Diana in Search of Herself
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18 “she must try to be less emotional”: DT, 8/29/98
19 “She was a very strong character”: Interview with Ruth Rudge
20 “I didn’t think you had it”: B-AM1, p. 27
21 “I would have been involved”: Interview with Ruth Rudge
22 “buoyant and noisy”: B-AM1, p. 87
23 “I was always looking for”: Ibid., p. 28
24 “The compassion and caring”: Ruth Rudge, West Heath Magazine, p. 26
25 “for anyone who has done things”: Interview with Ruth Rudge
26 “She had a very caring heart”: Interview with Violet Allen
27 “Mostly it was a traumatic time”: Ibid.
28 “Most of the girls from”: Ibid.
29 “was always very controlled”: B-PJ1, p. 65
30 “A terrible terrible wrench”: B-AM1, p. 28
31 “a difficult phase”: Ti, 10/17/98
32 “a chilling time warp”: Spencer, p. 2
33 “never grew to be fond”: B-PJ1, p. 82
34 a controversial image: Ibid.
35 one of her cousins: SuMi, 5/18/80
36 “When I met Johnnie”: DEx, 11/30/81
37 By the time Johnnie brought Raine: B-AM1, pp. 91–92; B-PJ1, p. 82
38 “In the beginning I was very”: Interview with Robert Spencer
39 “used to … pour us”: B-AM1, p. 28
40 Diana enlisted a friend: B-AM1, p. 92
41 Diana’s mistrust of Raine hardened: ST, 10/17/98
42 “resented”: DEx, 11/30/81
43 “intense love affair”: WO, 4/8/78; B-AM1, pp. 90, 96
44 “domestic upheavals concerning my family…. bring it up again”: WO,4/8/78
45 “I sought a lot of medical help”: I-FSK
46 “like something out of.… I wouldn’t admit it”: WO, 4/8/78
47 Sarah later acknowledged: Ibid.
48 “Bulimia” comes from the Greek: Handbook of Treatment for Eating Disorders, second edition (1997), edited by David M. Garner, Ph.D., and Paul E. Garfinkel, M.D., p. 13
49 Although bulimia nervosa was not: Ibid., p. 11
50 “inappropriate compensatory behaviors”: Ibid., p. 25
51 “It started because Sarah”: Mi, 5/8/97
52 “I don’t think I have”: I-FSK
53 “She was often seen lurking”: Ruth Rudge, West Heath Magazine, p. 26
54 “midnight feasts”: ITV-Doc
55 “loved food”: B-PJ1, p. 72
56 “I ate and ate”: B-AM1, p. 27
57 She recalled sneaking: Ibid., p. 27
58 As the movers were packing up: B-PJ1, p. 81
59 From a very early age: Ibid., p. 50
60 “was always washing or tidying”: Interview with Robert Spencer
61 “I would go in sometimes”: Interview with Violet Allen
62 “Diana had strong”: Interview with Kent Ravenscroft
63 “just came out of the pen”: B-AM1, p. 88
64 “always released tremendous”: Ibid., p. 28
65 “I didn’t allow best friends”: Interview with Ruth Rudge
66 On one hand, she recalled liking: B-AM1, p. 28
67 but she was easily distracted: Ibid., p. 26
68 wrote a lot: Interview with Ruth Rudge
69 “Any child from a broken home”: Ibid.
70 “At the age of fourteen”: B-AM1, p. 24
71 she “froze”: Ibid., p. 88
72 “exams made her panic”: B-PJ1, p. 71
73 “I never remember walking”: Interview with Ruth Rudge
74 “something special”: B-PT, p. 31
75 “winding road”: B-AM1, p. 68
76 “going somewhere different”: Ibid., p. 24
77 to marry a prominent man: Ibid.
78 “it was well known”: B-RK, p. 44
79 “according to Diana”: B-PT, p. 32
80 “never had her marked down”: WO, 4/9/88
81 “something like one hundred twenty letters”: B-AM1, p. 30
82 Violet Allen couldn’t help: Interview with Violet Allen
83 “If Diana was in a safe and secure environment”: Interview with Ruth Rudge
CHAPTER 5
1 couldn’t wait to go to London: B-AM1, p. 30
2 “By the late seventies”: Interview with Robert Spencer
3 But Diana felt overwhelmed: B-PJ1, p. 99
4 “all the tendons”: B-AM1, p. 102
5 injuring her leg “slightly”: B-PJ1, p. 100
6 “She did not hang about”: Interview with Robert Spencer
7 “velvet hairbands”: B-AM1, p. 31
8 “When it came to children, [Diana] had”: ITV-Doc
9 “Diana was pure state-of-the-art”: Newsweek, 10/26/85
10 “the new school of born-again”: VF, 10/85
11 “loner by inclination and habit”: B-AM1, p. 99
12 “I kept myself to myself”: Ibid., p. 31
13 “You always felt that”: Ibid., p. 105
14 “Diana didn’t enjoy parties”: B-PJ1, p. 106
15 “sexually attractive”: B-AM1, p. 105
16 “Lady Diana’s life in London”: DT, 9/1/97; interviews with William Deedes, George Plumptre
17 Diana explained that she: B-AM1, p. 28
18 “I had never had a boyfriend”: Ibid., pp. 33–34
19 “tuck into a good-sized”: B-PJ1, p. 99
20 “got terribly fat”: B-AM1, p. 31
21 Her friend Rory Scott vividly remembered: Ibid., p. 127
22 “Do you have anorexia? … just common sense”: WO, 4/8/78
23 “Bulimia ranges from fad”: Interview with Kent Ravenscroft
24 “touching side to this friendship”: DEx, 7/18/77
25 “He makes me laugh”: Sun, 11/8/77
26 “I never thought there was”: B-SB, p. 182
27 “His closest friends began to”: B-JD, p. 315
28 “When she was twelve”: Time, 9/8/97
29 “After the investiture”: Interview with Ruth Rudge
30 “His first impression”: B-JD, p. 337
31 “The first impact was ‘God, what a sad man.’… He was charm itself”: B-AM1, p.31
32 “were seen walking around the corridors”: DEx, 1/17/78
33 several weekends later: DM, 2/2/78
34 “show [her] grandchildren one day”: Interview with James Whitaker
35 “a romantic who falls in love”: Sun, 2/18/78
36 “I’m not in love with Prince Charles”: DM, 2/18/78
37 “This is the first time”: DM, 2/18/78
38 “What a girl!”: NOTW, 2/19/78
39 one of his six pseudonyms: B-DK, p. 88
40 “panicky perspiring figure”: DEx, (“William Hickey” column, written by Peter McKay), 4/5/78
41 “thousands of boyfriends”: WO, 4/8/78
42 “You’ve just done something”: Interview with James Whitaker
43 “by foul means”: DM, 4/4/78
44 “My sister Sarah spoke to the press”: B-MR, p. 40
45 “I know who you are”: Interview with James Whitaker
CHAPTER 6
1 “He was a complete bachelor”: Interview with Michael Colborne
2 “I’ve fallen in love with”: B-DK, p. 213
3 By pushing himself to the limit: B-JD, p. 184
4 As a young boy: Biographical material on Prince Charles was drawn primarily from The Prince of Wales, the authorized biography by Jonathan Dimbleby, which is the most reliable source.
5 “deep if inarticulate love”: B-JD, p. 59
6 “she was not indifferent”: Ibid.
7 “the most intimate of the Prince’s”: Ibid., p. 19
8 “I simply dread going to bed”: Ibid., p. 76 (PC letter 2/9/63 to unnamed recipient)
9 “I’m not a gregarious person”: Ibid., p. 44
10 “sensitive musician”: Ibid., p. 88
11 “surrogate elder brother”: Ibid., p. 10
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12 “to find himself”: Ibid., p. 107
13 “sow his wild oats”: Ibid., p. 220
14 “just the girl”: Ibid.
15 “with a searching look”: PE, “Grovel” column, 7/3/81
16 “dashed [emphatically] accurate”: Interview with Nigel Dempster
17 “With all the intensity of first love”: B-JD, p. 221
18 “live inside [her] trousers”: SuMi, 1/17/93
19 Parker Bowles was a ladies’ man: B-PJ2, pp. 47–49
20 By mid-1972 Charles and Camilla had struck: B-JD, p. 232 (PC letter 4/27/73 to unnamed recipient)
21 In Camilla’s company, Charles became: Ibid., p. 222
22 “the last time I shall see her”: Ibid. (PC letter 12/72 to Mountbatten)
23 “such a blissful, peaceful”: Ibid., p. 232 (PC letter 4/27/73 to unnamed recipient)
24 “I must say, Amanda really”: Ibid., p. 230 (PC letter 4/25/73 to Mountbatten)
25 “Perhaps being away”: Ibid., pp. 248–49 (PC letter 3/74 to Mountbatten)
26 “Our editor said … ‘We want”: R&R-Doc, Part I, p. 21
27 “You’ve got to remember”: BBC/ITV interview with Brian Connell,6/26/69
28 “His bride needed to have”: Harper’s & Queen, 4/90
29 “choose a suitable”: B-JD, p. 248 (Mountbatten letter 2/74 to PC)
30 “A woman not only marries a man”: The Observer, 6/9/74
31 “My marriage has to be forever”: ES, 1/7/75
32 “a secure family unit”: WO, 2/75
33 “You must get married at once”: Colin Clark, Younger Brother, Younger Son: A Memoir (1997), p. 154
34 “beginning on the downward slope”: B-JD, p. 316 (Mountbatten letter undated, 1978, to PC)
35 “I must say I am becoming”: Ibid., pp. 317–18 (PC letter 4/15/79 to unnamed recipient)
36 Clearly he admired and respected her: Ibid., p. 249
37 She grasped all too well: Ibid., p. 322
38 Charles had recently renewed: B-JD, p. 335; B-RK, p. 91; B-PJ2, pp.48–49
39 “warmth, her lack of ambition”: B-JD, p. 335
40 when Andrew left that year: DM, 1/14/93; PE, 1/4/80
41 “began to suppose that they”: B-JD, p. 335
42 Yet the Queen, in her customary: DT, 10/20/98
43 “The surgeons didn’t want to operate”: WO, 4/9/88
44 “I was the first person”: Ibid.
45 They felt that Raine kept them: B-AM1, p. 29
46 Detecting signals that Diana hadn’t “twigged … amazing place”: Ibid., p. 32
47 “that weekend was the beginning”: B-PJ1, p. 97
48 “They were shooting pheasants”: Interview with James Whitaker
49 “Charles probably didn’t see”: B-PJ1, p. 97
50 “Charles found himself strangely”: Ibid., pp. 113–14
51 “quite a lot”: Ibid.
52 “He would ring up Cadogan”: Ibid., p. 97
53 “no one ever took much notice”: Ibid., p. 103
54 “She could have been amongst”: Interview with Michael Colborne
55 “disorganized about arrangements”: B-SB, p. 111
56 After her customary visit: B-PJ1, pp. 101, 116
57 “I have lost someone infinitely special”: B-JD, p. 324
58 The daughter of a millionaire: B-PJ1, p. 117
59 “caviar queen”: Sunday Times Magazine, 12/22/85
60 “Whiplash Wallace”: Mi, 8/22/80
61 “There is a risqué picture”: DM, 6/10/80
62 “enormously attracted”: B-SB, p. 171
63 In February 1980, she traveled: B-PJ1, p. 117
64 “Can you see me swanning”: B-AM1, p. 105
65 “perfect English skin”: B-MR, p. 15
66 “casual encounters”: B-JD, p. 337
67 “began to think seriously”: Ibid., p. 338
68 “You’re a young blood”: B-AM1, p. 32
69 tabloid veteran James Whitaker: Interview with James Whitaker
70 “He was all over me”: B-AM1, p. 32
71 “how she had sensed his loneliness”: B-JD, p. 337
72 “It was to Lady Susan”: B-SB, p. 184
73 “he had met the girl he intended to marry”: B-JD, p. 337
74 “as soft, cheerful and bouncy”: B-PJ1, p. 119
75 “the impression to the Prince’s family”: B-JD, p. 338
76 “The summer of 1980 was all”: Interview with Robert Spencer
77 She was disconcerted by his older friends: B-AM1, p. 32
78 “Lady Diana’s presence struck me”: B-SB, pp. 189–90
79 “I was terrified—shitting bricks”: B-AM1, p. 32
80 “all right once I got in”: Ibid., p. 33
81 “She was a sort of wonderful”: B-JD, p. 339
82 “always buying him little presents”: B-SB, p. 194
83 “instinctive understanding”: Ibid., p. 232
84 “confided to one of his friends”: B-JD, p. 339
85 “the virgin, the sacrificial”: B-AM1, p. 38
86 “the sacrificial virgin bride”: ST, 9/23/90
87 “not a position”: The Madness of George III, Alan Bennett (1991)
88 “a man as good and honest”: TNY, 9/15/97
89 “He often used to say”: DM, 10/20/98
90 “resented it terribly”: Interview with Elsa Bowker
91 “I don’t even dare”: B-MR, p. 40
92 Just weeks before: DEx, 2/7/80; DM, 4/2/80
93 “I had so many dreams”: B-AM2, p. 155
94 she felt secure for the first time: B-PJ1, p. 134
95 “never dominated”: B-SB, p. 177
96 “with great cunning”: B-PJ2, p. 58
97 “oiling up, basically”: B-AM1, p. 40
98 “When you fall in love”: Interview with Michael Colborne
99 “[she] realized [she] had taken on”: B-AM1, p. 42
100 “based on her romantic image”: B-MR, p. 42
101 “Oh! This is the life”: B-JD, p. 338
CHAPTER 7
1 “a perfect English rose”: Sun, 9/8/80
2 “ ‘What a cunning lady’ ”: DS, 6/29/81
3 “They exaggerated it”: Interview with James Whitaker
4 “there was certainly no obvious”: B-SB, p. 191
5 “Because we had a foreign”: Interview with Andrew Neil
6 The most important beneficiary: S. J. Taylor, Shock! Horror! The Tabloids in Action (1992), pp. 217, 343
7 “Kelvin is a natural”: Interview with Andrew Neil
8 “Kelvin would adopt at a”: R&R-Doc, Part II, p. 7
9 “I understand all your problems”: SuMi, 9/21/80
10 “had a way … of taking scalps”: Taylor, p. 152
11 “fitted perfectly”: B-JW, p. 150
12 “James and Harry … were like”: Interview with Andrew Morton
13 “People talk about me as if”: You, 8/22/93
14 After graduating: Ibid.; Interview with James Whitaker
15 “master of trivia”: B-DK, p. 88
16 “absolutely scarlet”: Interview with James Whitaker
17 “His face was beet-red”: Interview with Peter McKay
18 “Whitaker both proclaimed”: Ibid.
19 “I know binoculars are”: Interview with James Whitaker
20 “several intimate chats”: B-JW, pp. 155, 160
21 “resemblance to a London”: B-DK, p. 61
22 Andrew Morton grew up: Interview with Andrew Morton
23 “Her blue eyes gaze straight”: DS, 6/30/83
24 “to think they were friends”: ES, 10/9/93
25 “If they do a feature”: Independent on Sunday, 9/17/95
26 “the Pompadoured Poltroon.… The Tonsured Traducer”: ES, 12/3/91
27 “old established”: The Independent, 3/2/96
28 “[They] knew no one”: Interview with Nigel Dempster
29 “new choice of girlfri
end”: DM, 9/18/80
30 “back in each other’s”: DS, 11/5/80
31 “romantic underwear expert”: Mi, 1/19/81
32 “If I go to a restaurant”: DM, 11/24/80
33 “very depressed”: B-SB, p. 197
34 “safe house”: Ibid., p. 178
35 “encouraged the romance”: Ibid., p. 185
36 “It’s almost as if the Parker Bowleses”: DS, 11/12/80
37 “from the moment of [Charles’s] engagement”: B-JD, pp. 346–47
38 had stopped when Charles started: B-PJ2, p. 71
39 “The pressures on the prince”: B-JD, p. 339
40 “She was most certainly in love”: B-SB, p. 197
41 Barry sensed her disappointment: Ibid., p. 192
42 Somewhat primly, she was: B-AM1, p. 39
43 “quietly captivating”: Mi, 11/19/80
44 “rely on instinct”: DS, 11/13/80
45 “reputation as a demon driver”: DS, 11/11/80
46 “an 80-mph car caper”: Time, 2/28/83
47 “erratic driving record”: DS, 11/13/80
48 “the friendship which Charles and Diana”: Sun, 11/10/80
49 “has been groomed”: Ibid.
50 “choice of bride”: ST, 9/23/90
51 the two women chipped: B-JD, p. 340
52 “Both grandmothers know”: ES, 11/13/80
53 “If I’d said to [Charles]”: B-JD, p. 340
54 “sense of humor” and “lifestyle” were “different”: B-AM1, p. 36
55 “never sent flowers”: B-JW, p. 153
56 the delivery of two dozen: DM, 11/24/80
57 “I often felt sorry for her”: DS, 6/30/81
58 Yet Charles’s valet: B-SB, p. 192
59 “dawn dash”: Ibid., p. 199
60 “a bit of a nuisance”: DS, 11/12/80
61 Judy Wade of The Sun: Sun, 1/5/81
62 “or the whole country would”: Interview with James Whitaker
63 “The time has come when Prince Charles”: DS, 10/10/80
64 “remarkably cool and mature”: Mi, 11/19/80
65 “put on the most”: B-AM1, p. 61
66 “unbearable … I cried like a baby”: B-AM1, p. 35
67 “I’m not so much bored”: DM, 11/24/80
68 “everything she [could] lay her hands”: B-SB, p. 110
69 “It seems that … Lady Diana”: Mi, 1/19/81
70 In December 1980: DM, 12/3/80
71 She remembered that he seemed only: B-AM1, p. 35
72 “more concerned”: B-SB, p. 191
73 “sensationalism”: B-DK, p. 50
74 “I should like to take this”: B-PJ1, p. 131