a naked Sam again.

  Yes, yes, yes happy dance the boxers were off. He slipped his hand inside my bra, and gently massaged my breasts, making my nipples harden. He smiled as his other hand did the same, and he played with them rubbing his thumb over them, his arm slipped around my back and he undid my bra, letting it fall to the floor. Oh, hell he was going to see a fully naked Michelle. He carried stroking them, then kneading my breasts harder and wow, nicer he leant down and kissed me. His hands went to my waist he pulled down my lace knickers and smiled. Both of us were now naked. Yes tonight, would he, wouldn’t he? He picked me up I hung off his neck my legs wrapped tightly around his waist.

  I kissed him my tongue darting in his mouth, stroking the sides of his mouth, he groaned and he gently lay me down on the bed. He was on top of me, would he? He smiled and slowly moved down the bed, he kissed me all the way down to my sex as I shuddered under him. He raised my knees, and parted my legs, so much more of me was exposed. He thumbed my sensitive spot and continued to play with me, his tongue slowly playing with my now wet and hot sex.

  I couldn’t hold back. Sam, feeling my nearness began sucking and making my orgasm more enjoyable. I shook as I came, my body languid and limp, he’d drained all the energy from my body and I seemed to pass out for the second time, but this time it was much more intense. The feelings prior were like nothing I’d felt before, the feelings shot throughout my whole body, they hit my brain and wow, nothing but a warm afterglow, but I could still hear Sam as he moaned, as he continued to taste me. Moving up my now sweaty body, he kissed me, tasting myself on his lips, I devoured his kisses. He kissed the nape of my neck.

  “Sam I want you in me please?” He just smiled. Damn, I’m going to die a virgin, if he has his way.

  “Shush we do the other stuff not the whole thing yet Mi cielo. Play with me please, my soldier needs those hands wrapped around him. Play with me Michelle he needs to feel your hands, then that mouth. I intend to fuck these too.” He bit my breasts, what the hell, how can he fuck my breasts? I did as asked. Watching me Sam smiled as my hand caressed his very hard and warm dick, with my hand, I moved gripped it tightly around the base, and began pumping him slowly, he writhed as I went tighter and worked the full length, he lay back as I pushed him into my mouth, and he made a deep groaning noise as he continued to watch, moving it in and out of my mouth.

  “Baby, your mouth is amazing, shit baby stop, please not yet.” I stopped but didn’t want to I was enjoying it. “Lie down please baby this is going to be so nice. I’m lead to believe we will enjoy this, then I want you to suck me dry Michelle with that naughty mouth, are you ready baby?” Just him telling me what he wanted had me so turned on. He kissed me and he placed his dick, between my breasts, he smiled as he pushed them together, his hard and hot length between them, he smiled as I watched what was he doing?

  Then all became apparent as he asked me to push my breast around his erection, I did as I was asked, watching him. Then he started moving up and down, it felt so amazing, he smiled biting his lip as the rhythm picked up, and he started to enjoy himself. It felt erotic, and extremely pleasurable just watching his face, he bit his lip and groaned deeply, sliding between them, he moved slightly, so the tip of his dick touched my mouth playing with and toying with me as my tongue lapped the top he’d murmur his delight as he continued to fuck my now sweaty and heaving mounds.

  “Michelle, yes that’s so nice.” I enjoyed watching him as he knelt, knees at my side moving rapidly and leaking his milk over me. He suddenly stopped, offering up his dick to my mouth. He smiled as I opened my mouth readily and sucked hard upon him, licking the end and then his hand, began cupping my sex, his finger played with the sensual nub pressing and probing with his fingers. I sucked harder as he played with me, pleasing me and bringing me to a fantastic end, I’m coming, but beating me to it he came in my mouth, the salty warmth filling it. He let out a groan, deep yet quiet.

  He leant down and kissed me, moving down to my still hard and now so sensitive nipples he sucked on them and then bit them.

  Me? I was having orgasm after orgasm shaking and whimpering, as he made me climax time after time, as he kissed my nipples his fingers continued their quest to make me come, this he did repeatedly, I’m coming and harder than ever before. Oh my boy I so wanted him, we were naked in my bed, it was then I wondered what had messed him up so much, that even bare assed and fully ready to fuck, he could stop himself? I pulled him down, on top of me, he could stop himself I had need of him that need needed to be met and soon, now would be perfect.

  “Shit Sam, please I need you.” Head in pillow writhing in ecstasy he continued, he was moving in quicker with his fingers my sensitive area was sore with him continuing to pleasure me, I was really close. I begged him to take me which he wouldn’t surrendering to him I came, my body shaking. He smiled, as I finished the never ending orgasm, I’m now exhausted and very sore. Damn, what is sex going to be like with him? I pray to God that it happens soon I can’t wait but shit this was awesome. I wanted more much, so much more.

  “Samuel Todd, you are amazing and though that was great it wasn’t what I wanted angel!”

  “That was great, I love you, not under this roof with the right hook in the next bedroom, and we are doing it, had I been in Blackpool you would be mine now.”

  “I’m already yours you idiot, and I have been for a while, I need that Sam!”

  “I need you too, can we get Mum out of hospital and book a room for the weekend and not do it in secret I will
tell your Dad?”

  “Umm, yes it’s a deal, can I listen whilst you ask him, and you may need medical help?”

  “Cheers Girlfriend! Get in here and let me sleep your sort of nice to sleep with!” He nuzzled the back of my neck and we fell asleep, happy and exhausted.

  Dad left early, the slam of the door woke me. Sam had me pinned to the bed, with one arm over me. His legs wrapped around me. He was asleep, yet he was ready for action, shit did it ever sleep? I moved him off me. Put on my dressing gown and roughed up Becky’s bed, unlocked the door and I went for a shower. I washed the sex from me, scrubbed my teeth and tongue. I dried myself and wrapped in the biggest fluffy towel, and went to wake sleeping beauty. Locked my door Sam was already awake when I got back.

  “Good morning you, last night was so fantastic Missy.” I jumped on my bed and kissed him. I was still smiling remembering having his, dick between my breasts who knew that, could that have been so much fun?

  “Umm it hit the spot, but not that spot Sam. Get a shower it’s nice and hot jump in, lock the door we wouldn’t want you surprising Mum.” I gave him a clean towel and looking for the smallest, I had unfortunately to settle for another massive one. He disappeared and I got dressed. Black jeans, tee shirt and a cream fluffy jumper and wedges plain and simple underwear. I’d all but finished, when he got back in. His body was dripping all over the floor and as the water dripped from his hair and onto his chest; I watched as the droplets raced down his body, I’m being turned on just watching a wet from the shower hunk. I jumped on the bed and watched him as he dried himself wow, all that was mine? He picked up his undies and it was like a reverse strip, he moved over to Becky’s bed.

  “Enjoying the view Missy?” He put on the shirt he had abandoned there last night.

  “Yes thank you, you do a quite nice floor show.” Finally putting his jeans on, with his socks and shoes in hand he opened the door.

  “Come on get that backside downstairs and make me coffee Missy.” I did as I was asked. Something I don’t usually do. Last night had been fantastic and I was putty in his hands. I got JJ ready and his bag as mum was still asleep typical as he was still tired, we were spared the moaning as I put him back in his pram. He could walk, but got tired and I wasn’t having Sam carry him around all day. Setting off armed with JJ’s bag full of stuff to keep him occupied and changed, Sam laughed at the shear amount of things he needed, and he had me tightly wrapped in his arm.

  We looked at each other and smiled as we set off on our jolly day out, stepping out into a surprisingly sunny day. Sam pushed JJ, who slept until we got to Stockton Train Station, he was cute and quiet as he slept, but getting there however was a whole different thing, he was very excited for his first ride on a train. Then for most of the train journey, he and Sam played and ran up and down the train. The lady opposite laughed and said my husband and son were very pleasant to watch. Umm, as in, he’s fit or that they were getting on so well? Wait… Husband and son… As I watched my husband and son at play, I think I had decided it was yes definitely a yes, but instead of someday it was now when. That was now the question running through my happy head.

  After the occasional kiss and cuddle, I wasn’t totally ignored, but then they were very nice to watch the pair of them. JJ sat drawing his works of art he’d then very proudly show them to a very attentive Sam. Me, I watched as they played, and as he did he would glance in my direction, he mouthed he loved me. He linked my fingers, kissing the fingers one by one. Shit, I need him and I’m so turned on by all his touches, watching him as he listened to JJ and his amazing tales I knew he’s be a perfect dad someday. Sam was now pushing a grumpy JJ through the train station; he was a very grumpy little boy, who didn’t now want to be in his pram. We’d arrived in sunny Blackpool…

  “Shush JJ, we are going to the funfair do you want to, or do you want to go to the zoo?

  “I want the zoo and the funny My-isshy, I do all please, and I wanna see a monkey, and feed a nelly, please Sam?”

  “It was your idea Sam, do we do the pleasure beach first or the zoo?” He just smiled.

  “Zoo, let’s show our little monkey, the monkeys is that what you want JJ?”

  “Yes Sam, you my friend too?” He chattered away to Sam and smiled.

  “Yes JJ, I’m your friend too.” I smiled Sam genuinely was enjoying himself. We jumped in a taxi to the zoo. JJ wanted out of his pram, so when we got in, he got out, hopefully a few hours here and he would be knackered. The pair of them ignored me, as we wandered around the exhibits. Disposable cameras purchased and snaps of Sam and JJ with various animals. A nice lady took a picture of us all together.

  “Your little boy is so cute he looks so like his Mum.” I looked at Sam and smiled. He just thanked her and held my waist, as JJ ran a mock in the petting zoo. He was trying to feed the animals, the donkey, the rabbits, then the goat, was treated to a fist full of kibble, but as it wanted more it went for JJ and poor JJ couldn’t get to the kibble quickly enough so, it ran off with the bag from his hand, that was after it drop tackled him to the floor, even the llama spat at him. Sam cleaned him up I was laughing too much because he wanted to spit back at it and failed miserably. He was even attacked by a rabbit; they were nothing like Blue, who he carried around all the time, no not this one, because it didn’t like JJ, he had a bad day in the petting zoo.

  “My Son looks like his Mother, there’s an interesting thought.” I just smiled he was having so much fun.

  “Whatever Sam, that’s not happening any time soon. Given your erm failure to deliver on the goods.” He just smiled.

  “Our Son needs feeding Mommy.” I threw him a look and he just smiled. Three hours in a zoo, monkey mask, stuffed tiger, farm animals and other toys bought we head back to the pleasure beach, so far I’ve not been able to pay for anything apart from a drink of tea. Much to Sam’s amusement, he is fantastic with JJ, and I’m definitely warming to the idea of telling him yes I would marry him.

  JJ is asleep for the short journey to the pleasure beach, but woke up as we pull up outside. Out of his pram again and running amuck with Sam, the clown in a glass case frightens the life out of him, as it suddenly starts laughing at him, he starts screaming at the laughing clown. Sam picked him up gave him a cuddle, and then ran off with him down the path, him now screaming but with laughter, because he was away from the bad clown. Leaving me laughing and giving me time to purchase the tickets for the attractions, I laugh as Sam realises.

  “Sneaky Mi cielo, that was so very sneaky, where are we going to first then?”

  “Well, as we can’t go on the big rides, he’s too small and this I have to capture on film, it’s you on the baby rides with JJ.” We went on Alice in Wonderland I sat alone in the back as Sam showed the things to JJ. I really was seeing him in a different way today. He laughed and held me tightly kissing me, JJ telling him to stop eating me. That made me laugh and got JJ another tickling. Plenty of photos taken, hot dogs and candy floss eaten and JJ loved it. The day at the funfair ended with us having afternoon tea in a cafe. Sam and I walked down the promenade, his arm wrapped around me pushing a sleeping JJ. I had plenty of kisses.

  “What Sam? They will lock you up for grinning like a fool.”

  “I just keep remembering last night it was really good please will you marry me Michelle? I want that every night, but to have it in our own home, I want to make love to you with you and with noise, not muffling our joy in pillows. I want to be able to call your name when we play. I want to hear you when I drive you to the edge. I want to scream your name, when you rock my world Mi cielo. When we make love and when we have sex, I want all the passion and noise that goes with it, your noise. Last night would have been better if I’d been able to shout your name aloud you made me so happy.” The very thought of all that is making me hornie as hell, we need to talk first, my heart says yes with wedding bells already chiming, my head says we need to talk about stuff first.

  “Sam I love that you keep asking, but no I’m
not old enough and we haven’t had a row, we haven’t even discussed if this happens how we can afford for it to happen, so no not yet we have got many talks ahead of us first. I’m not saying no. Just not yet, just give me more time angel please?” He smiled. More thought needed, I was only eighteen and everything was so expensive, plus I was going in the navy, or was I? I didn’t know anything of Sam’s finances, other than he liked spending bloody money. Apprentices don’t get paid that well, I know I was offered one. We needed to talk of the practicalities, yes that was it, talk things through before jumping feet first in, but hell, I loved the idea of being Mrs Todd.

  “One day you’re going to make me so happy and say yes.” I laughed, ten out of ten for persistence. “Tower next, if you want Missy?” JJ was waking up.

  “Okay, lead the way Sam.” I pushed the pram, reaching the observation deck. I clung on to him for dear life he looks worried too. I looked at the houses they were so small and stretching the whole length of the coast, the piers looked so small, and the people looked like ants. The sea stretched for miles, the wind up at the top was cold and breezy, I started to shake fear, or cold I couldn’t tell? He took off his jacket and wrapped me in it. JJ hated it too, though he was strapped into his pram. Sam tucked his blanket around him, tightly.

  “Come on let’s get you inside little fella your freezing, so is Missy.” I was relieved when we got in the lift down, as I’m not a lover of heights. We passed the ballroom, it was warm and inviting, and Sam gave me that look, he knew the question was coming, before I asked it.

  “Can we look in please?” I gave him his jacket back and he opened the door.

  “This way baby, let’s get you your fix. It was a little chilly up there.” I’d been here with Grams loads of times because she liked to show off my dancing when her oldest friend came, to stop with us.

  “Would you like a drink?” I nodded, he removed his jacket and he went for drinks, coming back with our goodies, he smiled at me and lent in for a kiss, JJ taking his crisps and saying thank-you, he had a head kiss.