Masked Feelings

by Lechna Baram

  “Thank you,” I whispered but I knew that he heard me. He squeezed me tighter and I felt him peck me on my head before letting go. He was so caring lately.

  “I want to take care of you,” he told me, his gray eyes meeting my green ones. I could see sincerity burning in them. I hugged him again before letting go.

  “I want food now,” I said, and just a few seconds later, my stomach grumbled making Damian chuckle. He took my hand in his, and we made our way to the car.

  “You'll have to take your medicines before eating,” Damian stated out of the blue as we walked down the parking lot. The car was parked quite a few meters away.

  “When I'll eat, I'll feel better. The medicines will be of no use,” I explained, turning my head to look at him. We soon reached the car and he opened the passenger door so that I can get in. He was such a gentleman.

  “Did you study in the medical field?” Damian asked, sounding genuinely interested. I shook my head, a frown slowly forming on my face as I got I'm the car.

  “No, I didn't,” I answered, waiting for him to shut the door but he simply stood there and rolled his eyes.

  “Then shut up. If the doctor told you to take the medicines, you take them,” he told me sternly and by the tone he was using, I knew that it was better not to argue with him. He closed the door, making me groan slightly. I hated taking medicines. I watched as he walked to the driver seat and got in the car. He looked so handsome in his suit and tie. I gulped and closed my eyes. It was so difficult to concentrate around him.

  “Can I ask you a question?” I asked, with my eyes still closed. I could hear him turn the engine on and he hummed to signal that I could. “Why do you have to be so freaking sexy? I mean, I can't even concentrate when you're around me!” I exploded. Damian turned a little bit to look at me, surprise and amusement filling his gray hypnotizing eyes.

  “I hate it when women curse but damn, I find it hot when you're the one who does it,” Damian suddenly said, his eyes fixed on me. His words made me unwillingly press my thighs together. I wanted him. He closed his eyes for a few seconds and seemed to be concentrating on his breathing pattern.

  “Damian?” I called. Damian opened his eyes slowly. He was staring at me. His pupils were dilated with lust. “I'm hungry,” I told him, my voice quite hoarse. I didn't even know whether I was hungry for food...or for him. When I bit my lips, I knew that I wanted him. I wanted to have him close to me. What the hell has he been doing to me? The man has taken so much importance in my life.

  “Let's give you some food” Damian said after exhaling. I nodded, then he started driving. “What do you want to eat?” he asked.

  “You,” I answered, staring at the road. The car swerved a little bit, making me turn to look at Damian who gulped. He was surprised by how straightforward I was.

  “Holy shit,” he mumbled under his breath.

  Chapter 38

  News

  Alena and Dean were at Damian's house but the latter decided that it was a good idea to inform my sister that I fainted. I glared at the sexy man leaning against the wall and smirking at me. My sister was sitting in the couch with Dean sitting next to her.

  “Stop glaring at me,” Damian said, amusement glimmering in his beautiful eyes. I glared harder.

  “Stop smirking at me,” I retorted and turned to look at my sister when I heard her sigh.

  “You guys are simply impossible,” Alena sighed.

  “Uh oh.” We all turned out attention to Dean who was sitting just next to Alena with his laptop on his lap. He was staring at something on the screen and it seemed to be really interesting. He quickly raised his head to look at Damian. His eyes were wide open. “You're in some deep shit, brother,” Dean mumbled. I quickly sat next to him and pulled the laptop to me. My mouth dropped open at the celebrity blog.

  'The Rich Damian Spears and the Rebel Athena Williams in a relationship?'

  I gaped at the headlines in shock and saw that just below it, was a picture of me and Damian holding hands in front of the hospital. Damian quickly walked to us. I read the article and I nearly fainted again.

  'The rebel child of the Williams Family, Athena seems to be in a relationship with the rich Damian Spears. Can Athena be pregnant already? This question may be raised as the two lovers have been caught in the hospital. Damian Spears seems to be finally getting over Rosemary perfectly fine.'

  “And the rumors are going to start all over again,” I groaned, pushing the laptop away from me. And now, tabloids are going to say that I was most probably the reason Damian and Rosemary broke up. I turned around to look at Damian and saw that he was frowning. He seemed annoyed by this whole situation. I took a deep breath and stood up. “I'm going to sleep a little bit,” I mumbled and started walking away.

  “Athena!” I heard my sister call my name but I ignored it. I didn't want to face all the rumors again. I didn't want to hide my face every time there was a camera. I quickly got in my room and went to sit on the couch facing my bed. It was nice to live with Damian. But all this was just an illusion. Rosemary was still present. Damian still had feelings for her. I am just his fuck toy and I accepted that fate. I closed my eyes and leaned my head against the pillow next to me. I wanted to be in bed but the bed seemed so far.

  I stared at the window in my room, then realized that I was in the wrong room. I was supposed to sleep in Damian's room. My mind slowly drifted to the intruder. I stood up and walked to the bathroom, where the words were still written on the mirror. I stared at my reflection and then realized how messed up my life was. I could feel my eyes tearing up. People are going to start judging me all over again. I was going to be on the front page of all freaking magazines. People's words hurt. I closed my eyes, trying to prevent the tears from rolling down my cheeks.

  “Kitten?” I turned around to see Damian standing by the door. He looked worried. “What are you doing here?” he asked as he walked towards me. I faked a smile to show him that I was fine.

  “I forgot that I was sleeping in your room.” I admitted. When he finally reached me, I was surprised when he pulled me into his arms. I sighed in relief and pulled him even closer. I feel safe when I was around him. I knew that slowly I was becoming emotionally dependent on him.

  “Let's go to our room.” I lifted my head to look at Damian, then nodded. “Alena and Dean are staying for the night,” Damian told me. I took a deep breath and moved away from him.

  “It's going to be disrespectful if I go to sleep right now,” I mumbled. “I'm going to come with you.” A smile lit his face as he leaned and kissed my forehead.

  “That's my girl,” he praised, making heart race. He just said I was his. I smiled, trying to hide the real happiness I was feeling at the moment. I started making my way to the door, knowing that Damian would be following behind but I was pulled back. I turned to look at the sexy man behind me. He slowly slipped his fingers through mine and brought my hand to his lips. He dropped a small kiss on the back of my hand, making my heart explode. He then pulled on my hand hard, so that I was pulled towards him. I crashed on his hard chest with a yelp, making him chuckle.

  “Damian,” I groaned, playfully glaring at him. He gently leaned his face towards me and the next thing I knew, he was kissing me. His lips felt so right. I moaned against his lips and when we heard a gasp, we both pulled away to turn to look at the door. My sister stood there, her jaw wide open. Then suddenly, a wide grin broke on her face.

  “I knew it!” she shouted in happiness. I quickly took a few steps away from Damian and groaned slightly at my sister's weird dance steps. Damian chuckled next to me, not really minding the fact that my sister just found out about me and Damian. Damn. She most probably thinks that Damian and I are actually going out together. Little does she know that we are only fuck buddies.

  How the hell am I going to tell her that without getting an ass whooping?

  “It's not what it looks like!” I exclaimed out of panic. Alena stopped dancing and scoffed. “It's r
eally not what it looks like,” I repeated, this time, making Dean scoff. “Can you stop scoffing?” I shouted, a bit annoyed by them. This time, Damian scoffed. I turned around and punched his arm. “You're supposed to be supporting me,” I huffed.

  “What do you mean by it's not what it looks like?” Alena asked as she wiggled her eyebrows teasingly. “Did a snake bite him on the lips and you were sucking out the venom?” my sister asked, making me frown at the weird idea.

  “What?” I asked in confusion.

  “Never mind, I heard that in a movie,” Alena said as she shrugged. I rolled my eyes and walked out of the room to avoid her questions. Unfortunately, everyone decided to follow me. I walked in the living room and sat on the couch. Just at the moment, my phone started ringing. I pulled the phone out of my pocket and smiled when I realized that it was Rose who was calling.

  “Hey!” I exclaimed happily. It had been a while since I last talked to her.

  “I miss you,” Rose said. I smiled and pulled my legs up on the couch. Alena sat next to me while Dean and Damian sat on the couch just in front of us.

  “I miss you too.” I admitted. “When are you coming back?”

  “Not now,” Rose said. “It feels good to be back home to be honest,” she said. “Why don't you come for a week or two?” she asked suddenly. “I miss you and I'm pretty sure you need some space. I've seen the article,” Rose told me. I closed my eyes and leaned my head against my sister.

  “It might be a good idea,” I agreed. “I'll think about it,” I mumbled. “I met Jace,” I finally told her.

  Silence. For the first thirty seconds, there was pure silence. Then I heard her take a deep breath.

  “What did he say?” she asked, her voice really low.

  “He was asking for your whereabouts and he regrets leaving you that night. He told us that he hated your job and he was mad that you considered the job more important than him,” I said.

  “Of course, I do not!” Rose exclaimed. “I cannot just quit and be totally dependent on him.”

  “Yeah, I actually told him that and he told me that there were other jobs available,” I said. Rose took a deep breath again.

  “Listen, I'll call him then I'll tell you what happened,” Rose said. “And please, I miss you, try coming for a week at least,” Rose begged.

  “I'll talk about it with the others. I love you,” I said.

  “I love you too,” she said, ending the call.

  “What job?” Alena suddenly asked next to me. My eyes widened. I completely forgot that Alena was next to me and she was unaware of our jobs. “What's so wrong with babysitting?” she asked again. Damian and Dean simply sat there, not saying anything. They were not even trying to help me.

  “Uhh.” I started and pretended to be busy with the phone while trying to come up with a relevant excuse.

  “Uhh what?” Alena said as she rolled her eyes.

  “Jace doesn't think that babysitting is the job for Rose. He thinks that she can do much better but she's not willing,” I suddenly said and mentally high fived myself. I could see Dean nodding his head in appreciation. I didn't know I was that good at lying.

  “What else did Rose say?” Alena asked.

  “She told me to come over at her parent's house to stay for a week or two,” I told them and watched as Damian shook his head.

  “No, you're not going,” Damian responded as if I asked him the permission.

  “Did I ask you for permission?”

  “You're not going anywhere,” Damian repeated, more sternly.

  “Why can't I?” I exclaimed as I stood up and watched as Damian did the same. He started walking towards the kitchen and I followed behind, completely forgetting my sister and her husband. We got into the kitchen. Damian walked to the fridge and pulled out a cold water bottle.

  “Because I told you not to,” he responded coldly before opening the bottle and taking a gulp.

  “I want to go.”

  “You're in goddamn danger, Athena! For God sake, where's your brain?” Damian snapped as he walked towards me. I instinctively took a few steps backwards but the anger was starting to rise.

  “Because in your house, I'm safe?” I asked before laughing humorlessly. “If I was in my room, yesterday, I'd already be dead, Damian,” I spat. I turned around to walk away but stopped when I saw my sister. They already knew about the situation.

  “Athena,” Damian said from behind me. His voice was now controlled. I turned around to glare at him and I found him looking at me with softened eyes. “You really want to go?” he asked.

  “Yes,” I answered. “I really don't want to be in town when the rumors start pounding.” I finally admitted, taking a deep breath.

  “If you're going, then I'm coming along,” Damian told me after a few minutes of silence. I blinked once, twice, then thrice to finally realize what he just said. A smile broke on my face and I nodded. I walked to him and wrapped my arms around him before letting go.

  “Thank you,” I said before turning to my sister who was too busy grinning at us. Dean was standing behind her and leaning his head on her shoulder. My sister stared at me.

  “We're coming too. I miss Rose as well. Let's go to sleep, sweetheart,” Alena said as she turned to Dean.

  “Good night, guys,” Dean said.

  “Let's go to sleep,” Damian whispered in my ear as he slowly took my hand in his

  Chapter 39

  Nice Sex

  Damian was already in bed while I was standing in the bathroom, facing the mirror. I was wearing one of Damian's huge shirts. There was nothing underneath. Sometimes, I felt like Damian and I were more than all this. Yes. I wanted more from him. I wanted a happy ending. Damian was not just ready for another relationship. I was happy with whatever he had to offer me. I sighed and walked out of the bathroom to see Damian already sleeping. I slowly tiptoed to the bed so that I wouldn't wake him up. He seemed so peaceful when he was sleeping. I slowly lifted the blankets and got under them.

  Damian's back was facing me. His back was so muscular and I felt the need to touch it. I closed my eyes and tried to control my freaking hormones that were threatening to rape the sexy man lying next to me. I turned around and faced the door instead of facing Damian. I didn't want to take the risk of actually touching him and waking him up. A few minutes later, I felt Damian move. Soon, arms wrapped around me.

  “I was waiting for you.” I heard Damian whisper in my ear, making me smile. I pushed myself into him and turned around so that I was facing him again.

  “I thought you were sleeping,” I whispered, letting my hand caress his face. His skin was so smooth. His eyes trailed on my face and he smiled.

  “No, I was waiting for you.” I didn't say anything. I simply stared at him and he stared back at me. His arms around me tightened as he tried to pull me even closer. “What are you doing to me, Athena?” he asked softly. I blinked several times, trying to decipher his words.

  “What am I doing?” I asked innocently.

  “I don't feel like letting you go,” Damian said. I could feel like he was vulnerable at this moment. “I want to be always there for you,” he said. He was so freaking sweet. I moved a little bit and let my lips touch his. Before even realizing what was happening, I was being moved and the next thing I knew, Damian was hovering over me, his hands supporting his weight. The kiss turned passionate and rough. I wrapped my legs around him, completely forgetting that I was wearing no underwear. Damian only had his briefs on. He pulled away from my lips and soon, I could feel his mouth on my neck. I moaned at the several sensations I was feeling.

  “Damian,” I moaned his name, making him groan. He pulled away and lifted me off the bed. He pulled the shirt away and when he realized that I was naked, he smirked before settling between my knees. He kissed my neck, then my collarbone, slowly getting to my boobs, then my belly. When he finally reached my sex, I was already out of breath. I lifted my head to look at him and when I saw him smirking, I knew that I w
as going to scream with pleasure. His smirk alone was making me wet as hell. The devil that was now between my legs slowly leaned his head forward and when I felt his tongue on me, I arched my back and grabbed onto the bedsheets, trying to deal with all the emotions and sensations he was making me feel.

  “You're delicious as hell, Miss Amington.” Damian praised before rolling his tongue on the sensitive part of my sex and inserting two fingers into me. He started pumping faster. I was trying to keep up with his rhythm as he licked me at the same time. I cried out in pleasure as I felt the orgasm coming. I was breathing heavily, not being able to endure it all. Then, I felt myself explode. Without waiting for me to recover, Damian came onto me and plunged inside of me, making me moan at how big he was. I wrapped my legs around him, forcing him even closer. He took my hands in his and pinned them above my head. I could feel dominance radiating from him, making me even wetter. He stilled for a few seconds, most probably letting me get used to his dick that was inside of me. I don't think that I'm ever getting used to his size. When I nodded to show him that he could keep going, he started moving. I moaned and struggled to let my hands go. But his grip was tight on me.

  “You're so freaking tight.” He growled as he leaned next to my ear. I cried out in pain and pleasure as he increased his pace and he thrusted into me deeper and harder.

  “Fuck,” I swore when he took one of my erect nipple into his mouth. He gently bit on it, then rolled his tongue over and over again on it, making me moan. I could even feel a tear roll down my cheek. He increased his pace when he felt my insides contracting with the orgasm building up. Soon, we both exploded at the same time. I could feel a hot liquid flowing inside of me. The next thing we heard was just our heavy breathing. Damian kissed my forehead and moved next to me. We were not worried about how gross we were right now. Damian pulled me into his chest and the next thing I knew, my eyes were closing due to fatigue and the awesome orgasm I just got. Having sex with Damian Spears was the best thing ever. I could feel the covers being pulled on us and Damian pulling my head on his chest so that I was now half lying over him.