Hard love - Love, belonging, differences

by Edit Torma

  3

  After they had came back, she bathed the little ones, and when put them back to their place, a teenager girl’s bitter shouting can was heard from outside, into the house. She looked out by curiosity what could happen, and she saw an about sixteen-year-old, half-long, red haired, thin, pretty girl whom the guards were leading off in front of the gate by force. Heni was almost shocked by the sight so she plucked up all of her courage and asked the guards to let her go. They considered a bit, and then obeyed; anyway, the star’s wife is a name at the house too.

  - Thought you… - the girl surprised dried her tears.

  - Why were you lingering at the gate? – Heni inquired.

  - I’m just… a very big fan of Laurence and wanted to meet him personally.

  - He’s not at home now but I think he is going to come home soon. Aren’t you coming in till then? – the guards and the teen girl were completely surprised.

  - I can go in? – the girl was surprised laughing.

  - Of course, come! – Heni opened the gate and they went into the house together.

  - Wow, what a nice garden! And also this house! It can be super to live here! – the teenage girl was looking at the perfectly mowed grass, the huge pool, the flowers what were arranged to various formations and the big, golden house, what had snow white windows, balconies and doors.

  - I was also wondering so much like you when I moved into the house. His previous house was already perfect, too.

  - Well, I thought that a movie star surely live in a house like this but it impossible to get ready for this sight – the girl was marveling too by seen the living-room what was furnished with modern furniture, and they sat down to the dark sofa.

  - You haven’t even told me your name.

  - I’m Lucy. And you’re Henrietta. I know everything about Laurence, it’s naturally that I know the name of his wife – she was laughing.

  - And how old are you?

  - I’m seventeen. And you’re twenty-three.

  - Since when have you been Laurence’s fan? – Heni was smiling.

  - Already since I was twelve years old, like you.

  - And what do you like in him? You like his roles in the movies?

  - Well… Yeah.

  - So why did you broke down so much when they led you off in front of the gate by force? – Heni asked with pity in her voice.

  - Well…

  - You don’t have to make excuses for it, to me; I’ve already suspected what you feel towards him before I let you in. You think if I was angry with you because of this, I let you in?

  - He is the most attractive man whom I’ve seen in my life.

  - I also went through this, however they didn’t lead me off in front of the gate because I didn’t linger there but I felt pity on you when I noticed you. I know how it feels to be in a very-very unrequited love. We aren’t guilty by this, we can’t direct our emotions. So… - Heni took the girl’s hand – it would be a huge thing to me too in the past if we would even if I was one of Laurence’s friends because there was more hope than till then. Would you like me to talk to Laurence to meet you sometimes? I don’t want anything more between you and him, but you can be one of his friends not to feel that this situation is so hopeless. However, I hope we’ll stay together forever and won’t cheat any of us the other one, but, because you would know that if we’ll get divorced, you’re going to be close enough to be more than friendship between you, so it wouldn’t hurt you so much, at least I felt like this when still Gina was his wife. So if it’s real love what you feel towards him, I can help you to be easier to live with this – Lucy was just wondering at Heni’s words.

  - Well… Yes. I think I love him – she said, sounding seriously – So will you get him to meet me? – she became immediately cheerful. Laurence arrived in home just in this moment. Lucy immediately jumped up from the sofa, screamed a huge and was jumping for joy because she already can see him in live.

  - One of your friends came to you? – the man began to speak in a bored manner. He has count on if one of Heni’s friend comes to her from Hungary, she’ll react that way if she notices him. He already got used to the teen girls’ and bigger fans’ reactions like this.

  - No, it’s Lucy, your very big fan.

  - And how has she get here? – he was wondering.

  - I felt a pity on that poor one when the guards wanted to take her from the gate by force that I let her in – the man greeted the girl, gave her an autograph and politely said her to go home. Then he turned towards his wife.

  - You’re already going to let all sorts of teen girls into the house who is lingering at the gate?

  - No, I just felt so much pity on her. You should see how much desperate she was by the guards began leading her off.

  - It’s interesting – Laurence said with frowned up eyebrows and downcast eyes, and disappeared in his study again.

  - Hello, it’s me again. You will not believe what happened!

  - Hi. Tell me! Is it about the same business?

  - Well, it really seems to be like yes…

  - You found her there with her lover?

  - No. But she’s taking measures as she would like to get divorce in peace. Like she already would have been searching for somebody else for me…

  - She hasn’t spoken about divorce yet. An addition, nor about cheating. But this thing proves that she is going to speak about this soon.

  - Exactly.

  - Why, what did she do?

  - She called a little teenager fan into the house to meet me. Who does something like this???

  - I nor have heard about something like this – Tom was laughing – And what did you do with her?

  - I gave her an autograph and said her to go away. I don’t care about she’s every younger than Heni, I don’t need anyone else. I am fed up with the teen girls’ hustling. I love only Heni.

  - Well, I nor could cheat my partner, even if people think whatever about every stars, only because they can do anything – Tom laughed again – But it’s pretty good feeling that young girls still like us when we’re already in this age, isn’t it?

  4

  In the rest of the day, Laurence was keeping an eye in secret on Heni’s behavior while they were looking after the children, then, when they went out to the living-room and he was memorizing his script while sitting on the sofa, sometimes looked at them during it. The most important reason of Heni’s love towards the children was always that fact they were their common children, and the man wanted to know if her relationship changed with them, but he didn’t notice anything. He thought he just didn’t want to notice it because he didn’t want to accept that he lost Heni, at least that he is going to lose her soon. Or she behaved with the children the same way only because they were her own children too? Or by sense of responsibility? He hardly could pay attention to memorizing the script.

  In the evening, Heni put the children to bed, and she met Laurence again in the living-room.

  - I would like to talk something over with you – the wife began it, Laurence didn’t surprise, he has been already waiting for talking about the divorce because of the other man.

  - It is the high time to speak about this… - he answered bluntly.

  - I know that it seemed to be pretty stupid that I let one of your fans into the house but she’s really a big fan of you and it would be very important for her to meet you more – the man surprised. So she was still continuing to search someone for him, and she is going to speak about the divorce after this.

  - And why would I meet her? – he asked surprised, with frowned eyebrows and downcast his eyes.

  - Come on, let’s sit down, let’s talk it over! – Heni was almost praying for it. They sat down to the sofa.

  - I’m really curious why do you want me so much to meet that little girl.

  - That little girl really very adores you… I mean I see myself in her and she admitted to me that she loves you.

  - So what should I do to her? – Laurence
answered with feigned laughter.

  - I know what she suffers by this much unrequited love because I’ve also gone through this. It’s a very grievous and desperate feeling.

  - So I should leave you for her??? – the man didn’t understand what Heni meant in this odd thing.

  - Only meet her, at least once, and you may become friends. It’s very important for her to feel like there is more hope when you’re already friends, because if we’ll get divorced, what almost surely won' t happen, then she would be probable winner at you. I also thought the same about it when Gina was in my place.

  - And if it turns out, my every fan is going to try it to say that they love me, to they’re going to meet me.

  - We should say Lucy that if she tells it one of your fans, I mean if anyone else will also try it; you aren’t going to meet her anymore. I mean if suspiciously many people will try it because who knows how many people love you because you’re so adorable! Please, at least for my sake! – Heni was smiling and sat into Laurence’s lap.

  - On my God, and I thought that you want to put me in touch with someone in order to I also get somebody because you cheat me and want to get divorced!

  - What???

  - It began with that you didn’t tell me why you were conducting yourself so strange when I came home from filming…

  - Well, when I’m recalling it, it really could be suspicious! – Heni was laughing.

  - So are you already going to tell me now what was it?

  - If you agree to you’ll meet Lucy.

  - OK.

  - I haven’t wanted to tell you till now because you also planned to talk to Heni because she was jealous of her younger brother and sister. Well, I talked it over with her already that day and she isn’t jealous anymore. Many times I already couldn’t use to endure it anymore and to expose the little ones to this jealousy and I believed you are going to come home only later.

  - The filming went so fast that we finished earlier than we tank, and I intended it surprise for you, this is why I didn’t tell you that I’m going to come home earlier. But you was who surprised me by I don’t have to struggle with talk her out of the jealousy.

  - I believed that you’re going to be angry because you were preparing for this unnecessarily – Heni was laughing

  - I’m sorry about I thought that you cheated me. It was so unbelievable that I have been who a girl needed who is so many years younger than me, even if only through some years.

  - You’re better to get to it, you already know about Lucy, and who knows how many girls there are like us!

  - I don’t care about the little teen girls; I had enough of you when you were in that age! On our holiday in Hawaii, you were who believed that I cheated you! – the man was laughing.

  - But that seemed to be so unambiguous! – Heni was laughing.

  - But this one was also really suspicious too! – they were laughing also at this.

  - That’s right.

  - And now you’re the sweetest girl in the world who is in her twenties. I didn’t even know that you’re so kind-hearted like this.

  - But not because you’re getting a teen girl from me! – Heni was laughing.

  - I don’t even want every teen girls in the world, only that beauty in her twenties – Laurence was smiling and kissed his wife. They were kissing long, and then they went upstairs, into the bedroom.

  In the morning, Laurence called Tom on phone.

  - Thought you for what you would do for me but fortunately it came out that I still don’t need your help.

  - Well, what happened?

  - I only was imagining things about she doesn’t love me anymore. I was never in a situation before like this that I’m with a girl who is so much younger than me, as an addition, she married me, and, at the first occasion, I began doubt she still wants me. I was never so jealous before like this, I always trusted in myself, maybe because of my fame, but it was so incredible that a girl who is twenty-nine years younger than me, loves me so much like this, that I also was surprised at my behavior that I immediately asked you for help. I have had some young fans before too who liked me as a man but this young girl really loves me and it’s an incredible experience to me also when we have been married for five years, and I also love her, so I got frightened that this big age-gap could divorce us, because she maybe didn’t find me as attractive as before.

  - And how did you realize that still you are whom she loves?

  - The reason of her mysticism was that she didn’t want me to be disappointed because unnecessarily was getting ready for reconciling the little Heni with Loretta and Laurence because she had already done it! – he was just laughing at this – And the reason of that she let the teenager little girl in, was just she took a pity on her because she was in her place before too, so she wanted to make us become friends to so that the girl feels better! Imagine what a kind-hearted wife I have! – he eulogized, being head over heels in love. This nor used to be just like him that much before he and Heni hit upon each order.

  Heni took the little Heni to the little girl’s friend, then ran back to the little ones, fed them and put them to sleep, then went back for the older girl, took her home, they went into a shop on the way, and when they arrived in home, it came into her mind that she didn’t now how to reach with Lucy, to tell her that the man agreed to the meeting. Maybe she’ll come back to the gate, because they haven’t given any availability to each order, so that to she let her to know in another way how Laurence decided. The little one’s crying was heard from the childrens’ room, she went back to calm them, then said the guards that when if they’ll see Lucy again at the gate, they can let her in, don’t lead her away.

  5

  Next day Laurence took the little Heni to the nursery school, his wife was staying home with the even more little ones during it. When he arrived in home, Lucy was already waiting for him in the living-room. He already couldn’t have even a bit of calm, he had to immediately deal with this little girl? But he promised Heni to try to make friends with her at least for her sake. By using his actor’s talent, kindly greeted the teenager girl who was exultantly thoughted him that agreed to the meeting. Laurence wanted to be over this trial to make friends and the girl had time for this so they began speaking. She was wearing a pink top and a black mini skirt. Her clothing was reminding him of Montana. She weared these colors.

  - This house is pretty nice. Since when have you been living here? – Lucy asked while sitting on the dark blue sofa.

  - Not too long time ago – the man didn’t want to reveal too much to this stranger about his personal life, as an addition, he felt no desire to meet her – We moved here because it is nearer to the filming studios and to the events in Hollywood where I go but I still maintain that house where we lived in New York.

  - Yeah, it’s reasonable… - the girl was bored with this subject, she only started with this not to seem to be obstrusive.

  - Where do you live? – Laurence asked by politeness.

  - I nor moved here a long time ago – if she had lived there long since, she would have found the man earlier – I lived in Canada till now and I was also born there but my mom is American and she grew up mainly here, later she moved back to the U. S. with me and dad. Now we live in Los Angeles – the girl was mainly inquiring after the man, by curiosity, and Laurence was mainly inquiring after Lucy, by politeness. This talking about themselves, was completely indifferent for the man but he thought it maybe wasn’t so much intolerably boring so that he doesen’t meet her anymore, so they talked it over to meet some more. Laurence decided that way only for Heni’s sake, but, by politeness, he didn’t tell it the girl. They talked it over to talk next time next weekend, in the desolate park. Lucy was disappointed because they are going to meet after so a long time but she said she was happy about he was ready to meet her again at all. And it was worth for Laurence to meet her, because he saw that his wife was happy about they could help that girl. But what Heni said that afternoon, he thought t
hat is going too far.

  - I invented to make a foundation for those teenager girls who are unrequitedly love a star and want to stop it because they would have much more possibility to ever find someone who they could feel like this towards him, who would love them too. And mainly because I know how terrible it is to live with this desperate feeling, when we almost surely know that there will not to be anything between us and whom we love the most in the world, at most we can ask him for an autograph.

  - And why do they need any money? – there was a lot of incomprehension in the man’s voice.

  - They need it to go to those huge psychiatrists who would help them to leave this thing, and huge psychiatrists cost much money. And we also should care about the poor ones who don’t have enough money to go even just to an average psychiatrist or psychologist, and I know it sounds to be stupidity but I also considered about we would help them meeting their beloved star personally, at least once, when their filming is too far from them so these teens haven’t got enough money to go there. This meeting would cheer them up so much that it would help their state of mind a lot.

  - If you think it’s such a good idea, what do you think, why didn't it come to anybody’s mind till now? – Laurence asked with incredulity.

  - Because I suffered this, I know what they feel, and also I have possibility to help them.

  - You think your special plight is a good example for them continuing to daydream about their stupidities? – the man asked, sounding rough.

  - It was completely clear for me too how much hopeless my situation was before it worked out exceptionally for me, what they only daydream about, we shouldn’t convince them of how bad that situation is, it’s already enough grievous for them, and when they also remind them, there isn’t worse thing than this. I’m rather a positive example from the point of view of their situation isn’t completely hopeless. It counts a lot to know that there is a little bit of hope, or they could be even completely depressed.