by Emily Snow
“I wanna take you somewhere,” Gage said, smiling down at me.
“Where?” I asked curiously.
His eyes softened and he pecked my lips with his before flagging down a taxi. We climbed in and he leaned forward to whisper something to the driver. I couldn’t make it out, but the driver nodded and Gage handed him a two hundred-dollar tip. The driver gratefully accepted it and pulled off quickly.
I snuggled up to Gage, wrapping my arms around him and enjoying his warmth. He always felt good against me. I enjoyed his forehead kisses during the ride, his arm casually draped around me. I didn’t think he noticed, but I would always catch him staring and he’d smile at me as if he never had been. It was sweet. Innocent. Cute. I adored him.
Finally the taxi slowed down and we arrived at our destination. The driver thanked Gage for his tip, but Gage shrugged it off as if it were no big deal. Gripping my hand, he shut the door behind us and as soon as we turned around, I was struck with awe. I didn’t know where we were, but the street was long and bright posters were everywhere. Lights of various colors shone for miles, bringing even more attention to the area. A few people walked by, some calling for a taxi and some enjoying the scenery just as much as I was.
“Where are we now?” I asked.
“Times Square,” he murmured in my ear. My skin buzzed as he placed a hand on the small of my back. “Come on,” he said, cocking his head to his left. We walked hand-in-hand down the street until he took a turn and we came across an area filled with bench seats. A few people were already sitting—a man reading a newspaper, a woman with a book and a cup of coffee. There were a few others around doing pretty much the same thing. Even a few couples were cuddled up.
“Gage,” I whispered.
I looked at him and he smiled. “I wanted to do something here. My mom used to talk about it non-stop when I was a kid. It was always her dream to come to Times Square… just to sing to me.”
I smiled, taking a seat on the front row. He sat beside me, grinning boyishly. He then pulled his guitar around him, setting it on his lap and adjusting his fingers along the strings. “You’re going to sing?” I asked, excited.
“Mmhmm,” he nodded. He looked down, focusing on his acoustic guitar. It was black, but the strings were blue. On the bottom was the band’s name and Gage’s was printed right above it in cursive. I figured it must have been custom made just for him. “You remember the song I was writing the other morning with Roy?”
I nodded. “Yeah.”
“Can I sing it to you? You’ll be the first to hear it.”
I blushed ridiculously. “Of course, Gage. I’d love to hear.”
He smirked, taking a brief glance into my eyes before focusing on his guitar again and clearing his throat. As he strummed, a few people walking by slowed down, wanting a good show. Some gasped, recognizing the stunning man with the guitar, and held still, ready for him to sing.
I watched the way his lips moved—absorbed the way his deep, silky voice filled me up and sent me on a high I’d never felt before. Each word was soft, caring. His voice made it much more intoxicating for me. It was lovely—he was lovely. He was singing from the depths of his soul. Sometimes he’d get higher; sometimes he’d get lower. Either way, I was thrilled by it. The final lyrics he sang were words I knew I would never forget for as long as I lived:
She was a single dove, a beauty,
A miraculous love, truly,
A new addiction I’d fight for,
My addiction, perhaps my heart and more.
BROKEN PROMISES
I couldn’t resist the urge. I couldn’t stop myself from allowing my fingers to crawl beneath Gage’s shirt as we reached the very top floor in the elevator. Our eyes locked, intensity burned through us, and as soon as we reached our hotel door and he unlocked it, he dropped his guitar and took me in his arms.
He kissed me fiercely, deeply… passionately. I’d never felt a kiss so strong, and as much as I wanted to think nothing of it, I couldn’t help it. I embraced it, drowned in his lips, his body. He cupped my face as we stumbled our way toward the nearest landing. My back gently landed on one of the sofas and he climbed on top of me. I stared up as he stared into my eyes, his hard, intense, and longing as he gazed at me. I saw something behind his eyes, but I couldn’t figure out what it was. It can’t be love. We weren’t… were we?
The glass window was open wide revealing the high moon shining down on us. I looked at him again and he smiled. “I’m thinking, since we have all night, maybe we should take things slow,” he murmured.
I swallowed but nodded my head anyway. He grabbed my hand, pulling me off the sofa and leading the way across the penthouse. I noticed the candles weren’t melted. They looked like they’d just been lit. “Who was here?” I asked, smiling up at him.
“I have my ways,” he said, taking note of the candles but still walking for the bedroom.
I smirked, remembering he had to make a phone call before we got back. He laced our fingers as we stepped into the bedroom. It was huge. A French window was above the king-sized bed against the north wall. A flat-screen TV was hung on the wall opposite the bed and two large dressers were against the east wall. The carpet was a light tan and looked extremely soft.
“Let’s do something you love to do,” Gage said, smiling.
I tilted my head. “What do you mean?”
“Paint… draw. Anything.” He grinned, squeezing my hand.
I grinned back, nodding my head and going for my art supplies. I was thrilled he wanted to do the thing I loved most, with me. It was always a dream of mine—to paint with someone I really liked, so I eagerly gathered my things and rushed back to the room.
Gage was sitting on the edge of the bed, his shoes beside his feet and his head back, his hands planted behind him on the bed. The way he was leaning back gave definition to his chest beneath his shirt. I could make out the ripples, the lines and muscles. I wanted to hop on top of him and lick his entire body, but I held off, especially as he smiled innocently at me, making my thought process take an extremely wicked turn.
“So what are we doing?” he asked.
“Let’s paint,” I said, taking out a few sheets of paper. I pulled the paint out of the bag and told Gage to get some water for us. We sat on the floor after Gage spread out some newspapers and for the most part, painting with him was fun. We giggled as we painted our own silly pictures. He painted some odd-looking bird and named it Sweet Ellie. I laughed at it and then he took a look at mine. I’d painted conjoining hearts, one blue and one red. His smile faltered a little bit as he looked from the painting to my eyes, but in an instant, he smiled warmly again.
Some paint from my brush splattered onto his arm and he declared war, swearing I did it on purpose. I laughed, begging him not to get paint on me (mainly in my hair), but of course he didn’t listen. He didn’t get it in my hair, but he did paint a thin purple line on my cheek. I placed my brush against the tip of his nose, leaving a bold green dot. His nose wiggled as he smeared it with his arm, chuckling, and then tackled me softly, nuzzling his nose in my neck.
“What do you say to a bath?” he whispered, taking my paintbrush from me and pulling me by the arm to help me sit upright. I looked down at the various colors of paint on me and agreed.
He took my hand, helping me to my feet and leading the way toward the bathroom. His walk was so seductive, so sexy, and I didn’t think he realized it. His shoulders moved in swift but smooth movements. His hips swayed just enough to make me want to grab them and pull him against me. Ugh… he was just too damn beautiful.
As we stepped into the bathroom, the first thing I saw was the large Jacuzzi tub against one of the creamy walls. The wall behind it had a tall arched window above, revealing the enormous towers of New York City nearby. A few candles were set on the edge of the tub, flickering across the bathroom walls and creating a completely romantic atmosphere. I gazed in complete awe, taking in the off-white marble counters, the matching marble fl
oors, the shower in the corner wall that had glass doors almost like the shower of the FireNine tour bus. I blushed, remembering the event that took place because of that shower.
Gage reached around me, kissing my neck tenderly. He circled his arms around my waist, reaching for the hem of my shirt. I allowed him to do what he wanted. We only had a few more days and I had a great night with him. Why not top it off with something steamy?
It wasn’t until after he’d pulled my shirt over my head and tugged his off that I realized how quiet it’d gotten. Not that I minded; it just wasn’t expected from him. I turned slowly to look into his eyes. He was already staring at me, his head tilted, eyes full of fire and passion. My eyes lowered to his chiseled upper half. I slowly ran the palms of my hands down his chest and he inhaled softly. He then nuzzled my neck and I giggled as his eyes softened and he kissed the tip of my nose.
His gaze then hardened a bit as he reached for the button of my jeans and slid them down my legs. I kicked them off and did the same for him. He smirked, standing before me in black boxers.
“You really don’t get enough of black do you?” I teased.
He chuckled and my gaze fell down to the V hidden beneath the waistband of his boxers. The Matthew McConaughey V. I wanted to drool over it, but he laughed at me, snapping me out of my daze. “Bath, Ellie,” he whispered, leaning forward to kiss my ear. I sparked with heat, nodding as I clutched his inked arms. “I’ll go play some music.”
I nodded, knowing he was only using the music as a distraction. What he really wanted was for me to run the water, add bubbles, and then wait for him. I thought it was best to do just that, so I watched him step out and shut the door behind him.
Sighing, I stepped in front of the mirror and ran a hand through my hair. It was odd that I was… smiling. Why am I smiling? I tried to drop the smile, but it kept returning. It kept showing up. I shook my head at myself, considering the Eliza in the mirror silly for her goofy grin.
I ran some bath water, making sure it was warm and satisfying, added bubbles, and then stripped out of my bra and panties. I sank into the tub, releasing a heavy sigh. It felt ten times nicer than it looked. I washed myself up, getting rid of the paint all over my face and arms, and not long after, music played. I couldn’t believe my ears. Ed Sheeran, one of my favorite singers. Did he know? I wasn’t sure, but hearing Ed singing about giving him love made me smile like an idiot.
Gage stepped into the bathroom moments later, raking a hand through his dark, tousled hair. He stepped behind me to get out of my view, and I heard uncomfortable shifting and rustling. Suddenly it felt awkward because I knew exactly what he was doing. I knew exactly what was wrong. He was nervous and he was most likely staring in the mirror, making sure he was stable enough to go through with the rest of this night. I took a peek over my shoulder to see him gripping the edges of the counter, staring directly at his reflection. His eyes were as hard as granite, his lips pressed into a tight line. Finally, he sighed and pulled back, and I turned forward quickly, sinking into the warmth of the water.
I waited for what seemed like hours before he finally sighed again and stepped into the bath. I didn’t dare look at him. Ed Sheeran was on repeat, and hearing him sing about love was really getting to me. My heart banged against my chest and I grew nervous, wondering what Gage was going to do, say—anything. Whatever it was, I wasn’t prepared for it. Ben kept saying over and over again to get the truth out of him, but I didn’t want the truth. The truth was going to hurt both of us, so it was best to pretend nothing was here between us. It was safe to think we were still just a fling. But I knew we were way more than that… and I really didn’t know what to do about it.
Gage shifted, clearing his throat. I looked up and his head was tilted, and he was smiling. “You okay?” he asked.
“Yeah,” I breathed. Of course, it was a lie.
He smirked wholeheartedly and then moved to my side. I smiled at him as he grabbed my hand and brought it to his lips. Right after he pulled his lips away, he licked them. “You look tense. Want a massage?”
“Sure.” I turned slowly, my heart beating a mile a minute. Gage sighed, reaching for my shoulders and circling his thumbs on my shoulder blades. I eased up after a while as the music played and his fingers kneaded into my back. It felt nice, different. “You’re really good,” I said, laughing a little.
“Yeah,” he breathed. I tensed then, hearing the huskiness of his voice. He moved in slowly, and I slid back to get between his legs. He continued the massage for a few more moments before stopping slowly, pulling my hair away from my neck, and kissing it. I clutched my thigh, tensing again. He kissed between my shoulder blades and I shuddered, delighted by the warmth of his feathery-light lips. He continued down, one hand on my shoulder, the other reaching around to get to my middle and pull me against him.
Heat bombarded me and butterflies thrashed in the pit of my belly as he brought his lips back up and kissed the lobe of my ear. He then dropped his other hand from my shoulder to pull me against his body completely. He breathed into my hair, his whole body rigid. He was panting and his thick erection caved into my back. I moaned and he whispered my name faintly, begging me to turn around.
I turned around and sat on his lap. The water moved between us, but as I inched in closer, all I could feel was him against me. As I stared into his eyes, they were glazed over with passion, fire, yearning… I thought I caught love, but he blinked quickly and pulled my face to his. He kissed me, his tongue lapping over mine and his panting picking up with each coax of his tongue. He swallowed my moans, his hands still clasping my face. I laced my arms around his neck, moving against him as if it would get me any closer. I knew what I wanted. I knew the only way to feel completely near him was if he were inside me.
“God, Eliza,” he breathed raggedly, pulling his lips away to kiss my neck. My head fell back so I could expose my neck and let him taste me eagerly. “I’ve never felt like this before,” he whispered.
“Like what?”
“This,” he said between kisses on my collarbone. “I’ve never… wanted a woman so much.” He stopped kissing me slowly to get a look into my eyes, but I was already staring at him, shocked. I tried not to panic because I knew I wasn’t mistaken. There was love behind those eyes. Whole, passionate, and incredibly deep love. And I couldn’t ignore it.
He probably thought my silence was meant for him to keep talking, but I wished he hadn’t. He pulled me in by my lower back, keeping us close as he spoke. Our eyes were locked. It was hard for me to look away from him. “I think about you day and night, Eliza. I wake up and wish every morning you were lying in my bed beside me. Every time I’m really smiling, it’s because I’m with you or I’m thinking about you.” He shook his head, his gaze lowering. “I’ve felt something between us for so long, Eliza. So long. I’ve tried blocking it, ignoring it, avoiding it, and just remaining casual, but… I can’t anymore. Not with you. I know if I try to pretend this doesn’t matter—that we don’t matter—then I might end up hurting you, and the last thing I wanna do is hurt you. I could never hurt you because hurting you is… hurting me.”
Tears stung my eyes as he pulled one arm away to run his hand over his face. “Gage.” I choked, still not blinking.
“Eliza… don’t. I told you, don’t say my name like that. Don’t try and deny it. I’ve known it before I took your virginity. I’ve known it since day one of the tour. You were different, unlike the rest. With the other girls, it’s nothing. With you I feel something. With you I can actually be myself. Instead of forcing smiles, you allow me to do so freely. Instead of holding back, you allow me to give my all.” He cupped my face, his hazel eyes hard on mine. “Don’t leave me, Eliza. You can’t… I need you too much. I love you too much.”
I choked again and then I broke into a sob. He looked me over, his eyes just as sad as mine, stinging with tears. I tried to pull away, but he held on. I wanted him to let me go, but more than anything I wanted to stay in his arm
s. I just wanted him to hold me. I never wanted to leave him, but I knew in only three days I was going to have to and it was going to crush both of us. His thumbs brushed my cheeks and then he pulled me forward to kiss my cheek.
“I know you love me, Eliza,” he whispered. “I love you. I’m in love with you. And tonight I wanna prove it.”
More tears fell as Gage stood and picked me up with him. He stepped out of the tub with me in his arms and went for the bedroom. More candles were flickering in the large room. They danced across the walls behind my blurry eyes. I hated crying. I felt so weak. What I really wanted to do was smile and enjoy my night with him.
Gage laid me on the bed, kissing my forehead repeatedly as he parted my legs with his knee. He stared at my tearstained face, but his eyes adored me, as if he found me more beautiful than ever. His kisses started at my cheeks, my nose, and then my lips. He kissed my lips repeatedly, cupping my face. Ed Sheeran was still on repeat and my tears thickened, but he simply brushed them away with his thumb.
Damn it, why couldn’t I stop crying? Was it because I knew what I felt wasn’t fake? Was it because I knew that even though he wanted me to stay, I would have to leave anyway? Thinking about the last question brought more hot tears to my eyes. I had a scholarship. I couldn’t lose it. I worked too hard for it.
He looked past my tears, placing his lips on mine over and over again. He then moved southward, kissing my collarbone, my chest, slowly licking each nipple, kissing the cave in stomach, my belly button. He got to my sweet area and kissed me there, too. My toes curled as he kissed my thighs, my knees, and even each toe. I giggled at that one, and soon my tears evaporated.
He stood from the bed, dug in his bag for a condom, slid it on, and then climbed between my legs again. I expected him to go straight for it, but he didn’t. Instead, he kissed me deeply, delicately, as if I were fragile and he might break me. I ran my fingers over the ridges of his abdomen and the tight curves of his arms. He groaned, kissing my neck and causing my head to fall back.