Finding My Breaking Point

by C. C. Masters

  I tilted my head back and grabbed Mason by the chin so that I could pull his mouth down to mine. Neither of us held back as we devoured each other with a desperate intensity. I had missed the twins, and in this moment, it felt like the chasm between us was quickly growing smaller. Kissing Mason felt familiar, but also like we were exploring new territory. We had worked through the first major conflict in our relationship and I wanted this to bring us even closer. I needed to feel the fire between us come back to life and explode into an inferno that would heat my soul.

  “My turn,” Jason demanded as he wrapped an arm around me and pulled me up to him. Mason chuckled as I was tugged away from him, but I kissed Jason just as hungrily. These were my twins and I wanted to savor every second that I had with them.

  “Don’t be greedy, brother,” Mason said softly as he lightly trailed his fingers up my spine.

  Clothes flew everywhere until I was bare before them. “Fuck, Anna,” Jason murmured as he kissed his way up my thighs. “I swear you get more beautiful every day.”

  “It’s true,” Mason added as he pulled me back to lean up against him. “Your skin is practically glowing, and your scent…” he groaned.

  I gasped as Jason made it to the juncture between my thighs. “I’m prepared to work hard for forgiveness,” he said with a wicked grin as he looked up at me.

  Words escaped me as Mason cupped my breasts and I could feel the warmth of Jason’s breath against my throbbing heat. I tried to inch forward a tiny bit to get closer to him, but Mason held me in place. “No cheating,” he said as he nipped my ear and toyed with my nipples.

  Jason used his hands to part my thighs even wider and I panted in anticipation. My eyes rolled back in my head as I felt the first flick of his tongue. I had to fight the urge to grind myself up against him as he teased me by nibbling and licking all around my clit, but not actually touching. My body throbbed with need and I was close to begging when he wrapped his lips around my clit and pleasure shot through me.

  Mason held me in place, alternating between pulling my head back to him for kisses and playing with my breasts as Jason made me writhe in pleasure. “Are we forgiven yet?” Mason growled into my ear.

  “No,” I panted. “I need…” my words dissolved into a moan before I could complete my thought as Jason sucked my clit into his mouth and made me see stars. He slid a finger inside me, and I felt all of my mental walls dropping as I lost control. The bond between us opened up and the additional lust that flooded through me spiked as Jason slid a second finger in. I felt my body start to convulse as he hit all the right spots and an orgasm ripped through me. Both guys groaned when they felt the echoes of my pleasure and my body went limp after my release.

  “That was just the first one,” Mason assured me as he urged me to turn and face him. I climbed on his lap and straddled him so that his erection was pressed up against my slick heat.

  “Really?” I teased him breathlessly as I rubbed my breasts up against him. “What do you have planned next?”

  Mason flashed a grin at me and then moved so that I was flat on my back and he was leaning over me. “You’re about to find out.” He rubbed the head of his erection up and down my slit, teasing me until he probed my entrance. I grabbed a hold of his ass and pulled him closer to encourage him to sink inside me. My body was already thirsting for more and I felt more needy than ever.

  “Mason, please,” I begged him.

  “Condom,” Jason called as he tossed one over to his brother.

  “Good idea,” Mason murmured. “You’re so close to going into heat, we can’t make any mistakes.” He leaned back to put the condom on, and I nodded in agreement, but with the need riding my body right now I just cared about him getting inside of me now.

  Mason’s eyes darkened as he sank inside of me. “You feel so fucking good,” he murmured.

  I took him inside of me greedily as he started a slow pace that was just whetting my appetite for more. “Harder,” I urged him.

  “So impatient,” Mason murmured as he thrust inside of me. I had no idea how he had this much self-control because the amount of lust being generated between the three of us and shared through the bond was almost enough to drive me insane. I cried out in dismay as he pulled completely out of me. But before I could complain he grabbed me by the hips and flipped me over. I stuck my ass up in the air, eager for him to slide back inside of me. “I needed a better angle,” Mason told me as he slammed his cock in. “And Jason wants in on the fun, too.”

  I leaned up on my elbows as I met Jason’s eyes and gave him a come-hither look. Once he was close enough, I licked the tip of his cock and he groaned. “Just like that,” Mason encouraged me. “Take him in your mouth.”

  I wrapped my hand around Jason’s length and licked him from the base to the tip before I took him in my mouth. I used my hand and my mouth to match Mason’s rhythm as he pounded inside of me and the three of us were lost in the throes of ecstasy. Every time I would get close to orgasm, Mason would sense it and slow down regardless of how much I needed him to keep going.

  Jason wrapped a hand in my hair and pulled so that I would look up at him. “I need to be inside you,” he pleaded. “We both do.”

  I made a hum of agreement and he shuddered before abruptly pulling out of my mouth. “Not yet,” he chastised me.

  Mason pulled out of me again, but I didn’t have time to be disappointed because Jason sat on the bed and pulled me on top of him. “I need this,” Jason said as he cupped the side of my face tenderly. “I need you.” I took him inside of me and he gripped my hips to enhance my movement.

  Tension started building inside of me again when Mason knelt next to us. He put one hand on the small of my back, but my eyes widened when he slid one wet finger down my ass and teased my other entrance. Had Jason meant that they both wanted to be inside of me at the same time?

  Jason ground himself inside me but used his thumb to tease my clit as Mason slid his finger inside my other entrance. I was overwhelmed with all of the different sensations at first but relaxed when I realized it was actually very enjoyable. My pleasure spiraled higher and higher as Mason used two of his fingers to thrust inside of me as Jason fucked me. My muscles clenched around Jason as I came for the second time. Jason groaned as I came around him and closed his eyes. “Shit, I can feel your pussy begging me to come with you.”

  “Not yet,” Mason murmured.

  Jason and I breathed heavily as my body calmed but he held me in place to keep me from moving. “Keep your body complete relaxed,” Mason told me as he approached again. I looked over to see him stroking his glistening cock, covered in lube.

  “Lean forward a little,” Jason suggested as he moved my torso.

  I started breathing heavier as I felt Mason probing my other entrance. This was really happening right now. Jason stayed absolutely still as Mason slid partly in. “This okay?” he asked breathlessly.

  “Yeah,” I ground out as he started to gently move inside of me. I felt so full, taking them both inside of me like this, but it satisfied some deep need inside of me. Or maybe that was an emotion I was picking up on from the twins? I reached out past my own senses and focused on the pleasure I could feel echoing through the bond.

  I lost myself completely in the pleasure being generated between the three of us and I could no longer separate my feelings from theirs. We connected on a deeper level than ever before, and I could feel the mate bonds strengthening between us. I honestly had no idea who was the first to cum, but it triggered orgasms for all of us. When my body had finally collapsed in a boneless pile of bliss, I made the effort to partially withdraw from them and reestablish my sense of self.

  Mason groaned. “That was what sex feels like with a mate bond?”

  “Yeah,” I murmured. “It takes practice to use it that way, but once you figure it out it gets easier every time.”

  “I need a couple minutes before we practice again,” Jason said lazily.

  I sighed, wishin
g we had nothing but carefree nights to enjoy each other. “We should clean up,” I said reluctantly. “And you guys need to sleep off your binge drinking.”

  Mason kissed my shoulder. “You’re right, as usual.”

  It took us a little while before we made it to the shower, but we eventually got clean enough to snuggle together in the bed. The twins both fell asleep before me and I listened to their steady breathing as I stared up at the ceiling. Christmas was only a week away, but it felt wrong to be happy or excited to celebrate it. We had at least one murderer on the loose, one of our pack mates had been slain by an unknown enemy, and to quote Blendel, we were having to deal with more ‘fairy shit.’ On top of all that, I was about to go into heat and would be flooded by hormones that would impede my ability to make logical decisions. I felt selfish even thinking it, but what should be one of the happiest times in my life was quickly turning into a nightmare. I tried my best to close my eyes and sleep, but it was a while before I was able to drift off.

  Chapter 9

  Anna

  I smoothed down my skirt and took one last look in the mirror. I was starting to regret letting Quinn decide on my outfit for the pack Christmas party. The lacy top, flouncy skirt, and knee-high boots were cute, just not something that I would have ever picked out for myself.

  This week had been rough. My body had picked the absolute worst time to go into heat. As much as Austin had urged me to be patient with our lack of progress, I was still frustrated. I had done as much research as I could, but it was difficult to concentrate with the almost painful need to have my mates. We had been careful to use condoms because none of us were ready for pups right now – not with everything else that had been going on. I was relieved to feel the overwhelming need to mate fading since yesterday until I felt almost like myself again. In a few days, I would probably be back to normal.

  On the plus side, my mate bonds with the guys were stronger than ever. The sex had been out of control and amazing, but I felt that our connection had grown deeper by spending so much romantic time together. The guys had pampered and spoiled me all week by showering me with love and affection. And I couldn’t complain about them bringing me breakfast in bed and making me bubble baths. They had done everything that they could to make this week a pleasant one for me and were respectful of my desire not to get pregnant.

  Austin had given all of the guys in the pack time off from their responsibilities to grieve after Blendel’s death, and his funeral service had been emotional for everyone. It had been made complicated by the fact that I was in heat at the time, but everyone had handled the situation well and James hadn’t even needed to stab anyone.

  After the beachside service, the entire pack had gone to the bar Austin owned and shut it down to the public. I had been surprised to see that for the next couple hours, the guys celebrated Blendel’s life. By the time everyone had gotten drunk, the mood had changed from somber to rowdy. Funny stories about Blendel had been told as the guys who served with him relived his best moments of bravery and valor, and speculated about what he was saying about them right now. They joked that he was up in Valhalla doing shots with other fallen warriors and trying to impress them with his war stories. The night had ended on an uplifting note, but I knew a lot of the guys would be struggling again once they sobered up and the cold reality of his death hit. I just hoped the party tonight would bolster their good spirits again.

  “Damn, girl,” Quinn said with a grin as he strode into my room. “Who’s your stylist? Because you look amazing.”

  I rolled my eyes. “You couldn’t just find me a little black dress or something?”

  Instead of laughing like I had expected, Quinn stepped closer to me and grabbed my hands to get my attention. “So you could hide in a corner somewhere?” he asked pointedly.

  I shrugged. “Kind of.”

  “Anna, Anna, Anna,” he chided softly. “This is your big debut in front of the entire pack as Austin’s official mate, and we need you to shine like the bright star that you are. All eyes are going to be on you, and I need you to show them a strong, confident female. They won’t respect you as a leader if you cower in a corner and try to disappear.”

  I scowled at him and dropped his hands. “Austin isn’t my only mate, and I wasn’t planning on cowering.”

  Quinn sighed. “I know, and I realize this is a bold fashion choice for you, but I was hoping it would make you more confident.”

  I gave him a small smile. “I get it. I need to learn to be comfortable under a spotlight.”

  “Exactly,” Quinn said with a grin. “May I escort you downstairs?”

  “You may,” I teased him as I laid my hand on his arm.

  As we walked down the stairs together, I saw Cody speaking to one of our pack mates who had just returned from the Middle East. Cody caught my eye and started to smile, but when his eyes wandered to what I was wearing, his jaw dropped. His reaction gave me the confidence to admit that Quinn had been right, maybe the bold wardrobe choice would help me stand out in a good way.

  “Anna,” Cody called out to me. “You look beautiful tonight.”

  “Thank you,” I replied with a warm smile. Cody looked good in anything that he wore, but I loved seeing him in a suit and tonight was no exception. His suit was perfectly tailored for his tall, muscular body and his tie brought out the gorgeous blue of his eyes.

  “I don’t think you’ve met Blaze, yet?” Cody asked. “He was heading up our operations overseas.”

  I shook my head and held out my hand for Blaze to shake. “It’s nice to meet you, I’ve heard so many good things about you.”

  Blaze held onto my hand for longer than was appropriate as he stared into my eyes. “I’ve heard a lot about you as well,” he said in a gravelly voice. “But I see they didn’t tell me everything.”

  “Whoa, Anna!” Jason called as he and Mason approached from behind us. “You’re looking good enough to eat tonight.”

  Blaze let go of my hand as Jason swooped in and bit my neck to punctuate his statement. I laughed and shrugged him off, but the way Blaze was looking at me was causing all kinds of warning bells to go off in my head.

  “You guys both look like proper gentleman in your suits,” I teased the twins in an attempt to seem unworried. “So I guess you’re going to be determined to prove me wrong tonight?”

  The twins and Cody all laughed and agreed with my assessment. Blaze and Quinn both wandered back into the party as I greeted the twins. But once I was alone with my mates, I leaned in so I could whisper in Cody’s ear. “That was kind of weird, right?”

  Cody put an arm around my waist. “A lot of the guys might be a little extra friendly once the alcohol starts flowing, especially the ones who didn’t get a chance to meet you because we were being a bunch of barbaric caveman while you were in heat. So, expect all of your mates to be demonstrating their claim on you tonight.”

  I raised an eyebrow at Jason. “With biting?”

  The twins both grinned at me. “Among other things,” Jason told me with a wink.

  “Your scent is still almost irresistible,” Mason added. “But with you looking like this? We might have to break a few bones,”

  I laughed, but I could tell they were still a little overprotective, even with the fading hormones. At the funeral service for Blendel, they had kept a wall of muscle around me at all times. It had kept me safe from unwanted advances, but it had also prevented me from interacting with a lot of the other pack members. A part of me was annoyed at the male posturing and the idea of marking their territory. But if I were completely honest with myself, I might be doing the same if we were going in a room with forty odd females that might be attracted to my guys. My body temperature still slightly higher than usual, and while the constant ache for my mates had lessened to something more bearable, it hadn’t disappeared entirely.

  Austin, Cody, and the twins took turns introducing me to all of the pack mates that had just returned to the states now that they deemed it �
�safe.’ I did my best to appear confident, but I couldn’t hold back the huge sigh of relief I gave when I saw Sam enter the room. She had worn a dress per the unofficial dress code, but true to her tough girl self, she had paired her sleek red dress with studded black boots and a leather jacket.

  I excused myself from yet another weapons discussion that had made my eyes glaze over and headed towards Sam. She grinned when she saw me coming and gestured for me to meet her around the corner and out of sight. When I rounded the corner, she held up a flask. “I brought a little something to help us deal with the sausage fest tonight.”

  I laughed. “Austin has an open bar set up.”

  Sam shrugged. “Yeah, with a three-drink max before the presents come out. Plus, does he have peach moonshine?” She wiggled the flask enticingly.

  “I guess not,” I giggled. “I’m shocked you actually wore a dress.”

  “Me, too,” Sam said with a smile. “But it’s stretchy and actually comfortable. Quinn has skills beyond being one of the best sharpshooters I’ve ever met.”

  I took a gulp from the flask before I grimaced and passed it back to her. “I’m really glad you’re here tonight.”

  “We gotta stick together,” Sam agreed. She took a drink from the flask but tucked it behind her back as one of the guys walked past us. We both gave him polite smiles, but I’m sure it was obvious that we were up to something. Thankfully, he didn’t comment.

  I grabbed Sam’s arm and led her towards the patio outside. “Come take a walk with me. It’s too hot in here tonight.”

  Sam chuckled. “I’m not sure whether to make a joke about all the big egos blowing out hot air, or about how an absurd number of your pack mates are unreasonably good-looking.”