A Twist of Fate

by T Gephart

  “Slow,” he groaned as he eased me out of my dress. His lips found mine and resumed their previous objective. My hand travelled down his chest and found the waist band of his jeans as I fumbled with the button and zipper.

  “Ahhhhhhhhh,” I moaned as his hand pushed down the cup of my bra and gently twisted my nipple. I pushed down his jeans and placed my hands on his athletic thighs, encased in thin cotton trunks. He kicked off the jeans and unhooked my bra, replacing his hand on my breast with his hungry mouth. “Ohhhhhh Alex,” I whimpered.

  “Slow,” he begged.

  “I can’t, please just take me now,” I pleaded. He tore off my panties in one swift movement as his hand strummed my newly exposed skin. I yanked at his trunks, managing to shimmy them down his legs where he kicked them off.

  “Baby, you’re so wet,” he gasped, his hands exploring every inch of my body, returning to the slickness between my thighs. “Lexi, baby. I can’t live without you, without this. I need you.” His tongue trailed down my body till it reached my inner thigh where he paused and slid a finger inside of me. My head tilted back as the pleasure spread across my body. He moved his tongue to the other thigh while he slid in an additional finger, my slickness coating his hands. “Mmmmm, you are so ready for me baby” he crooned. His tongue moved to my centre where he slowly but purposely licked my wet, glistening folds, gently flicking my clitoris with the tip of his tongue.

  “Ahhhhhhhh,” my moans spurred him to continue as he brought me close to climax.

  “That’s it baby, I need you to come for me,” he moaned. “Oh baby, you are so beautiful.” I gasped as he pushed me over the edge, my skin prickled all over and waves of pleasure rolled over and over through my core. He smiled with satisfaction.

  He kissed my inner thighs as I sat up in the bed, “Two weeks was too long” I agreed as I rolled towards him and pushed him down onto the mattress.

  “Easy Lexi. Slow.” His voice was almost a growl.

  “You had your turn, now it’s my turn.” I laughed as I straddled him, my knees either side of his legs.

  “Baby, please. I haven’t had sex in two weeks. I’m pretty locked and loaded right now.” A hint of a smile spread across his lips. I paused as the words finally hit me; he hadn’t had sex in two weeks. That was the last time we had been together, he’d been with no one else. “Baby?” the question was in his eyes and his voice as he lifted himself up onto his elbows.

  “I guess I didn’t really expect you to wait. For me, I mean. I thought, maybe you would... maybe with someone else while you were gone...” I stammered, “I’m a little surprised.”

  “Why, baby?” he asked. “I said I didn’t want anyone else and I meant it.” He lifted his hand to gently graze my chin. “Lexi, Trust me, this is new territory for me too. I only want you, any way I can have you.”

  My heart sank. “Alex, I can’t do relationships, I’m just no good in a relationship.”

  He hushed me as he kissed my lips. “Shhhhh Lexi, I’m not asking for anything right now, just what we are doing. Don’t freak out. I didn’t expect to feel the way I do about you, but I do. I need you and only you. Just no one else ok? I can’t stand the thought of someone else being with you. That’s my only condition.”

  “I don’t know, THAT kind of feels like a relationship.” I hesitated.

  “Baby, it’s just a label. There is no label for what we are.” He sat up as his clear eyes looked directly into mine.

  “Alex, are you....do you...?” I couldn’t bring myself to say it. People throw love around like it’s just another word. I’d only ever said it to one man and he’d almost destroyed me, shattering my heart into a million pieces and leaving me broken and alone. I was now stronger than I had ever been, but the thought of returning to that place of despair made me want to dry heave. The emotion was still raw, I felt like I was going to pass out.

  “Lexi, I’m not going to say words I don’t understand.” His tone became suddenly serious. “I’ve never told a woman other than my mother that I love her. I’m not sure I could ever say it. I don’t know if that is what this is. What I do know is that I need you. Being away from you is unacceptable for me. I can’t function without you and there is no one else out there who makes me feel like you do. I know I’m a better version of myself when you are with me. Do you understand, baby?”

  “Alex, I’m not sure how I feel right now.” My head buzzed with confusion.

  “You don’t have to know. You don’t have to say anything. Let’s just see where this takes us. I can’t give you up Lexi.” He pressed his lips tenderly to mine as I tried to speak. “No words, not now.” He mumbled as he kissed me. He was right, there were no words.

  His kiss deepened as I put my arms around him. No labels, we are what we are. My hands travelled down his body, he responded to my every touch with soft groans of pleasure. My need for him was as desperate as his had been for me. He was right, this was right. He tore open the condom packet and handed it me. I placed it in my mouth as I moved deliberately down the bed to his hard, waiting erection. I took him in my mouth as I had done on our first time. With my lips wrapped around my teeth so as not to puncture it, I let my tongue unravel and smooth the latex down the length of his shaft.

  He moaned as I gently sucked the head of his cock. “Lexi, I need to be inside of you” he hissed, his breath uneven and jagged. I released him from my mouth and he grabbed my waist, flipping me over onto my back. “I’m on top,” he demanded. “Ooooohhhh, I have missed you so much.” He hooked his arms around each of my legs and drew up my knees.

  “Don’t you trust me?” I smirked.

  “I’m pleading the fifth on that one” he winked as he slowly pushed himself inside of me.

  “Ahhhhh” I moaned as he filled me, his thrusts slow yet urgent.

  “Oh God, Lexi. I want to go slow but I don’t think I can. This feels so good.” His voice was strained.

  “Don’t hold back, baby. I want this. I want you.” I urged. He thrust deeper inside as he picked up the tempo, my arms firmly locked around his neck. I felt my own arousal building as he shifted my weight, tipping my hips up. He knew my body so well; he knew what to do to make it feel amazing. He released one of my legs and I laid it to rest on his shoulder giving him even deeper access, his face contorted and he fought against his own desires, desperate to prolong it as much as possible. My insides tightened around him as my own anticipation grew.

  “God Lexi, you do that again, you’re going to make me come” He growled. His thrusts became more desperate and deeper.

  “Ahhhhhhh Alex!” I screamed. I tightened around him yet again.

  “Aggghhhhh Lexi.” He moaned as he felt me getting closer to my finish. He reached down and with his thumb massaged my clit; it was all I needed to find my final release. I tightened one last time and pushed him over the edge so that we came together, gasping and panting, covered in sweat.

  He collapsed beside me, both of us unable to speak. My hand reached out and touched his damp, matted hair. He laid his head on my shoulder, kissing me gently.

  “Two weeks was too long” he smiled.

  “That was pretty intense” I agreed.

  “Just like us,” he laughed.

  “Yeah,” I admitted “just like us.”

  Chapter 16 – Revelations

  “Stay,” he begged.

  “Alex, please. I need to go,” I responded as I zipped up my dress.

  “But why? I already told you, I’m not expecting anything. I just want to have you sleep beside me,” he argued.

  “You and I both know that if I stay, we won’t be sleeping.”

  We had spent hours giving in to our primal urges, our marathon session taking us into the early morning. I felt dull aches in my arms and legs. Physically I was exhausted. Every cell in my body had been awakened through the night; he had had me so many times, each time more intense than the last. He was by far the most accomplished lover I’d ever had.

  “Stay.” He beg
ged one last time.

  “I’ll text you later,” I assured as I drew him into a deep kiss.

  The sun was just coming up as I entered my apartment to Matt’s angry voice. “That is fucking bullshit, are you fucking blind? Come on!!” As I rounded the corner into the living room I saw Matt was yelling at the TV. He had taken full advantage of my Foxtel package and was watching ESPN. “This is such shit... my 85 year old grandmother would have seen that was pass interference. What the Fuck?!” he roared, his face flushed with anger.

  “Everything ok, Matt?” I cautiously inquired.

  “Yeah, Yeah...we’re getting robbed by the refs! Alabama are playing LSU at Death Valley... Such bad calls!” I sat down on the couch beside him and tried to follow the game.

  “Alabama? You’re from Texas...” I queried, slightly perplexed.

  “Yeah my Dad went to ‘Bama on a scholarship. He played ball... I kind of had no choice,” he smirked. “This is one of the greatest rivalries in College football, always promises to be a good game - Roll Tide baby!!” I couldn’t imagine being that excited about a game, regardless of the sport, but it was amusing to watch. Matt became more and more animated with each passing play.

  “So...” He started, giving me a sideways glance. “You’re getting home late.”

  “You keeping tabs?” I uttered, a little annoyed.

  “No, just a little worried, that’s all. I know what’s going on Lexi. I just want to make sure you’re ok.” He turned, giving me his full attention.

  “What do you mean - you know what’s going on?” I retorted defensively.

  “Lex, it’s 6am. You’re really going to try and tell me you weren’t with someone?” He pursued further.

  “Matt, please don’t ask,” I begged, not wanting to have to that conversation right now.

  “Okay, Okay” he conceded “Just remember, I’m here if you want to talk.” He turned back to the TV before continuing “That is if I don’t have a fucking heart attack over this fucking game! COME ON!” I left him alone to enjoy his game and I collapsed into my bed. I overheard his muffled cursing and irritation. LSU obviously had won the game. Pots and pans clattered in the kitchen but I was too tired to get up and commiserate with him. My eyes got heavier and finally sleep came.

  When my eyes finally did open it was 11am and my last Sunday in my apartment. Matt was still in a foul mood so I decided the best course of action was to take him out. I was leaving in three more days and I’d spent so much time distracted, lately we had barely spent any time together.

  “Come on, let’s go out... Get dressed and I’ll buy you lunch.” I hounded Matt.

  “Not in the mood,” he grunted, hunched on the couch still in his boxer shorts, watching mindless television. Ordinarily I loved the fact that he was in a state of undress but I saw how depressed he was and I wanted to try and cheer him up. I knew it was times like this that he missed home the most.

  “I’m not accepting no as an answer. Get your ass in the shower and let’s go OUT. We’ll go where ever you want, I’ll even let you drive.”

  Matt had relished the few times he had driven my car. He’d adapted to the logistical changes of driving on the left side of the road quickly and rarely needed prompting. Of course he was used to driving in major American cities with huge populations, so Melbourne wasn’t much of a challenge other than making sure he stayed on the correct side of the road.

  “Go.” I pushed him off the couch. “I can smell you from here,” I teased. He pulled a face before reluctantly agreeing.

  “I’m going, I’m going...”

  As soon as I heard the shower turn on, I checked my laptop for emails. I shifted through my inbox - work stuff, work stuff, email from Kate (I was already missing her), email from Rachael (she was having a ball in Texas and never wanted to come back) more work stuff... Ooooo Victoria’s Secret were having a sale.

  “Looking at Porn before noon Lexi?” Matt grinned, his body still wet from the shower. We had become so comfortable around each other that it wasn’t uncommon for either of us to walk around in our underwear or a towel, as was now the case. After all, he’d promised me ass so it was only fair.

  “It’s not porn, it’s lingerie smart ass!” I jeered.

  “Mmmmmm yeah I see, why don’t you go have your shower and I’ll look through your porn, I mean lingerie,” he insisted.

  “Glad to see your mood’s improved.” I hugged his wet, toned chest.

  “Go” He mimicked me and slapped me on my ass as I walked past.

  It felt so nice, the shower jets gently massaging my sensitive skin as the water washed away the evidence of my sex-fuelled evening. I took my time shampooing and conditioning my hair before exfoliating my body with my giant pink loofah. I had just turned the taps off when I vaguely heard a knock at the door and some distant voices. Ughhhh it was bound to be door to door sales people peddling providers for internet, power, phone or religion, none of which interested me. I had been known to slam the door in their face but I knew Matt was too polite for that. Ha! I grinned, just remembering he was wearing only a towel. Perhaps by the end of the conversation it would be them who required the salvation. I chuckled at the thought. I grabbed a fluffy white towel and threw it around my body. I couldn’t let Matt have all the fun; I walked out of my bathroom.

  “Lexi, you have a guest.” Matt announced curtly. Alex glared at my semi-naked dripping body and his eyes narrowed.

  “I’ll go get dressed, shall I, and leave you two to chat then.” Matt’s voice broke the uncomfortable silence.

  “Huh... well I knew you were insatiable but even I’m surprised at this latest development.” He didn’t even try to hide his agitation.

  “Alex, what the hell are you doing here?” My frosty tone matched his.

  “Well, I missed you and thought it would be nice to take you to lunch,” Alex snarled “and I have to admit I was curious to see your apartment... and I thought you might enjoy the surprise. Of course I didn’t mean to interrupt your post coital buzz.” His ice blue eyes glared accusingly.

  “He’s my roommate, asshole. Why do you assume I’m screwing him?” I snapped back indignantly.

  “Roommate?” He questioned, “Not once did you ever mention a roommate. You’d think something like that would have come up in conversation.”

  “I didn’t think I had to! You’re not my boyfriend!” I was unable to hide the hurt and anger in my voice. “Is that how little you think of me, that I would hop from one man to the next? He is a good friend and he is staying with me but that doesn’t mean he shares my bed! I agreed to no one else! ”

  Perhaps this arrangement wasn’t going to work. Either way I did not want to stand in my lounge room, half naked, and justify my living arrangements “Look I need to go get dressed, and I’m sorry but I have plans for lunch.” Without waiting for a response I turned and walked into my bedroom. He followed me, shutting the door behind him.

  “What?” I demanded. He sauntered over to me, taking my chin in his hand before gently stroking my cheek. His voice mellowed and I could see the contrition in his eyes.

  “I’m sorry... I saw him and I thought you’d left my bed to go to his and I just couldn’t handle that. I’ve never been the jealous type, but with you it’s different. Then seeing him like that, then you... ughhhhh you have to admit, it looked bad…”

  “Alex...” I started.

  “Shhhhhh,” he put his finger to my lips “no explanations. You’re right. I’m just not very good at sharing you. I’m sorry I over reacted.” He tried to pull my rigid body into his arms, it was evident that he wanted to convince me that this would work.

  Matt tapped on my door. “Lexi, you ok?”

  “Yeah, it’s ok. I’ll be out in a minute” I called back. “Alex, I need to get dressed, you should go.” I gestured to the door while clutching at my towel. He hesitated as if searching for words that he hadn’t yet formulated.

  He turned, hesitating before the door. “I’ll see you s
oon Lexi.” He opened the door and walked out.

  Matt, now fully dressed, took Alex’s place in the room. His eyes surveyed me. “Lexi...”

  “Don’t start, I don’t need another lecture” I sneered.

  “Lexi, I’m just worried about you. Tell me what’s going on. I know you are sleeping with him, that’s obvious.” I slumped to the floor, my emotions coming to the boil.

  “That’s all it was supposed to be, we were just going to sleep together. Things have changed. I don’t know if I can do this? Do what he wants, I mean. Maybe I’m not a girl who’s capable of it.” I sobbed, “He even thought I was sleeping with you! Like I could do that... I’m just not girlfriend material.” Matt sat down beside me, pulling me into a tight embrace.

  “Lexi, you are so beautiful, talented and confident. You achieve what most of us only dream of; you seem to have no fear. So why is it that you are so scared of commitment?” he questioned.

  “I won’t be hurt again.” I whispered. “I won’t lose my sense of self, be isolated, be consumed, be discarded again.” The pained words escaped my lips.

  Matt took my face in his hands. “Lexi, what the fuck? That is not what a relationship is. When you care for someone you don’t do that. You don’t hurt them. Why would you think like that?” He hesitated before asking “Did someone do that to you?”

  “I don’t want to talk about it,” I whispered. The ghost of the memory affecting me more than I cared to admit.

  “Lexi, you are going to talk about it. Tell me, who was this guy and how did he screw with your head so much?”

  “It was a long time ago,” I fired back “I’m a different person now. I wish he could see this. See Me! See who I am! See what I have become! See how strong I am despite the complete mind fuck he gave me.” My voice was foreign and strained through my clenched jaw.

  Matt studied me carefully, his eyes not resting as they searched my face. I didn’t want to relive this, not now, not after so long. “Lexi, will you tell me about it, please?” He kissed me lightly on my forehead. My body was covered in goose bumps, I wasn’t sure if it was from the fact that I was sitting on the floor in nothing more than a damp towel, or the topic of conversation. He wasn’t going to let this go, I was going to have to face my demons.