If I Was Your Woman: A BBW Camden Love Story

by Mz. Toni

  "Yo she my girl, you my best friend, chill the fuck out!" he screamed.

  "Nigga don't scream at me you carried me out here!" I screamed back.

  "Get in the car please, I didn't meant to snap Shante," Kasan said calmly.

  "Yeah whatever!" I said getting into my truck. He stayed outside the truck for a little arguing with Keisha until he hopped in and we pulled off.

  Chapter 17

  (Kasan)

  "So you're just gonna leave with her?"

  "What you want me to do Keisha, she's my friend."

  "Oh your friend huh, you don't think I see how she looks at you, what the fuck are you blind nigga she's in love with you!" she screamed in my face.

  "Yo back the fuck up Keisha. I'm not doing this with you; we'll talk when I get home!" I said getting frustrated.

  "And what if I'm not home when you come?" she asked testing my patience.

  "Then I guess I'll see you around," I said getting inside the truck. Keisha don't get it and I don't think she ever will. We've been having problems long before my friendship with Shante. I've always cheated and she's always accepted it. Guess as long as I'm just fucking other bitches that's cool, but my relationship with Shante scares her and it should because every day I'm feeling Shante more and Keisha less. When I pulled up to Shante’s house she was sleep

  "Wake up Tae baby," I said reaching over and kissing her forehead. She was drunk as hell because she didn't even budge. Turning off the ignition, I went on the passenger’s side to get her out. After I finally woke her up, I helped her into her apartment and placed her in the bed. Damn she fell right back to sleep. Taking off her coat and shoes, I bent down and kissed her forehead again. She was so fucking beautiful. I turned around to walk out and she grabbed my arm.

  "Don't leave me Kasan," she begged.

  "Aight imma stay, I'll be on the couch."

  "Just lay with me please," she begged. Taking my shoes and clothes off and climbing into the bed I knew this wasn't a good idea, but I'm tired of fighting how I feel for shorty.

  "You know I love you right Tae baby?"

  "Why don't you act like it, one minute I think you do, then the next I'm not sure."

  "Fuck what I say or don't say my actions have always shown that I loved you," I said reaching over and kissing her. The kiss was filled with so much lust, love and emotion it scared me. Grabbing the back of her head, I continued to let out all my love and frustration with my lips. Once I broke the kiss, I kissed her neck. "Wait babe," she said while moaning. She stood up and took her clothes off fast as hell, I just stared at her; she was so sexy in her black lace bra and boy shorts. She slowly walked back over to the bed. I stood up and took my boxers off she eyed my shit and looked scared as hell. I climbed back on top of her and took her large breast in my hand; damn these had to be the biggest breast I'd ever dealt with. I was definitely in love. I took her left breast into my mouth and played with her right breast. Rolling my finger around her nipple, I continued to pay extra attention to each breast before kissing her stomach, down to her thighs. She shuttered at my touch making my dick even harder. I pulled her underwear off and kissed her beautifully shaved pussy causing her to moan loudly. I continued to lick around her pussy, sticking my tongue in and out while slowly flicking it across her clit, she was so wet and tasted so good.

  "What are you doing to me I can't take it Kasan!" she screamed trying to scoot back but I pulled her close and kept fucking her with my tongue. Grabbing my head, she squirted hard and I wasted no time cleaning her up.

  "Oh my God did I pee," she said embarrassed.

  "Are you serious?" I asked laughing.

  "Yes stupid I'm serious!" she replied embarrassed.

  "No you didn't pee, you squirted," I said kissing her soft lips. She climbed on top of me kissing me hard and passionately.

  "I want you to make love to me,” she said sexily and laid on her back. Climbing on top of her, I played in her pussy slowly. She was soaking wet and I was definitely ready to feel her. I positioned my dick at her opening and tried to enter.

  "Owwwwww!!" she screamed slapping me "What the fuck slow down Kasan!" she yelled.

  "Damn my bad you tight as hell, when's the last time you had sex?" I asked.

  "This will be my first time," she said putting her head down.

  "Wow are you sure you want me to do this?"

  "Yes Kasan, you're the only man I would share this with," she said sincerely. I kissed her forehead, her nose, and her eyelids, before kissing her lips. I had been with other virgins but I knew Shante was giving herself to me solely for love. Because of that, I was going to take my time and show her how she's supposed to be loved and treated because I could honestly admit I loved her. I slowly tried to enter her, I didn't want to hurt her but I knew it would be painful. I looked in her eyes and saw her silently crying.

  "Do you want me to stop?" I asked stroking her face.

  "No please don't stop!" she begged with a painful expression on her face. I slowly inched myself into her and she screamed out in pain but held on to my back so I couldn't move. I had six inches in and had four more to go, she was actually handling it better than I thought she would. "Damn you so tight," I said inching more of me into her. After I was all the way in, I began to slowly move in and out of her making sure to take my time but she was so wet and tight I was having a hard time keeping it slow. I wanted to pound her pussy; it fit me like a glove, like it was made solely for me. I busted quick as hell but I'm sure she was just glad that it was over.

  "Thank you for giving me this gift," I said kissing her soft lips.

  "Thank you for accepting it, I know that you have a girlfriend. I want you to know that I don't expect anything from you."

  "Wow I just took your virginity and still you're thinking of somebody other than yourself, that's why I love you."

  "I love you too Kasan I really do," she said kissing my lips. We talked the rest of the night until sleep took over us. I definitely had a lot to think about.

  Chapter 18

  (Kasan)

  As I drove home, I couldn't help but think about last night, being with Shante was mind blowing. I was already in love with her before the sex I mean who wouldn't be. She was smart, beautiful and down to earth, she was everything Keisha wasn't. She cooked, her house stayed clean, she had a bad ass body, hips, ass, breast she was stacked. Not only that, I could talk to her about anything and she never judged me. She always kept it real and gave me her opinion and let me know when I was wrong. She was everything I wanted in a woman and her pussy was grade A. It was super soaker wet and tight as hell, it fit my shit like it was made only for me and to know that I am the only person that knows what her pussy feels and taste like was the icing on the cake. I was prepared to walk in the house and tell Keisha that I didn't want to be with her anymore. I knew shit would get sticky because she was Camille's cousin, but I couldn't keep stringing her along. She was bad as hell but she wasn't Shante, they were like day and night. Keisha was 5’4, 120lbs, very petite, and her skin was smooth and dark. She had a little cute butt, B cup breasts and a flat washboard stomach. The thing I hated most about Keisha was she was very materialistic, she didn't cook, clean, nothing. All she did was shop on my dime. Keisha had no dreams or aspirations except to marry a hood king. When I first got with Keisha that was ok, I accepted that but after being around Shante for so long, I had a change of heart. I wanted a woman who could match my hustle and drive and Keisha wasn't it.

  When I walked into the house, Keisha was in the living room crying.

  "Yo what's wrong with you?"

  "You know what's wrong with me Kasan, I can't believe you left with that fat bitch!" she said jumping up in my face.

  "What I tell you about that fat bitch shit just because she ain't shaped like she starving doesn't mean she's fat," I said sick and tired of her jealous ass.

  "So you taking up for her, you're really in love with her ass huh?"

  "Well that’s what I wanted to ta
lk to you about Keisha, this ain't working," I said trying to be as sensitive as I could but either way she was going to end up hurt.

  "It’s not working because you ain't trying Kasan. You’re so worried about her that you haven't been focusing on us."

  "It don't got shit to do with her Keisha. You don't cook, clean, or work, you don't do shit but spend my money."

  "You act like I've changed when it’s you that's changed. I was this way when you met me, you knew I was a well kept bitch and you still fell in love."

  "I don't know about that in love shit but aye imma get you a little condo you can keep the car and all your clothes and jewelry," I said getting up.

  "Please don't do this Kasan, what are me and your baby gonna do without you?"

  "Baby? What baby Keisha? Go on with the games and shit."

  "I ain't playing no games, see for yourself," she said passing me the pregnancy test.

  "If you want me to leave I will but I thought you wanted your kids to have what you did not," she said getting up to pack her things.

  "You’re right and I'm sorry babe, we are about to have this baby and be a family aight," I said feeling like shit.

  "Aight babe I love you," she said kissing my lips.

  "Yeah I know."

  I didn't know what the fuck I was gonna do but I knew I had to keep it real with Shante and end shit.

  "So we got to talk about you ending shit with all them hoes, especially Shante. I don't know what the fuck y’all got going on but you need to dead it!" she said boldly.

  "Yo watch how the fuck you talk to me I ain't none of these fuck niggas and you ain't gonna force me into a relationship just because you're pregnant. Shit been good all these years just how it is," I snapped.

  "But it really stresses me out Kasan, I always accepted it but now that I'm pregnant with your child I can't be stressing."

  "You’re right Keisha and my bad for snapping," I said kissing her stomach.

  "It's ok bae, I just want us to be a family."

  "I will end shit with them hoes and I will start being home more, but as far as Shante, she's my friend and she's not going anywhere but I can stop spending so much time with her," I said and just speaking the shit made a nigga heart hurt.

  "Thanks babe, I can accept that," she replied kissing me.

  "But yo you gotta go, I asked Shante to come over so we could talk and imma let her know me and you are officially together."

  "There you go with the bullshit, you kicking me out of our house for her fat ass."

  "You gotta chill with that shit Keisha. If you want to make this work you gotta stop acting like this," I said seriously.

  "You know what, you're right. I'm sorry, ok? Imma go to my cousin’s house, call me when you're done," she said upset. Just as Keisha was leaving my doorbell rang, I knew it was Shante and I instantly felt like shit.

  Chapter 19

  (Shante)

  I woke up on cloud nine. Kasan did things to my virgin body that I didn't know were possible. I was so glad I waited for the right guy and he was definitely Mr. Right. When I looked over, Kasan was no longer in the bed and I instantly felt like shit. Did he really dip out in the middle of the night after what we shared last night. I checked the bathroom, living room and kitchen and he was nowhere to be found. When I went back in my bedroom, I found a letter on my nightstand.

  Hey beautiful, don't worry I didn't just up and leave I had an important meeting and you were sleeping so peacefully I didn't want to wake you but we definitely have a lot to talk about so meet me at my house at three.

  Kasan.

  After reading his note, I smiled at the fact that he didn't just leave because he was scared, that would have definitely crushed me to the core. I looked at the time and it read two in the afternoon, damn he really put it on me last night, I slept my whole morning and afternoon away, but it was definitely worth it. I had a blast at my party and the after party between me and Kasan took the cake. I'm glad that he finally admitted his feelings for me, so now we can move forward and make this thing work. I ran to get in the tub, my cookie was sore as hell so I planned on soaking for a while. Once I was done, I lotioned my body and decided to wear gray jeggings, a black thermal fitted shirt and my black and gray Jordan's. I pulled my hair into a loose bun, added some lip gloss and was ready to go meet Kasan. When I saw my keys on the kitchen island I smiled, he had really bought me a car. I put my varsity jacket on and drove to his house. I walked up to his door and knocked, I was surprised when his little girlfriend answered the door with a smirk, but I wasn't fazed. She was more than likely there to pack her shit and keep it pushing.

  "Oh so you thought you could get rid of me huh?" she said smiling.

  "Girl bye ain't nobody trying to get rid of you. What are you so insecure for sweetie?"

  "Insecure about what, not ya fat ass," she said laughing. I already told this bitch I wasn't gonna be too many more fat bitches and I was already in my feelings, she done picked the right day.

  "Look trick, ever since you came around you've had some kinda beef with me when I ain't the one you need to worry about, talk to your fucking "man",” I said making air quotes at the word man.

  "Because even Stevie Wonder can see you're in love with him but I'm telling you now I fight for mine!"

  "Yeah so let the best woman win I guess," I said having enough of the back and forth. I pushed her to the side and walked in.

  "Kasan where you at?" I screamed.

  "Why you screaming and shit?"

  "Your little girlfriend gonna make me slap fire out her ass!"

  "Chill you ain't been letting her get to you so don't start now."

  "Naw I ain't been slapped her ass out of respect for you and our friendship but I ain't gonna be too many more fat bitches either!" I said heated.

  "Aight enough talk about my girl, let's talk about what happened last night."

  "Your girl? So I guess that means you still want to be with her?" I asked pissed.

  "Come on now Shante, you know I fucks with you the long way, but you also know that we can't be together."

  "Let me get this straight, you get jealous because I'm dancing with some dude, carry me out the club, basically say fuck your girl when she confronts you, then take me home and take my virginity now you’re saying we can't be together?"

  "You wanted me to take your virginity, you said nothing would change."

  "You got to be the dumbest nigga on the earth if you believed that and you're very smart so that’s bullshit Kasan, you know I'm in love with you!"

  "Shante don't make this harder than it has to be, I don't want to lose your friendship."

  "Tell me you're not in love with me and I'll move on, we'll still be cool and everything."

  "I got love for you Shante and you know that, but I'm sorry I'm not in love with you. Keisha just told me she pregnant and I gotta step up."

  “Pregnant, you got her pregnant Kasan?” I asked hurt. I couldn't do shit but laugh. That’s why that bitch was laughing in my face because she knew she had this stupid nigga wrapped around her fingers.

  "Ok Kasan say no more," I said grabbing my things preparing to leave.

  "So that's it?" this nigga had the nerve to say.

  "What did you expect? Did you think I would act a fool? Naw I'm a grown ass woman, if you don't want me I'll find someone that does."

  "Stop fucking playing with me Shante," he said pissed off.

  "You got to be kidding me right? Nigga I'm telling you right now you have no claim over me."

  "Or my body!" I said rubbing my hands all over my curves.

  "Or this bomb ass cookie that had you screaming like a little bitch last night!" I said rubbing my cookie. With that said, I turned around and walked out of his door and his life. How dare that nigga play with my emotions like this? Once I got back in my car, I broke down crying. I cried for what we almost had and for what I just lost. After being all cried out, I vowed to never tell anyone that he took my virginity, I was tak
ing it to my grave along with the feelings I once had for him. I started my car and headed home. I didn't even get a chance to cry or stress over Kasan’s ass, today was Sunday and I was getting ready to head over to Philly to meet my sister's family for the first time. Me and my oldest nephew share the same birthday so she was giving us a little birthday dinner. My excitement about meeting my nieces and nephews kept me from feeling the pain of rejection. I rode around in circles, I swear I couldn't stand Philly, it was too packed and difficult. Instead of trying to search on my own, I called Shana for help.

  "Hey sister I'm lost, this bitch acting stupid giving me the wrong directions and shit," I said frustrated.

  "Oh you brought somebody else with you?” she asked.

  "Nah I'm talking about my GPS this bitch tripping!" I said laughing.

  "You crazy, but just stay where you're at and I'll come grab you."

  "Aight I'll text you this address."

  When she met me at the AutoZone, we hugged before she pulled off with me following her. When she pulled up to her house, it was very cute when I got out the car. Three of the cutest little kids met us at the door I noticed them from pictures. It was Rayshaun, Zahniyah, and Angel's daughter Destiny. I can't believe I had nieces and nephews. I wasn't expecting Angel's daughter to be there but I was glad that she was, I really wanted to bond with my family.

  "Heyyy mommy!" Zahniyah screamed hugging Shana.

  "Hey mommy's baby, I want you guys to meet someone special, this is your aunt Shante," she said walking into the house.

  "Hi babies you guys are so cute," I said hugging each of them.

  "You’re really pretty aunt Shante," Zahniyah said sweetly.

  "Awwww thanks beautiful."

  "Aunt Shante!" someone yelled from behind me.

  "Hey R.J.," I said hugging him tight. See ever since I reunited with my sister I had been communicating with him almost daily, he was so smart and advanced for his age. Me and him were really close even though we never met in person.