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by Charlie Smith

like blue whales in the spit-

  colored sand.

  you can’t walk ten feet

  without

  having to crawl over something.

  skate eggs

  shrivel in gray

  sunlight. slithers of sea lettuce rot.

  the meaning

  of the world is in plain sight.

  crabs line up

  to turn themselves in. three hots

  and a cot would do fine.

  redfish belch

  and puke up supper. the fix

  is in—everybody

  knows this.

  we’re beyond catastrophe

  says the cod.

  you could go on forever, but why bother.

  Official Document

  I was broke for a decade,

  hummed, startled relatives with supposedly

  official requests

  for relief, cozened, elaborated

  in company

  on zany forecourts, the blaring sun

  mashing the heart out

  like a stogie, ran a small concession

  selling popcorn

  and ginger snaps, the waste

  all around us I said

  my mind

  wandering to the greenish bend

  in a sump stream

  and supple, equivocating light,

  the most dangerous

  not so bad after all, I suctioned up

  bits of spiritual

  nonsense, pressed

  complications, and listened to an old man

  lie about his life,

  a wry, intemperate sensation

  overtaking us both.

  SHORE LEAVE

  Rush Shoes and Escapes

  in the book about trees

  a few

  urban

  derelicts buckthorn

  ailanthus

  the dependable honey

  locust are all

  I think about

  some days the rain of blossoms

  in summer

  you get the picture

  about the universe needing

  plenty

  of space the rapid thoughts

  of an unarmed

  man

  the spot near the old water wheel

  a day so cumbersome

  it can’t be raised

  on the telephone the moment

  you come back

  to yourself as if from the stars

  Still, Life

  hydrangeas drained of color the forwarded rectitude of last roses

  brained by fall the comfortless moment when the dog

  stands staring at the silence trapped in a syringa bush we get so

  we are almost free of elegance or a sense of the lostness

  of everything the wild scramble held tightly by force the planet

  turning rust red you can smell us all the way into space

  the boys vomiting into buckets the girls unwrapping toiletries

  we place ourselves in line with the sun the ancient cries drifting

  across the lake at dusk must mean something but we don’t know what

  Stroke

  In the latest web of branches,

  cuddled and

  softened by a clandestine wind, before a sky clotted

  and gauged and calling home to mama

  who’s dead, the taste of oranges in your mouth,

  a moment when you stand

  helpless before all you know about

  yourself, a soft voice speaks. Shake that back end, buddy.

  Meanwhile the tiny propellers of antique

  aircraft turn. You smell the bony

  dust in

  the prairie grass. Sometimes your favorite

  color changes

  to aqua. Everything’s

  collapsible, the guy next to you on the subway

  platform says. You’re up

  for the Simple Simon

  part, a precision

  unknown in your circle. Galvanized

  washtubs stacked in front of the funeral home. Parts, a woman sez.

  A child at the curb works out his route

  to fortune.

  The cities at the corners of the map

  are beginning to droop.

  We remember how funny that was

  the first time.

  Wyoming

  trees backed off

  from basic training, stumped bracken, little to report

  from arterial trenches

  landslides in the next county

  water sources

  that need looking after

  old men oil their weapons

  then lose track of what they had in mind

  it’s all right

  most days I look at the same calendar

  scene of purposeful forgetting

  local incidents of disrepute

  hard fists of balled grass

  remnants of great disputes among the cottonwoods

  the underrated collections

  of deertongue and switchgrass

  nothing here

  built for comfort

  old cultures dribbled out to gray dreams

  at dawn and fogs reeking of tar.

  Shop Blues

  pigeon-eating

  hawks green mire the dead

  retriever dumped

  in the public

  trash

  can

  the desolation of a wild night

  of storms

  the softening of

  the brain

  after too much

  worry you

  said we are the ancients

  wandering empty halls

  the shattered

  brilliants and costly receipts we pass

  between

  us no help—tiny island chains

  of faith

  swamped—a small bucket of leftover

  shrimp

  attracts rats

  leptospirosis

  lymphocytic choriomeningitis

  plague

  dropping one tall gent

  another testy blonde with a lisp

  four sales personnel

  in their tracks

  RAISE THE DEAD

  Bolt Upright

  home from work my father

  would throw himself face down writhing

  on the old couch as if he was smothering a fire

  his body raw

  from the chemicals at the plant

  his wrists revealing the cords he was stretched by

  that pulled him into

  jaundiced shapes

  and left him spinning in fumes

  the disaster of his life that he endured

  without mentioning

  it even to my mother who

  fixed elaborate suppers from a book she found

  at the library

  and never returned

  at the table they would hunch shamefaced

  over their food

  like the early primates

  who knew nothing of the world

  outside the woods

  no sense of broadway or of rooms filled

  with paintings scattering the beauty of life before them

  not even a religion

  or a hope only us children

  they lifted their battered heads

  and stared at as if

  we were creatures just called back from the dead

  that they did not remember.

  Belfast

  I woke up still trying to understand things

  and something about the moist smells of early morning

  the collapsible flowers

  pretending everything’s all right

  really got to me as if I was a monk standing in a dry river bed

  trying to recall what the world was like

  before he left it, and I drove to the supermarket

  and got a bucket of chicken and thought about Rachel

  who’s prob
ably driving home from work now

  in Belfast, maybe talking as she drives to the handsome detective

  she’s dating, and sometimes I think of lakes, clear and taut

  after the wind dies, of how voices travel far over them

  unhindered at dusk no matter what you are saying.

  Counting on My Fingers

  snow day for the soul she says

  and pulls out her list of plants that thrive in winter

  hemlock pines firs

  shimmying in sunlight evergreen

  live oaks ilex

  laurel and camellias boxwood holly

  the stiff drapes

  of mahonia represented

  as colorful on snowy days when trains

  pant lonely on

  suburban tracks and old men

  press their faces

  against loved ones like representatives

  of a culture

  that could kill you easily juniper

  and daphne she says aucuba the streaked stiff leaves

  of moonshadow

  hemlock cedar on the path

  down to the beach where a girl was murdered

  ceanothus hoarding blue

  puffballs pyracantha

  thorn putting out the eye of a child

  everywhere you

  look something bearing down arbutus

  bottlebrush rhododendron

  once in the mountains viburnum we slept under

  she says and I remember that time

  like a rent in my heart

  Minor Fabrications

  sometimes I wish

  I was a professional scooter or braiser or concrete analyzer

  of fragmented evenings

  in the moonlight, a caster of lines

  maybe

  sailer of paper plates

  poker of holes

  or one whose hands have massaged a heart

  or two

  calling come on, baby, give,

  or something

  like that. you can walk around on this earth

  carrying a watermelon

  or a proviso

  detailing the mysteries of the cosmos,

  but it’s best

  to have some professional

  experience on your record, a slip

  of paper

  that says so, and memories

  like the taste

  of muscadines and mashed potato

  sandwiches late at night

  in a diner off the highway,

  where just now

  the cook lies slumped at the coatrack

  shot through the heart

  by love. nobody wants to be left out

  or controlled by vacuous

  malingerers

  or managers of rerun houses where the stars

  try to prepare us

  for the worst. even at dam sites

  and trails

  in reticulated woods after dark

  someone is calling for a pro. let us

  pick up our instruments

  and go. with only a little training

  it could be you,

  maybe me, handling the stroke, the delve.

  THE OTHER LIFE

  Close Work

  robins show up

  not even slightly flabbergasted,

  not even

  winded, robust no

  nonsense characters dispersing from rough gangs,

  not wasting time, their bloodstained vests

  swollen with tides

  of memory.

  soon enough we get used

  to them. they check into

  farm plots and take up space in tiny urban

  gardens and scatter into the trees,

  go after grubs

  and meaty worms unwound

  from knots exposed by rain’s

  housework. scanty violets’

  blue buttons

  tucked among leaves under the oaks,

  a few, over there a clump of crocuses

  nodding off.

  redbuds, plum trees

  in white shawls, green dots

  in the elms. gestures and surly approaches,

  the yards overrun.

  how many times

  has this happened. how many

  more links

  in a silver bracelet dropped in the grass.

  Unattainable Goodness

  What is it I belong to and find like crushed mint on my shoes,

  the stepped rocks presented like a change of heart

  that speaks to me as if we are of the same brotherhood,

  the casual significance of a bird passing over this field, the way the painter,

  with a flick of the brush, made me stop to think first of my father,

  then of dying, and how then I was a small boy again,

  afraid to make a mistake and alert all the time like the French in Indochina

  —what is it I belong to like a residual effect, a remark

  dropped handily into the conversation to prove love still exists,

  the way—as we went on—the congressman couldn’t come up

  with an example (that satisfied us) of the soul on lend-lease,

  or, in the high valley, how we liked to stay up late, reading the old books

  Mother used to keep in the kitchen, until finally Father would come out,

  a look in his eyes of a wintering sadness, and tell us to go to bed.

  Animal Life

  The wind places one hand

  on another and breaks off what it was doing to tell a little story

  about the interplay of confusion

  and solace. I awoke late

  and never really made it out of bed.

  The usefulness of my preparations

  scattered like cicada hulls. I can hear water dripping

  behind the walls. The uselessness, did I say that,

  of an essential readiness

  that prepares us for nothing. I woke up late

  and stayed in bed.

  The brave orations I wrote,

  or was it the numbness I discovered lying

  close by, these factors

  I never mentioned, or was it the latent

  suggestibility I pulled out

  like a lariat coiled like a snake,

  the sense of shelter, or was it shelter

  itself playing along with the last fine phrasing?

  It got late early that day.

  The water ran out

  and we couldn’t flush the toilet.

  You used to come to the door smiling

  so I thought I was in heaven. But this lasted

  only a moment. After that,

  you said, the bird escaped,

  the cabinet broke,

  you were dog tired, and hated how we lived.

  Clarinet, Sax

  split off without a reg sheet

  or looseleaf

  binder extolling the genuinely terrifying

  next moment

  I case the house where last night

  my two sons and I got into a drunken

  fight that sent my

  youngest boy to the hospital.

  my wife’s

  already filed for divorce and now

  I have to get a room

  somewhere else. fine, I say,

  that’s my style anyway. the trees are enormously

  preposterous gold

  plumes that hurt the eye

  to look at. the mountains, like

  soft silk rolled between your fingers,

  hang

  in a distance

  impossible to cross. I take a swim in the Jimpsons’

  pool. the water is icy,

  jams my breath

  into my gut and smells of petroleum.

  I’m still a cut above. the limits of possibility

  are stacked with the luggage.

  I eat a bowl of stew and vomit

  it up. my calculations

 
; are awry. sensations

  of a clumsy merriment, broken

  wind instruments, lie in the grass.

  PORTABLE BOATS

  One

  Some you approach through the woods carrying cakes

  Some you sneak up on as if they are orphans

  bandaging the wings of birds

  Some you refer to as inconspicuous even though you see them everywhere

  Some you place inside your hat and walk around with all day

  as if you are balancing an egg on your head

  Some you discover living in the Denver Y

  Some you convert to a useless piece of dialogue

  Some you fitfully oppose

  Some you apply to meekly explaining yourself

  in freakish and ill-favored French

  Some you travel to far countries with

  Some you misplace

  Some you pick the under feathers off of and murmur to fondly

  Some you obviously compare to a vanished wilderness

  Some you watch dwindle in the rear view mirror

  Some you place on the windowsill

  Some you embrace without passion

  Some you speak to in barrooms and art galleries

  referring to yourself as fraudulent and unfathomable

  Some you dispense with lightly

  Some you divert into other professions

  Some you understand as disguised by moonlight

  Some you prepare for a better life

  Some you poke

  Some you unnerve while dreaming of hotels by the sea

  Some you righteously anger

  Some you offer pastries to

  and lose sight of frequently

  Some you heckle and deride

  Some you take casually to your bosom

  Some you compare to mice living in granaries

  Some you watch from the corner of your eye

  Some you badger and push to great acts

  Some you dispense with

  Some you teach a short solo

  Some you love

  Some you don’t know what to do with

  Some you clearly can’t speak to without blushing

  Some you disturb

 

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