A Life Plan Without You.

by Christine Wood

  “What’s the other girl look like?” I laughed.

  “She’s over there, an old friend of yours apparently who seemed to think Sam was taking her to London and was asking for her hand in marriage deluded cow. Hitting me in the lip, when I wasn’t looking, she was mad at me for trying to steal him away from her.” She looked at me turned and walked out of the pub, so they didn’t keep her in?

  “Thanks for the drink.” Sam had hold of my knee he had been really quiet I think he thought, if he said something, I’d be off, I sipped the drink and decided to stick to coke, Sam didn’t have as tight a grip on my leg as he did before.

  “She wasn’t ever the full shilling I did warn Sam she was a nutter, but he didn’t do anything but talk about you all night. My brother the soppy little idiot, and no I never slept with her ever, she erm does drugs and isn’t clean, sad but true. She liked me and came on to me, before I met Zoë, but her health check didn’t come back clean, she has mental health issues and likes the white powder.”

  “Isn’t he just, and he’s my soppy idiot, not hers or anyone else’s. She was taken to the hospital in an ambulance and still they let her out. I swear the next woman, girl, or freak who cause shit for Sam and me will bloody know about it I have had enough, he’s changed and if people believe he hasn’t tough, they barking up the bloody tree.” Including your Zoë… He smiled and rubbed my thigh higher. Leant in for a kiss and murmured that he would always be mine.

  CHAPTER 9

  “Are we eating then, baby, and where do you want to eat?” I nodded and agreed the other two could come. We went to the little Italian place around the corner I went to the loo my head ached. I sat on the toilet humming a song. I didn’t want to hear any more talks about my fella tonight. I wasn’t in the mood to play nice if I did. I sat back at the table the waiter asked about drinks. Zoe made a dash to the toilet, I’m thinking she’s about to hurl? I ordered without thinking, and Sam smiled as I did.

  “Acqua frizzante prego, con ghiaccio e limone, grazie signore? Oh sorry I’m having fizzy water, Sam.” Zoë returned to the table. His hand was on my knee. I put my hand over it and it wasn’t Sam’s hand. I pinched it so hard Andy had tears in his eyes and pulled it away, I drank my water and poured another, I was never drinking again Andy had just made a pass at me, or was I wrong? ‘Don’t be on your own with him.’ That was what Sam meant he didn’t trust his brother with me?

  “What did you order angel?” He smiled as I ran my fingers through his hair and kissed him.

  “I’ve ordered us a pizza to share if that’s all right?” I smiled I loved the way he’s smiled at me. Did I really think we were over because of the drunken lush in front of me and lipstick wants on a loo door? I need to calm down though and quickly, before he does leave me because of my childish rants.

  “Bueno, Sam.” His hand was on my knee, quick check Andy’s are on the table. I put my hand on his thigh and stroke his leg. She’s in a bloody tizzy.

  “I speak Italian, should I speak in French, Spanish, or Russian just to really piss you off Zoë, get over it!” She scowled

  “You speak foreign languages too?” Zoë moaned again.

  “Yes, we had Italian neighbour’s for years, Aunty Liz bought their house when they divorced, after her Dad had one too many affairs. Living next to them, I picked it up playing with my friend, Gina their daughter. Her Mum and Dad argued a lot, so she and I spent a lot of time with in my garage listening to music, with my fluffy friends. She was a fantastic teacher, they would argue and she would translate, and I picked it up quickly. They argued a lot and swore a lot, I have a few choice swear words I picked up, and I like to use them as insults too and do a lot, chances are if I’m in a bad mood there’s an Italian swear word in there somewhere.

  Her Dad was a bit of a gigolo, he had mistresses and her Mum was so funny her favourite rant at him was ‘Tieni le Mani a posto o mi graffiare i vostri occhi.’ which meant. 'Keep your hands to yourself or I scratch out your eyes.’ She said that a lot, because his eyes wandered as much as his hands.” I looked straight at Andy. The food came as I was quoting the line at Andy, the waiter spoke in Italian and I answered him back, we laughed, as he spoke about the sulky miss at my side.

  Sam was smiling, as I chatted, it was brilliant Zoë drank her drink and scowled. Our pizza came and looked colourful and smelled fantastic. I didn’t eat a great deal of it, but what I did eat I liked. Sam battled with the stringy cheese, his tongue grasping at the loose strands, such a bloody turn on. Hells teeth, I'm being turned on as he battled with the stringy cheese.

  “Mozzarellas such a pain to eat, it stretches. You have a bit there I wiped it from his mouth and kissed him. His kisses back were so nice.

  “Hearing you speak Italian was so hot Mi cielo, you’re going to have to speak to me again and well describe what we do in Italian. One of the lads was listening to me talk to Dave about you, and I said your eyes were bluer than the sky. He being Italian told me my sky was just that Mi cielo. I thought it sounded like Michelle.” Argh, why be embarrassed, I thought it was sweet, so sweet.

  “Fare l'amore con me e presto, o Dio vi aiuti. Would you do this, if I tell you what I’d just said, or do I have to buy you a translation book and wait for you to learn the language of love Sam?”

  “Baby whatever you said yes, I will do anything, you sound so sexy when you speak to me in Italian.” I laughed.

  “Sam I want you to make love to me, and soon or God help you. I'll take it in my very capable hands, if you don’t. Well Sam, will you? Give me what I want?”

  “Seems I promised, baby, we will I promise, soon really soon.” He finished the rest. I excused myself and went to the toilet, too much to drink and the tablets. When I came out Andy was waiting.

  “Sorry about the knee thing, I don’t know what made me do it please I won’t do anything like it again, I promise.” I frowned.

  “Stupido bastardo Andy, I’m thinking even you know what that is without me telling you. Stop the inappropriate comments too. I love Sam really love him Andy, and today your girl, because of you, caused a massive row between us. Next time I won’t walk away, I will smack the stupid out of her.” He smiled what did he like that idea? He promised he would, as we walked back to the table. Andy paid for the meal and the drinks, much to Sam’s amazement, but I knew he’d only paid, because he felt guilty.

  “In here Andy.” Zoë was dragging him into the Stockton Arms. Oh, déjà vu, Sam held me close.

  “Jenny’s in with the girls from last night.” She was coming over.

  “Did she do this to you Michelle?” I smiled. She looked concerned.

  “No, she didn’t you couldn’t see what she did this I got from being head butted into concrete steps by a raving loony dog. Thanks for worrying though Jenny.” She gave me a hug.

  “See’s ya later cuz, she knows, were related and not to touch, she’s been told you’d kill her so she’s giving you a wide berth bye.” Off she flounced, and Sam relaxed his grip on me a little.

  “You make the strangest of friends Michelle and it’s nice that she thinks of you as a cousin.” I looked at him.

  “You’re the strangest one yet.” He full on kissed me right in the middle of the pub.” I like my strangest friend’s kisses, they are very nice.” He gave me the drink Andy had bought.

  “Sip this one. Please.” I smiled and sipped.

  “It’s just coke Sam I'm keeping sober for possible sex, but hell don't think my fella has got over his commitment issues just yet, he needs to hurry though or I will be jumping his bones whilst he sleeps?” He had me wrapped in his arms.

  “We will soon, I do want to, really want to, but when I give my word I stick to it, shit the things we do now are enough, until the weekend when everything will be all right, jumping my bones? Are you trying to top smut school Missy?” I knew he was right, but boy I wanted him regardless. He was kissing the back of my neck when Mandy and Paul came in.

  “Slumming, it then? I thought you
were going to Manchester?” I smiled at her.

  “We decided, or rather I decided to leave that until next week, I’ve booked a room in the Midland for the weekend, perhaps do some shopping, the whole meals out, dancing and hotel room service as well as other stuff.” Sam kissed the back of my neck harder.

  “I can’t get over you shouting at Mum she was furious, I pissed myself, she’s had it coming forever. What did she say to cause the Missy-fit to explode this time then?” I laughed.

  “She asked what we’d been doing in my room, she pushed the wrong button, and I flipped, sorry I know she’s your mum but erg, she pisses me off her and my lapdog Mother. Anyhow she would have only had a heart attack if I told her.” She laughed and walked off with Paul.

  “Missy-fit is what? Midland it is then next weekend.” I blushed.

  “Missy-fit you’ve actually witnessed a few. It’s what Mandy calls them and has done since she was on the receiving end of a few. Mainly after I'd had a run in with her Mum, funny old thing.” I turned and kissed him. “The weekend it’s all right for you, really are you sure?”

  “I don’t think either of us can go much longer. I know I want to take you home and do the deed now, but this way we won’t be worrying who's coming through the door or listening on the other side. Yes I think your Mum listens too, and it's a pretty nice place for your first time.” Oh, I thought he hadn't heard the creaks and the steps, as we’d made out. Paul was hovering around he was watching and listening. He gave me the creeps he always seemed to be hanging around.

  “Can we go please I need some fresh air?” I kissed him a full on snog, with tongues teeth and sore lips.

  “We’re off to the Odd Fellows before we go into Heaven. Are you two coming then?” I nodded and we followed behind Andy and Zoë she wasn’t actually drinking much. I held tightly to him he had his arm over my shoulder, playing with the curls which had fallen out of my up do, then it started to rain so I ran into the pub.

  I shook my hair loose, from the pins and it fell into long loose curls again. So I needed to sort it and freshen up I made a quick trip to the loo. Then two very drunk and loud girls came in, as I sat humming. They were drunk by the sound of them and they were both in the next stall. A girl’s voice saying Sam has just come in catches me off guard. Shit, please not in here too, not tonight, please I will kill some fucker tonight I swear? Was my man a really bad boy before he met me? So help me, I'm not ready for this tonight and so not in the mood to take more of Sam’s ex crap tonight.

  He did say he’d slept with a few girls in his past, how many is a few? Was he still being a bad boy? No, there was no opportunity did he not explain that Michelle? I sat and listened again, girls always feel the need to talk in toilets I find, I also learn if I listen. What would I learn tonight and would I like it? They stumbled out of the toilet and were re applying their make-up, it fell into the sink as I sat and listened to the very pissed ramblings, of a pair of drunken tarts, that was the wrong word for them, from their speech so far I would say they were prostitutes.

  “Sam’s in girl, what you going to do?”

  “Nothing I’m finally happy with Simon, so revisiting any of the Todd’s isn’t something I ever want to do again.”

  “His new girl is his world according to Zoë quite young and has him hooked in her net and she gets stuff off him all the time. Expensive stuff too he takes her out treats her like a princess and boy is she jealous.”

  “Is she? I can’t be arsed, I could get him back at the snap of a finger. Ha, I might even try just to get a rise out of him, just for the laugh. The girlfriend won’t be a problem, because he still loves me and Zoë? She was always in lust with Sammy boy, she never stood a chance, and he won’t go with the same woman as his brother.

  He’s nothing like Andy more’s the pity because if he was I’d have stopped with him, but sodding hell his limp dick fucks were nothing to write home about.” I wanted to cry walk out now and deal with her but no she’s still talking. “Best thing I did seeing was both of them, Sam had no idea, and neither did Andy. Sam paid for the things I needed and Simon well he got the full effects. He got me anything I needed, the lingerie was expensive and damn nice, the perfume, the treats, he was so eager to please, especially after that awful first time thing.” She was laughing at his first time?

  “Go spill, he’s so hunky looking I can’t believe he’s not good in bed, not after the girls who hang around him, wanting the legendary market shag, apparently he’s got better, if all the practice he’s had is anything to go by. I know a few that wouldn’t mind a second portion, he doesn’t do it twice.”

  “Nah he got it in and wham-bam-thank-you-Sam was born, my nick-name for him and it has stuck all these years later. Pity it couldn’t have lasted longer, he’s oh, blessed in the actual size department. After that, he wasn’t too keen and was actually going to call it off, but I managed to teach him a few tricks, there was no way was he fucking up my plans. After that, he was so grateful and oh-so in love with me. He bought me whatever I wanted. It took him long enough to cotton on he was being used or that night classes was code for party time at Andy’s house. Did he really think twice a week was a relationship? No, he was just so desperate for love and to be loved poor sad Sam, he’s a right Mummy’s Boy too.”

  Oh poor Sam. I loved my baby even more, but her she’s going down and faster than the Titanic.

  “I conned him into thinking he was loved, he’s such a fucking easy mark, he told me every time he saw me he was falling in love with me deeper and deeper, love is for fools. I have needs that have fuck all to do with love and limp dicked revenge fucking isn’t love, what we did was business and I cringed after each and every encounter.”

  “How did he find out about you and Simon you never said?” She was laughing, and snorting like a pig.

  “He was so upset that night he actually caught me in bed with Simon. He shouldn’t have sneaked in the house it was his own fault, he found a key and let himself into his own brothers house. He was just a little stunned to say the least. I think it may have been me in my bondage gear or that I was with Simon, who was naked and on the bed? On the other hand, possibly could have been what we were doing to each other? Well, we were doing the old sixty-niner, the thing he always wanted to try on me. That may have caused him to run and bloody hell did he run. Well, eventually and crying like a baby too.

  I just pulled Simons dick out of my mouth, he'd stood and watched as I milked Simon and well bitchy I know, but I smiled up at Sam and put him back in, giving him a show he was mortified and as I taunted him fucking groaning and gagging on Simons whole dick down my throat. I like a bit of deep throat, nothing better Andy likes it too. Well he was stunned and glued to the spot.

  As Simon pulled out his tongue out of my fanny and the dildo from my bum, he had me all over his face. Asking me did I require more from my devoted slave, I told him I did, and loved the last three orgasmic crashes I‘d already had his Mistress was being greedy. I told him they were adequate, but to go deeper. He said I was going to have the best fisting ever. Well, he had on a blindfold, so he didn’t see Sam stood there, and he happened to mention he thought it was time to put the dumping Sam plan in action and get a new client, who actually paid for the sex.

  Sam needed to pay for his quickies and not just in underwear, cuddly toys, chocolates and perfume. We needed actual cash for our weekend on the sex farm. He wanted to see me riding a proper man not just watch as Sam got his dick in and out for two minutes. He does like watching me ride the others, he said watching Sam was really a waste of my talents, but it was good to see a comedy routine once in a while. He always watched from the room Andy had built for the voyeurism clientele we had at the club, his friends liked it too, they had a laugh or two. Something he may have mentioned, he still didn’t know Sam was there.

  I made Simon watch at first to see what I expected of him, he needed to learn how to please me he loved it watching Andy and me fuck. He couldn’t hold back especially
when Andy did me and I made him join in, two fucking studs in me at the same time wow, Andy likes the thrill of the double ride too, Princess Zoë? Well she doesn’t do two at a time, that’s so not her thing.

  She's into those awful rope tricks Andy likes, she’s good at the hanging thing, so not my thing. He can get a little too rough, even with safe words. She has to be pissed to do the dark stuff he does to her when she’s hanging up there. It may have been fun to do the brothers Todd, at the same time. Sam could learn from Andy.”

  She was horrid and not likeable at all. I may just have to go out and kick the crap out of her. No, she’d better keep her mitts off my man. She was speaking again, bitch-troll-ho, my blood was boiling, Zoë too is back on my have to smack list.

  “He stood there like a fool for what seemed like forever. I nearly asked him did he want to watch and learn. Sam heard Simon tell me my come was like nectar well I have been told I am a goddess, a sex goddess and off he ran as I said crying like a baby. I had just had an offer of running my own place too. I was actually thinking of calling it quits soon anyway. I’d had as much of his limp dick as I could take his constant need for reassurances. Then him having to ask what to do all the time, and asking me for the more personal things. If he’d had anything about him he would have just not asked and done it, but he never did.

  Besides, I didn’t want to be that acquainted with Sam, that’s not something I give for free; it was bad enough I had to have sex with him, straight sex missionary, nothing else. It kept him happy though for the ten minutes, twice a week. I never came once when I was with him, he was bloody useless. He kissed me as if he was sucking lemons. Shit I needed to have Simon, after he had gone to get my fill, he was better at it when I’d finished with him, just. Shit he was like a puppy forever having to show him what to do, again and again.”

  Vaffanculo, her friend was now laughing too. My baby was being ripped to pieces by her.

  “Sometimes you need someone who knows what they are doing, I got fed up. I met Simon, who was just supposed to be a one-night stand when Sam was with his Mum in hospital again. Unfortunately, on his day for a session. I went to the club and picked Simon up. Well we have lasted over two and a half years. I have him perfectly trained to please me, oh, and he is so perfect, he can last for hours he takes the pain I dish out. Sam I smacked his arse once, he came as soon as he did. Can you imagine him taking a flogging?”