Celested: Confessions of Molestation, Lipstick and Lingerie
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Celeste Starr: I'll see if i can find them
Lust Daddy: Did you have a TV in your room? When did your daddy take you to his job?
Celeste Starr: no not after i got caught with Howard stern lol. when i was about 8 or so i went to work with him
Lust Daddy: How long did you watch Howard Stern before your mom finally caught you?
Celeste Starr: 15 mins or so
Lust Daddy: Did you know who he was?
Celeste Starr: not really...saw jenny McCarthy on the show so had to watch lol
Lust Daddy: How did you keep tabs on Jenny McCarthy?
Celeste Starr: sneaking around..
Lust Daddy: What would you do at your daddies job?
Celeste Starr: look up jenny McCarthy! Lol. i had access to internet there
Lust Daddy: At your daddies job?
Celeste Starr: yep
Lust Daddy: Did he ever catch you looking at Jenny McCarthy?
Celeste Starr: yes! he likes her too. i learned that
Lust Daddy: What age did you learn that? When was the first time you saw a penis on the internet?
Celeste Starr: hmm 8-9. oh i don't know on that one
Sexual Sadism/Hypocrites
Fact: Sexual Abuse in the Roman Catholic Church: 40% of Catholic Nuns have been sexually abused.
Source: www.vaticancrimes.us
Lust Daddy: Do you cry after you have an orgasm sometimes?
Celeste Starr: one time yes
Lust Daddy: What did you feel?
Celeste Starr: just like that little girl who had been molested
Lust Daddy: Did having the orgasm intensify the pain or the pleasure?
Celeste Starr: mix
Lust Daddy: Did you want it to happen again?
Celeste Starr: no way
Lust Daddy: Even though it felt very good. So those were " real" tears. Did you feel ashamed of yourself or something?
Lust Daddy: yes the pain is not worth it
Lust Daddy: Did you feel ashamed of enjoying sex or the thing that made you come?
Celeste Starr: No not now. When i was younger yes.
Lust Daddy: Is thinking about how you were molested the only way that you can come.
Celeste Starr: yes
Lust Daddy: Do you know what a sexual sadist is?
Celeste Starr: heard it yes
Lust Daddy: It's someone who get's sexual pleasure from talking down to others, making them feel pain.
You know that incest is probably one of the most popular sexual fantasies in the world... Mostly because so much of it goes on unreported.
Celeste Starr: that's scary lol
Lust Daddy: Go to literotica.com: The #1 category on the site is couples, the number 2 is taboo/incest.
...Then everything else.
A lot of times, people are so sexually repressed that even the simplest things turn them on. When these things are socially " acceptable" and it is one of their only forms of pleasure, then, they go chasing the high that they first got from the experience.
i.e. It is evil for me to dress in skimpy clothing, it is evil to watch Howard Stern, it is okay for me to talk negatively about hookers.
It is okay for me to be an asshole who talks about how slutty my daughter is, it is bad for me to encourage her sluttiness... Yet, the daughter's sluttiness is the center of attention, the arousal point and NOTHING in my world is going to turn me on more than her. Deep, right?
Imagine my cousin wanting to play fight with you because it's the only way that she can socially acceptably feel my penis, therefore feeling high.
Sometimes we participate in these things without knowing we're doing them.
It goes from legitimate spanking to another legitimate spanking to making excuses to spank to out right abuse... just to have the right to see your smoking hot pussy.
Celeste Starr: understood, understood
Lust Daddy: Do you feel sad to people who become addicted to hurting others all in the name of "religion" and " being " right?"
Celeste Starr: no...they have a mind and they choose not to use it...i don't feel sorry for people like that
Lust Daddy: Do you feel that they need to " grow up" and accept who they are, what they feel and handle it in the most appropriate way possible? Or is it like language, where you only know the language that is spoken around you?
Or when they finally finds a language that is more appropriate to the way that they want to live, that they study that language until they speak it fluently?
I know that recently I am learning a " new language" of how to handle myself from the old way, while the old me was so used to thinking the " language" I spoke was right, I made mistakes in interpreting situations?
Celeste Starr: yes they need to be open minded and learn not everyone is the same and accept that other people have to right to be who they are just as they do
Lust Daddy: What if they're always working and since they are in control, they can fire anyone to opposes him and this is the language that they speak.
Do you accept that all people are at different levels of their own " shit?"
Celeste Starr: yes
Lust Daddy: Do you think the message that you got from your parents is that it's okay to be sexy as long as you're getting paid for it?
Celeste Starr: then no. they didn’t want me to enjoy sex at all, at all paid or not
Lust Daddy: Everyone has sexuality and everyone expresses it in different ways. Sometimes people are very extroverted with their sexuality... Sometimes, parents live through their kids sexuality vicariously, sometimes it's negative vicariously.
For example: There was a TV show where the police chief would visit the hooker district, just so the pretty, under aged hookers would hit on them, then he would tell them how dirty their job was, tell them to clean themselves up and go to school, then, he would give them a lollipop.
That turned him on. He would masturbate in the alley after the interaction.
How did your parents exhibit their sexuality?
Do you feel that sometimes, they would repeat the same topic over and over again? like "No makeup till you're 14" or "I don't want my daughter dressed like a prostitute" and stuff like that?
Did they talk about the other little model girls and call them prostitutes... Looking at them, guessing which ones are being relentlessly molested and which ones weren't?
Celeste Starr: Yes they tried to brainwash me to believe that
Lust Daddy: How much time would your mom and dad talk about people sexually misbehaving?
Celeste Starr: Lots All the time tried to make me think it was bad
Lust Daddy: Did they make you participate in the conversations?
Celeste Starr: They asked me my opinion. When I told them I was punished it didn't match theirs
Lust Daddy: Punished in your room filled with "legal lust."
Celeste Starr: Exactly. So either way they lose. I was already smarter than them
Lust Daddy: Legal lust that your molester would approve of, I take it.
Sick Puppy Seduction
Celeste Starr: Oh God..my manager was like 30 when I was 16 we liked each other
Lust Daddy: How did you express it?
Celeste Starr: Not in front of my mom she killed me when she found out about this
Through email
Lust Daddy: Oh My God! What would he say to you?
Celeste Starr: Lol just he liked me wished he Could kiss me
Lust Daddy: How long did you guys talk for?
Celeste Starr: 2 year
Lust Daddy: WOW
Celeste Starr: Yes
Lust Daddy: So, he talked to you from the ages of 13 through 15?
Celeste Starr: 14 to 17
Lust Daddy: Did you ever spend time with him alone?
Celeste Starr: Yes when my mom went to physical therapy
18 believe
Lust Daddy: Did you look him up on Facebook to see if your first love is still around?
; Celeste Starr: Lol no. He's turned all religious now. Not into that
How soon after you began emailing him did you fall in love with him?
Tell me about the need that you felt to be sexy for him that really amplified your desire to be a successful glamour model.
Celeste Starr: No i didn't have a web cam. i didn't mind his age..i liked him for who he was
I don't think i was in love with him...didn't know what that meant back then
Lust Daddy: Did you think that you were in love with him or was he just a guy that was excessively fun and exciting to flirt with, since he had your career in the palm of his hands?
Celeste Starr: i didn't think i was in love with him
Lust Daddy: How did you respond when your mom found out about your "secret affair" with this older man?
Celeste Starr: I WAS SCARED FOR MY LIFE. She slapped me and kicked me out of the house
Lust Daddy: Did you get a chance to call him and warn him that your mom was on a rampage?
Celeste Starr: nope
Lust Daddy: How did she find out?
Celeste Starr: searched my computer
Lust Daddy: You were logged into your email or she maybe saw some pictures? Maybe a
How soon after you 2 started talking did he tell you that he was in love with you?
Celeste Starr: she figured out my email
and logged in
Lust Daddy: What!?! Did she have her suspicions?
Celeste Starr: yes
Lust Daddy: Did she ever bring them up? What was your "suspicious" behavior?
Celeste Starr: no..but i knew..
Lust Daddy: Wow.
Lust Daddy: So, you talked to your modeling agent for 2 years, off the books in a romantic capacity. Define "romantic?"
Celeste Starr: puppy love back then. In my mindset.
Lust Daddy: Is puppy love him telling you how beautiful you are?
Celeste Starr: yep...lol
Lust Daddy: Is puppy love dressing extra cute when you knew you were going to see him?
Celeste Starr: yep
Lust Daddy: Is puppy love him telling you how terrible every girl he's ever been with was and how perfect you are? (which is completely justified) What was your favorite topic and how did he groom you from that child star that he discovered and groom you for the big time as a domestic exotic star?
Celeste Starr: yes attitude is my favorite ...he always said attitude is the key and confidence
Lust Daddy: He made you discover the source of confidence and where it comes from?
Celeste Starr: well i did that on my own
Lust Daddy: What was the sexual component of the relationship?
Celeste Starr: There was not one. not that he or i did not want to its just a matter of what is best
Lust Daddy: Did he say he wanted one with you?
Celeste Starr: Yes
Lust Daddy: How did he say he would like to offer it to you on a silver platter?
Celeste Starr: Indeed he did
Lust Daddy: Did you tell him which clothes you thought were the cutest?
Celeste Starr: yes
Lust Daddy: Did he tell you which clothes he'd like to see you in? What were they?
Celeste Starr: no
Lust Daddy: Which clothes did you say that you liked the most and wanted to wear for him?
Celeste Starr: any kind of dress or skirt outfit
Lust Daddy: Would you describe what you wanted to please him in in very great detail, like you're doing right now for me?
Celeste Starr: yes
Lust Daddy: You come back from high school to message your manager, what is the first message that you send him?
Celeste Starr: what is our next move? I'm ready to work!
Lust Daddy: And what would he say?
Celeste Starr: back then it was harder to find jobs with the kind of modeling i was in with the town i lived in
Lust Daddy: What kind of jobs would he promise you? Would he promise you the world on a silver platter as long as you obeyed him and kept the lines of communication open?
Celeste Starr: yes...but i knew better that i had to work and go find the connections on my own i didn’t ' trust him
Lust Daddy: You still went along with his seduction "just in case" he could get you on Nickelodeon, etc...
Celeste Starr: correct
Lust Daddy: Was he absolutely shameless in his pursuit to seduce you? Tell me some of the things he would suggest to you? Maybe moving to LA together?
Sharing a bed... Being your biggest supporter... The one who fed you and comforted you?
Did you feel that he was an escape from the strict rules you had around the house, so even though you knew he was taking advantage of a minor, he was still sexier than the other alternatives?
Celeste Starr: he did suggest that but i said no and also my mother said no to me moving
not without her to a degree yes was escape
Lust Daddy: You guys were going to run away together?
Celeste Starr: there was no plan
Induction into Nymphomania
Lust Daddy: Do you enjoy being eye-molested and gawked at? To make a mans jaw drop? To make boys all around the world masturbate gallons of semen to your pretty face and body... Does that make you feel pretty?
Celeste Starr: Yes! Lol but what makes me feel pretty is more how i feel in my skin
Lust Daddy: When was your first experience with lust? Was it from applying lipstick for the first time or wearing a sexy, red dress? Was it when you were dancing in the mirror one day and it just seemed to possess you? Did you mistake the lust you felt as something cute and friendly, when really your lust is like a wolf in sheep’s clothing?
Celeste Starr: i think it just happened, i just saw it one day in my eyes. and yes when i was young i tried to mask my lust....my mother made me
Lust Daddy: Did you mask it in leotards and tights, dancing sensually around the house? Did you mask it by veiled flirting and sexual gestures towards authority figures? How much did being molested at the most impressionable age possible amplify your sexual needs?
Did it make you want to be reprimanded sexually in your own private sex life today in the forms of spanking and light bondage?
Celeste Starr: I did mask it with the dancing around the house etc. yes i love spanking and bondage lol
Lust Daddy: Did you like to do things "accidentally" that exposed pieces of your sexuality? Maybe talking in an extra-sexy voice or maybe begging, which is the most common way to vocalize lust?
Celeste Starr: oh yes...i did all of that
Lust Daddy: What age did you begin masturbating to fantasies?
Celeste Starr: 8
Lust Daddy: Around the same age that you would watch porno’s right in-front of your dad.
Did that give you a rush to know that someone might catch you looking at Jenny McCarthy's tits?
Celeste Starr: i was scared of my parent
Lust Daddy: And that made you submissive. Did your dad ever almost catch you watching
porn before the time when you were 17?
Celeste Starr: nope..i hide it well
Lust Daddy: Just like the emotional sexual molestation you bore your entire childhood
that tweaked your sexuality to the masterpiece that is is today. How did you hide it?
Celeste Starr: Correct
Lust Daddy: What age did you discover that guys like that, when you put their dicks in
your mouth and you lick it, like it is a normal lollipop... Or taking semen on the face... and it's just as natural as washing your face?
Celeste Starr: Lol that came to light when I was older
Lust Daddy: If you weren't afraid for your life as a kid, do you think you would've noticed your teachers penises shift or grow whenever you came around?