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by Charlie Smith


  Some you compare to a short selection of musical numbers

  Some you never get over

  Country Churches in Summer

  . . . big empty room where dust collects

  all week and you can hear the sparrows

  in the gallberry scrub the air sheaved with particles

  each a world in itself the divisions

  that make this shakedown necessary in the first

  place settling disparities like a baker’s agent sifting flour

  through his pale hands the days in summer so long

  god gets the idea nothing much goes on in this part of the county

  and it takes all the might collected during the week

  for the congregation to prove they still

  love him best the afterimages of broken harness and love

  faltering in the ditch of the heart impressed

  and knocked around by hymns that crush

  and reconstitute the formal body until the lord climbs off the floor

  like a weary fighter sure he can go another round

  the universal implementation and ready

  proofs a notice for the living remnants in the pews

  who huddle as their souls spring upwards like flowers or ponies

  and those passing by out on the road hear them

  and go on eased by music they didn’t realize they’d forgotten.

  The Players

  I get away among the other players

  and practice my style which

  includes a section

  of close-packed

  moans and a sudden electrified turn

  you might not

  expect

  if you’ve never seen it before plus

  a look of resolution

  that dissolves so quickly

  you might think it was

  never there

  in the first place. there’s a happiness

  too you can see

  through like a clear plastic

  bag

  filled with rainwater.

  all the others are busy

  practicing as well

  and this is one of the good parts.

  I watch

  and pick up a few pointers

  and baldly

  universal

  techniques that

  are a hit everywhere

  and I get after them. and you

  too, I say to myself, you too are a hit.

  Get Along, Get Along

  what I brushed aside went around back

  climbed the fence and got in with its unregulated

  placement and dumb alteration

  you could hear the loose

  warbling all over the place

  the constant upbraiding and low down

  mimicry

  and if it wasn’t too much to stand

  I would’ve found out a few things

  but by then I was in a state

  bulking up for a run across the border

  which I am deeply grateful for

  this slide into a desert situation

  where among the fruit stands and

  closely parted evacuation routes you can settle

  beside dry streams and hollows

  where little houses keep watch across ransacked valleys

  for the light that is rising somewhere else.

  Buying the Fava Beans

  . . . scattered about me

  localized and irreverent, careless in manner, the charged bits,

  the pressed

  and folded collections

  upright and directed in the undramatized parking lot

  market where I ask

  about the fava beans

  among the constant vibration of select billions, effervescing

  and completely

  pinpointed like jet planes

  silently

  angling for fuel,

  and the woman, an artist of

  particles,

  with sleek black hair made of light

  and distribution,

  says as she fills

  a sack,

  you have to peel them twice, once of the—fuzzy, yellow-green—

  outer shell

  and once of the—pale green—skin of the bean

  itself, and I turn to the air

  breezing lightly against my skin, a looser

  gathering of particles

  than the lean

  and waver, the bluster

  about me and about the momentarily

  generous being

  who speaks to me, and return,

  as from a trip to Ceylon, dusty

  and afraid of the night, and I too am part of this,

  a collection

  and slowly distributed

  assortment—atoning for nothing, owing nothing—like

  you—

  shifting in the sunlight,

  the one

  who says it’s a little daunting

  to the one who laughs lightly.

  After the Wind Died Down

  Lush summer

  provoked into amplitude, the sense everyone has this year

  of a tremendous dosage

  just within reach, the boys on silver bikes

  off for the big houses set in fields and girls in lemon yellow kerchiefs

  trying to stabilize their position

  on harmony. We used to walk for miles

  just to be together for an hour. Butterbeans

  and the muscadines came in at the same time each year.

  Sour yellow plums like earbobs

  hanging in bushes along the highway. We shaped

  our answers to fit the questions, loose

  and stirred up almost shining with our own version

  of sincerity. You might pedal fifteen miles

  for a dance. I say these things

  in gratitude, moved by the old blistering

  of happiness. The big-bellied trees

  take nothing to heart. Day breaks into fragments,

  each stamped with the name of a claimant.

  Familiar bells ring with the same false solemnity

  as always. Traipsing and pressing

  our luck we come in off the streets as if from vast unsorted worlds.

  Picture of the Situation

  You don’t call it pain

  you call it daylight

  or the rough bark of some oak tree

  or the rocks like broken steps at the edge of the woods

  but it’s not pain

  it’s not even sadness or anything

  you’d set aside or comment on in the diary

  you compulsively keep.

  Fierce words break through arguments

  you get into out in the driveway.

  You could set the house

  on fire and stand there in the yard still arguing

  about how you failed to love her

  properly and the fire wouldn’t affect you.

  Now it’s all back in the shed, the

  hopes and fabulous way of putting things,

  some shed you keep a lock on.

  You stand out in the yard

  picking the pine sap off the car hood waiting for her

  to finish whatever she’s

  doing inside the house. You light a cigarette

  and look at the match

  and then you stand there with your head

  thrown back. Whatever’s pressed up against you

  presses so hard breath can’t get out. You can’t even scream.

  By Mechanical Means

  Splintery, spring pretends

  to stall. Crafted, succinct,

  bog hemp & new wild

  olive tremble

  and appear indistinguishable

  from sandspur

  and Spanish dagger. Flat

  fingers of rain, the care taken

  before we set out for supper,

  your brother standing a long time gazing
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br />   across the pasture

  coming up in white clover, a sense

  of opportunity missed, swung round

  again. The Redeemer, in the body

  of a truck gardener, ambles by on his way to the john.

  Antinomian heresies

  shade toward the barn. Cypresses

  shaky in the woods, the proposals of winged

  sumac and maidencane taken in stride,

  soft landings for briar and crotalaria

  bloom. The tiniest is taken

  care of. Conventions appraised

  and disputes settled. Cow oak and dogwood

  seem to push back, extrude

  calculated systems of foamy white.

  Rambler time. The earnestness

  of those who made it through winter

  to this spot,

  the usual phraseology

  and cumbersome mechanics, a child

  confessing a childish

  crime, a gift carelessly given,

  taken back. What’s

  worked through or failed at

  or lost reaches the edge of the barrow

  where sorrel

  and inkberry thrive, where we loiter,

  hunchbacks and enfeebled moralists,

  palsied, convulsive, marooned

  in this life, willing to talk about it now.

  ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

  Tin House, poetry.org, American Poetry Review, Ploughshares, the New York Review of Books, Plume, Poetry, Kenyon Review, Crazyhorse, Rattle, Southern Poetry Review, Southwest Review, American Journal of Poetry, Five Points

  To the editors and staff of the magazines that first published many of these poems, my thanks

  ALSO BY CHARLIE SMITH

  Poems

  Jump Soul: New and Selected Poems

  Word Comix

  Women of America

  Heroin and Other Poems

  Before and After

  The Palms

  Indistinguishable from the Darkness

  Red Roads

  Novels

  Ginny Gall

  Men in Miami Hotels

  Three Delays

  Cheap Ticket to Heaven

  Chimney Rock

  The Lives of the Dead

  Tinian*

  Storyville*

  Shine Hawk

  Canaan

  Crystal River*

  *published in a collected edition entitled Crystal River

  Copyright © 2020 by Charlie Smith

  All rights reserved

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  The Library of Congress has cataloged the printed edition as follows:

  Names: Smith, Charlie, 1947– author.

  Title: Demo : poems / Charlie Smith.

  Description: First edition. | New York : W. W. Norton & Company, [2020]

  Identifiers: LCCN 2019050521 | ISBN 9781324005070 (paperback) | ISBN 9781324005100 (epub)

  Subjects: LCGFT: Poetry.

  Classification: LCC PS3569.M5163 D46 2020 | DDC 811/.54—dc23

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