BWWM: Bad Boy Billionaires Box Set (A Bad Boy BWWM Billionaire Collection)

by Jameson, Jasmine

  The heaviness of Axel’s confession rendered me speechless. I was disgusted by him and his maliciousness toward Christoff, but, deep inside, there was a part of me that felt a pang of empathy for him. I believed him when he said that he was sick, and I respected him for admitting that he had a problem and seeking help.

  “I really don’t know what to say, Axel. I do hope that one day you find peace. I mean that. I accept your apology, and I still accept responsibility for my part in everything that happened. I’m not going to tell Christoff all that you said, because it would only hurt him, and I would encourage you to give him some space to get over this. I wish you all the best, Axel, but I would appreciate it if you didn’t contact me again. I have to work on my own healing, and I hope you will do the same.”

  Axel looked down at the table while we sat in silence for what felt like several minutes, but was probably only a few seconds.

  “Now I’m the one who doesn’t know what to say,” Axel sighed.

  “That’s because there isn’t anything left to be said.”

  “No, I guess there isn’t.”

  “Goodbye, Axel. I hope that karma is not too unkind to you.”

  “Bye, Gia. I hope you’ll take good care of yourself.

  ***

  When I made it back home the house was empty. Since Christoff wasn’t around, I decided this would be a great time to focus on looking for a new agent. I was willing to do anything to prevent myself from sitting and over-analyzing my conversation with Axel. And I did not want to give my mind time and my heart space to start feeling sorry for myself, or, even more damning, I didn’t want to allow myself to start feeling too much sympathy for Axel.

  I brewed some tea, sat down at my desk, and prepared submissions for agents I wanted to work with. I must have been in the zone because, when I looked up, it was already getting dark out. I closed my laptop and headed down the hall toward the bathroom to take a shower. I was lost in my thoughts as I headed down the dark corridor when suddenly I heard a bunch of commotion below me downstairs. It sounded like someone was breaking down the back door. My heart raced wildly and my stomach was doing somersaults it. I gasped for air; it was suddenly hard to breath. Our property was gated so I had no idea how someone would be able to get the door. But I definitely heard it slam open, and I heard lots of movement down there.

  Christoff was always calm and quiet when he came in or walked around the house. Most the time, I never even knew if he was home, but whoever was down there now was causing a commotion. I about faced, ran into the bedroom, and locked the door. My heart sank as I realized that I had left my phone downstairs in the kitchen with whoever was down there. I had so much adrenaline pumping through me that I was shaking. I paced the floor as I tried to figure out an exit plan. I held my breath as I heard footsteps bound up the stairs. Just seconds later, I saw the door knob turn and someone pushed against the door. I screamed and jumped in the air.

  “Gia, are you okay?!?” There was a heavy banging on the door. I was so disoriented by fear that I didn’t recognize the voice.

  “Leave me alone!” I screamed.

  “Gia! This is important! Open the fucking door!”

  “Christoff?”

  “Yes! Who else would it be? Open the door!” My face flushed red with embarrassment and relief. I immediately rushed to let him in.

  “Christoff, what the hell? You scared the shit out of me!” I clutched my chest as I struggled to get my breathing to return to normal.

  “Come down stairs with me, hurry!” Christoff grabbed my hand and assertively led me down the staircase and through the kitchen. I noticed the back door was still open, and I wondered what was going on. The television was on in the living room, and it was up loud.

  “Christoff, what’s going on?”

  “Shhh, listen.” Christoff led me into the living room and pointed to the T.V. There was a picture of Bianca on one side the screen, and Christoff on the other. I stood frozen with my mouth agape as I listened to the story. Suddenly, my knees felt weak, and I was overcome with wracking sobs. Christoff pulled me into his embrace and squeezed me tightly. I buried my face in his chest and let all of the emotions that I had been holding in for weeks come out. Christoff stroked my hair. After several moments, I pulled back and looked up at him. There were tears in his eyes threatening to spill out. I had never seen Christoff get so emotional.

  “It’s okay Christoff. It’s over now.” I kissed him on the cheek and tears streamed down. The reporter on the screen was interviewing people on the street asking people what they thought about the latest development that closed the case. One of Bianca’s friends leaked a recording to the media, for an undisclosed amount of money. On the tape of a phone call, Bianca explicitly admitted to fabricating the sexual assault to frame Christoff. I always knew Christoff was innocent, but hearing the words from Bianca’s mouth brought so much closure and relief. I knew it would take time for Christoff to rebuild his professional life, and I realized it would take even longer for us to be able to go out in public without being bombarded by a pack of reporters, but I could not have possibly been more relieved and more overjoyed that the investigation was finally over. Christoff grabbed the back of my neck and guided my lips to his. The warmth of his mouth sent a wave of comfort through me that soothed my over-stimulated nerves. I let my hands caress his back as our kissing became more passionate. He lifted me up as he pulled me more tightly into his embrace, and I wrapped my legs around him. I held his face in my hands as I looked down at him. The electricity in his gaze exhilarated me. I felt like the news breathed new life into both of us. The entire scandal was soul crushing, but all at once it seemed like we got our vitality back.

  “Gia, I could not have gotten through this without you. I am so grateful to you for sticking by me. I love you, Sweetheart.”

  “Anything for you, Christoff. I love you so much.”

  He brought his lips back to mine, and I wrapped my legs around him more tightly. My breath hitched in my throat as our tongues played with one another. I moaned as his mouth traveled to my neck, and he started to carry me toward the kitchen. He kissed me deeply and passionately before placing me on the edge of the kitchen island. He stood between my open legs and caressed the outside of my thighs. I could tell by the ferocity in his touch that he was aching to give it to me. I nibbled my bottom lip as he gazed into my eyes and squeezed my ass. He reached under my skirt and pulled my panties down without breaking our gaze. I exhaled as he silently slid his hand up my inner thigh. My heart fluttered with anticipation. I gasped as he used both hands to force my knees further apart before slipping two fingers deep inside of me. I was already wet for him, and his fingers penetrated me with ease. My entire body quivered as his used to his thumb to toy with my clit. Pleasure jolted through me as he bit and licked my neck while he continued to finger fuck me. I reached under his shirt and caressed his nicely toned abs. His body felt so good. I began to claw at his pants as a pleasant tension mounted within me.

  “Make love to me, Christoff,” I breathed.

  Christoff tore out of his shirt and dropped his pants to his ankles in a few swift motions. I kicked my panties from around my ankles and tossed them aside.

  “I want to take you from behind. Bend over the counter.” I slid to my feet, turned around, and did as I was told. Christoff lifted my skirt and smacked my ass. It made me feel naughty. He grabbed my hips and guided himself inside of me. I let out a ragged breath as he slid in and out with slow deep thrusts.

  “Oh, it feels good. Take me, Christoff,” I moaned.

  “You drive me crazy, Gia,” Christoff grunted. He grabbed a handful of my hair and tugged at the roots as he drove into with the ferocity of a tiger. He bit my neck and continued to pull my hair as he pleasured me with hard fast pumps. The sensations pulsing through my body were so intense that I started pouring sweat. Christoff spanked me as he continued to bury himself deep inside of me. I screamed out his name as I felt all of the stress I had been c
arrying for the past several months release from me in a mind-blowing orgasm.

  “Holy fuck!” Christoff growled as he drove into me with three hard pumps that filled me up completely. His body went rigid, and he collapsed on top of my back. I rested my weight on the counter as I came down. Christoff slowly withdrew from me. I stood up and pulled my dress down as I watched Christoff pull up his pants.

  “Your sex is so good, Gia,” Christoff murmured. His eyes were low, and his lips were flushed. I took pleasure in the satisfied look on his face.

  “Yours is amazing, Christoff.”

  “Let’s go lay down.” Christoff smirked.

  I faded in and out of sleep as Christoff and I were spooning in bed. I was so relieved that our personal Hell was finally over. I was exhilarated and exhausted at the same time. I knew it would take time to fully heal from all the stress that we endured, but I already felt lighter. I rolled over to face Christoff.

  “Christoff, are you up?”

  “Yes.” His lids fluttered, and he looked over at me. His sapphire eyes were so captivating.

  “I have an idea that I would like to get your feedback on.”

  “Okay, what is it?”

  “Even though the case is resolved now, we endured so much with the stress of the scandal. I think it might be a good idea for us to talk to a therapist or counselor about everything we went through, so we can move through it more quickly. I want to make sure this doesn’t leave long term scars. What do you think?”

  Christoff was quiet for several beats.

  “I think it’s a pretty good idea, but I’m not into therapy. It’s just not for me. I’ve tried it before, and it did nothing for me, but a lot of my friends have gotten a lot of benefit from it. If it’s something that you wanted to do for yourself, I would support you wholeheartedly. You’ve been through a lot over the past couple of years. You’ve grown so much on your own, but I think you might really enjoy talking to someone about things and learning new tools to overcome your challenges. I think you should do it” Christoff said tenderly.

  “Thank you for your support Christoff. I think I will try it. If I enjoy it, and if it seems like it will work for me, I’ll keep doing it. If not, I will find another way to heal.”

  “That sounds reasonable.”

  “Thanks for not judging me.”

  “Of course, Gia. There is nothing to judge. I’m proud of you for taking care of your emotional health. I should be the one thanking you. You were so strong for me during all of this. I really could not have gotten through this without your support, your strength, and your nurturing spirit. You’re tough as nails, but, at the same time, sweet as honey. I’m so blessed to have you in my life. Your love makes all of life’s challenges more bearable.”

  “I feel the same Christoff. It’s my pleasure to be there for you during the good times and the bad. Having you in my life makes everything sweeter.”

  “Come here and give me some of that sweetness,” Christoff growled as he grabbed my ass and pulled me into him. I kissed his neck as he caressed my body, and we proceeded to make passionate love until dawn.

  Chapter 11

  Three months had passed since Bianca’s lies were exposed. Christoff’s lawyers filed a suit against Bianca for defamation, and she immediately proposed a settlement. Christoff’s team encouraged him not to take it and just to go forward with the suit, but Christoff insisted that he wanted Bianca out of his life as quickly as possible, so he took the settlement just to put the whole thing behind him. I supported him in his decision to accept the settlement. Things finally seemed to be turning around for us.

  In addition to Christoff’s settlement bringing us some much needed closure, I had decided to hire a therapist that was transitioning into becoming a life coach. She mixed traditional therapy modalities with New Age and progressive life-coaching strategies. I enjoyed working with her, and I was starting to see a lot of progress in my life. l felt more secure about who I was and what I had to offer, and I was starting to forgive myself from all of my past mistakes. I was thrilled that I landed a phenomenal agent who was getting me several television auditions a week. I had already had more on-air appearances within the first couple of months of working with this agent than I did during my entire relationship with Anya. I felt like I was finally starting to get my momentum back. It had been a great month so far, but today was the pinnacle.

  I’ve lived an exciting life, and, even though I’ve been to hell and back multiple times, all but a few of my dreams have come true. I’ve lived in L.A. and Chicago—two of the greatest cities on earth. I’ve dated movie stars and billionaires, and now my relationship with the sexiest man in the music industry was stronger than ever. Although there were still times,I felt like I was sharing him with every other woman on the planet, I was happy to have him, and I felt safe enough in the relationship not to let jealousy consume me anymore. Although, in the past, I felt like Christoff was causing some of my deepest pain, I now allowed him to become only my greatest joy. After surviving so many tests, our bond was stronger than ever before. But just when I thought he couldn’t possibly make me any happier, he made a long time dream come true.

  I had always wanted to see Helen live, but I had never been able to get tickets. Helen was one of the most popular day time television shows in the country. I was surprised when I found out Aus Deustshland booked an appearance on her show. Helen doesn’t usually have hard rock artists as guests, but Aus Deutschland’s record sales were so astronomical that they were becoming mainstream. Some of the members of the band, especially Johannes, were thrilled that they were starting to appeal to a wider audience, but Axel thought they would lose their credibility on the metal and hard rock scene if they continue to make day time television appearances. Despite the dispute, Christoff insisted that they book the appearance so that I would get the opportunity to see my favorite band live on my favorite show.

  Although Christoff was insistent about the performance, he didn’t want to be interviewed, so he let Johannes and Fleisch sit on the couch for the interview. Fliesch was mostly quiet, but some of his eccentric commentary got a laugh out of the crowd. Johannes was warm and passionate, as usual, and he spoke endearingly about how deeply he loved his bandmates, and how he looked forward to working with them to bring the joy of music to as many people as possible.

  My heart was dancing wildly in my chest as the German flag dropped down and replaced the performance stage’s regular backdrop. Johannes pounded the drums and Axel filled the studio with an epic guitar riff. I got chills as a spotlight came down, and Christoff stepped on to the stage. He stood in silence as the music came to a crescendo. He had such a strong presence. He commanded the stage without saying a word. After an earth-shattering instrumental intro, he grabbed the mic and pounded on his chest as he belted out the first notes of their number one song “There’s no Such Thing As Forever.”

  In my opinion it was one of their greatest songs of all time. It was originally released on an underground EP several years ago, before they made it big. Christoff added an extra verse, and Axel added a stellar guitar solo, and they had it remastered, and they re-released it for the new album. It sounded better than ever before. That song got me through so many break ups! Even though the song was aggressive and heavy to the ears, I’ve always found it to be soothing and cathartic to the spirit. Every time I’ve had a relationship fall apart, I realized it wasn’t the end of the world because, as Christoff sings, “There’s no such thing as forever.”

  In this moment, the idea was soothing and troubling at the same time. I knew that forever rarely existed outside of the movies, but I longed for Christoff and I to be the exception. As I watched his sapphire eyes sparkle under the stage lights while he growled out the chorus, I realized there was no way I could ever let him go. He had so much passion inside. It inspired me. I couldn’t get enough of him. I scanned the audience, and almost every woman in the crowd was mesmerized. Although the music was spectacular, I knew those wom
en weren’t spellbound by Aus Deutschland’s musical talent alone. Many of them were drooling over Christoff. And a lot of them were very beautiful. For once, I didn’t feel threatened by their admiration for him. I felt especially lucky to have him to myself. I shook my head back and forth to clear my thoughts, and I took a deep breath and grounded myself in the vibrations of the music. Christoff’s vocals were exhilarating, and the music was riveting. No matter how many times I watched them perform or how deeply I knew all of them personally, I knew I would forever be star struck.

  The song came to an end, and everyone rose to their feet and cheered. I saw several women clutch their chests and swoon. One woman a few seats down from me was fanning herself.

  “I love you Christoff!” she screamed with outstretched arms. Her declaration made me laugh to myself. I blushed in amusement. Christoff smiled and took it all in. Helen came out and hugged all of the guys one by one as she thanked them for a stellar performance. She held up a copy of their new CD for the camera and told everyone to go out and get it.

  “Helen, I have something really important that I would like to say to the audience, especially one person in particular who I brought here today. Do we have a few minutes before the commercial break? I want to make sure your television audience hears it too.” Christoff’s booming baritone voice cut through the roaring cheers.

  “Sure, Christoff what do you want to say?” Helen smiled at him as she gestured toward the crowd to quiet down and take their seats.

  Christoff scanned the crowd as he waited for everyone to quiet down. I was sitting in the front row. The energy between us was palpable when his eyes met mine. As soon as he started speaking, the crowd went completely quiet. He definitely commanded their attention.

  “If you know anything about me, you know I don’t like talking in front of the media, and I never make public declarations. Many of you know a lot more about my personal life than I am comfortable with because some of the unfortunate circumstances of my past relationships have been leaked by my former partners. As you know, some of those former partners have gone so far as to slander my name with lies. Well today, with all of you as my witness, I want to apologize for all of the mistakes I made in the past and move on from them. Despite karma, I have somehow been blessed with the most loving, talented, and wonderful girlfriend that a man could ask for. Not only is she a woman of phenomenal strength and boundless love, she is also absolutely stunning beyond belief. Gia, please come up on stage so I can show you off.”