Bear to Love: Kodiak Den #3 (Alaskan Den Men Book 8)

by Amy Lamont

  “Don’t do that again, Macy,” Nash growled, his mouth close to my ear, making me shiver.

  I melted into him, but I wasn’t about to give up my new found independence. “And you don’t talk about reenlisting and leaving me again.”

  He pulled back just enough to look down into my face. “You heard us?”

  “I did. You almost broke my heart.”

  His eyes closed briefly and then he leaned forward and nuzzled against my temple. “I’m sorry, sweetheart. We just hate the thought of getting you involved in all this messed up stuff. We didn’t mean to hurt you.”

  Gage eased a hand soothingly up and down my back, his gesture reinforcing Nash’s words.

  “I understand that, but the only thing that would hurt me is if you two left me.” I gave Nash a hard look and glanced over my shoulder to include Gage in my scolding. “You don’t get to leave me. And as far as things being messed up…you two do realize you’ve been apart for hours while you looked for me, right?”

  I kept my eyes glued to Nash’s face so I got to see the emotions that passed over it. He raised his eyes to look at Gage over my shoulder. “You were okay?”

  “Yeah. You?”

  Nash nodded.

  I grinned up at him. “See. You’re already better being with me. You two need me.”

  Nash grinned down at me his hands flexing on my hips. “No doubt about that, sweetheart.” His grin became even more boyish as he included Gage in his glance.

  I had to swallow as tears clogged my throat. This time tears of happiness, not fear or heartbreak. This was the first ray of hope we had that Gage and Nash would settle into a more normal relationship.

  Well, as normal as they’d get sharing me as a mate. I smiled wide at the thought. I had no doubt that even after their deepest wounds healed and scarred over, the three of us would be together.

  Then something else occurred to me.

  “While we’re discussing things, I’m telling you both right now, nightmares or no nightmares, you aren’t kicking me out of our bed again. We’ll figure out how to deal with them in a way that you two know I’m safe, but that way will not include me sleeping anywhere but between the two of you.”

  “Jesus.” Kaden’s voice broke into the little bubble I’d been in with my shifters. I might have forgotten he and Alyssa were there for a second or two.

  I grinned up at Nash. “Oops.”

  He threw his head back and laughed and I could hear and feel Gage’s warm chuckles from behind me. A warmth spread through me and for the first time since I woke up alone this morning, I started to really believe things would really be okay.

  “Sorry, man,” Nash said once his laughter subsided. He turned to face Kaden, his arm looping my waist to keep me at his side. Gage stayed pressed to my other side as I shifted to face Kaden. “But you have to know, we’re mates. I know Macy is your sister. I’d like to tell you if I could do things differently I would, but I’d be lying. She’s it for us. I know this is unusual, but you’re going to have to figure out how to get used to it.”

  Kaden passed a hand over his face and a quick glance showed me Alyssa was fighting off giggles.

  “I get it,” Kaden said. “Believe me, watching the three of you together, it would be hard to miss. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to cause problems.”

  My guys nodded at my brother, silently accepting his apology.

  “That being said,” Kaden continued, “I never, ever want to hear another word about your sleeping arrangements or anything that goes along with it.”

  Alyssa and I broke out into giggles.

  Kaden shook his head. “Seriously, if you could keep at least a few inches between all of you when I’m around…”

  Alyssa’s giggles turned to flat out laughter. She wrapped her arms around Kaden’s waist and turned her face up to his. “Aww, sweetie, now you know how Macy felt all these months watching us together.”

  Kaden groaned and I laughed again. “Payback is a bitch, big brother.”

  Kaden’s eyes flew to mine. I could see him fighting the temptation to tell me not to say bitch. He won the fight. Good thing, too. I was feeling pretty sassy with the whole new acting like an adult thing I’d stumbled onto.

  “How about we leave these three alone?” Alyssa suggested to my brother.

  His eyes shifted back and forth between the three of us. He squeezed Alyssa once before letting her go. He stepped over and held out a hand to Nash. They shook hands, but Kaden proved he wasn’t going to give up the protective big brother role entirely.

  “Take good care of my sister,” he said and clapped a hand down on his shoulder harder than necessary. “Or else.”

  Nash nodded and Kaden turned to Gage, giving him the same treatment.

  Alyssa shook her head at me. “Men.” She rolled her eyes and turned to Kaden. “Come on, caveman. Try to take me home.”

  Kaden grinned. “Caveman, huh?”

  He didn’t give Alyssa a chance to respond. He bent at the waist and pushed into her, lifting her into a fireman’s hold over his shoulder. She squealed and grabbed at his back, but she couldn’t stop her giggles.

  She lifted up her head long enough to wink at me and give me a little wave as Kaden carried her out the door.

  Nash leaned down to me. “You all done here?”

  I looked around and realized I’d managed to get the place spotless in my desire to push down all my feelings. I looked at my mates and thought with two possessive, protective bear shifters sharing my life, chances were I’d have lots of opportunities to get out my feelings with a scrub brush and sponge.

  “I just need to do one thing.” I moved quickly, wrangling the two kittens who’d managed to tucker themselves out while all the drama went on around them back into their cage. I turned back to my men. “Done.”

  “Good,” Gage said. “Let’s go home.”

  He and Nash moved to either side of me to walk me outside, pressing into me and making me feel safe, protected and loved. And I knew one thing for sure.

  I was already home.

  Epilogue

  Macy

  The guys made me wear a blindfold the whole ride. It had been almost six months since we discovered the bond between the three of us. And as rocky as the first few weeks were, the months since made up for it completely.

  My guys treated me like a princess. We’d decided to stay at the house they’d been renting for a while. My apartment, and more importantly, my bed, would have been too small for the three of us.

  And I’d been as good as my word on that day in the shelter. Unless one or both of my mates were working on something that took them away from home at night, I spent every night between them in our bed.

  And yes, I said one or both. My guys weren’t cured overnight. But they found when it came down to being together or leaving me alone while they were at work, they preferred if one of them could stay with me. Over the months, they’d come to be able to spend more and more time apart.

  Though I’d be a liar if I said all of us preferred the time we spent together.

  Delicious thoughts danced through my mind as I thought of all the ways and all the places we spent time together. My mates and I are were as bad as we ever accused Kaden and Alyssa of being. We couldn’t keep our hands off each other and what’s more, we didn’t even try.

  “What dirty thoughts are going through your mind, baby?” Gage growled his question into my ear.

  I shrugged and felt my shoulders brush both of theirs. They had me sandwiched between them on the bench seat of my truck.

  “Take off my blindfold and I’ll tell you,” I teased.

  Nash chuckled and his large warm hand came down on my knee. He slid it up over my stocking-covered leg until he hit my garters. His thumb caressed my bare thigh over my stocking-top and then moved up farther, getting closer and closer to the spot that most craved his touch.

  I parted my legs, giving his hand more room.

  “Our girl is in need of some
thing,” Gage said, his voice pure gravel. His hand moved to my other knee. “Don’t you, baby?”

  “Mmm.” All I could do was moan as Nash’s fingers discovered that he and Gage weren’t the only ones with a surprise.

  “Oh, sweetheart.” Nash’s voice was thick with need. “Is this for us?”

  “Mmmhmm.” A small mewling sound came from my throat as Nash’s fingers found my clit and began to move it back and forth.

  “Our girl has been keeping a secret of her own, Gage.”

  “That so?” Gage’s fingers trailed up my thigh and moved up between my thighs. “Oh, naughty girl. Did you forget your panties?”

  I nodded, biting down on my lower lip as Gage’s finger plunged inside me as Nash continued to play with my clit.

  “You going to come right here in your truck for us?” Nash asked.

  I nodded and than threw my head back on a gasp as Gage’s finger plunged deeper. He slid a second finger into my warm, wet pussy and began to thrust his fingers back and forth. Nash strummed my clit and in minutes I slid over the edge and a hard, hot orgasm shot through me. I rode out my pleasure on their fingers right there in the front seat of the truck with no idea where we were or who might see us.

  The thought of getting caught with my mates’ hands playing with my pussy drove me straight into a second wave of pleasure. My body shook as the shocks moved through me, my body bowed tight, my mouth open as I cried out.

  As I came down, I slumped into Gage’s side. Nash’s hand smoothed down my leg, coming to rest on my knee as he kept us on the road.

  “You’re so hot, baby.” Gage kissed my temple and wiggled slowly removed his fingers from my now drenched center. He lifted his hand to my lips, using his fingers to paint my lips with my own juices. I licked them off and he groaned.

  “Your sweet little pussy tastes so good, doesn’t it, sweetheart?” Gage asked.

  My only answer was to nuzzle my face into his neck. He held me close until the truck finally came to a stop.

  “Are we here?” I asked.

  “We’re here.” Nash’s voice was harsh with unfulfilled need.

  Gage helped me down from the truck and waited until Nash got out and came around to meet us.

  “Can I take the blindfold off?” I asked for the millionth time.

  “We had planned to let you take it off when we got here, but after the little show you put on in the truck, I have another idea now,” Nash said.

  Before I could ask about his plans, he shifted me bridal style into his arms and moved forward. I could hear Gage walking beside us. It felt like we moved up a few steps before a door opened and then closed behind us. Warmth filled me as soon as we stepped inside.

  “Why don’t you sit over there, Gage?”

  I couldn’t see what Nash was instructing Gage to do, but I heard rustling as he moved.

  “After Gage made you feel so good in the truck, I think you should make him feel just as good, don’t you think?”

  All I could do was nod as my breath left me on excited pants.

  Nash stepped forward and then slid me down his body until my feet hit the floor, his front fitted to my back. But he didn’t stop there. He pressed his hands into my shoulders. “I think Gage would love to feel that pretty mouth wrapped around his cock.”

  I moaned at his words and sank slowly to my knees, Nash’s hands guiding me down.

  Another set of hands came to the sides of my heads. “You always look so beautiful on your knees, baby.” Gage said as he used his hands to guide my mouth to his hard cock.

  They had only managed to whet my appetite in the truck and I leaned forward and pulled Gage into my moth quickly and greedily. I reached forward until my fist wrapped around the base and dragged my tongue over the mushroom at the head before slowly sinking down until he hit the back of my throat.

  “That’s perfect, Macy.” Gage continued to guide my head up and down on his long, hard shaft.

  While I sucked and licked Gage, Nash’s hands went to my hips and pulled me back a little until I had to lean forward to keep my mouth on Gage. He slowly lifted my skirt up over my bare ass and moaned over Gage’s cock as Nash’s large, hot hands caressed me.

  He didn’t waste a moment. In one swift motion, Nash brought the tip of his cock to my entrance and then plunged in to the hilt. I lifted up off of Gage, my back arching as I cried out, reveling the feeling of Nash filling every inch of me.

  “Don’t stop, baby.” Gage brought my mouth back down to him. Nash plowed in and out of my pussy and I moved my mouth over Gage in the same rhythm.

  I loved being surrounded and filled by my mates. In minutes I found myself climbing again toward a peak of pleasure.

  Nash leaned over my back and growled, “Not yet, sweetheart. You need to let me have my pleasure first and then you need to help Gage find his. You don’t get to come until we do.”

  I whimpered as Gage hit the back of my throat and fought against the surge of pleasure welling up inside me. Not being able to see made me all about sensation. I loved when they made me wait to come, but I wasn’t sure this time I’d manage to do it.

  Nash’s thrusts sped up and I knew that meant he as getting close, but the increased pace pushed me closer and closer to the edge. I lifted my mouth from Gage’s cock with a gasp. I gritted my teeth and his hand slid over to caress my cheek.

  “You need to wait your turn, Macy,” Gage commanded.

  A long, low moan broke from me and my bear growled her displeasure as I fought the urge to give myself over to the sensations pulsing through me. Just as I thought I couldn’t hold off another minute, Nash’s hips moved faster and in one, two, three hard thrusts, I could feel him going off inside me, finding his pleasure deep in my body.

  I whimpered as he pulled out. “No, not yet.”

  Nash pressed a kiss on my ass cheek. “You’re not done yet, sweetheart. We’ll take care of you.”

  Nash’s hands moved to my hips and he quickly eased me from my knees, lifting me up, only to plunge me straight down onto Gage’s cock. I sat straddling him, filled to the hilt with him as he groaned beneath me.

  I leaned forward and put my hands on Gage’s shoulders. I could feel Nash’s hands going to my sweater, undoing the small pearl buttons that went straight down my front. He quickly helped me shed it along with my bra, and then his hands went to my hips, helping me to move up and down on Gage’s rigid shaft as Gage’s hands moved to my breasts.

  My head fell back and met Nash’s hard chest, still covered in his t-shirt. He placed an open-mouth kissed on my lips and our tongues tangled. His hands traded places with Gage’s. Nash scooped his palms up over my breasts and he rolled my over-sensitized nipples between his fingers. Gage’s hands went to my hips, guiding me up and down hard and fast.

  I broke away from Nash’s kiss as I felt the pleasure building again. I fell forward onto Gage and we shared a long, wet kiss as his hips bucked up, pushing his cock into me over and over again.

  “I’m going to come,” I gasped. “I can’t wait.”

  “Come, baby. We have you.” Gage’s hips picked up speed and I moved over him, matching him thrust for thrust. I plunged down over him one last time and bright white lights burst behind my eyes.

  Gage jerked beneath me and in the dim recesses of my mind I could feel him emptying himself into my body as wave after wave of heat burst through me. I shook with the pleasure rocking through me until I finally fell forward onto him.

  I might have dozed for a minute or two. The next thing I was aware of was a hand pulling the blindfold from my eyes. I found myself cradled between Gage and Nash, the two of them stroking my body as I came back down to earth.

  It took a few minutes to return to myself, but finally I realized I could look around. A quick scan of my surroundings showed me we were in a beautiful log cabin. The rafters in the great room where we sat on the couch went up two stories. An enormous stone fireplace took up almost an entire wall on one side, and on the other a wall of
windows showed the fading twilight lighting the forest outside.

  “Where are we?” I nuzzled my cheek against Gage’s chest. “This place is gorgeous.”

  Nash’s large hand smoothed up and down my legs and he offered me one of his gorgeous smiles. “I’m very happy to hear you like it.”

  “Me, too,” Gage said, his smile matching Nash’s.

  I sat up straighter and looked between my mates. “What’s going on? What are you two up to?”

  Nash and Gage exchanged a look before Nash grinned. “You know how Gage and I have had that extra project at work that’s kept us so busy the last two months?”

  I nodded. I had done my best not to complain, but I’d decided today if my brother was done making my mates work such crazy hours, he was going to hear from me. I’d started thinking that even though Kaden had seemed fine with everything, maybe he hadn’t really accepted us and this was his way of keeping us apart.

  “Well, we haven’t really been working,” Gage said.

  “You haven’t?” I pulled my brows together. “Then where have you been spending all your time?”

  “Here.” Nash flicked his hand, gesturing the house.

  “Here?”

  Gage nodded. “When we found this place, it needed a lot of work, but we knew it would be perfect.”

  “Perfect?” I asked.

  “For us. For our family,” Nash said.

  “For us?” My gaze travelled around the gorgeous house. “You mean…?”

  “This place is ours. The place we’ll grow our family.”

  My mouth dropped open and I hopped to my feet, not caring a bit that I was only half dressed. My eyes went over the house, over each gorgeous feature—the big windows that allowed the outdoors inside, the chef’s kitchen on the other end of the great room, the stairs climbing up to a second floor where I imagined I’d find enough rooms to fill up with a big family. And in one corner of the great room, sat my guitars, a chair, a music stand and a cabinet. Like a music room right in the middle of our home. Out where everyone could see it. My heart skipped a beat and my hand went to my chest.