Secrets in the Lyrics

by Sm Donaldson

  After retrieving our things from the check-in area, we make our way out to the parking lot. Once inside the SUV, I slump down in the seat and close my eyes.

  The ride back to the hotel has been quiet to say the least. I feel the tenseness coming off of her body. I still feel a little twinge of anger that she referred to me as her bandmate and best friend. How in the fuck am I just that? As we pull into the parking lot, she looks over at me. “I better get my own room tonight.” What the fuck? Is she running now?

  I look at her like she’s lost her mind. “Why?”

  “Well, Scarlet is coming tomorrow. Aren’t they going to stay with you?”

  “No, she and Lover-boy already have a room for themselves. You are staying with me.”

  “What are you going to tell her about us?”

  “It’s none of her business, right? Besides, you said it yourself to your dad. We are just friends.” I know she can hear the sarcasm dripping off my tongue.

  “What’s the problem with that?”

  I roll my neck around to get it to pop. “So, we aren’t any more than that? Just friends that fuck around.”

  She starts rubbing her temples. “How do I explain it to my dad, or anyone for that matter? What do I say, then? I’m not ready to label us. Hell, we are still keeping this a secret from everyone but the band.”

  “If it was up to me, we wouldn’t be a secret from anyone. I want the world to know you’re mine, Ivie. I’m nervous as fuck because I’m afraid I’m going to wake up one morning and you’ll be gone. The only reason I haven’t told you any of this is because I’m afraid you’ll run.” We’ve made our way into our room, slamming the door behind us.

  “That’s bullshit, Gable, and you know it. If it all goes wrong, I can’t leave the band.”

  “Exactly, you don’t want to leave the band.”

  She turns, grabbing her purse. “Fuck you, Gable. I’m going for a walk down by that lake we saw on the way in. Leave me alone, I’ll be back when I get back.”

  With that, the hotel room door slams again. Fuck, they are going to call security on us. I sit around texting with Ryder about his and my sister’s trip tomorrow. He said he’s telling her tonight at Thanksgiving Dinner, so I’m sure I can expect a call from her just after they finish.

  After an hour or so, I pull out my guitar, thinking about Ivie. I didn’t mean to be such an ass, but it’s as if she wants to just blow off what we have. I start fiddling with the strings and humming.

  You unlock the door and climb inside-

  You don’t need seat belts for this ride-

  You take my heart and hold it in your hands-

  Taking for granted where you stand-

  I’ve never been one to let go of control-

  But with you I seem to do that more-

  About that time, the door opens and Ivie comes back in. I look up. “Hey.”

  “Hey.” She says softly.

  I place my guitar on the floor and pull her by the hand to the sofa. “Sorry about losing my shit earlier. You’ve had a bad couple of days. You don’t need me acting like some over possessive shitbag.”

  She shakes her head. “No, I can understand why you would be upset. It’s just that right now, I need some time to figure all of this out.”

  I nod. “Okay. Look, I’m going to head down to the hotel restaurant and grab some food. Maybe a beer or two with the guys. You coming?”

  “No, I think I just want to relax. We have a pretty big show tomorrow night and it could mean big things for us. I just need to rest and put my visit, and everything else, behind me.”

  I nod, grabbing my wallet and heading out the door.

  Sitting at the hotel bar, my phone rings. “Hello.”

  “Hey big brother!”

  “Hey there.”

  “So you and Ryder pulled one over on me, huh?”

  “Yep. So I’ll see you tomorrow?”

  “Yes, I’m so excited!”

  “I’m glad, kid. Look, they are bringing out my food so let me go. Text me when you guys get on the road tomorrow. Okay?”

  “Yes. I can’t wait to see you.”

  She hangs up and I stare at the food that’s been sitting in front of me for ten minutes now. I hated lying to get her off the phone, but Scarlet and I have always been close and I would probably spill my guts to her.

  I can’t eat. I want to feel Ivie’s soft body against mine. I motion for the check and ask for a take-out box. I’m going to need some food in a little bit, after I ravage her body.

  I quietly open the door to the room, noticing the lights off. She’s asleep in the other bed. NO fucking way, she sleeps with me. I put the food in the fridge, and strip out of my clothes. I pick her body up and place it on the bed below me.

  She stirs, startled awake. I put my hand on her face. “Shh baby.”

  I slide her shirt up and pull her panties down her legs. Picking up her leg, I start kissing at her ankle and make my way up her thigh. Hearing her breath catch only makes my dick harder. I start on her other leg. Once I reach her center, I spread her wet folds with my fingers and work her throbbing nub with my tongue. I keep tantalizing and teasing it over and over.

  “Gable.” She sighs out.

  I move and start making my way with my lips up her body. I kiss her stomach and breasts. I take her nipples in my mouth, one at time, and I lick and suck on them until she cries out.

  She reaches for her shirt, sliding it over her head. I slide into her, and our bodies start moving together as one.

  Our movements become faster and driven. We are both clawing and kissing our way over each other’s bodies. As I slam into her repeatedly, I feel her tighten around me as she’s going over the edge. She says my name as she comes. Moments later, I explode into her.

  Rolling off of her, I cuddle her into my side. I pull the blankets over us and we both start to doze off quickly.

  I wake up to the sound of Gable’s phone going off. “Babe, your phone is going off.”

  He picks up his phone. “Scarlet is on her way,” he says as he lays his phone back down, adjusting the blankets.

  He rolls over facing me. “Baby, I’m sorry for coming in here last night and just taking you.”

  I start laughing. “I don’t think I was complaining. If I remember correctly, I was thanking God.”

  He chuckles. “Well, glad you were happy about it. I was just sitting there trying to eat and I really wasn’t hungry. I need you. Sitting there without you, I felt nothing.” The more he says, the more serious he sounds.

  I stand up, pulling on one of his t-shirts. “Gable, I know. For me, these past few months have been crazy. Right now, I need you, but I need time, too. So, can you handle that? I can’t make us public yet. I can’t put a label on us. Can you be patient with me?”

  He stands up on the other side of the bed with a mixed facial expression. “So, what exactly are you saying? You say you can’t put a label on us, does that mean we see other people or what? I’m confused.”

  Man, he just isn’t getting it. “I’m not saying I want to see other people, I’m just saying I’m not ready to go public. I want you. I only want you. If I’m being honest, I’ve only wanted you since the day I met you as a young, stupid seventeen year old girl.”

  I can see the look of shock across his face. “You really have wanted me since we met?”

  I nod. “Yeah, since you shook my hand.”

  “And after I told you basically the same thing the other night, you decide to share this now?”

  “Yes, now. Really, you never said you only wanted me for that long. You said you had a hard-on for me since then. It’s different. The way you used to go through girls, why should I take for granted that you’ve changed or that I would’ve been any different back then? Maybe I’m just convenience right now, maybe I’m not, but I need time to figure it out.”

  “Are you fucking kidding me? I haven’t been with anyone else in months. Do you remember our first show on this tour? The
fake girl with the fake hair and fake boobs? I kicked her off the bus. Before I realized that my feelings about you were true enough for me to pursue, I kicked her out. She said something bitchy about you and I kicked her fake ass out. Before we went on tour, it had been at least two months.” He gets real close to my face. “So no, Ivie, you are not just some piece of ass to me. You’ve always been more, even when I was too dumb to realize it.”

  I feel the tears threatening in my eyes. I softly put my hand on his chest. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean for it to get this intense. I’m also sorry for judging you by your past. It’s just that I’ve always felt like I jumped from relationship to relationship, lumping one shitty guy in with another. Gable, you aren’t a shitty guy, and I don’t want to lump you in with them. My feelings for you run deeper than anything I’ve ever known, I just need a little bit to work on myself before I go announcing to the world that we are together.”

  I look up in his eyes to see his heated stare. He pulls me into his chest. “Okay babe, I get this is all inner turmoil for you. So, as long as you and I are on the same page and we know that it’s just the two of us, I’m not looking at anyone else and you aren’t either.”

  I shake my head. “No. I don’t want anyone else. I just don’t want us to get ahead of ourselves and be public fuck-ups.”

  He puts his hands on my upper arms. “Okay then. No more running away, or trying to run away. We don’t have to label this or explain it to anyone else. For all I care, they can go to hell, what we do is our business. Just please trust me, Ivie. I can honestly say I’ve never felt like this before, even if we don’t know what this is.”

  I fall back into his chest. “Thank you for trying to understand me.”

  He kisses the top of my head, inhaling my scent. “Thank you for giving me a chance.”

  I look up into his eyes and I’m pretty sure I see unshed tears.

  I step back. “I’m gonna order some breakfast. Do you want some?”

  He sighs. “No, Scarlet will be here soon and we are going to lunch, I better jump in the shower.”

  I nod. “Okay. For now, can we tell her that the hotel was overbooked and neither of us will share a room with the other two? Which is a partial truth. I can’t face your sister right now.”

  He chuckles and nods. “Yeah, babe.” He turns to go in the bathroom.

  ~*~*~

  A little while later, there is a knock at the door. I open the door to see Scarlet and her boyfriend, Ryder. She’s looking at me like, What in the hell are you doing in my brother’s room dressed only in one of his shirts? “Hey Scar, Gable is in the shower.” I can tell she wants to know something. “The hotel was short on rooms last night so Gable bunked with me. Normally, he and I both get rooms to ourselves.”

  She has a flash of worry across her face. “Oh, okay.”

  She nods and thank God I hear the shower shut off, so I know Gable will be out here in a minute. As soon as he opens the bathroom door wrapped in only a towel, I really want to push his ass back in the bathroom. I start gathering my things up to take in the bathroom and mumble to Gable on the way by. “I’m getting a shower. See you later.”

  After stepping in the bathroom, I try to compose myself. I take a seat on the edge of the tub and my thoughts are racing. What is Scarlet out there saying to Gable? What is he going to tell her? Why do I really care? Of course I care, it’s his sister, the person he loves more than life.

  I almost jump out of my skin when there is a tap on the door, and I stand up and open it just a little. It’s Gable. He steps in the bathroom and shuts the door.

  Pressing me up against the counter, he slams his mouth into mine. He whispers. “Fuck, baby. I want you right now. I started thinking about you while I was in the shower and then the thought of you getting in now. Fuck, it’s about to do me in.”

  “Babe, you gotta go with your sister, and I’d prefer that you walk out of this bathroom without a fucking huge ass hard-on.”

  “Well, then we need to fix the problem.”

  We are still whispering. “We cannot do that with your sister in the next room.”

  “What do you suppose I do then?”

  “Think about something that turns you off, quickly.”

  He chuckles softly. “Like what?’

  An idea pops in my head. “Do you remember the time Stoney was wasted bad and we caught the toothless Waffle House waitress blowing him?”

  He slumps. “Yep, that did it. Thanks, babe. I’ll probably just meet you guys at the venue. You call me if you need me though, okay?”

  I smile. “Okay. Now go.” We give each other one last kiss and he leaves the bathroom. Now off to my own cold shower.

  I knew my sister was going to try and get information out of me about Ivie and she damn sure did. Well, that is until I turned the table on her and Ryder to start answering questions. I really did have a great time catching up with her, though. She seems really happy, which I haven’t witnessed in a very long time. It’s like Ryder was made for her, and as long as he keeps her happy, I’m happy.

  Now, I’m just ready for tonight’s show. There is another record guy coming to watch us and he may invite us to go do our own gigs in Seattle until Christmas. That would be great for our careers, plus it would give us a break from Ransom’s End. Those guys can be real shitbags.

  The only bad thing about today is not getting to spend much time with Ivie. I’ve come to the realization that once I decided to get over my fears with her, I can’t live without her. I have also come to the conclusion that I sound like a real pussy about her.

  I’ve gotten my sister and Ryder to their seats. My girl should be here anytime now.

  The side door to the dressing area opens and there she is. I want to take her right now, but there are too many people back here for me to even kiss her. I give her a smile and walk over to her. “Ivie, come with me. I’ve got some new lyrics for a song and I wanna go over them real quick somewhere quiet.”

  “Sure, okay.” She grabs her bass and follows me.

  Once we get to a small side room, I open the door and shut it behind us.

  I take her bass and sit it down. I lift her so that her legs are tightly wrapped around my waist.

  “Baby, fuck. I love my sister but today I have missed you like crazy.” I slam my mouth into hers. Then, I trail down her neck nipping at her collar bone. “Fuck, I need to be inside you right now.”

  She unwraps her legs, kicks her boots off and slides her jeans and panties down in one movement. At the same time I unbuckle my jeans, sliding them and my boxer briefs down. Rolling a condom on quickly, I slam into her. Her legs go back around my waist.

  “Fuck, babe. If it was up to me, we would be joined like this for the rest of our lives.”

  She giggles. “Well, I think it’s medically impossible to stay hard that long, first of all. Second, people might look at us funny walking down the street.”

  “Shit, it wouldn’t matter to me if they took pictures and sent them to National Geographic.”

  She’s about to quip back at me when I thrust into her again. So now all I hear is a moan.

  “Baby, this is going to be quick, but I promise to make it up to you later.” She nods as I quickly pound into her. As soon as I feel her tightening around my cock, my pace quickens even more. I feel her letting go and I thrust again, doing the same.

  I lean in and rest my forehead against hers. “Damn, babe, you wreck me.”

  She looks up at me, kissing me on the lips. “Ditto.”

  Suddenly, there is a knock at the door. “Hey, um, when you guys finish in there, we have a show to do.” Stoney’s voice rings through the door.

  “Okay, just a sec.” I respond back.

  Once we are presentable again, we walk back out to our waiting area. Keeg looks up. “Nice of you two to come back and join us.”

  I mouth “Fuck You.”

  We both fall into the overstuffed sofa next to Stoney.

  “How much time do we ha
ve?” I ask Keeg.

  “About ten minutes.” I nod my head.

  A few minutes go by when the stage hand comes to get us.

  Alright Hilton Head, South Carolina. Get your asses out of your seats and welcome to the stage Beautifully Tainted!

  ~*~*~

  We just finished our show for tonight and I have security bringing Scarlet and Ryder back to meet us.

  Scar comes bouncing through the door and hugs me. “Oh my God! That was an awesome show big brother, I’m so proud of you guys.”

  “Thanks.” I look over at Ryder. “Hope you enjoyed the show, man.”

  “Yeah man, you guys were great.”

  I see the record company guys coming in. Fuck, I hope that means good news.

  Rex, one of the record company guys, steps forward. “Hey guys, great show. The other guys agree. We want to offer you guys the month long headline gig in Seattle. You’ll still be back home for Christmas, but it may open some big doors for you guys right after the first of the year.”

  There is a lot of excitement. Rex walks back over to me. “You guys are on your way, Gable, I’ve watched groups with half of your talent get far. Have you started working on anymore original stuff?”

  I think about the song I started working on the other night. “Yeah, I actually started on something recently.”

  He shakes my hand. “Okay, great. Keep working. I gotta get these other guys to their flight. I’ll be in touch in the next few days.”

  “Okay, and Rex, this is unbelievable. Thanks again.”

  “Hey, you guys kick ass.”

  After they leave, Scarlet hugs me with a death grip.

  “Oh my God! Congratulations you guys. Seattle is so damn far away, but from what that guy was saying, I’m thinking I better get used to it. It sounds like you guys are going to be doing worldwide tours before you know it.”

  I smile. “Thanks little sister.” The other guys and Ivie give her hugs. Ryder shakes everyone’s hand.