This is such an emotional moment for the two of us. I don’t know who’s happier, me or Todd.
“I know this is coming at an awkward time since we’re planning to leave out tomorrow, but would you be willing to go to the next level with me?” To hear him ask me this only assures me how respectful he is of me.
“Are you asking me to make love to you?”
Todd stands and begins to unbutton his jeans. Although I’ve never admitted it, but the way his jeans hug his ass drives me crazy. He kicks his shoes off and the jeans fall to the floor. My eyes drop down to the tight fitting boxer briefs he is wearing and the rock hard bulge that is obviously strained. Butterflies return to my stomach as I imagine what he must feel like as he is entering me. It’s been so long since I’ve been with a man and now that I’ve had Chloe, I hope everything still works the same down there. I’ve heard some couples comment how much tighter a woman is after she’s properly healed after giving birth and I wonder if there’s any truth to it.
I stand up in front of him and allow him to lift my t-shirt up and over my arms. He instantly begins to kiss my neck and slowly moves down towards my cleavage. I feel my nipples harden and I lift my chest towards him in such a way to let him know I need him to explore more. Slowly, he begins to massage my breasts and I’m about go crazy with all of these sensations. He reaches behind me and unfastens my bra. My breasts spring forward begging for his touch.
I place my hands on the back of his head and guide him towards my breasts, needing him to touch them, to squeeze them, to lick them. Using both hands, he lifts each breast and kisses them one at a time. My head falls back and I arch my back giving him full access to my body. He moves his kisses to my right nipple and gently tugs it with his teeth. I let out a slight moan, enjoying the pleasure he’s giving me. Not wanting the other nipple to feel left out, he nibbles it too, teasing it in such a way. I look down long enough to see his tongue lap at my nipple and I have to look away, embarrassed that I’m so turned on by this.
Todd lifts his head again to kiss me while his hands drop down to my panties. Thank goodness I’ve got on a pair of sexy, pink lacy ones that matched my bra. I would be so embarrassed if they had been a pair of my comfortable cotton ones. I have to admit I’ve just started back wearing the pretty ones and it’s a good thing I did tonight. This moment has surely taken me by surprise.
Once my panties have slid down my legs, I lift my right leg and allow them to drop to the floor. Now, I’m left with the decision to remove his boxers or see where this takes us. He brings his hands towards my back and uses both hands to grip my ass. After a few squeezes, I’m ready to discover what’s hidden inside those boxers of his. I simply can’t resist him any longer.
Instead of giving me the chance to remove his boxers, he slides them down and I find myself catching my breath as I take in the size of him. There’s no way he’s going to fit inside of me. It’s obvious he’s ready for me.
Todd uses his knee to spread my legs open and he drops down to kiss me again.
“Are you sure you are ready for this?” He whispers softly in my ear.
I nod my head. “Mmmm. Make love to me.”
Todd pulls away, long enough to find his jeans.
“Give me just a second.” He says as he fumbles with his wallet to find a condom.
“You sneaky thing. You were planning this all along.” I tease.
“I can’t tell you how long I’ve waited to experience this with you. You have no idea.” He emphasizes this last part.
Settling back down on the couch, I spread my legs slightly, although I don’t want to appear overly anxious. I’m nervous, scared, excited. Todd kneels down and I slowly lay my head back on the pillow again. He brings his mouth closer to mine, and together, we give each other soft, romantic kisses. This time there’s no tongue involved, only the delicate touch of lips touching lips. I try to relax as best I can knowing if I tense up in any way, it’s only going to make this more difficult. I’m already paranoid he’s not going to fit.
Before he enters me, Todd slides his fingers across my mound and stops just outside my opening. “You are so freaking wet, baby.” He shares this with me and I’m thankful everything seems to be working properly down below.
Sliding his fingers up and down over my folds, I lift my hips to indicate I’m ready for him to enter me. I take a deep breath as he places the end of his penis just outside my opening. He guides it up and down making sure my wetness has completely covered the condom. I’m pretty sure the condom is lubricated but my extra moisture is sure to make this easier for the both of us.
Slowly, Todd enters me. “You okay?” He asks.
“I think so.”
Todd enters halfway, then slides out. He does this motion several times and I grip the cushions. He feels so unbelievably good. Slowly, he begins to push deeper until he’s all the way inside.
“Relax. If it hurts, I’ll pull out.” He assures me.
I bring my hands up and place them on his ass bringing his body closer to mine. I breathe a sigh of relief and begin to move with him. Together, we begin a rhythm of in and out motions and it doesn’t take long before I’m beginning to feel my peak.
“Todd, I ……”
And with one slight thrust, I’m at my moment of pleasure. I let out a soft cry and Todd begins to push himself deeper and deeper until I feel the muscles in his butt tighten. In just seconds, he too, is making slight panting noises and at the last, deep thrust, he lets out a moan.
Todd drops his head down by my shoulder and I reach up to wrap my arms around him. His body is covered in sweat and we are both gasping for air. He lifts his head and kisses the tip of my nose.
“Thank you. I hope I didn’t hurt you.”
“You felt amazing.”
Todd stands to remove the condom and retrieves his clothes from off the floor. I look around for my own clothing and realize I’ve not checked in on Chloe. I feel awkward being naked in front of him and bring my t-shirt up to cover my chest.
“Baby, you are beautiful. Please don’t hide yourself from me.” Todd tells me when he notices me trying to cover myself.
I’m uncertain how to respond. “I’m just a little shy I guess, especially after having Chloe. Besides, I’d feel kind of funny going in to check on her and not wearing anything.”
“Go ahead and get cleaned up. I’ll go in when you’re finished.” He tells me.
I grab a washcloth from underneath the sink and remove any traces of our lovemaking from between my legs. I’m still surprised it wasn’t painful liked I had feared and it’s a relief knowing Todd and I were able to both satisfy each other. When I’m done, I place another clean cloth on the bathroom counter for him. I put clean panties back on and grab another t-shirt. I don’t bother putting on a bra and figure since we’ve both shared this intimate moment together now, I should be okay wearing only this around him.
When I open the bathroom door, I see Todd standing over Chloe. She’s still sound asleep in her swing. He reaches over to turn off the TV and looks over at Chloe then back at me and says, “You’ve got one lucky little lady there.”
“She’s my world.” I tell him as I walk up beside him. He puts his arm around my waist and kisses me lightly behind the ear.
“I’m going to make sure she’s always got the best of everything and never goes without. You both deserve so much more. You’re never going to be alone again.”
I don’t know how to react after hearing him say those words, knowing this man feels the way he does about me and my daughter. He kisses me softly and I turn to face him. He places his hands underneath my jaws and pulls my mouth to meet his. Almost immediately I feel Todd harden and I press my body against him yearning for his touch. Our kissing intensifies and we have to pull apart for air.
“Damn girl, I want you so bad.” He whispers in between breaths.
“Not here. Not with Chloe in the same room.”
“I know.”
The words he j
ust shared with me mean more than I can express right now.
Todd ended up spending the night with me that night. Although I think he was a little concerned his parents might say something once they realized he hadn’t come home the next morning, he never let on. That became the first night of many that he would sleep over.
We boarded the plane for Vegas late the following evening and because we were both so excited, neither of us were able to nap during the flight. We checked into our hotel room and I couldn’t wait to see the view from the twenty-third floor. The room Todd had reserved contained two queen size beds, but after the lovemaking we shared the night before, there was not a question in my mind about whether we would sleep in separate beds.
Since our hotel was part of one of the casinos, we decided to go downstairs to check out all of the excitement. As we walked around the casino, the lights and the sounds were so unbelievable. It’s just like they show on television.
Todd insisted I sit down and play a slot machine. I was a little relentless since I had never played one before but figured it couldn’t hurt to try. I didn’t have a clue how to play the thing but continued to mash the buttons until it showed I was out of credits. We moved over to another set of machines and Todd inserted a couple of bills in machines for each of us. In a matter of minutes, his machine hit a bonus round and ended up paying him two hundred dollars. Although it might not seem like much money to some people, I felt he had hit the jackpot.
We were both starving and decided to eat at the buffet. There were so many food choices, I ended up trying a little bit of several things. Before we left, we both shared a slice of deep-fried cheesecake for dessert. It was one of the best desserts I think I’ve ever had.
Rather than spend all day at the casino, we changed into our swimming clothes and tried out the hotel pool. It had been so long since I had been out in the sun, I was hesitant to remove my cover-up. The pool area was packed with tourists and it didn’t take me long to realize no one would care what I looked like. Todd jumped in the water and I relaxed in one of the lounge chairs we were able to secure. Before long, I drifted off to sleep, exhausted from everything that had happened in the last twenty-four hours. After a couple of hours, we both went up to the room.
Later that evening, we attended a stand-up comedy show. Instead of doing more gambling following the show, we decided to call it an early night. Before going to bed, we ordered from room service a bottle of champagne and some strawberries that were dipped in chocolate. Todd and I changed into something a little more comfortable, and waited for our delivery to arrive. Taking our tray outside, we sat out on the balcony and made a toast to each other. The view from here was spectacular. The warm, dry air felt amazing so Todd removed his t-shirt and was left wearing only his boxers. Since no one could see us up on the twenty-third floor, I decided to remove my tank top and pajama bottom too. I felt exposed sitting out here wearing nothing but my bra and panties, but he assured me no one would see us.
We took turns feeding each other strawberries and making a mess with the whipped cream. The champagne was a little sweet for my liking, but after my first glass the only thing that mattered was being here with Todd.
Not sure if he did it on purpose, but Todd accidentally dropped one of the strawberries into my lap. Instead of using the napkin the wipe up the cream, he kneeled down in front of my chair and began to lick the cream from my leg. My body quickly responded to his touch and I spread open my legs as an invitation for more. Todd reached for the bottle of champagne that was sitting on the tray and pretended he was going to pour it on me.
I reached behind me to unhook my bra as my way of teasing him. My breasts sprang forward and my nipples hardened yearning for his touch. Todd did more than pretend to tease me with the champagne. He slowly tilted the bottle and allowed a few drops to spill from the top, the cool liquid running between my breasts. He sat the bottle down and began to lick the trail of champagne all the way down to where it pooled at my belly button. His sucking sounds drove me crazy.
We made love that night on the balcony of our hotel room overlooking Las Vegas. But we didn’t stop there. We also made love again in the plush, comfortable bed before finally calling it a night. I thought the previous night of lovemaking was the most incredible night of my life, but Todd proved that tonight was even better.
On the last day of our trip, we both treated ourselves to a massage at the spa and I was able to get a manicure and pedicure. This pampering was exactly what I needed. There were so many more things we wanted to see and do but there simply wasn’t enough time. We both agreed we would definitely visit Vegas again.
It didn’t take long before Todd started staying at guesthouse several nights a week and eventually moved in altogether.
I think his parents are crossing their fingers that he’ll propose to me one day really soon. I admit, they would be the best in-laws a girl could ever ask for. And who knows, Valentine’s Day is only a few months away, and it is, after all, the holiday for lovers. But Todd has made it very clear to me and to both of our families that he is giving me all the time I need to heal. He’ll wait for me as long as he needs to.
I completed the certification program and officially became a pharmacy technician. Todd’s dad eventually gave up working Saturday morning down at the pharmacy altogether and Todd hired a fellow graduate to take the part-time pharmacist position. He didn’t mind working weekends occasionally, but made it very clear this was our family time. The pharmacy continues to grow and I’m now working forty hours a week. It’s more hours than I would like to work but I’m finally feeling back to my old self again, not to mention having the extra money sure makes things easier. It’s nowhere near the salary I could be making as a teacher, my original dream to follow in my father’s steps, but I’m happy with the direction my life is headed.
Chloe is growing like a weed and is one of the smartest little girls I have ever met. Of course, I owe most of this to Beth. She and Chloe have bonded so well and I’m thankful every day that Chloe has her in her life.
Chloe has learned a new word “gan-mama.” I’m pretty sure Beth is responsible for this but Chloe is, in every sense of the way, her granddaughter. Once Chloe started learning words I was a little hesitant what I should teach her to call Todd, and right now, she’s settled on calling him “Ta-ta.” Strange, I know. Todd spends just as much time with Chloe as any real father would their own daughter but I don’t force this on him. It’s something he enjoys doing on his own. And if you didn’t know any better, you would think she was his.
I’ve not decided what I’m going to do when the time comes once Chloe starts to question her own father. I guess it really depends on where my relationship is with Todd when that moments happens. It’s not Chloe’s fault Brian is not part of our lives and if I end up raising her on my own should something happen between Todd and I, then I’ll worry about it at that point.
I reflect back on everything I’ve experienced the past two years and I never would have imagined I would be where I am today. Chloe turned one back in August and she has forever changed my life. I consider myself pretty lucky to have a wonderful daughter and loving boyfriend.
Christmas ended up being the holiday that Todd officially proposed to me. When all of the gifts had been opened, Todd pretended to find another gift under the tree that had somehow been overlooked. And wouldn’t you know, it just so happened to have my name on it. The size of this gift was very unusual. It was a tan colored cylinder of some type, approximately three feet long but wasn’t wrapped. I popped the red bow off the end of the container and glanced down inside the tube. I’ve seen these sort of containers before and figured Todd had probably found a silly poster or something and this was more of a gag type gift more than anything. But what I found inside was not a poster but rather a bunch of white pages rolled up together encircled with a rubber band.
“What’s this?” I remember asking.
Todd looked away and I could tell by the expression on hi
s face that this present was something extra special and not the poster I was expecting to find. I removed the rubber band and began to roll out the papers. My breath caught and my hands immediately began to tremble once I realized the papers I was holding were blueprints. Todd had given me blueprints for the guesthouse that showed several additions he would like to have made on the house including adding on two bedrooms, a formal dining room, a den and a two-car garage.
I looked over at him uncertain what to say.
In that moment, our eyes locked and Todd stood up from his spot on the floor and walked over to me. He pulled a box from his pocket and kneeled down on one knee.
“Jennifer, will you do me the honor of becoming my wife and allowing me to be Chloe’s father?” There were tears glistening his eyes but I knew there was only one answer I could give him.
“Yes.” My voice was shaky as I tried to say the word he was hoping to hear. “Yes, I’ll be your wife. Oh Todd, I love you so much.” I stood up and we embraced each other followed by an intense kiss. Chloe crawled over to us and wrapped her little arms around our legs. He scooped her up and placed her between the both of us.
A month and a half later, we were married on Valentine’s Day at a little chapel in the mountains. The ceremony was very small and intimate but it was a magical moment that we shared between my family and his and a few close friends. Rebecca stood by my side at the altar and Todd’s grandfather served as his best man. My father walked me down the aisle and he and my mother officially welcomed Todd into the family. Chloe was able to carry a small basket of rose petals while she held Rebecca’s hand as they walked down the aisle towards me. I couldn’t be more proud of this new path I planned to take with my new husband.
Once the weather began to warm, construction started on the additions to the house. The two extra bedrooms were completed first since we were eager to have Chloe move into her own room. We decorated Chloe’s room in pink and purple, ideal colors for our loving little girl. While picking out furniture for her bedroom, Todd suggested the white bedroom suit with the canopy would be perfect for her. I, on the other hand, pointed out a set of bunk beds. Todd looked at me, confusion written all across his face.
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