BWWM: Bad Boy Billionaires Box Set (A Bad Boy BWWM Billionaire Collection)

by Jameson, Jasmine

  “Wow, your story is really inspiring. Sometimes, when I see people who have what I want, I forget that there was a whole lot that no one else saw. There’s always so much that went on in the background to get them to where they are today. Thank you for reminding me. And thank you for helping me to see that today was just a bump in the road. Just like you, I’m destined for big things, and I won’t let anything get in my way.” My heart felt lighter and my mood lifted.

  “That’s what I like to hear baby. I know you’re going to make me proud. Actually, you already have.” Christoff brought his lips to mine. His kiss set me on fire. I felt like there was nothing I couldn’t accomplish. “Why don’t you lie down. You’ve been through a lot today. Let me help you relax.

  Lie on your stomach.”

  I slid off of Christoff’s lap and obediently did as I was told. He slid his hand under my shirt and slowly caressed my back. His hands were so warm. I exhaled as he unclasped my bra, and both of his hands glided down the length of my back. His touch felt like magic. Christoff leaned over and whispered in my ear.

  “I’ll be right back. I want you to have your shirt off when I return.”

  My heart fluttered as I wondered what Christoff was up to. I slid out of my top and let my bra fall to the floor. I stretched out on the couch and let myself drift into a dream like state. I was already so relaxed from the way Christoff gently caressed my back and whispered in my ear. I became more alert as I felt his weight return to the couch. My nipples hardened as I felt a warm silky liquid drizzle across my back. Whatever it was smelled delightful. I let out a ragged breath as Christoff’s strong masculine hands massaged my shoulders with firm deep strokes. The oil allowed his hands to slide across my skin with no friction. His touch felt amazing. I moaned as he squeezed the back of my neck and slid his hands to my scalp. He grabbed a handful of my hair and gently tugged. A wave of pleasure pulsed through me. He pressed into my scalp and made small circular motions with his fingertips. It felt so relaxing. I exhaled as I let go of all of the stress from the day and allowed myself to get carried away by the waves of pleasure that washed over me. I felt myself start to fade into sleep as Christoff continued to caress me.

  ***

  When I opened my eyes it was dark. I felt the heat of Christoff’s body pressed against me from behind. His arms were resting around my waist. We must have fallen asleep on the couch. I felt so relaxed and well rested. Christoff’s massage made me feel like a new woman. I felt so lucky to have him. I quietly crawled off the couch and went to the kitchen for some water. I felt so rejuvenated that I was tempted to go to my desk and start searching for a new agent immediately. But after thinking it through, I figured it would be better to spend the rest of the night cozied up with Christoff. So I decided to wait and get a fresh start in the morning. Christoff was just sitting up when I returned to the living room. I extended my glass to him.

  “Water?”

  “Yes, thanks babe.” He took a few sips before handing it back to me. “I can’t believe we fell asleep on the couch,” Christoff said with a warm smile.

  “Yeah, me neither, but I feel great now. Thank you for the amazing massage. You always take such good care of me.” I embraced Christoff and kissed him on the cheek.

  “Of course, gorgeous. You deserve it.”

  As I sat down next to Christoff, Axel’s unanswered text flashed into my mind and ruined the warm and fuzzy feeling I was riding so high on. I debated about whether I should just ignore it or if I should tell Christoff. I didn’t want to ruin the good mood he was in, but I also didn’t want to keep secrets from him.

  “Are you okay Gia? You look tense all of a sudden.” Christoff put his arm around me.

  “Yeah, I’m fine but I need to talk to you about something.”

  “What is it?”

  “Don’t get upset, okay? I know you already have a lot going on. I don’t want to stress you out even more.”

  “Gia, you are beating around the bush and that’ll make me upset more than anything. Go ahead, tell me. What’s going on?”

  “Axel texted me,” I said in a rush to get it out. My stomach tightened as I watched Christoff’s jaw clench.

  “And? What did he say?”

  “Here I’ll show you.” I grabbed my phone off the table, pulled up Axel’s text and gave it to Christoff. He sat staring at my phone for several beats in silence.

  “That son of a bitch! He doesn’t know when to stop!” Christoff spoke quietly through gritted teeth. He stared down at the screen for several moments before looking up at me. “You know what? I want you to text him back. Agree to meet up with him tomorrow. Just make sure it’s in a public place and during the day. I trust you, but I want to see what this jackass has up his sleeve. We’re never at the studio at the same time, so I haven’t seen him since I confronted him at his house weeks ago. He’s been texting me, but I’m too pissed to even deal with him. Go ahead and meet with him. I want to know what’s so important that he has to say. Here text him back.” Christoff handed my phone to me.

  “Christoff are you sure?”

  “Yes, I’m certain.” I did as I was told. Axel texted back immediately, and we agreed to meet at an upscale restaurant near the beach during the lunch hour tomorrow. I showed Christoff our exchange.

  “I’ll let you know everything that happens.”

  “I know you will. I trust you Gia.”

  “Thank you, Christoff. That means a lot.”

  “Well, you earned it. I have never had someone stick by me the way you have.”

  “Well, you earned that. I have never had someone look after me and put my needs first the way you do.”

  “I love you so much, Gia.”

  “I love you, too Christoff.” He pulled me into a passionate kiss that took my breath away. I moaned as he pulled away.

  “Get upstairs. I need to have my way with you now.” Christoff gave me a firm swat on the bottom. It turned me on. He grabbed my hand, and l allowed him to lead me toward the stairs. My body tingled in anticipation of what was to come.

  Chapter 10

  I had a pit in my stomach I as walked in the door to the bistro where I was meeting Axel. I hadn’t seen him since I kicked him out after we had our indiscretion in my living room. I had no idea what was going to happen and what motivated him to call the meeting between us. Axel said he had made reservations, so I went to the hostess and let her know I was looking for him. She informed that Axel was seated, and she gestured for me to follow her. She led me to the back of the restaurant and around the corner to a secluded table that had a view of the beach.

  Axel was sitting there facing away from me. He didn’t even know I was there, and I already felt awkward. I took a deep breath and rolled my shoulders back as I approached the table. Axel looked up at me. He had a troubled expression on his face. It made me nervous. I was no longer star struck by him, but something about him intimidated me. Part of me was still angry at him for coming on to me. He held eye contact with me as I slid into the chair across from him. The hostess informed us that our server would be with us shortly. Axel nodded. I thanked her, and she left us alone in our own silence.

  We sat there awkwardly for a while and sipped our waters. I didn’t know if I should say something first or wait for him. Luckily my internal dilemma was interrupted by the sound of our waitress’s voice.

  “Hi, I hope you two are having a fabulous afternoon. I was wondering if I could start you guys off with any drinks?” Axel gestured for me to order first.

  I thought about getting a mimosa but even though I was no longer attracted to him I didn’t think it was a good idea to be drinking with him.

  “I’ll have a grapefruit soda.”

  “Alright. Excellent. And for you sir?”

  “I’ll have a Manhattan up.”

  “Alright, that will be coming right up.” The waitress started to walk away. Axel abruptly craned his neck and called after her.

  “Wait, come back.”

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  “I’d like to put in our food orders now. We’re going to need some privacy, and I don’t want to be interrupted more than necessary, so I’d rather have everything come out at once.”

  “Okay, we can do that.”

  “Ma’am, what would you like to eat?” I wasn’t particularly hungry. My anxiety about being back in touch with Axel was ruining my appetite, but I knew that I should eat. Besides, it would be nice to have something in front of me to distract me from the uncomfortable tension between us.

  “I’ll just have a bowl of seafood gumbo.”

  “Excellent. And for you, sir?”

  “I’ll have a bison burger rare, sub the fries for whatever vegetable you have today.”

  “The vegetable of today is steamed kale. Is that okay?”

  “Perfect.”

  “Alright. Is there anything else I can get you?”

  “I think that will be all. Gia, are you good?” Axel looked over at me

  “Yes, I’m fine.”

  “Okay. That will be up soon.”

  “Thank you.” I smiled at the waitress. I was pleading with my eyes for her not to go, but I knew she couldn’t just stand there. She smiled back at me and scooted off.

  “Gia, thanks so much for agreeing to meet with me. I’ve been so isolated since Christoff found out what happened. He won’t speak to me, and most of the band doesn’t want anything to do with me outside of when they’re forced to interact with me while we’re recording. Fliesch has cut me a little bit of slack, but it’s still been lonely. I just really need to talk in general, and there are some important things I want to say to you specifically. It’s been torture not being able to get this off my chest. I’ve lost so much sleep, and I’ve been so stressed out lately.”

  “Does it always have to be about you Axel? Do you realize how lonely and stressful things are for me and Christoff?” I spoke sharply but I kept my voice low. I didn’t want anyone to overhear me. “Ever since Bianca made her allegations, we can’t even leave the house without being bombarded and attacked by the media. A lot of Christoff’s friends in the industry have been excluding him, and he lost all of his endorsements. I hate to leave him alone with all he’s going through, so I don’t really have a social life. And after what happened between us, I’m too ashamed to face the band. I know they probably think Christoff is stupid for taking me back. I’m so embarrassed, I can’t even talk to my best friend Amber about everything that happened, so I have been avoiding her. You have no idea all the shit I’m going through right now, so I don’t really have any sympathy for you.”

  I nervously bit my bottom lip. I was surprised that all of that came out of me. I really didn’t mean to explode at Axel, but I had been holding in so much for so long. I guess I needed to talk as much as he did.

  “Look, Gia, I get it.” He reached across the table and grabbed my hand. I immediately pulled away. Axel flushed red. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to touch you like that. I just wanted to be supportive. I didn’t mean anything by it.”

  “Okay, Axel. I’ll let it go this time but please be careful. You need to think before you act and speak. You’re always so absorbed with yourself that you fail to see how you affect others.” Axel looked as if I had punched him in the stomach. I immediately felt bad for being so harsh.

  “I’m sorry, but you needed to hear it. I will be honest with you though. The only reason I even recognize those qualities in you because I used to be the same. I love those close to me deeply, but sometimes I have a selfish streak. Clearly. It’s what got me into this mess between you and I, and indirectly caused the domino effect of the Bianca scandal.” I looked down. I started to feel sick as I realized that there was part of me that was more like Axel than I cared to admit. I was almost certain that almost everyone in showbiz had a self-absorbed streak. We’ve all had to put ourselves first to get to where we are in the business. It’s a matter of necessity, but, even so, facing that side of myself caused a pang of guilt and self-loathing. How could I have been so into myself that I allowed Axel to lure me into doing something that devastated Christoff and indirectly wrecked all of our lives? I tried to hold it in but I felt myself start to tear up. Being there with Axel brought back all the negative feelings I’d been carrying around over what happened. The stress from the Bianca scandal bought me a reprieve from the guilt and self-hatred that I had spiraled into since that night. Ever since Bianca made her allegations, I had been directing all of my energy into being angry at her instead of dealing with being ashamed of myself. I continued to stare down at the table as tears threatened to spill out onto my flushed cheeks.

  “Gia, are you okay?” Axel spoke softly.

  I swallowed hard before looking up and meeting his gaze.

  “No, I’m not okay. Things are just so fucked up right now. Even though Christoff has seemed to forgive me, I still feel like such a shitty person for what happened between us. I don’t think I can ever forgive myself for it. I can be pissed at you and pissed at Bianca all day long, but when I’m alone, and there is no one else around to blame, I realize that it’s really me that’s the problem.” I dabbed my eyes with the back of my hand. “I’m sorry Axel. I know I just kind of went off on you for your self-pity party, and now I’m doing the same thing. It’s just… I’ve been trying to be so strong for Christoff that I’ve been holding a lot in. That man is my rock, and he takes such great care of me, but I don’t want him to see me like this, especially with all that he’s been going through, but things have been so hard. I know I’ll make it through. I always do. And Christoff is the same way. He’s indestructible. I know we’ll get through this, but I would give anything for even a glimmer of salvation from this hell that we’re enduring.” I knew that Axel was probably the last person that I should have been using as a sounding board, but I felt like I had no one else to listen. This is what people hire therapists for. Most people in the industry had one. In that moment, I decided that was something I should look into.

  “Gia, I get it more than you know. That’s partially why I asked you to meet with me. I’ve been dealing with my own guilt, so I wanted to apologize and ask for your forgiveness. Also, I figured that you were probably blaming yourself for what happened, so I was hoping that some of what I had to say may help you forgive yourself.”

  I took a big gulp of water to try to drown the growing lump in my throat.

  “Alright, I think I’m okay now.” I drew in a deep breath and tossed my hair over my shoulder. “I’m all ears, Axel.”

  “You sure you okay?”

  “Yes, go ahead.”

  “Okay. Well, like I was saying, I really appreciate you agreeing to meet up with me. I really wanted to apologize to you face-to-face for what I did. I was totally in the wrong. I went after you when I knew you were the most vulnerable, and, for that, I know I’m a shitty person.” Axel looked away from me. “It’s just I’ve always been so jealous of Christoff. Of course, I love and admire him. He is one of my best friends, and one of the most talented artists I know. But for some reason it has just always gotten under my skin that he gets more attention than the rest of the band. We all contribute something important to Aus Deutschland, but I feel like Christoff has always gotten all of the credit for it. Not only did he steal the limelight professionally, but he always got all of the girls I wanted.” Axel couldn’t meet my eyes. He was toying with the class his drink came in.

  “Christoff still doesn’t know to this day, but I’ve had affairs with more than one of his ex-girlfriends. Deep inside, I always knew what I was doing was wrong, but I just couldn’t stand to see Christoff get everything that I never had. I guess I just always wanted to take his place,” Axel gazed out the window, as if would rather be on the beach than baring his heart. “My envy toward him has always driven me to the brink of insanity. But after I betrayed Christoff by preying on you, I realized that I was starting to spiral completely out of control. You’re so different from all of his other girlfriends.”


  “I know for a fact that Christoff loves you more than he ever loved any of them. When I first met you, I wanted to have you, but I vowed to myself that I would never go after you, because I knew how serious Christoff was about you.” Axel glanced back at me, then looked down. He looked ashamed. “But, clearly, all it took was the right opportunity and a couple shots of whiskey, and I was back to my usual pattern. I spiraled into a deep depression after what happened between us, and, after Christoff and the rest of the band found out, I sank even lower. You were the first girl that ever told Christoff what happened, so this is the first time I’ve really had to suffer the consequences.” He sounded miserable. With a deep breath, as if he was resolved to getting it over with, Axel continued.

  “I’m not mad at you for telling him. The whole thing was the wakeup call I needed to finally get my shit together. One of the girls I’ve been messing around with recently pushed me to get professional help, and so I did. I was diagnosed with a sex addiction, alcoholism, and histrionic personality disorder. I’m so fucked up, Gia. Honestly, I don’t think there is anything that can fix me. I’m so sorry for trying to pull you down with me. I invited you here to tell you that what happened wasn’t your fault. It was all me. I manipulated you. I kept trying to leave you alone, but I couldn’t help myself. I know it’s no excuse but I’m a very sick man, Gia. I’m hoping that you can forgive me, but, more importantly, I’m hoping that you can forgive yourself.”