Love untold

by Debbie Forester

  No look at you as a distraction, my family adores including Consuelo also do not care what people think.

  -A Me yes and that sets us apart, I do not regret what we have experienced, but I must stop now, I think right now have more serious problems and should concentrate on your life.

  'Of God, Lori! He had been four years without tasting a drop of alcohol. 'I had to give explanations why, but her gaze and she professed her feelings forced him to be honest with her.

  I thought I'd help, I swear, I would have asked me and I would have stayed, but left it very clear that I do not want in your life.

  -I was drunk.

  Now you're sober, do you want me to stay?

  Mike was silent, refused to answer, she did not deserve what was coming, because he would not have it easy in good time, have to start the whole process again. Excuses and more excuses, he said, you need it fear, fear of not being able to get through this if she ever leaves.

  Lori understood, had been intense, complicated and was not the time to be complicated if things were up to the next level.

  It's a battle we have to fight yourself. Your comments were very hurtful and this sentence of yours last night reminded me of a saying: The children and drunks always tell the truth. Her heart Lori shrugged, not wanting to get close to him, his smell disturbed her, that smell the fabric softener used in your clothing, woodsy lotion mixed with the smell of man. Again that feeling of wanting to die if cut ties with Mike came to it, but had to leave it in a dignified manner.

  'You want the fucking love story Mike blurted sarcastically and disgusted with himself for how he felt. Walk down a fucking landscape. Oh, and I imagine castle included. Awake! That does not exist.

  'Yes there is! You're blind and do not want to see it, does not mean that there is no burst out furiously. Nick and Julia have to Isabella has not gone wrong, have solved a crisis but, love. No we are all victims of our own frustraciones-. He finished angrier than he intended Lori moments ago.

  'I'm frustrated Mike He looked at her belligerently.

  -Yes they're Lori insisted. The death of that girl, relived the death of your mother.

  What do you know about the death of my mother?

  The tone in which he uttered was like a slap to Lori that was silent. Mike's eyes shone so angry.

  'I can not talk about it he said and rubbed his face.

  Until you can not, you've failed and you lose the people who love you in the process.

  Mike continued to struggle.

  'I can not give you what you want, but that does not give you any right to take things for granted, I do not know enough.

  -Fuck off! Lori grabbed the suitcase and left slamming the door.

  -Come here.

  Mike caught a few steps, their voices had warned that people who were outside and watching them curiously. He grabbed her arm.

  I'm sorry, sorry, principessa ... I did not want to leave and it disappeared from his life without. He recalled his nieces, recalled her dancing in the studio and the beautiful voice he had, his face and moans at the time of passion.

  -What are you feeling? Does the way you treated me last night or what happened seven years ago? Lori was being groveling and knew it, but did not care.

  -What are you talking about?

  Mike began to sweat cold not know if it was the hangover, he wiped his forehead and pulled her hair.

  It's a night you do not remember, at least you remembered what happened yesterday.

  -I do not understand…

  Seven years ago, we were together, you were the first ... my first ...

  chapter XXI

  Mike's face paled, her throat groaned.

  -Sorry? he whispered.

  -We Had sex one night you do not remember.

  It was as if someone had thrown a bucket of cold water. He dragged her back to the office, closed the door and let go. Lori arm he had held was rubbing. Mike bowed his head and leaned against the door with his hands behind. He breathed deeply several times.

  Tell me more so I forced willy-nilly.

  -Do not!

  Now I understood the feeling that assailed him the first few times he touched, of course, knew her. He raised his stormy gaze, her dark eyes flooded with confusion and pain they went through. Lori regretted having spoken. It was neither the time nor much less the circumstances.

  Forgive me, Mike, I should not tell you when so much has happened.

  He gave a wry laugh and shook his head several times.

  Mike bent, and hands in the face lasted several seconds in that position, he rose suddenly.

  -I knew it! -He approached her-. Why?

  Why, what?

  I I was drunk why did you accept my advances?

  I liked you, you'd never fixed on me yet that night I talked and looked at me for the first time as a woman.

  A lot of feelings were walking by the look of Mike, desolation and shame.

  -¿Fui Rude? I'll hurt you in any way?

  Lori wanted to comfort him and reproached his impulsiveness.

  Physically not ...

  -Explain yourself. Mike broke away from the door and walked down the little place with hands on her head. Now I understand your attitude and the way you looked at me, as an emetic.

  No hurt me, really, I felt little pain.

  Did you feel pleasure?

  -Yes.

  If I did not hurt, so ...

  My pride and my feelings did suffer a tremendous setback, seeing that the next day not you remembered anything.

  Mike recalled that morning.

  It was the day of the kitchen, the pancakes on the floor. I remember.

  'It's not very nice for a girl that the guy who is in love, does not remember the previous day snatched virginity. I felt used, but will not remember and so my dislike all these years. I forgave to see that not really you remembered and when you went with Alcoholics Anonymous.

  Mike needed a drink, wanted to drink and lost in the unconsciousness that provided the alcohol, but the new man who was never going to allow and what he had just heard. I would not drink a drop of liquor fucking what was left of his life, he swore vehemently and knew he always did honor to his oath.

  'm So sorry, 'he added, not knowing what else to say.

  Now that I think I was always waiting for you to wake up the view and saw something in me, it was pathetic. But you left a deep impression, because it was not that we start to relate and look what happened. I got into this with my eyes wide open, Mike, I do not consider myself a victim, in any sense. You've given good times and shared moments have brought me happiness. But I want more, I'm not a woman to watch the bulls from the sidelines, I went into the run and I won a pair of horns.

  No seems to me, now you're going to run.

  'I can not be with a man who is afraid to love a woman.

  Afraid not, the fact they do not love, does not mean you can not love someone else, principessa.

  Do not tell me principessa and yes you can be right, but at least they could show some delicacy, asshole.

  Lori, forgive Mike shrugged and a stone began to settle in the stomach. He recalled that it was the second time she asked him not to call so and realized that I had never used that name with another woman.

  No one can give what he does not have; no relationship will bring you happiness not build yourself-what looked eyes twinkling. You must overcome all that stops you love a woman should be.

  'Maybe I do not want to.

  Lori felt hurt, attacked like a wounded animal no matter where they were to stop the bites.

  I wish that when you decide not too late.

  The situation was getting melodramatic style of passing on television melodrama. Lori felt ridiculous.

  Lori, about what happened seven years ago, I'm really not able to return time and remember the girl who gave me, I'm sure, a special night.

  -Don't Worry, I have a lot of guilt, I took advantage of the situation, you were vulnerable and I was there with my fe
elings and cobwebs in his head.

  I'm ashamed, I do not think I can go back to look at you without feeling ashamed because of those episodes that much control wrested me.

  No drinking again, Mike, is the best, you can get into serious trouble.

  And then we ...

  -no Us, I feel hurt and do not want to see you again.

  Mike stiffened, but of course he did not want to see him again, he was an alcoholic and also had many problems to solve.

  I'll take you to the airport.

  -As you like.

  They made the journey in silence, a song by Lenny Kravitz was present in the car. Mike thought that what happened between them was not so bad, then why did it hurt so much? The burning in his stomach, was not for the damn liquor. He began to feel things that had long not felt, had become infatuated or festering of several women in the past, but when things ended, never felt what was perceived now. It hurt to see his face off. He loved her laugh, which sometimes contained and when let out a clean laugh, which he offered after the passion and offered to all around her, when tickled her bed and was the prelude to ... not follow this path, because you're screwed. Sigh. Why he had approached her ?, mused, had to leave her alone, now it would be more difficult, would not see his smile between silk sheets in his room.

  Lori's thoughts were on similar paths, the feeling of not seeing him again, was not pleasant. How easy it would have been like if she had left on the sexual plane. Mike was a very handsome man, but that was not all, was out with handsome men in the past. Why I had to fall in love with an impossible? It was as if autosaboteara. Jack would issue for a while. In his twenty-eight years of life little thought of the consequences of their actions, he planned yes, as a strategist was the best to bring down the man who appealed to him. At least in this case, the lead was Mike. He watched his hands as he maneuvered the gearbox, it was a good, decent, educated man and inspired confidence by his sincerity. They had endless talks, was a good listener, would miss the distance saw the signs that indicated they were within walking distance.

  I was about to the parking lot when Lori told him not to worry, that left her at the door with no problem.

  Lori ... -paladeó his name, refusing to let go of something so important to him. I wish to come with you.

  -Do not bother yourself.

  She decided to leave her alone. He took the suitcase and handed.

  It was special, Lori, even if you think the worst, was special.

  Without waiting, he got in the car and started to get lost in second place.

  The flight was hell for Lori that despite be strong, as the chair started he began to mourn inconsolably. The stewardess came worried, she forced herself to be controlled. He returned to mourn in the taxi and went home crying.

  The next day, he excused himself at work, knew that Peter would realize that something bad happened and did not want to endanger both his friendship with Mike, as your business with the firm.

  No more excuses Tuesday he went to work. Mike had not called, there was no reason for him to. I imagined not fretting about their feelings.

  Peter knew it was more than a cold as Lori stepped through the door. With serious and worried mood, he asked me to tell him what really happened to him. She held his ground, trying to convince him it was just a cold.

  Peter, I love you, but please, let alone my affairs concluded it would, at the insistence of his brother.

  -It's okay. Something in his expression dissuaded to continue insistiendo-. For now.

  He left the office moments later. "A horn is a cold," mused Peter, way to his office. "It must be he cretin flowers which put it this way, I would like to know who is, to put it in place."

  At night, after arriving from the office, he lays on the couch, two glasses of wine was taken as a matter of Muse paced the room, slept a nap. He got up startled to hear the doorbell and think of Mike, then remembered he hoped to Jack.

  Hello beautiful greeted Jack pulling her into his arms.

  Oh, Jack blurted Lori and began to mourn inconsolably.

  -What's up? Jack grabbed both sides of the face of Lori, looking at her with concern.

  Everything ended with Mike.

  That bastard Jack said angrily What made you?

  -The Adventure came to an end.

  Jack took out a handkerchief and wiped the tears.

  No I want to repeat I told you, you should keep it at that level. The advantage is that it was some time together, get over it in a jiffy.

  -Time Has nothing to do with this hole I feel here he pointed the heart.

  Jack poured wine for both.

  Lori told him everything that had happened since the death of the girl, to the farewell at the airport. Jack gave a long whistle.

  'I'm glad you left. The guy is fucked up everything that happened should throw to run. You deserve other person. Although I imagine babeaste at the number of problems, it is as you like. The bright light and crazy moth crashing against the glare.

  Lori gave him a hurt look.

  -He is a good man.

  Everything what a good man may be sitting on a huge amount of problems.

  Jack fiddled with his glass.

  I went delusional, I told myself that perhaps eventually change his mind. I know that in real life the toad does not become blue, quiet prince. That fairy tales do not exist, but I also know, you can have a great love that has enough courage to face the way of life and bumps that arise. Mike has to undergo a process of growth and better do it alone, as I also do mine.

  Well, well, my child grew.

  Lori burst out laughing.

  Do not be unlikable.

  No insult the cook.

  Jack got up and went to the kitchen, prepared sandwiches and a cream of tomato, her aunt remedy for all ills of mankind, said as he stirred the soup.

  Mike got home that night, after leaving Lori at the airport. She locked herself in the study, closed the curtains, is apoltronó in an armchair and with the command of stereo, selected a song either, he started playing Everybody's Changing Keane, ended the song with bitter delight repeated it, until one point, silenced the team and as a scourge fell upon him Lori's confession. A low moan filled the room. She had taken her virginity to Lori on a drunken night. So she blamed her, the adult was him. Had acted like a bastard, she appealed to him at that time, her warmth, sweetness and brash on his way to be captivated, but had done nothing about it. Apparently her subconscious had himself delighted and had done with it what he pleases. "God help me through this, please." The damn thirst was still there, was tempted to lose again in the liquor and forget everything, forget his mother, Althea and panic experienced and paralyzed him when Lori got too close. But he knew he would not and it was all of the above, would have to rise above the situation.

  He went to bed at midnight, conciliated little sleep, got up early and sportswear was to run to the beach. He returned at the time, looking to have gone to hell and have returned. Consuelo was received with orange juice and disapproving gesture, quietly she gave him steaming coffee. before him He sat with a well and faced him.

  -How could you? He asked indignantly. That girl was in floods of tears.

  Mike could retort that it was none of her business, but it would be unfair, she and Joaquín were like family and they just wanted their welfare.

  'I'm not good enough for her,' he said, clutching a coffee cup.

  Do not say nonsense, this happened to you was for fear Consuelo softened his gesture and gave him a look sympathetically. much is it approached?

  Mike dug his fingers into her hair and then passed over his face in a gesture tormented.

  'You have any idea how much.

  -It was time.

  He looked up.

  I can not, something paralyzes me, I can not wailed in desperate tone and immediately arose out of the kitchen.

  Two days later, he realized that it was very difficult, get her out of his mind, his confession all, he came snatches of their conversations,
laughter, games.

  She forced the memories aside to concentrate on achieving daily goals, build each time be better, reach night with the satisfaction of accomplishment, and he did, but focused on his work.

  He devoted every minute of his time to his responsibility, as he always did when he had problems or concerns. As passed anything that threatened to disrupt your mood or emotional balance, he immersed himself in the work to exhaust their employees.

  At the meeting with Lucas, he lost his temper at his friend's comments.

  'You're doing the job as it should be.

  'I have not drunk,' she said belligerently.

  No I mean it, kill to work does not solve it.

  I think-and yes, you need my money.

  I do not need your money.

  -Excuse me.

  'You have to procure for emotional health, you have to find meaning in your life and I do not mean to work.

  Lucas followed in his explanation, but Mike was no longer listening, knew the man was right. He recalled the discussion with Bella yesterday.

  He had come to the house at night and her sister was in the kitchen with Consuelo. Did not want to see anyone, the day had been a difficult day.

  -Beautiful.

  Hello, dear He approached her and kissed her on the cheek. I ran away from home for a while, let's walk around.

  -I'm tired…

  'I also relax Consuelo told me you're running on the beach when you get the job.

  All right, I expect change, it's cold.

  Mike fell dressed in faded jeans, sandals and thick sweater. Night had fallen, the distant sound of waves was heard.

  How are Patrick and girls?

  Well, Patrick working, the latest medical tests are perfect and the girls well, planning Thanksgiving.

  -I'm glad.

  ... Mike said. I know what happened to Lori and Althea and you're back to drink.

  I know she is solved tense replied.

  Not everything, you have forbidden topics for the whole world He approached a kiosk with a table and chairs. Bella invited him to sit while he collected his thoughts.

  Bella, please, are you going to start that again? He pointed annoyed.

  Why is it so difficult to take with you a conversation? 'I replied angrily.