Geoff palmed his face as he leaned down and kissed him again. "I'll see you in the morning."
Ben watched Geoff walk out of the room and slowly sat back down on the sofa. He groaned dropping his head in his hands. He'd been so stupid. What was he thinking kissing Geoff? And what had Geoff meant? This would happen again? Did that mean he wanted to be with Ben? He knew what he'd done, how he'd survived and yet he still wanted him. Could Ben believe him? He started chewing on his thumbnail thinking about what would happen now. Something he wouldn't know about until the morning. And Ben wasn't sure if he wanted the morning to come.
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Ben woke the next morning to sunlight streaming in through the curtains. It pierced his eyes, and he screwed them tightly shut, grimacing at the stab of pain and pulling the bed covers up over his head, his stomach protesting. That second glass of wine had not agreed with him!
He rolled onto his side hearing a knock on the door. The door opened, and he poked his head out to find Geoff stood there wearing a pair of jeans and nothing else. His dick started to stir in his boxers as he looked at Geoff's chest. That surprised Ben. He couldn't remember the last time he'd had an erection.
Man, Geoff was built. No eight pack, but a nice six pack. Ben's heart started to race in his chest and he blushed, pulling the covers up so that only his eyes and head stuck out. He was on the thin side and had started to put some weight on now he was eating regularly, but still...
"Breakfast's downstairs when you're ready."
Ben groaned, pulling the covers back over his head as he heard Geoff laugh. He heard a clunking sound and looked up to see a cup by his bed.
"Tea. Thought you might need it. "
Ben groaned again, then pulled himself up into a sitting position on the bed and squeezed his eyes shut, waiting as his stomach protested. Once it had settled, he reached for the tea and closed his eyes as he sipped it and couldn't contain the moan when it hit his tongue. It was the best cup of tea he'd ever tasted!
"Five minutes and I'll be plating up. A proper English breakfast. Just what you need if you've had a couple too many the night before."
"Okay. I'll be there in a minute. Thanks for the brew." Ben smiled at him, taking another drink.
"Anytime."
Ben heard the door close and glanced over to it, leaning back against the headboard. What had he been thinking when he'd kissed Geoff? Yeah, Geoff had kissed him back, and he'd said they'd talk about it when he was sober, which was now, but what did that mean? Had he heard him right when he said that something would happen between them? And more importantly. Was Ben ready? He chewed his bottom lip, looking at the cup in his hands. He took a deep breath then released it slowly. If he was going to get any answers for his questions, he needed to get up.
He grabbed some pants and a shirt and, after a quick visit to the bathroom, found Geoff in the kitchen. There was a plate of food sat waiting for him. "Thanks."
Geoff nodded towards the plate and Ben started to eat. He'd felt a bit queasy before he'd started to eat, but that soon eased. Tucking in, he wasn't aware Geoff was talking to him until he practically shouted, "Ben!"
He looked up quickly, "Huh! Sorry. What were you saying?"
"Last night..."
"Sorry about that, it was the drink," Ben interrupted him glancing away. He really didn't want to look at Geoff.
"Oh, so you didn't mean to kiss me then?" Geoff frowned at him as he asked the question.
"No."
"That's a shame."
"What? Why?" Ben asked as he looked back up at him.
"I find you attractive, Ben, from the moment I first saw you lying in that hospital bed. There was something about you, but I didn't offer you a place to stay in the hopes that I could get laid. So, I hope that pass last night wasn't you trying to thank me for letting you stay."
"No! No, it wasn't." Ben shook his head.
"So, it was just the drink talking." Geoff stared intently at him. "No attraction at all."
Ben felt his face heat and looked down at his plate, playing with his cutlery. Should he tell him? Geoff had said he found him attractive, but what if it was some trick? He didn't want to get hurt. But Geoff seemed different.
Ben gulped before shakily saying, "I like you."
"I hoped you did. What do you want to do about it?"
"You're asking me?" Ben squeaked at him.
Silence filled the room. Eventually, Geoff spoke. "Let me tell you what I like? I thought about this last night and decided to be honest with you and let you decide. I'm dominant in bed. I like submission, total submission." Geoff leaned back on his chair. "You need to think about that."
Ben gaped at him. Dominant, like hitting people. What the fuck? "You like to hit people?" The last thing he wanted was someone to hit him.
"There are many aspects to BDSM. It's not all about pain, Ben. Yes, some people do enjoy that aspect, but others don't. I have been to clubs, and I'm currently a member of one, but I haven't been recently." Geoff took a drink of his coffee. "Some scenes I watch and others I don't. I like to be in control, maybe a little light spanking, but not serious pain. For me, both people involved have to enjoy it, and hitting someone and causing serious pain for that person to get off isn't something I enjoy. Plus, there's always safe words."
"Safe words?" Ben frowned again. He had no idea about BDSM other than people hitting other people.
"Yes. A word that a submissive can say if they want things to slow down or stop. The submissive is always in control. When they use their safe word, everything stops."
"So, no torture then?"
"No. As I said, the submissive is in total control, strange as that may sound to you."
"What do you like?" Ben asked him.
"Are you sure you want me to answer that question? You need to think about what I've said. I can show you a couple of websites that will educate you on what is involved. There are extremes, but I don't like that." Geoff paused, staring intently at Ben. "Would you like to have a look?"
"Would you always want to do that?"
"You mean would I like vanilla sex, as well?" Ben frowned. Vanilla? He nodded. "Yes, but I like the other too."
"Oh."
"Oh." Geoff smiled at him. "Think about what I've said and we can talk later. If you decide that's not your thing I'm alright with that as well. I want to have a relationship with you, Ben. I can wait until you're ready. The last thing I want is for you to rush into something that you're not ready for."
Ben watched Geoff clean up and thought about what he'd said. Geoff wanted a relationship with him, but it wouldn't just be ordinary sex. Could he do that after everything he'd been through, and if he couldn't, would Geoff willingly give up that part of himself to be with him?
"I'm going into the city today. Want to come with me?" Geoff asked after he had finished cleaning the kitchen.
"Sure, okay. I'll just have a shower then I'll be ready. Twenty minutes?"
"Yeah, go. I'll see you down here."
Ben stood in the shower thinking over what Geoff had told him. He wasn't sure if it was something he would be able to do. He wanted Geoff, but BDSM? He needed to seriously think about it before starting any form of relationship with Geoff.
Ben was back down in fifteen and within a few minutes they were driving into the city in Geoff's car. Ben liked the car. It wasn't what he expected Geoff to own. A people carrier. He told Geoff as much.
Geoff chuckled. "I always wanted a sports car, but when my first nephew arrived, I realised that wasn't going to happen. I love having them over and trying to fit everything and the children into a small car just wouldn't work. So, I bought this instead."
"You have them often?"
"Yeah, I like to give Harry and Lou a break. My sister has two children also, but she moved down south when her husband was promoted, so I don't see them as often. As for Charlie and Finley, they can be a handful, but I love them." Geoff smiled.
"Have you ever wanted children of you
own one day?" Ben asked him.
"Yes. I might be gay, but I do want a family of my own."
"I never thought about it. It wasn't something I ever thought I would have a chance at. I didn't expect to live for much longer, on the streets. It's not somewhere you expect to live for a long time." Ben felt Geoff squeeze his leg as he spoke.
"I guess not."
They sat in silence as Geoff drove into the city and found somewhere to park. Once he'd paid, they walked towards the centre. Ben looked at him as they walked. "What're you getting today?"
"What? Oh, it's Harry and Lou's wedding anniversary soon, so I'm looking for a gift for them."
"Have you anything in mind?"
"Nope. Nothing at all." Geoff laughed.
"How long have they been married for?"
"Er, not sure. Maybe ten years. They met at Uni and married not long after they both finished."
"So, what is ten years in married years? I mean what do you buy for ten years?"
"Don't know. Here, let me look on my phone."
After a minute or so looking, Geoff snorted before saying, "Tin."
"Tin?" Ben asked. Really? For ten years of marriage, it was tin?
"Yes. If you have been married ten years it's supposed to be tin according to this."
"Oh well. Tin of baked beans and you're sorted then." Ben smiled.
"Oh yes, I can see how happy they'll be with that!"
"I thought it was a great idea."
"Alright. I'll leave it to you to explain to Lou then." Geoff smiled at Ben.
Him tell Lou? "No thanks."
Geoff raised an eyebrow. "Wise decision. Let's go and see what we can find."
They spent a couple of hours battling the Saturday shopping crowds before they finally called it quits and left. Geoff settled on a silver picture frame and had booked them a romantic getaway to Paris for the two of them. Ben thought the holiday was a fantastic present. A weekend away, just the two of them with no children? It sounded like bliss.
When they arrived home, Geoff made lunch and then went to finish some work in his study, so Ben took Geoff's laptop and decided to look at the websites Geoff had told him about. Oh. My. God. The things that were on there! St. Andrews cross! Cock and ball torture! Whips, canes, tawses, floggers. Docking, sounding. People actually wore collars and some had leads attached and there were swings. Real fucking swings! No. Definitely not. Ben shook his head, clicking the different pictures, bringing more images to the screen.
Some of the stuff on the website didn't seem too bad. The Shibari looked interesting. The different ways someone could be tied up. Yeah, he did get a twitch when he thought about that. Maybe there were elements he would be willing to try if they went slow.
Pushing the laptop away, Ben sat back. He really did have a lot to think about.
CHAPTER TEN
After a couple of hours, Geoff went into the kitchen and began preparing dinner. They'd had a large breakfast and lunch so he was going to make something light. He stood looking at the contents of the fridge when he heard Ben come up behind him.
"Fancy a takeaway?" he asked Ben as he continued to stare at the fridge. Nothing was leaping out at him even though it was full.
Ben shrugged. "Sure. I was just coming in to have a look."
Geoff closed the door scratching his head. "Can't decide what to cook, so thought we could have takeout. What do you fancy?"
Ben glanced at the floor then up at Geoff, smiling. "Pizza and garlic bread."
Geoff leaned against the fridge door. "Pizza, huh?"
"I love pizza." Ben smiled, flashing his dimples.
Geoff nodded. "Alright. What do you want on it?"
"Meat feast," Ben answered immediately.
Geoff grinned at Ben. "I love meat feast too. Garlic bread or cheesy garlic bread?"
"Cheesy of course. Can't have pizza without cheesy garlic bread."
"Right. I'll order while you get us a couple of beers out."
Geoff placed the order and walked into the living room. "Fancy a movie? Action, horror or romance?"
"No choice. Horror wins all the time."
"Okay, old or new?"
"Let me have a look."
Geoff made way for Ben to see the films he had. He picked out a couple and handed them to Geoff. The Ring and Paranormal Activity.
"Okay. I didn't think you would go for these two. I thought you would want more gore."
"Nah. I like the scare factor, you know. That moment when you jump out of your skin with fright. I'm not so much into the blood and guts. Seems too many films have that in now for no other reason than they can."
"I'll put The Ring on first then, if that's alright with you."
They'd been watching it for a few minutes when the doorbell went. Geoff got up and a few minutes later came in with some boxes. Placing them on the table, he opened them up.
"Come on, dive in."
They ate the food while watching the movie. At one point, Geoff got up and took the boxes out before he returned with another couple of beers. By the time they started the second movie, Geoff was nice and relaxed. He looked over to where Ben sat on the chair.
Patting the sofa next to him, Geoff said, "You don't have to sit over there. Come sit next to me on the sofa."
He watched Ben start to peel the label of his bottle avoiding eye contact before he finally got up and sat next to him, giving him a shy smile as he did. It puzzled Geoff that someone with as much sexual experience as Ben would be so shy around him. Maybe he was shy in general, and he'd put it aside when he'd been on the streets working. Or maybe he wasn't sure how to act now they had admitted their mutual attraction and Geoff had told him about BDSM.
Geoff pulled him closer to him and put his arm around his shoulder. He felt Ben tense up for a few seconds before he relaxed against him, leaning his head on Geoff's shoulder. They continued to watch the film, and when it ended, Ben jumped up.
"I think I'll go to bed now."
Geoff frowned at him from where he was sat on the sofa before he put his bottle down and stood up. He watched Ben bounce from foot to foot, then reached out to hold Ben's shoulders. Ben looked up at him as Geoff slid his hands up Ben's shoulders and neck and eventually cupped his face.
Leaning forward, Geoff slid his lips across Ben's. Ben gasped at the contact, and Geoff slipped his tongue into Ben's mouth, moaning from Ben's taste. He could taste the beer and Ben. Ben's tongue touched his tentatively before Ben moaned and wrapped his arms around Geoff, holding him in a tight embrace.
Geoff stepped back to the sofa and sat down, pulling Ben down to straddle his lap, not once breaking their kiss. He pushed his hands into Ben's hair and wrapped it around his fingers while their tongues entwined. God, he loved the sounds Ben was making. His moans and little gasps had Geoff's dick hard.
Biting Ben's full bottom lip, Geoff licked the sting away, smiling at Ben's gasp. Kissing along Ben's jaw, his stubble scraping against his lips, Geoff moved down his neck before he reached Ben's collar bone. Stopping, he sucked on the skin, feeling Ben's body jerk above him. Geoff pulled back, staring at the mark he'd made, and suddenly felt possessive of Ben. He liked the fact the mark was there for everyone to see.
Looking up into Ben's face, Geoff smirked at the expression on his face. Ben's eyes were hooded, cheeks flushed and his lips were swollen and wet. He looked gorgeous when aroused. Geoff wanted nothing more than to hold him down and fuck him. He watched Ben open his eyes, and he could see the lust evident in the blown pupils.
Ben leaned down and kissed him again, licking his lips before pushing his tongue inside. Geoff sucked on his tongue, feeling Ben's body jerk. When Ben started to rub up against him, Geoff thrust up to meet him, grinding their hard cocks together.
Ben was moaning constantly, and Geoff thought he was going to explode from those sounds alone. Ben was panting, his body moving and rubbing harder and quicker against Geoff's. Geoff reached down between him and started to rub Ben's cock through his j
eans, feeling it twitch beneath his fingers.
Ben suddenly gasped and threw his head back crying out, his body jerking and shuddering, his hands gripping Geoff's shoulders. Geoff grinned, knowing he'd gotten Ben off. He liked being the one to bring Ben pleasure.
Ben's head dropped forward, resting on Geoff's shoulder, and Geoff pulled him close, listening as Ben panted. After a minute, Ben's breathing became steady and Geoff rubbed his cheek against Ben's hair.
After a couple of minutes, Geoff gently pulled Ben away and smiled at him. "You alright?" he asked when Ben wouldn't look up and meet his gaze.
Ben nodded but still wouldn't look at him. He put his fingers under Ben's chin and pushed his head up so he could look him in the eyes. Ben's eyelids looked heavy, his lips swollen, skin flushed, but he also appeared embarrassed, his eyes glancing away.
Geoff didn't want Ben to be embarrassed about what they'd shared. "That was hot."
Ben blinked looking at him, wide-eyed. "Really?"
"Oh yeah. Can't wait to watch you again."
Ben flushed even more as he looked away.
Geoff reached up and cupped Ben's face, moving it so he was facing him. "Hey, don't be embarrassed. You look amazing when you come and to know I did it? Wow."
Ben frowned, moving slightly.
"Getting a bit itchy?" Geoff smiled at him.
Ben blushed. "Yeah, I am."
"Want to go to bed?"
Ben's eyes went comically wide. "You want me to go bed with you?"
Geoff laughed outright at that. "I'll do whatever you want me to do. We go at your pace."
Ben chewed his bottom lip looking down at his hands in his lap. "Er, I don't think I'm ready for that just yet. Do you mind?"
"No. Do what feels right for you. Go and have a shower and I'll see you in the morning."
Geoff helped Ben to stand before cupping his face and slowly kissing him again. When he pulled away, Ben had a dazed look on his face. Geoff watched Ben walk out of the room before sitting back down on the sofa and running his hands through his hair. He wanted nothing more than to carry Ben to his bed, strip him down and fuck him until morning. He looked down at his erection. "Just you and me tonight," he muttered.
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