Colorblind
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Colorblind
Copyright © 2017 Leah Harper Bowron
All rights reserved, including the right to reproduce this book or portions thereof in any form whatsoever.
Published by SparkPress, a BookSparks imprint,
A division of SparkPoint Studio, LLC
Tempe, Arizona, USA, 85281
www.gosparkpress.com
Published 2017
Printed in the United States of America
ISBN: 978-1-943006-08-3 (pbk)
ISBN: 978-1-943006-09-0 (e-bk)
Library of Congress Control Number: 2017933885
Cover design © Julie Metz, Ltd./metzdesign.com
Book design by Stacey Aaronson
All company and/or product names may be trade names, logos, trademarks, and/or registered trademarks and are the property of their respective owners.
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.
To my beloved daughter, Sarah St. Clair Bowron
CONTENTS
Chapter One: The Rumor
Chapter Two: The Truth
Chapter Three: The Bra
Chapter Four: The Secret
Chapter Five: The First Day
Chapter Six: The Interrogation
Chapter Seven: The Assassination
Chapter Eight: The Midget
Chapter Nine: The Mimic
Chapter Ten: The Governor
Chapter Eleven: The Fair
Chapter Twelve: The Carnival
Chapter Thirteen: The Corn King
Chapter Fourteen: The Pageant
Chapter Fifteen: The Nose
Chapter Sixteen: The Eyes
Chapter Seventeen: The Valentine
Chapter Eighteen: The Hare
Chapter Nineteen: The Bee
Chapter Twenty: The Award
Chapter Twenty-One: The First Day
Chapter One
The Rumor
Arumor was afloat in sixth grade, and everyone was dying to know if it was true. Mrs. Weaver started the rumor.
On the afternoon of May 31, 1968, Mrs. Lottice Weaver retired as the sixth-grade English teacher at the all-white Wyatt Elementary School in Montgomery, Alabama. At her retirement party that evening, Mrs. Weaver told Imogene Phillips, mother of rising sixth grader Roxanne, that she had heard that the sixth grade was getting a colorful teacher. Mrs. Weaver raised her light brown eyebrows and drew quotation marks in the air with her pale white fingers as she said the word “colorful.”
Next week at the Piggly Wiggly grocery store, Imogene Phillips told Coach Stewart, the father of rising sixth grader Jefferson, that she had heard that the “colorful” teacher was from the “quarter.” At a father-son campout the following weekend, Coach Stewart told his son Jeff that he had heard that the “colorful” teacher from the “quarter” talked funny.
At Vacation Bible School in July, rising sixth grader Jeff Stewart told rising sixth grader Becky Owens that he had heard that the “colorful” teacher from the “quarter” who talked funny smelled bad. At her birthday party in August, rising sixth grader Becky Owens told rising sixth grader Cathy Cartwright that she had heard that the “colorful” teacher from the “quarter” who talked funny and smelled bad had kinky hair.
At a back-to-school party for the sixth grade, rising sixth grader Cathy Cartwright told rising sixth grader Lisa Parker that she had heard that the “colorful” teacher from the “quarter” who talked funny, smelled bad, and had kinky hair was lazy.
The rumor was running rampant until Lisa Parker heard it. Lisa Parker did not giggle when she heard the rumor. She did not say exclamations such as “Oh, gross!” or “You must be kidding!” She did not even smile. Instead, Lisa Parker got sick.
Lisa Parker was no ordinary rising sixth grader. She was sensitive. Very sensitive. Lisa did not know what the rumor meant. All she knew was that the rumor was saying mean things about the new teacher. And these mean things gave her a stomachache. Lisa began to develop a sick feeling in the pit of her stomach. Lisa’s palms began to sweat, her heart began to race, and a wave of nausea began to swell inside her.
“Oh, no,” Lisa thought, “not another nervous stomach!”
Lisa had never had a nervous stomach at a party before. She grabbed a nearby chair to steady herself and was no longer able to make eye contact with Cathy. Cathy looked at her friend with concern.
“You look like you’ve just seen a ghost, Lisa,” said Cathy.
Images of ghostlike men in white sheets flooded Lisa’s brain. A secret society of white men dressed in white sheets as members of the Ku Klux Klan to show the world that the white race was superior.
“Are you all right, Lisa?” asked Cathy.
“Just a stomachache,” said Lisa.
Cathy rolled her eyes and said, “Here we go again.”
Lisa and stomachaches seemed to go together. Why, Lisa typically had more absences than any other student at Wyatt Elementary due to her mysterious stomachaches. Sometimes Lisa’s stomachaches happened in the morning before school began, and Lisa would miss the whole day of school. These mysterious stomachaches would go away as soon as Lisa was allowed to stay home. Other times Lisa’s stomachaches happened during school, and Lisa would check out of school and miss part of the school day. These mysterious stomachaches would go away as soon as Lisa got in the car to return home. Something made Lisa scared of school.
“I’ll be fine, Cath, really—I just need to get some air,” Lisa said.
Lisa walked outside. Once she was alone, she took some deep breaths to keep from hyperventilating. With her breathing regulated, Lisa’s nausea began to diminish. Lisa decided to rejoin the party.
Coach Stewart’s den provided the perfect place for the back-to-school party. All of the furniture had been pushed against the walls, and a dance floor complete with a Rock-Ola jukebox emerged. Refreshments were served on a skirted table near the dance floor. The room was filled with students, some of whom were dancing.
Lisa looked down at her clothes and smiled—she was wearing a long-sleeved chocolate brown mini-dress with a white collar and cuffs. From the middle of her collar hung a mock necktie comprised of brown, orange, yellow, and white horizontal stripes. Accompanying the dress were white go-go boots and a fringed brown suede purse purchased from The Third World, a store for customers who wanted to dress like hippies. Lisa walked over to the refreshment table and got a Coca-Cola from Mrs. Stewart.
The jukebox was playing “People Got to Be Free” by The Rascals, and two couples were dancing. A group of girls had congregated at one edge of the dance floor. Lisa joined the girls, who were talking about everything from boys to school to music to ID bracelets. A squeal erupted when Ann Jones admitted that she was going steady with Larry Davis and was wearing his ID bracelet. Lisa had no prospects on the boy front and remained quiet.
When the conversation turned to the start of school next week, Lisa began to feel scared again. The first day of school always terrified her. Who would be in her class? Would she have to share a class with one of the mean boys? Lisa prayed each year that none of the mean boys would be in her class. But her prayers were never answered. She seemed destined to share not only a class but also a playground and a lunch table with at least one of the mean boys. Lisa began to get another stomachache. Luckily, it was time to go home.
Lisa walked outside with the other students. After thanking the Stewarts and Jeff for hosting the party, Lisa scanned the line of parked cars for her father’s Buick Electra 225. She found the very long white car and slumped into the red front seat. Mr. Parker noticed that Lisa seemed sad.
Lisa burst into tears and cried, “It was terrible, Daddy! Cathy told me the meanest things about our new teacher.”
“What things?” her father asked, accustomed to Lisa’s tears.
“She said that she had heard that the n-n-new teacher had colorful k-k-kinky hair, talked funny fr-fr-from the ‘quarter,’ smelled b-b-bad, and was lazy,” Lisa said, though her voice was choked with sobs.
“Now, Sissy,” Mr. Parker said tenderly, “there’s no need to cry. Why, it’s as plain as the nose on your face.”
Lisa flinched at the mention of the word “nose” and drew her hand across her flattened left nostril and the scars underneath.
“Your new teacher is a Negro.”
Lisa touched her mock necktie and winced. She had an image of her Negro teacher wearing a real necktie and hanging from a tree in the schoolyard. The back-to-school party had just become a necktie party.
Chapter Two
The Truth
“A Negro!” Lisa exclaimed. “The only Negroes at my school work in the cafeteria and on the janitor’s staff.”
“Not anymore,” Lisa’s father responded. “Your Negro teacher is just the beginning.”
Lisa’s father pulled his car to the curb and turned to Lisa. He and Lisa shared the same blonde hair and blue eyes. A streetlight illuminated his white face against the midnight blue night sky. A new moon beckoned from above.
“Now, Sissy,” he said, “the courts have ordered that the public schools be integrated. This fancy word means that some colored students must attend white schools and some white students must attend colored schools.”
“Daddy, you’re wearing your lawyer hat again,” Lisa said proudly. “But what does all of this have to do with a Negro teacher?”
“Good question,” her father replied. “To start the ball rolling, the school districts decided to send some colored teachers to white schools and some white teachers to colored schools. Your new Negro teacher is just such an example. It’s unfortunate that Mrs. Weaver decided to retire instead of teaching at a colored school.”
“But why didn’t Mrs. Weaver want to teach at a colored school?” Lisa asked in earnest.
“It could be that she was just plain scared, Sissy,” Lisa’s father replied. “Or it could be that she was prejudiced. This fancy word means that some people think that they are better than other people. If Mrs. Weaver thinks that she is better than colored people, then she might have chosen to retire instead of teaching at a colored school.”
“But I don’t think that I am better than Ozella, and she’s colored,” Lisa explained.
“Very good, Sissy,” Lisa’s father replied. “The fact that our maid Ozella is colored does not mean that we are better than she is.”
“Then why is everyone saying such mean things about the new teacher?” Lisa asked.
“When people are prejudiced,” Lisa’s father explained, “they exaggerate the differences between people in an effort to feel superior. Your friends said that your new teacher had ‘kinky hair’ to feel better than your new teacher when your new teacher really only has hair which is different from theirs. The mean things that your friends said about the new teacher are all examples of racial stereotypes.”
“Is a stereotype a kind of stereo?” asked Lisa.
“No,” said Lisa’s father. “A stereotype is a fancy word for a false statement about a group of people. For example, the statement that Negroes are lazy is a stereotype because it is false—many Negroes are not lazy. Some Negroes are lazy just as some whites are lazy. So it was wrong for your friends to say that because your new teacher is a Negro, she is lazy.”
“I still don’t understand why some people can be so mean,” said Lisa while thinking of the mean boys at school.
Lisa and her new teacher were both the victims of meanness. Some boys at school said mean things about Lisa. The rumor said mean things about the new teacher. Meanness begets meanness as fear begets fear. Lisa felt the new teacher’s fear before she had ever met her.
Lisa heard a cat growl as she saw a brown squirrel scamper across a telephone wire. The squirrel stopped in midair, flicked his tail several times, and made a clucking sound. A gray cat came out of the shadows, looked up at the squirrel, and stepped back into the shadows. A waiting game followed. Only time would tell.
“I know what it feels like to be teased,” thought Lisa. She looked down at her brown suede purse and silently said, “I promise not to tease or to be mean to the new Negro teacher.” After making this promise, Lisa opened her purse and pulled out her troll doll. She rubbed the doll’s long pink-and-white hair three times for luck. “May my new teacher and I have a good school year,” she silently wished. Then she kissed the doll and placed it back in her purse.
“It’s getting late—we need to get home,” Lisa’s father said. “Why, you’ve got a big day tomorrow!” he exclaimed.
Lisa momentarily forgot how scared she had been and smiled. “I’m so excited,” Lisa said. “Tomorrow is my birthday, and I finally get to shop at the preteen store!”
Chapter Three
The Bra
It was Lisa’s eleventh birthday, August 26, 1968, and Mrs. Penelope Parker was taking her daughter Lisa back-to-school shopping. Mrs. Parker, who modeled before she married, was fashionably attired in chartreuse silk pants and a mod-colored paisley blouse. Before getting dressed, Mrs. Parker “put on her face,” a ritual in which she applied layers of makeup to her heart-shaped face. She wore bold brown eyeliner to outline her blue eyes. Today she drove her white Corvair.
Lisa was also fashionably attired because Mrs. Parker selected all of Lisa’s clothing. The Parkers’ destination this morning was a girls’ preteen shop known as Twix n’ Tweens. Although Lisa was the smallest girl in her grade, Mrs. Parker thought that Lisa was ready for the preteen store.
“Happy birthday, Sissy!” said Mrs. Parker while driving her to the preteen store. “You know, I should receive your birthday present, not you.”
“I know, Mama,” said Lisa while feeling sick to her stomach.
“Yes, I labored for hours with you, and what with your birth being so hard and terrifying and everything, why, I deserve the present, not you,” declared Mrs. Parker.
“You don’t have to remind me, Mama,” said Lisa, “I know.”
Lisa was devastated. Another birthday ruined by her mother. Lisa felt that she could never truly enjoy a birthday present again.
“And, Sissy,” Mrs. Parker said, “remember that your father and I are also taking you to see the Barbra Streisand movie Funny Girl next month as part of your birthday celebration.”
“I know, Mom,” said Lisa while trying to regain her composure. “I can’t wait!”
After parking the car, Mrs. Parker walked toward the store with Lisa in tow. Lisa noticed that the store’s large display window featured a movie marquee that proclaimed the movie Back to School was currently playing. Lisa’s excitement over the back-to-school shopping was tempered by her anxiety over the first day of school. Lisa was also anxious because she never felt pretty like her glamorous mother.
As soon as Lisa and her mother entered the store, they spotted Cathy and her mother at the cash register. Beside Cathy were two shopping bags filled with clothes.
“Hey, Cath,” said Lisa while her mother began talking to Mrs. Cartwright.
“Happy birthday, Lisa,” replied Cathy. “I’ll bring your present when I come over to spend the night tonight.”
“I can’t wait,” said Lisa. “Looks like you found some clothes here.”
“I did,” said Cathy. “I’m sure you’ll find some cute things, too.”
“I hope so,” said Lisa while worrying that she might be too small for these clothes.
Lisa noticed something different about Cathy, but she couldn’t put her finger on it. When Cathy bent over to pick up one of the shopping bags, Lisa spotted it. Cathy was wearing a bra. A real bra—
not like the trainer bra that Lisa wore. A real bra with real cups for real breasts.
“Ratfink,” said Lisa to herself while glancing down at her bony chest. She opened her purse and touched her green Ratfink eraser for luck.
After saying good-bye to the Cartwrights, Lisa and her mother followed a sales attendant to the rack of fall dresses. Lisa headed for the size 2 dresses—the smallest preteen size. As Lisa rummaged through the dresses, her mother began pulling dresses off the rack and handing them to the sales attendant. The sales attendant then began hanging the dresses in the store’s largest dressing room, which was lined with mirrors.
Lisa timidly entered the dressing room, closed the door, and undressed. She looked skinny in just her panties and trainer bra. Lisa tried on the first dress—a navy blue dress with a large elephant appliquéd on it.
“Great,” thought Lisa, “an elephant’s trunk to emphasize my nose.”
Lisa’s mother entered the room and helped Lisa zip the dress. Lisa noticed that the dress drooped across her flat chest.
“It’s cute,” said her mother, “just a bit too big in the bust. Try the green one on next.”
Lisa stepped out of the navy dress and into a kelly green knit dress with fuchsia-ribbon detailing. Lisa became very self-conscious of the fact that the knit dress lay in folds atop her tiny chest.
“Again, it’s too big in the bust,” said her mother. “How about that paisley one—it’s not so fitted.”
Lisa now stepped out of the green dress and into the paisley one. The third time was definitely not the charm. Lisa saw sagging paisley fabric where her bosoms should have been.
Her mother looked at Lisa and shook her head.
“It’s precious but too blousy in the bust,” said her mother.
Mrs. Parker could see that Lisa was becoming discouraged. Never one to give up where clothes were concerned, Mrs. Parker summoned the sales attendant.
“I have an idea,” said Lisa’s mother to the sales attendant. “Bring her a bra—a padded bra—the best padded bra that you have.”