I Can't Let Go

by Chenell Parker

  “Boy, that nigga gon’ lose his mind when he finally get that virgin pussy. He’s already in love and he ain’t even hit it yet,” Prince laughed as he grabbed a few gift bags from his closet.

  “Fuck him. He can’t be too much in love. He’s still with that old bitch Venus.” Kimora frowned as she tore into her gifts bags. She was all smiles as she looked at the Gucci bag, shades and slides that Prince had given her. He gave her a few gift cards too and she couldn’t stop thanking him.

  “I’m telling you Kimora, that nigga is in love,” Prince maintained.

  “Whatever,” Kimora said, right as her phone rang.

  It was twelve on the dot and she smiled when she saw that Tino was calling. Over time, she and Tino had formed an unbreakable bond. They knew each other well but it was strictly platonic. Tino hadn’t touched her since that night of her seventeenth birthday but he was always begging her to wait on him. Kimora didn’t know what she was waiting for but she did it anyway. She felt like a fool for loving him but she couldn’t help it. He made it too easy.

  “You talking all that shit but be smiling hard as fuck,” Prince teased.

  “Happy birthday baby with your grown ass!” Tino yelled when she answered the phone.

  “Thanks, same to you,” Kimora replied.

  “Where you at? I’m coming to get you,” he said.

  “To go where?” Kimora asked.

  “It’s a surprise. Where are you?” he asked again.

  “I’m at Prince’s house,” Kimora replied.

  “I’ll be there in ten minutes,” he replied before hanging up.

  Kimora got up and put her gifts away. She downed the last of her drink and talked to Prince until Tino called and said that he was outside.

  “Make sure that nigga strap up too,” Prince said as he walked her to the door.

  “Nigga please. You can’t give me no advice about that,” Kimora laughed as she waved and walked to Tino’s car.

  “Give me a kiss,” Tino demanded as soon as she got inside.

  “Kiss Venus old worn out ass,” Kimora replied.

  “Stop playing girl,” Tino laughed as he pulled her close and kissed her.

  “Where are we going?” Kimora asked again once he started driving.

  “You’ll see,” he replied as he turned up the music, signaling the end of their conversation. It took them about twenty minutes but they ended up in the Lakeview area. Tino parked in the driveway of a condo-styled home that overlooked the lake. The house had a huge wraparound balcony on the second floor and Kimora was in awe when they finally walked inside.

  “Who lives here?” she asked as she looked around.

  “For the next few days, we do,” Tino replied, confusing her even more.

  “Huh?” Kimora asked with a frown.

  “It’s an Airbnb,” he replied as he grabbed her hand and led her upstairs.

  Kimora gasped when she saw all the gifts and balloons that were scattered all around the room. She and Tino agreed not to exchange gifts but she knew that it was too good to be true. He had candles lit around the room and food in covered dishes on the table. Kimora appreciated it but her family issues were still weighing heavily on her mind.

  “Thanks Tino,” Kimora replied but she didn’t seem too excited. He worked hard all day to make sure that everything was perfect. To him, it was more than just her eighteenth birthday. To him, it was the beginning of something special.

  “What’s wrong?” Tino asked as he hugged her from behind.

  “Nothing, I’m good,” Kimora said.

  “Talk to me baby. You seem like you’re preoccupied,” Tino said as he turned her around to face him.

  “I’m good,” Kimora replied with a forced smile.

  “Tell me what’s up,” Tino said as he looked at her expectantly.

  “It’s really nothing,” Kimora assured him. She took a few minutes to tell him what was up but she was tired of talking about. She wasn’t moving out of town but she was going to miss Al and her mother.

  “That nigga out his mind if he thought you was going anywhere.” Tino frowned.

  “That wasn’t even up for discussion. Prince is gonna get a two bedroom so I’ll be good,” she replied, making him frown again.

  “Let’s eat so you can open your gifts,” he replied as he pulled her over to the table.

  They sat down and talked while they ate. Afterwards, Kimora opened her gifts while he cleaned up their mess. She didn’t even know that they had a Jacuzzi on the balcony but they stripped down to their underclothes and got in.

  “How did you find out about this place? It’s nice as fuck,” Kimora said as she sat in between his legs and enjoyed the feel of the bubbling hot water.

  “I got my ways but forget about all that. Are you ready for a nigga or what?” Tino asked.

  “Ready for what?” Kimora countered as she turned around to face him.

  “I told you to wait for me. Did you?” Tino asked as he stared at her.

  “Are you asking me if I’m still a virgin Santino? If so, that’s none of your damn business. You got a whole bitch at home and I’m sure y’all are fucking every chance you get. This is not the pussy that you should be worried about,” Kimora snapped as she climbed out of the Jacuzzi and walked back into the house. Shit went left real quick and Tino was pissed.

  “The fuck is that supposed to mean. You been dealing with somebody else?” Tino asked as he followed behind her.

  “How can I when you’re always around? How is it fair that you go home to a bitch every night but you want me to be by myself?” Kimora fumed.

  “I don’t want you to be by yourself! I want you to be with me!” Tino yelled.

  “No, I’m not doing this with you. I’m tired of you confusing me. You wanna act like my man but only when it’s convenient for you. Fuck this, I’m good on you,” Kimora said as she grabbed her discarded clothes.

  “I wanted you from the first day we met but I had to respect your sister’s wishes. She asked me to wait until you were eighteen and I did. The shit killed me but I’m happy that I waited. I got to fall in love with you as a person without sex being a part of the equation. Now, answer my question. Did you wait for me?” Tino asked as he pulled her close and kissed her neck. The way he was looking at her had Kimora ready to melt like hot lava.

  “Yes,” Kimora whispered right before he pressed his lips against hers.

  The kiss started off slow and sensual before it got aggressive and animalistic. Tino quickly removed her bra and underwear before stepping out of his boxers. Kimora felt his erection poking her and she gasped when she looked down and saw it. She didn’t know if her virgin goodies could handle all that and she got nervous just thinking about it. When Tino got on his knees, he cupped her butt and lifted her in the air. Kimora wrapped her legs around his neck as he thrust his tongue inside of her. When he stood up, she held on tight as he walked around the room tongue fucking her like a pro. Kimora grinded in his face and he slapped her ass, encouraging her to keep it up.

  “Shit Tino, don’t stop,” she begged and panted.

  His phone was ringing off the hook but that mattered none to him. He was devouring her and her screams of pleasure seemed to motivate him even more. Kimora was bucking like a wild horse as she grinded in his face. Her entire body trembled as she came but Tino kept going. He laid her down in the bed, never removing his mouth from between her legs. Kimora’s fists were gripping the sheets but he forced her to grab the back of his head instead.

  “Feed it to me,” Tino said when he looked up at her.

  He looked sexy as fuck and he didn’t have to ask her twice. Kimora lifted slightly from the bed and fed herself to him as she forced his face in deeper. Tino was moaning like she was the best thing that he ever tasted. He was into it just as much as she was and that was the best feeling ever. Kimora’s body started to quiver and her eyes rolled up to the ceiling. She squealed in delight as she gripped the sheets and came again. Tino lifted his head up
and smiled as he crawled up her body, leaving a trail of kisses. His face was soaking wet and Kimora was curious. She pulled him in for a kiss, tasting her juices that were saturating his face. When Tino positioned himself in between her legs, her entire body stiffened.

  “Relax baby,” Tino said as he positioned the head of his dick right at her opening. When he tried to enter her, Kimora tensed up.

  “No, I don’t think I can do it. It hurts,” Kimora whined.

  “I didn’t even do nothing yet,” Tino laughed.

  “It’s too big Tino,” Kimora complained.

  “Are you trying to die a virgin?” he asked her.

  “If I have to,” Kimora replied seriously. She wasn’t about to let him rip her apart with that anaconda that he was wielding.

  “Wait, I came prepared,” Tino said as he got up from the bed and searched for something in his duffel bag. When he pulled out a bottle of KY pleasure gel, Kimora laid back while he rubbed some in between her legs.

  “Go slow,” she said when he climbed back on top of her.

  “Just relax baby. Don’t tense up,” Tino instructed as he slowly entered her.

  “Oh shit! Wait Tino. It doesn’t fit. Take it out,” Kimora begged.

  “Look at me baby. I need you to relax. The more you resist, the harder it’ll be. Once I break through, it’ll be all good from there,” Tino assumed. He had never been with a virgin before and he was just as curious as she was. Every woman that he’d ever been with was always experienced.

  “Okay. Use some more lubricant and just do it fast,” Kimora instructed.

  “I got you,” Tino said as he applied some more lubricant like she asked him to. Once he did, he entered her slowly at first before he thrust himself in deeper, inch by inch.

  “Fuck! This shit hurts. Am I bleeding? I think you tore something,” Kimora yelled as her face contorted into a frown. Tears poured from her eyes from the pain but the worst part was over.

  “Damn,” Tino moaned as he slowly started to move in and out of her.

  It felt like his dick was suffocating inside of her but it was the best feeling in the world. He was as gentle as he could be since it was her first time but it was taking everything in him not to go crazy. When Kimora started to moan, he knew that the pain had subsided a little but he wanted to make sure.

  “You good baby?” he asked while looking down at her.

  “Yeah,” she nodded and that was all the confirmation that he needed.

  He sped up the pace a little as they found their rhythm. Tino grabbed her ass and started pounding into her. She was tight as fuck and Tino wanted to die and be buried inside of her. He wanted to fall asleep in it and wake up the same way. They only had seven deadly sins and Kimora’s pussy had to be number eight. She had the kind of shit that would ruin a man’s life. The kind of shit that made you high without drugs or alcohol. It was official. Kimora was the full package and he would put a nigga in the ground before he let them get a taste of her. He loved her parents for creating something so perfect. Venus could have the house and everything in it because he was officially home.

  Their first two times they did it missionary but Tino liked excitement. Kimora was inexperienced but he was showing her the ropes as they went along. Hours later, he had her bent over the balcony and riding him too. Her movements were uncoordinated but that was cool. Kimora was a fast learner and he was a great teacher.

  They didn’t go to sleep until five in the morning and Tino woke up wanting more. It was almost noon when he got up to relieve his bladder, but Kimora was still sleeping. They had taken a shower earlier but he was about to get her dirty again. He was happy that she didn’t have on any clothes because that made his job easier. She was on her stomach when he climbed back into bed. Tino bit her ass cheeks softly, making her turn over onto her back. When he spread her legs and started kissing in between her thighs, Kimora’s eyes fluttered a little. Tino dipped his head between her legs, making her eyes pop open.

  “Good morning baby,” he said before he took her clit into his mouth and sucked it softly.

  “Morning,” Kimora moaned as she grabbed the back of his head. She remembered his instructions from last night and pushed his face in deeper and fed herself to him. He used his tongue to massage her juicy middle until she came and pushed him away.

  “You better get used to waking up like that.” Tino smiled as he laid on his back and pulled her on top of him. He caressed her back lovingly as they laid there silently. He felt at peace and Kimora was definitely worth the wait.

  “I’m not complaining,” Kimora replied.

  “Come on baby. Show me what you learned last night,” Tino said as he slapped her ass. Kimora lifted up so that he could enter her. The ringing of his phone interrupted their moment, making him curse underneath his breath.

  “Just answer for the damn girl. You didn’t go home last night and I’m sure she’s worried,” Kimora said as she tried to get up.

  “Chill out Kimora. Did you ever think about where you wanted to live?” Tino asked her as he held her tighter.

  “I told you, I’m going by Prince for a while,” Kimora replied.

  “Nah, that’s not happening,” Tino replied.

  “Why not?” Kimora asked.

  “Because I said so. We need to get our own spot,” Tino said.

  “We? You already have a spot,” Kimora reminded him.

  “I’m not trying to waste your time Kimora. I told you to wait for me for a reason. I’m not trying to just mess around with you. I want you to be mine, officially and exclusively,” Tino said.

  “What about Venus?” Kimora asked.

  “What about her?” Tino countered.

  “I’m not doing the back and forth thing with you Santino. I can’t lie and say that I don’t want this too but you better not be on no bullshit. The first time you try to play with me, I’m done,” Kimora warned.

  “I’m not even on it like that baby. I’m gonna tell Venus what’s up. I’m too grown for all that sneaking and hiding,” Tino said as his phone started ringing again.

  “You can answer it. I’m going to the bathroom,” Kimora said as she got up and walked away.

  Tino’s eyes followed her until the bathroom door closed. Kimora was perfect to him. Now that he had her, he never wanted to be without her. That’s exactly why he finally decided to answer his phone for Venus. He couldn’t hide from her forever and he wasn’t trying to.

  “What’s up?” Tino said as he got out of the bed and slipped on his boxers. He walked onto the balcony and smiled when he looked down.

  “Seriously Santino? Is this what we’re doing now? I know it was your birthday and all but that was no excuse for you not to come home last night!” Venus yelled.

  She knew that Val wasn’t doing a party because she was in Mexico visiting with some of her family members. It took Tino forever to convince her not to. Venus was happy because she didn’t want to be bothered with going to her house anyway. She just assumed that she and Tino were going to do something together but he didn’t even bring his ass home. Venus was worried for a while because he didn’t answer his phone. That was, until she saw some of his family members from out of town wishing him a happy birthday on Instagram and he responded to each one. She was pissed and wondering what he was up to. She had Tino thinking that she hated social media but she was a ghost follower under another name.

  “I’ll be there today. We need to rap about a few things,” Tino replied, pulling her away from her thoughts.

  “Yeah, we sure do. We’re not about to start this bullshit. Fuck with them hoes and bring your ass back home. You already know how it go,” Venus fussed.

  She didn’t like that he cheated but there was nothing that she could do about it. All she asked was that Tino didn’t make her look stupid in front of the same hoes that she saw every day. Venus knew that a lot of women wanted him but she wasn’t about to be disrespected like that. In all the years that they’d been together, Tino had never sle
pt out before. She didn’t want none of his hoes to even think they were that special.

  “I’ll get up with you in a minute,” Tino replied before he hung up.

  He texted with Dirty back and forth for a few minutes before he went back inside. When he did, Kimora was sitting on the bed scrolling through her phone. She threw on a pair of tights and a t-shirt and he slipped on some basketball shorts.

  “I’m hungry,” Kimora said as she rubbed her flat stomach.

  “We can go grab something to eat but let me show you something right quick,” Tino replied as he pulled her up.

  “What are you doing?” Kimora giggled when he covered her eyes and led her onto the balcony.