Wanting him back

by Mary Norton

  His tongue up and down, and then slowly circulates my nerve, which makes radiate pleasure throughout my body. Augusto sucks, licks, alternating the most delicious torture. Secure your hair not to fall, but I know that at some point I will not endure.

  - My dad! - I mean so low as I can. His finger goes in me. Rubbed back and forth. So he puts one more, making me swoon for seconds. Two fingers in and out while his tongue continues its work.

  My body begins to weigh. I take my hands to my breasts, squeezing, strong. Under the bra and squeeze my nipples hurt so hard they are.

  - Shit! - I hear him swear. With half-open eyes, I can see your pure pleasure to look at me. It works faster your language. It is the best view I have. His body kneeling before me, giving me pleasure, eating me as I need.

  I enjoyment. Whispering your name down. My body seems to be connected to a power cord. While my body trembles, Augusto even with my leg up, lift me up, so that surround your hips with my legs.

  His cock, hard, even under his pants, hit squarely at my cunt. Play to head back with just this simple contact. Somehow, he managed to take her shirt. I help with the zipper of his pants. Holding my face, it makes me look at him.

  There's something in his eyes that hit me hard. He is exposed just like me. His great and sweaty body. Her eyes with a flame that makes me want to scream. His jaw cracked. Your vein on his face that I so love.

  And his mouth ...

  - Wow! - Cry throwing his head back as he enters me without warning.

  Her hips slide out, causing me to protest when he leaves. But not for long. Augusto enters harder on me. I close my eyes when he goes filling me with every thrust. Heavily, deliciously. So good.

  There is something different about this night. Something new, I ...

  - Juli! - Augusto find my lips and kiss me more ardently. It comes completely from my body and then back hard. Hitting the nerves inside me.

  Sweat runs all over my body. It's crazy all. Augusto seems more hectic each investee. His mouth found my breast and he sucks hard making me scream his name. He twists his hips and thrust deeper, making me crazy.

  My orgasm begins to grow. But I do not want to stop now.

  Secure your face and stare at him. My God! It is broken. And he is trying to somehow fix it with my help. He closes his eyes and I ask him to look at me. But I can not, since it is ... God, this is crazy.

  I scream louder when it further intensifies its impulses. Pleasure shock me with the intensity that overwhelms me. I dare not close my eyes as joy wrapped in Augustus. Already he has his eyes closed and locked jaw while eating me stronger. He continues, not for nothing. Only our bodies clashing with each other. My back began to hurt, but the pleasure back in anger. Holding me in his wrath. I can not stand for long and enjoyment again and this time bring Augusto me.

  He moans my name while continuing its attacks on me. It is so delicious and makes me want to stay here in this room the rest of the night. After seconds or minutes, I do not know, Augusto lays her head on my shoulders. His breathing is fast and your body is still shaking like mine. And with an approach, I can feel the beat of his heart.

  Stroke your hair and simple contact seems to have it aroused. Augusto moves away a bit, but still keeps me stuck between the wall and your body. He looks at me for milliseconds and then falls me. He starts to get ready and when I make mention of me cover it for me and get me patiently, gets my bra, reaches my shirt and help me dress. I bite my lip when he straightens my skirt. So take my leg and clean the liquid falls for her. My face is red as he smiles. After I stowed it away.

  Only then, he finishes getting ready.

  And it's different, I lost your smile. I lost Augusto who was having fun with me. I do not want to believe it was for what we share here. I do not want to think so.

  - Are you alright? - He asks me when buttoning his pants.

  Wave so, but the way he looks at me makes me realize that he wants me to say.

  - Yes, I am! Just catching my breath.

  He gives me a smile, but did not last long. And it makes my stomach vibrate. And it's not good. He tidies his hair and I do the same with mine. I hold it in a bun, but he approaches a little hesitant and undoes.

  - Let it loose, please. - Said massaging my scalp. - You look even more beautiful with them loose.

  - I'm sweaty. - I give the first excuse that comes in my mind. - I'll end up with rashes to let them loose.

  Augusto around me, grabs my hair gently and breathe against my neck. The sweat on my body against his warm breath makes me shudder. And he continues. So let a small kiss on my neck.

  - This will help!

  He opens the door and gives me pass out.

  When I hear the high of club music, only then I realize that probably the room was soundproof. For not even remember we were a few meters from this crowd. Augusto holds my hand. And with that simple gesture I know there's something wrong. He does not hold me tightly as it does. If I were not holding, we would already be separated. It is as if he wanted it.

  My God!

  I stop a little and he does the same.

  - It's all right?

  Wave so. No, please! Do not do it.

  - Are you sure?

  Tell me you. What happened? Please tell me. But it does nothing but to face me. He will not say.

  - I'm thirsty! - I say through it and going to the bar. His hand is on my back as he accompanies me.

  I grab my phone and see that it's eleven o'clock. I could be home.

  - Do you wanna eat something? - He asks me very close to me.

  - I'm not hungry!

  Augusto agrees and asks something to him. A few moments later he picks up his phone and starts typing furiously. And I still drink. But I stop in the second cup I take after our return.

  He stares at me a few seconds and I see you're worried about something.

  - You have to go? - I swear I tried to have a little patience.

  It seems uncertain to tell me.

  - Augusto, you have to be somewhere else?

  He nods reluctantly.

  - I'll order a taxi for me.

  - Juliane!

  - No, really, it's okay. I'm going home and try to find a plausible answer to know what's gotten into you. Go to where you have to go. We talk another time.

  - Juli ...! - He looks at his phone as if the device were to give some light to it. - I have the same standing in one place, but I do not want to leave you.

  I hate having to do this.

  - What is the most important, Augusto? Let me improve this question: I am important, Augusto?

  It seems ungrounded this time. Augusto looks again to the phone and I have an answer.

  - Not to answer. - Wave dismissively. - Seriously, I do not know why I'm surprised.

  - Shit ...

  - Yeah, something like that. I'll talk to you later. Or not!

  I go to the bar not calling the way he is calling me.

  You will not cry, Juliane. I forbid you.

  Paid command that is in his name. This time I'm not stupid. I grab one of the taxis that are in front of the nightclub.

  And by divine miracle I did not shed any tears.

  12

  I have not heard of Augusto for three days. And now coming in now in full Tuesday, I do not know what to do if it appears. He did not call me, do not sent messages and even gave smoke signal. The stupid part of me, wanted him to do this and tell me what's going on.

  But the sensible part that decided to take forward all said that everything is worthless. Since it is the second time he does it.

  Of course I have not forgotten what happened the first time. And man, I knew that hostel room that was not simple. And on Saturday, I was pretty sure I'm completely screwed.

  I want to believe that this is only thing in my crazy head. But my heart slowed says it is not. We both that room was not just flesh and mad desire for each other. It was over. I felt in my last drop of blood, which is more than that.

 
; I just do not know if it's the same thing for Augusto. Wow, that was ... I do not know how to describe. But I felt something from him. And I'm sure he felt a lot coming from me. I did not stop screaming his name. And the way that he continued pleasure of shaking. It was as if he wanted to never end. That never got out of there. Or was it just me seeing what he wanted.

  And after all that we share in that tiny room. Everything went downhill. It has to be something to it. He can not not have felt it. My God, I'm doing stupid paper?

  I think so. Since he did not come to work yesterday. I did not give a stalker. I refuse to be. His Duarte asked to try to talk to him, but had no answers. But after lunch, my boss came to me saying that Augusto is cold. He even asked if he could go see how he is. But devised a beast apology and said he could not.

  I know he must think me ungrateful, as Augustus did not hesitate to stay with me in the hospital. And I'm avoiding it. But as Augustus himself said. It was the obligation of it. And that's not mine.

  If he does not want to talk to me, I will not be insisting. I can be a crazy off, but I'm not stupid to be dragging me with him. We are well grown to learn when we are welcome or not. And in this case I'm not. And nor is it for me.

  Liar!

  Yes, I'm worried.

  But that does not change anything. Augusto never called me to go to his apartment and do not think he'll want me to go as well. It showed that I'm not important. And I continue like this in your life.

  It hurt when he did not tell me. I really wanted him to tell me whatever the problem, but he chose to be silent again. I asked to be sincere. Who played clean to say if it was something only once.

  I did not demand his eternal love. Only the truth about what's wrong. I did not get the answer to that. He had two chances to tell me and wasted both. I do not know if I can give him a third.

  After all, I can not even think of him telling me their problems.

  Of the two stories, mine was the one that was revealed. While Augusto remained just listening and getting to know more of me, I know nothing of it. Unless things that I know what I found with the company. I told him about everything that reminded me, as I had no memory of him.

  It is Juliane, your bundle of paper deserves an Oscar.

  - Juli, honey. - Katia comes into my room holding two folders. - In a little while I'll be in a meeting with Augusto if you can help us go I will thank.

  Wave with a smile for her.

  I'll have to put up with the two chat while only watch without serving for nothing. Not all flowers at work. I should know. I grab my phone and go to the stockroom lunch with the boys. Leo drags me to the cafeteria. Nothing against it, but I do not trust the restaurant food. But now he wants to torture me. And to make a little Augusto aside, I accept to go with it.

  - You want to go at another time in São Paulo this year yet? - I ask in the hope he says yes.

  - No, I think just after Easter. - Says when we sit down in one of the large tables. - Finished your coffee?

  - Yes! - I make a pout.

  I start eating what looks like rice, but for me it's more like a grain porridge, if that exists. At least the meat is good. My phone rings and I see the lawyer's name.

  - Hi!

  - Juliane, what good answer. I'm calling to tell you that your case was scheduled for two weeks.

  - Wow that was fast!

  I'm relieved that it all might end. In fact, I tried to forget it most.

  - Yes, it seems that the promoter is streamlining some processes. - He thinks of something. But I decided not to say, as he sighs. - And yours was one of them. I'll send you an email with the details. But this meant to you.

  - Sure, thank it. And I will wait your email.

  - I'm ordering. Stay well, Juliane.

  I turn off the phone and put on the table. I even try to keep calm, but my hands start shaking. Leo realizes and then squeezes my hands in his.

  - Juli?

  I look at him. My eyes have misted with tears.

  - Juli, tell me what happened?

  - The trial ... was marked.

  He seems not to understand. But then his eyes widened.

  - That's good, Juli. So you will get rid of everything. - He squeezes my hands. - Do not worry, it'll be fine.

  I agree with him. But I can not help thinking that I want Augustus beside me. As he was in all these days.

  - It's just that right, Julie?

  I know that Leo realizes it's not just that. I know he knows that there is something more. But I do not want to involve him in this whole thing.

  - Yes. It's just that. I got these weeks very quiet. Forgetting all that, then comes the trial and everything back.

  Leo goes around the big table and hugs me.

  - I do not know how you're feeling, but I'm here. Let me know when it will, I'll go with you.

  Wave grateful. But I need to be alone for a while. I go to the meeting room that is where I always find a bit of silence. Sitting in the chair I start to think of everything.

  How Augusto saved me. How it irritated me and then immediately won me over. As he saw me and see me. As he accepted me as I am, without finding me crazy. He could see the true Juliane. And he was with her. He heard, embraced and wished. But it was just that.

  I do not know what might be wrong with it. But I know me do not, my heart has nothing wrong with falling in love with the guy that I wanted. Even if the feeling is not mutual, it is more than true.

  I realize that clung to someone who probably wanted nothing to compromise. And I can not even collect it from him, since it never came. I left him over, knew me and enchant me. I was exposed.

  And my momentary lapse of attention became permanent when it came to him.

  Again I let myself fall in love with beautiful face. Only this time, I do not know what the problem is. Whether it's him or me.

  My phone beeps and know I have to get back to work. I go to the bathroom and retouch her makeup. My eyes are red. I can say that are the new lenses - which are not - that I'm adapting. Surely everyone will swallow that excuse.

  As soon as I get to my room, Augusto appears. My gaze meets yours. And we were both watching us in absolute silence. It looks good from his flu. But your eyes look heavy, as if he could not sleep.

  He looks at me from head to foot, but back to look me in the eyes. I want to hit him. My violent instincts surfacing.

  - Are you alright? - We both asked at the same time.

  It would be funny, but I can not think of anything that makes me smile this time. I remember what happened Saturday and can hold his tongue and be polite. I sit and I turn on my computer.

  I hear him take a deep breath when you do not give him what he wants.

  We've been through this. He knows very well how things are.

  - You need anything?

  It breathes high again.

  - I need you to approve this refund today if possible. Silvia want to make the transfer before the end of the afternoon.

  I pick up the paper from his hand.

  - Anything else?

  He nods not and turns to go. He stops before leaving my little room and measly seconds I think he will speak. But he shakes his head and walks away. Resigned, I do what he asked me and I have everything ready in half an hour.

  I get an email from my boss saying that my holidays are right for two weeks. Run to see the date of the judgment and see that it is two days before my trip to my parents' house. At least that I can.

  Just do not know how to tell my parents what happened. I begged much so that Augustus did not tell my brother. But I do not want to have to remember that night. In fact, I do not know if I'll have to testify.

  Forward the email from my boss to HR. So I will be able to become more quiet. I see my ticket and choose the seat. I have not got the ticket back. This I have not decided yet with your Duarte how long I will take. But looking like that out, things are quite calm. My only concern right, was Augustus. But it is already more than integrated. So, I'l
l be a little more time with my family at home.

  I leave the papers in the lobby and tidy for the meeting with Augusto and Katya. As soon as I enter the room, I see that it's not just the two. I did not know we would have someone from outside. In fact, I do not know what this meeting is about.

  Once you enter, Augusto gets up with everything, causing the chair to fall.

  - Oh, dear. I was so distracted so he did not see his secretary to get there?

  He does not answer, just stares at me with despair and fear!

  - What are you doing here, Juliane?

  His voice is hard and desperate.

  - Katya said you would need me. - I turn to the blonde. - Good afternoon, I'm Juliane. I am the executive secretary of the company. - I extend my hand to her tightening firmly.

  - Oh, you're Juliane? The girl who was taking care of my boyfriend as I arrived.

  I can hear my heart breaking into several pieces. I leave the things that were in my hands fall. Unconsciously, I take my hands to my neck. Right over the mark he left on me as he ate me in the little room.

  I never imagined it would be. Not even crossed my mind. But it all makes sense. And when I remember the question I asked him on Saturday, the truth comes as a strong slap in my face saying how stupid and an idiot I am.

  - I think you did not know that! - The blonde laughs when you see my surprise. She may be amused.

  He must think it very funny. I can not look at him. I can not even hear anything that is said. Only the noise of the pieces of my heart falling to the ground. I can not even know if I'm breathing.

  Automatically me down and picked up the papers and my cell phone. I squeeze my eyes tight. Fighting explosion inside me.

  Deep breath. And I get up. Even though my heart weighs more than a ton at that time. I look at the blonde who without knowing, gave me the biggest beating of life.

  - I think I am. And yes, I am very surprised at this.

  She smiles and holding the hand of Augustus. I keep my eyes on the table.

  - Thank you for helping him to adapt. - She's really grateful.

  I smile and turn to Katya who has an arrogant and disgusting smile. She knew. She always knew. And the way it looks victorious just said she knew about me and Augustus. How can a person be so unprincipled that way?