Reckless (Finding Ava)

by Jennifer Loren

  “Sean, are you sure?” Joel asked.

  Sean nods. “Yes, it’s not going to break the film.”

  “But it could certainly make it.” Joel huffed.

  “Maybe, but I am sure there is another way to make it better, isn’t there?” Sean asked.

  “Possibly,” Daniel conceded with a sigh.

  “Well, I need to go check on my wife so please go and enjoy yourselves. There is plenty of food and drink and even music if you desire to dance.” Sean nudges Joel’s arm, startling him out of his daydream.

  “Oh yes, Rebecca would you like to dance?” Joel takes my hand without waiting for my answer. I watch Sean, over Joel’s shoulder, walk into the house and find Ava inside fumbling around with something. He pulls her away from it and makes her look at him. There is some shaking of heads, some nods but eventually her highness’s happiness appears once again and she is whisked to the dance floor in my man’s arms.

  “Joel, maybe we should switch partners?” I suggested.

  “They just got out here Rebecca, I’m not going to interrupt them.”

  “Then I will.” Joel tries to stop me, but I approach the sickening embrace next to us before he can get out a full sigh.

  “Ava, do you mind if we trade partners?” I asked with the sweetest smile I could muster.

  “Rebecca, I haven’t seen my wife all day, so if you don’t mind I would like to dance with her a little longer?” Sean said, pulling Ava back to his chest.

  “That’s fine, but save me a dance for later Sean, okay?” I said earning a sideways glance from Ava.

  “Sure,” Sean said moving away from us.

  I spend the rest of the night trying to get Sean’s attention, but no matter how hard I try I always seem to be too late or interrupted by someone else. By the time the last guest leaves and the caterer has cleaned up for the night, Sean is nowhere in sight. I force Joel to help me search for him. When we finally find them, they are cuddling together under a blanket in an oversized chair. They sit within a sectioned off area in front of French doors leading into a bedroom, which I assume is theirs. An obvious sanctuary, even though you can still see the pool, the focus seems to be the pond and trees in the back. The pergola that surrounds is strewn with vines, billowing light fabrics and an outdoor fireplace, which is already burning out. They are talking and laughing quietly to each other, so I drag Joel over to them, making sure he brings chairs with him.

  “So, what’s so funny?” I asked as they both turn to me.

  “Nothing important,” Sean said while helping Joel pull over his chair. “So did you guys have fun?”

  “Yes, it was great, thank you,” Joel expressed. “You guys?” He yawned.

  “Yes, we did. It was our first real party since we moved in here.” Sean says with his hands obviously wandering under the blanket draped around them. The discussion becomes annoying, but not any more so than Joel agreeing with everything Ava says. Idiot.

  “The music is still playing. Should we have once last dance before calling it a night?” I asked, anticipating my long awaited dance.

  “Good idea, Rebecca,” Sean said getting up with Ava in tow.

  I jump up dragging Joel along, but before I can reach Sean, he is already lip-locked with her. I watch them closely, waiting for a good moment to interrupt them. I have to endure watching him grab her ass and pull her closer to him. He whispers something to her, causing her to smile as he lifts her up and sticks his tongue in her mouth. “Oh, I didn’t need to see that.” I said, hiding my face in Joel’s shoulder.

  “Umm, guys, maybe we should see you tomorrow,” Joel called out to them.

  “Oh shit, sorry, I forgot we weren’t alone. Yes, we will see you tomorrow.” Sean waves us off, not wasting any time before returning to her.

  Joel stumbles to the bar. “Did you drink that much?” I asked, shocked by his demeanor.

  “What? I don’t know. Just let me make one more then I will get to you in a minute.”

  His wretched behavior is certainly not turning me on. “I think I am going to sit outside for a little while. It’s a nice night, and I need some down time before bed. Okay?” He looks up at me with all smiles as he scans me over.

  “Okay, don’t be too long.” he said, adjusting himself.

  “I won’t.” I smiled, exiting the guesthouse quickly with a blanket and my cell phone.

  I walk back towards the main house, finding a comfortable spot near the pool to sit and gaze over the place. Holding my phone up, I take pictures of my surroundings. I wonder how much I could get for an inside video of Sean Grant’s house? I set it to video and wander the area, taking in everything halfheartedly until I come up on their room. I can hear them laughing and talking. Curious, I kneel down to look through an opening within the drapery and watch them. Watch him. She sits on the edge of the bed with him standing in between her legs, caressing her legs as he kisses her deeply. I wait, anticipating, as his hand moves up her dress and without hesitation pulls her panties right off of her. My curiosity rises as I watch him hesitate and concentrate on her face again. He says something to her before kissing her again and she lifts her arms so he can pull her dress off her slowly. He meticulously removes each item she wears before laying her back in the bed gently, finding every part of her body with his mouth. I can’t stop watching him. He handles her so gently. Oh, how she moans with every touch of his lips on her skin. He arouses me when he sits up to take his shirt off, showing off his masculine chest and arms. I pretend I am her, kissing his chest and grabbing his belt, undoing his pants for him and pushing them off his hips. He crawls over her kissing her tenderly, pulling her legs up around him as he enters her. My body weakens seeing all of him, I begin to moan watching him fuck her deep and slow. I can almost feel him inside of me, feel his tongue caress mine, hear his groans deepen with every thrust into my hips. I continue to watch them caressing and kissing, moaning loudly enough for me to hear now. Feeling my body begin to tighten in anticipation, I grip my phone tighter. This is good, too good. I smile brightly as I realize - the recording that I am getting. Happily, I am surprised to see her on top of him now, and showing quite a lot of herself from this angle. I briefly worry about him catching me, when he sits up to start kissing her body again, grabbing her ass and pulling her hard to him. The moans get louder and I lick my lips with excitement, but suddenly Sean pauses and looks out the door. I jump quickly out of sight, darting across the grounds to a safer range to view my video. With relief, I find my lounge chair and admire my new money-making video.

  “Rebecca?” Startled, I nearly fall out of my chair.

  “Damn Joel, you scared me half to death!”

  “Sorry, I was wondering when you were coming back?” I start to yell at him for being so nosy when I notice the bottle he is carrying.

  “Can I have some of that?” He nods, handing it to me. I take several drinks, “Do you want to stay out here with me?” He wastes no time crawling in next to me and fondling me. I take another few drinks while he pulls my dress off revealing my breasts to him. I take his shirt off, jerk his pants off and rub him, lick him and suck on him until he is erect in my hands. “Fuck me hard, baby!” I yell, rubbing his cock until he starts to moan uncontrollably. Finally, he takes hold of me and bends me over, my legs spread wide for him. “Fuck me!” I screamed. The more I said it, the harder he pounds into me. I want to be loud, I want to outdo them. I am thrilled when I catch a glimpse of Sean walking outside of their room, taking notice of us. I pose for him, twisting so the moonlight highlights my naked body. Come on Sean watch what he is doing to me, crave it, want it and it will be yours. I look back towards Sean to see his expression but he has already walked back inside. Anger shoots through my veins as I moan louder and louder, eager to disturb them. I come fiercely. My anger encourages my determination, so I drop to my knees baring my naked body to the moonlight proudly as I suck Joel and praise him the louder he comes. I feel superior in my attempt to outdo them, to outdo her. I am posi
tive Sean will be dreaming of me tonight.

  Chapter 6

  Sean

  Ava spent months planning this area behind our room specifically. Our place away from it all to remember our moments when we first met and it couldn’t be more perfect. Ava sits in my lap, touching me and encouraging me as the alcohol within her brings out her dirtier side. I enjoy feeling her hands touch my body under my clothes and down my pants. “You’re being naughty,” I said, watching her lean back on my chest innocently and pulling her hand out of my pants. “I didn’t say I didn’t like it.”

  “Too bad, I’m not in the mood anymore.” she said, raising her chin in a cute defiance.

  “Is that right?” She nods, giggling, giving her true desires away. “I like your boots, maybe you can wear those when I fuck you later.” I laugh as she acts shocked by my statement, yet she still allows me to adjust her on top of me and push her ass down onto my erection. “Feel that?”

  “Yes,” she moaned.

  “I want to feel you, baby.” She moves her arms behind her, to the back of my head, giving me full access of her. I reach down under our blanket and pull her dress up to her thighs. Kissing, nuzzling her ear and whispering dirty things as I reach down in between her legs and … Rebecca and Joel find us and make themselves at home, pissing me off. I was well on my way to taking advantage of Ava’s and my intoxication when they interrupted. Luckily, I am able to get right back on track after Rebecca suggested dancing. Cradling Ava in my arms, sliding my hands over her soft dress and feeling every curve of her body. “I love this dress on you,” I whispered in her ear. She blushes away from me. Damn, I get so excited when she does that. “It’s so soft, I can’t stop touching you,” I said, as she grips me tighter.

  “Good,” she whispers.

  I smile, and the devil within me is starting to come out. Kissing her, I lean down to her ear, barely touching her skin with my lips. “Baby, I want to pull this dress off of you and fuck you with those sexy as hell boots still on you.” I squeeze her ass, pushing her into my hard-on that is only getting bigger the more I touch her. She looks up into my eyes and I lick my lips slowly. Instantly, she pulls my head down, grabbing my lips with hers while grazing my hard-on with her hand … twice. I lose it, and let her know what I want to do to her.

  Her soft moans would have caused me to strip her right there if we had not of been interrupted by Joel. I had forgotten they were there. Thank goodness, they leave quickly. I kiss Ava’s giggling lips as I watch Joel and Rebecca walk off towards the guesthouse. I continue to press Ava up on me until after they go inside. Grabbing the edges of her dress, “Okay baby, we’re alone now.”

  “Sean, no. Not out here, not with them here.”

  “But…. Daaammnn.”

  “Don’t pout, and I will let you do everything you’re wanting to do inside. With my boots still on.” Ava winks at me and walks seductively in the house unzipping her dress slowly as she walks. I love her so much.

  I follow her with ideas racing through my mind, ready to be dirty as hell with her until something in the back of my head resurfaces and I can’t. No matter how much alcohol I have in me I cannot forget that day.

  It was but only a week ago and the day was fairly ordinary, I had just finished some paper work and decided to go see what Ava and Lillah were up too. As I approached Lillah’s room I could hear both of them giggling and laughing, I turned the corner and saw them playing. Ava in a big fluffy white play hat, Lillah trying to put on bracelets and oversized sunglasses on her. Ava makes faces at her every time she adds something more, causing Lillah to laugh even harder. They are both so beautiful, but never more so than when they are together - especially when they are laughing. When Ava catches me staring, she motions for me to come in.

  “What are we playing?” I asked, laughing at Ava’s ridiculous accessories.

  “We are playing tea party. Do you want to play?” Ava smiled at me.

  “I would love to. Can I, Lillah?” I ask my daughter, who nods excitedly and immediately searches for something. She finally appears with a big fluffy pink hat and puts it on my head.

  “Here Daddy.” she said.

  “Do I need this?” She nods, clapping, and proceeds to get more.

  “You cannot attend the tea party not properly dressed,” Ava snickers at me. I nod back at her, feeling completely ridiculous, but when Lillah brings out a matching pink boa I know it is about to get worse. I suck it up and embrace the ridiculousness. Swinging the boa around my neck, I take my pair of sunglasses and work the outfit for her, causing Lillah and Ava to both laugh hysterically. Ava and I make fools of ourselves over doing the actions of sipping tea and discussing with our daughter, made up adventures. The whole thing … is the most fun I have ever had, and the best part is that my daughter loves every minute of it. After I put Lillah to bed, I find Ava waiting for me. “Hey, Mr. Pinky Bear.”

  “Ha ha, don’t you call me that in front of anyone else. I do have a reputation to uphold you know. Besides, Randy and Ethan will never let me hear the end of it.”

  “So, I shouldn’t have the pictures framed?” She laughs as I hug her with the largest smile.

  “I had the best time with you both,” I said.

  “That’s good. So did I, and I am sure Lillah did too.”

  “I want more days like this Ava.” She looks at me with a curious expression. “I mean, I want more of this.” She shakes her head at me. “Ava, come on, you know what I mean. And I know you want the same. You have had that look in your eye, ever since you held William in your arms a few months ago. I knew soon as Abbey announced she was pregnant with him you wanted to follow right after her.”

  “Well, it’s just that Lillah is almost three now and …” her head drops but I lift it back up to look at me.

  “You’re not listening to me. You know I want more kids and I am ready to do that now.” Her eyes sparkle and I feel a twinge of excitement shoot through my body. “I can’t wait to get you pregnant, Ava.”

  And at that moment my world changed. Every time we have sex, it is isn’t just about sex anymore it is about getting my wife pregnant. I want it to be real and wonderful for the both of us. Conceiving Lillah will certainly always be memorable and I want it to be the same with this child.

  So right now, staring at her with her drunken sweet smile, I hold back briefly deciding to take my time with her. She has been off birth control for more than enough time now, and the thoughts that are running through my mind make her even more beautiful to me. I can’t hold her close enough to me. I can’t kiss her enough or even make her feel good enough. Everything is about her right now, and I am going to make sure she feels it. Our motions are so in sync and feel so good, until something catches my eye outside. I blink my eyes to refocus on the odd glimmer, but it disappears. A little paranoid, I hold tight to Ava and switch the lights off while laying her down under me. She is concerned, but with some simple words of encouragement on my part, I am able to put her at ease. Within seconds, I forget about my paranoia and make love to my wife as she deserves. While Ava is cleaning up for bed, I walk outside to verify what it was I saw… only I become distracted by the loud moans coming from the other side of our pool. Instantly, I regret looking up. I close my eyes tight and rush back inside, making sure to overlap the draperies so Ava doesn’t see them. I jump into bed, concealing my expression before Ava walks out of the bathroom, only she starts to leave our bedroom.“Where are you going, baby?”

  “I’m going to get some water … is that okay?” She smiles uneasily.

  “I’ll get it for you …”

  “That’s okay, I will get it. You stay in bed.” She said, exiting before I have a chance to stop her. I wait for her, knowing what is surely to come. Hearing her approach slowly, I look up, laughing at her wide eyes and open mouth. “Sean, did you know?”

  “Yes, I’m sorry. I walked outside for a second and saw them. I tried to prevent you from seeing it.”

  “Oh my… Sean that’s
…”

  “Disgusting?” She nods and I laugh again. “I know. I feel like I should take another shower.” I said, cringing as I hear Rebecca moan louder.

  “Oh Sean, is that weird for you? She is your ex …”

  “No, not weird. It’s long been over between us. I can barely stand her now, and seeing her like that …” I make a face as I feel my stomach churn. “It makes me nauseous, actually. I will never know what I saw in her.”

  “She is very pretty.” Ava said with a questioning look in my direction. “Despite her horrible personality.” she mumbled.

  “Trust me sweetheart, she isn’t the least bit appealing to me.” I said caressing her cheek with a smile.

  “Sean, it’s one thing for them to do that with only us here, but when Lillah …”

  “Don’t worry about it, I will talk to them tomorrow. I will make the rules perfectly clear to them.” I said, pulling her into my arms and breathing her scent in before drifting off.

  ~

  The next day, I kiss Ava goodbye before she leaves for work. I work out with my trainer, then plug in my headphones, tuning out everything and enjoy the view of our home while I do some cardio. At least, until I catch a glimpse of Rebecca and Joel in the guesthouse, reminding me of the conversation I need to have with them. I decide to get the dreaded conversation out the way before I have to leave to pick up Lillah. I hesitate at the guesthouse door, not used to having to knock on the door to my own home.

  After some harsh movements inside, the door opens. “Morning.” Joel said still wearing his boxers and his hair a mess.

  “Good morning. I need to talk to you about something before I leave to go pick up Lillah and the boys.” I look at Joel as sincerely as I can. He instantly steps aside and motions for me to come in and I am immediately met with arms wrapping around my waist.

  “Good morning, Sean,” Rebecca giggled. Grimacing, I undo her hands from my waist and she happily skips to Joel’s side, staring up at me eagerly, and waiting for me to speak.