MAGNETIC REVERIE
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Greg drove me to the airport. I couldn’t help but notice the sorrow in his eyes. When I asked, he said he was still worried about my health and that he would miss me. But maybe he could feel that the reason for my trip had a deeper meaning. I never lied to him, but this time I couldn’t tell him the truth. How could I tell him? What would I tell him? That I fell in love with a girl from my dreams? That I was not sure anymore about reality? He would think I was crazy. I probably was. But I was crazy because of love, the love I had felt so strongly for Claire, which even after many months, was the same. I couldn’t stand living like this anymore, waiting for the dreams and wondering what to do, feeling guilty for enjoying every second of it.
It didn’t mean that I would leave Greg, I wasn’t thinking so deeply in this direction. I wanted to know if Claire existed and if it would be the same in reality. I couldn’t be sure that she would give a damn about me, anyway. I wasn’t thinking about anything else. This was enough of an emotional burden. I couldn’t stand anymore of it.
I silently hoped to find her, and wished that she was not as gorgeous, or that she wouldn’t fall for me. Perhaps I could solve this and continue my life with Greg. This seemed the easy way out. But was this really what I hoped for? Would this be the easiest way or the coward’s way? Why couldn’t I give myself the chance to live a love so big in reality as well? I was to be in Ljubljana in the evening. I decided to wait for the next day to start searching for her. I wish I didn’t have to wait so long for a flight. I remembered that my flight went through Vienna. This made me feel good as it was my favorite airport. Something struck me when I thought about the Vienna Airport. There was more to it than just being a cozy and nice airport. I couldn’t put my finger on it. It probably wasn’t that important. I decided to skip those thoughts and concentrate on my main purpose. Suddenly, I remembered the note I wrote her. Oh no! Had she read it? Would she remember it? Silly me… the note was in my dreams. Of course she had no idea about it. But she had no idea of me, as well. What was my life going to be? What would it be with time? So unpredictable!
“When in front of you, different paths open, and you don’t know which one to choose, don’t go by assumption. Sit and wait, first. Don’t let anything else interfere. Be peaceful, quiet and listen to your heart!” This was the message I had received from Erica after I told her that I needed to go to Slovenia and find myself. Due to her holiday in Greece, my physical condition after the accident and recovery, plus the time that I decided it was better not to even think about Claire anymore, I didn’t tell her other details about my dream. But, prior to my trip, I managed to tell her enough for her to understand. She was able to understand what had gone on with me. It could have been much easier if she had come with me, so that I wouldn’t be alone if things didn’t turn out the way I wanted them to. But I knew that I could always count on her and this comforted me well.
I saw life as a long corridor with infinite doors. As many as you open, your life only grows fuller. You never know what to expect, but you should always keep going. Sometimes, bad things hide behind some doors, but behind other doors there are really good things that you want to experience, feel and enjoy. I believe that most times, wonderful things wait to be discovered but it can happen that you are too late and they will be gone by the time you reach them. One has to open as many doors as possible to have the fullest experience. But still some doors should always remain closed. Which door was Claire hiding behind? I had no idea. Was I too late? Should I dare to open the door? Would I be disappointed by what I was likely to discover? Anything was possible and I was ready to take the risk.
My heart had spoken. I was a dreamer. I wanted to dream with my eyes open. I felt I was finally brave, as the gypsy woman had advised me to be. I wanted to take the risk and I was ready to face the consequences, whatever they were.
Claire, please be there!
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Nico J. Genes was born in Romania. She left the country soon after she completed her Master’s degree in Economics. She moved, traveled and worked with many interesting and unique people of different nationalities, religions and sexual orientations that helped her understand diversity better and accept others the way they are.
After sixteen successful years of working in marketing in cosmetic industry where she helped people look beautiful from outside, she reached a turning point where she felt that through her writing, she could reach people’s hearts, encourage them to discover, understand and accept themselves as well as others, as we are all unique individuals.
Magnetic Reverie is her first book.
Nico currently lives between Croatia and Slovenia.
She is eager to hear from you through www.nicojgenes.com, as well on social media (Facebook, Instagram, LinkedIn).
Table of Contents
Title
Copyright
Dedication
Prologue
1. Full Moon
2. Anniversary
3. Claire
4. Love
5. The Kiss
6. Dreams, Where Are You?
7. The Return
8. Crazy Love
9. The Child
10. Is This the End?
About the Author