Pieces of Me

by Pua Ramona

  Chapter Fifty-Three

  Jackson

  It’s been six years since I moved to California and eight whole years since I’ve seen her. The last time I was home was for Mama’s sixtieth birthday last year. I was supposed to come home a few months back, but I couldn’t get time off from work. But I heard that she finally came back home after leaving Washington eight years ago. I also knew that she’s been living in New York. What can I say? I’ve been keeping tabs on her since the last time I saw her. I was planning on coming back home for the holidays, but then Mama called me and said I needed to come home because there was a family emergency. I didn’t ask any questions but I decided to make this trip because I was told that she was back for her brother’s funeral. I had to come back because I needed to fucking see her. It’s been eight years since I’ve seen her beautiful face, and I’ve missed her like something fucking crazy.

  I decided to make a stop here at Pixie’s before I got too busy today, plus Mama woke me up early for a prayer meeting. I didn’t expect to see her here, but I’m glad I did. At least I knew what she looked like now. She was beautiful when we were younger, but my God these eight years have been fucking good to her. She still looked the same, but she had more curves now and was sexy as fuck. I had to adjust my dick a few times. I was in my rental car when they pulled in their parking spot. I had to do a double take when she got out of the truck. I didn’t know she was seeing that motherfucker Hunter. And it pissed me off that they actually looked like they were fucking in love. But that’s not going to stop me from talking to her. She was mine before Hunter had her, she’s always been mine. Even when she was dating that asshole Michael Moore she was mine, she just didn’t know it yet.

  I fucking hated her family. I hated what they stood for. They’re the definition of a good Samoan family who cared about others. But it didn’t stop the way I felt for her. I didn’t want to scare her so I hid in the car, it wasn’t the right time for our reunion. Plus she was with that motherfucker. I’ve never liked that guy, even when we were growing up I hated his ass. Just seeing him with her made my blood boil, I wanted to break his face for touching her. But I had to keep my shit together. I stood there and watched them drive away from Pixie’s and I wanted her to know that I was watching her. I walked inside Pixie’s and didn’t expect it to be crowded already, but then again everyone did need their coffee.

  “Welcome to Pixie’s what can I get for you?” Leila Stevens. Well, isn’t she a cute little thing.

  “Hey little Leila.” I wasn’t close with her but we shared mutual friends. So we were always civil with each other.

  She gives me a second look and says, “Jax is that you?”

  I chuckle and say “The one and only.”

  She smiles, “Welcome back. How long are you here for?” she asks.

  “For a couple of weeks.” I say nonchalantly.

  “Are you staying at home?” She says as she scans the line behind me.

  “Yeah. Mama wouldn’t want it any other way, you know how it is.” I give her my order and move over to the empty stool so I can sit down. “Was that Sina and Hunter that just left?” I ask, trying to sound casual.

  “Yup. Eli wanted to make sure she got her cupcake fix before they got busy with the funeral” she says with a sad smile on her face.

  I nod and say, “I thought it was them. How long have they been together?” I ask.

  “They aren’t, but they are?” she says. It’s more like a question so that probably means they aren’t quite as together as they looked.

  “How long is she here for?” I say trying to sound like I’m making small talk and nothing else.

  Leila looks at me and says, “I’m not sure, but if things go well I think Eli’s going to ask her to stay.”

  Fuck him. I don’t want Leila to know that I’m getting angry so I don’t say anything. She hands me my coffee and a small bag with my pastry in it and says “It’s good to see you again Jax, maybe we can all get together at The Hut and a few drinks before you fly back to California.”

  I give her my best smile and say “Sounds good to me Leila.”

  I start to walk out the door but Leila stops me. “Hey, can you ask your brother to give me a call please?”

  I want to tell her no, but I have to keep my cool. “I can do that,” I say and I walk out of Pixie’s and get in the car. I reach for my phone because it’s vibrating again and I see a text message from my twin brother.

  Bro: Hey, everyone’s at the house so just come here when you’re done with whatever bullshit you’re doing.

  Me: Whatever.

  Bro: Fuck you!

  I throw my phone back in the cup holder and eat my pastry on the way to the house. I hate coming back home, but I only came back for her. I need to fucking see her.

  It takes me forty minutes to get here, because I took the longer route here. I’m dreading seeing Dad. I hate him more than I hate Mom. I hate him because he spent more time with my brother than he did with me. And when he did have time for me, all he ever talked about was how I needed to get my shit together and how I needed to stop running the fucking streets. Yeah, I hated the man. My Mama isn’t any better, but I don’t mind being around her. She’s set in her own stupid ways, but I still love her. I drink the rest of my coffee and get out of the car, locking the doors and walking to the front door. I wonder if Sina will be here.

  Before I can ring the doorbell, the door flies open and she slams right into my chest. Fuck she still smells the same, so fucking good. I wrap my arms around her and she freezes. She tries to pull away after a second but I hold her tighter.

  “It’s been a while, Sina” I say as her body goes rigid.

  “Let go of me” she snaps.

  I take a few steps back and grab her by the arm “I’ll do whatever the fuck I want, and no one’s going to do shit about it.” She pulls her arm away from me and tries to walk away from me. I grab her by the neck and say “Pull away from me again and I’ll beat the shit out of you.” I pull her chin to face me and slam my mouth against her lips. I feel my dick get hard as I stick my tongue in her mouth.

  She pushes me off and says “Fuck you Jackson.”

  I let her arms go and shove her out of my way. I open the front door and glance over my shoulder. She’s fucking terrified and it turns me on. I walk in the house and leave her out there to cry. Did I mention that I fucking hated this family? I hate them with a fucking passion. I walk all the way into the house and the first person who sees me is my Auntie Rita.

  “Thank you for coming back home Jackson” Auntie Rita says.

  I want to tell her that I don’t want to be here and that I only came back to torment her daughter, but instead I say, “Sorry about Micah Auntie.”

  She pulls me in for a hug and says “He’s in a better place now.” She kisses me on the cheek then lets me go. I look over her shoulder and my cousins Luka, Daniel and Megan are standing behind her. We were never close, but we all grew up together. Auntie Rita walks back to sit on the couch where Mama and Grandpa Tali are sitting. I walk over to say hi to Grandpa Tali then give Mama a kiss on her cheek.

  “Where were you?” she asks.

  “I stopped to get some coffee Mama.”

  She gives me one of her bitch face looks then says “Go out back and let your brother know that your Dad wants him to pick him up from work.”

  Whatever. I head for the kitchen because that’s where everyone’s always hanging out. I pass by Megan and she doesn't say shit to me. It doesn’t bother me because I fucking hated that bitch anyways.

  “Sup man!” Daniel says.

  “Sorry about your brother cousin” I force out. He doesn’t believe me, but I don’t give a shit. I know Luka hates me because I always give my brother shit, but again, I don’t give a fuck.

  Luka doesn’t say anything except for “Don’t bring that bullshit in this house. We all know you hated our brother, so stop with the fake shit Jax.”

  I chuckle and say “I’m o
nly here because Mama and Dad asked me to be here.”

  I walk past him and make sure that my shoulder rams into him. I step into the garage and say “Hey bitch boy, Mama said to pick Dad up from work” to my twin brother Junior. Everyone calls him June-Bug because he’s a fucking queer.

  “It’s queen bitch you piece of shit.” He sneers at me. I turn to walk back in and my eyes land on Hunter. I didn’t even know he was here, but I’m good with it because now I’m going to make sure I get under this motherfuckers’ skin.

  “I’m Jax.” I say as I reach for his hand.

  He introduces himself as he grasps my hand in return “Eli.”

  Before I walk inside I say, “You might want to check on your girl. She was out front crying when I got here.”

  Hunter nods then looks over my shoulder and says to Junior, “I’ll be right back bro.”

  “No worries E. I’ll walk out with you, I have to go pick Dad up anyways”

  Hunter walks inside and I feel Junior’s hand around my neck. “I’m going to tell you this one time. You better not start any shit with anyone here. I don’t know why Mama even fucking called you, but I’m telling you right now that after the bullshit you pulled I won’t be surprised if Luka and D beat the fucking brakes off your dumbass” he snarls.

  I chuckle and say, “It was eight years ago, get the fuck over it.” I can feel his hand squeezing my neck.

  “It doesn’t fucking matter” he says. “Just stay the fuck out of everyone’s way Jax.” Then he leaves.

  I can’t believe that they’re still upset about Micah getting jumped. I mean, yeah it was my fault but no one told him to play hero so he got his ass handed to him. It was the same night I came over and fucked Sina in her bed because I knew everyone else wasn’t home. I may have hated her family, but I was in love with her. I have been since we were younger. Of course I knew people weren’t going to be okay with it, especially because she was my first cousin. But it didn’t mean that my dick wasn’t hard for her. I wanted Sina, and I was going to make sure she knew it. I knew she was afraid of me, which made me want her even more. All I have to do now is get her away from Hunter so we can spend a little time together.

  “Jax!” I hear shouted across the house.

  “Yeah Mama.” I say walking towards her.

  “I need to go to the store” she shouts.

  “Didn’t you drive here?” I ask.

  “Just shut your damn mouth and come on” she yells. I fucking can’t stand her ass, always yelling about shit.

  I walk back inside and ask “Where’s everyone else?”

  She grabs her coat and says “The boys went with Junior to pick Dad up and Megan left with Auntie Rita to go look for some fabrics.” We walk out and I don’t see Hunter or Sina anywhere.

  “Where’s Sina at?” I ask.

  “She left with Eli,” she says.

  “She wasn’t feeling good so he took her home.”

  “Home?” I repeat frowning.

  She looks at me and says, “Yeah. She’s staying with him until the funeral is over.” I open the doors and we both get in the car.

  “Why isn’t she staying here?” I question.

  “Eh! Why are you asking so many questions? Is it any of your business?”

  I shake my head and say knowing I’ve asked too much. “It was just a question.”

  Mama rolls her eyes and says, “Her and Eli lost their baby so he wanted her and Emma to stay with him so she can rest while she recovers.”

  What the fuck? He got her pregnant? I could kill Hunter for touching her. I don’t want Mama to know that I’m fucking livid. So I say, “Oh well that’s too bad” whilst my knuckles are whitening around the steering wheel. Mama doesn’t say anything so I pull out of the driveway and drive her to the store. And all I can think about is getting Sina alone so I ask. “Mama, do you have Sina’s number? I just want to make sure that she’s okay.”

  She looks at me and says, “Yeah, just remind me to give it to you later.”

  Now the next plan is to get her to meet me somewhere and if she doesn’t, I’m going to make sure that she knows I’ll go after her. I definitely don’t mind a little chase. I’ve been with many women, but none of them come close to Sina and my dick wants to be inside of her again. We make it to the store and Mama digs in her purse for her phone and gives me Sina’s number.

  “Are you coming inside?” Mama asks.

  “Nah, I’ll wait here.” I save Sina’s number and figure that I’ll send her a text.

  Me: I need to see you soon!

  Sina: Who is this?

  Me: Jax ;)

  I don’t expect her to respond so I send her another text.

  Me: Meet me at the lake later tonight. No one will believe you. So if you don’t want anyone to know why you really left eight years ago then you’ll be there. Don’t keep me waiting.

  I toss my phone onto the dashboard and sit there with a big smile on my face. Did she really think that I was just going to forget about what happened? I chuckle. She belongs to me, not fucking Michael and not fucking Hunter. She is fucking mine!

  Chapter Fifty-Four

  Eli

  I came outside to look for Sina and found her in the truck in the fetal position crying. She was fine when we left Pixie’s and she was fine when we got here. I’m not sure what the fuck happened, but I know something did. I open the door on her side and place my hand on her leg. She flinches, tucking into a tighter ball and cries harder. What the fuck? I walk to my side and open my door. I slowly get in and say, “Babe, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to scare you.”

  She looks over at me and her eyes are bloodshot red. What the fuck happened? She sits up slowly and moves closer to me. Fuck that. I wrap my arm around her and move her on my lap. The way she’s crying breaks my fucking heart. I hold her. I don’t know what happened so I just hold her. Maybe everything is finally catching up to her and it’s hitting her hard right now. I know she’s still hurting because it’s still fresh, but I also know that if she was feeling some type of way she would’ve talked to me about it. She isn’t the type to keep anything inside, she’s an open book. Whatever she’s feeling she makes sure you know. I can’t take her crying anymore so I hold her face in my hands and ask “Baby, what happened? You were doing okay. Did something happen Sina?” More fucking tears start streaming down her face.

  She sniffles into my shoulder and says, “Can we just go home, please? I just want to go home.” I should’ve been fucking excited but I’m not, because I know something isn’t right.

  I don’t want to push her so I kiss the top of her head and say, “Okay love. I’m going to buckle you in first.” She doesn’t make a move so I say, “Baby, you can just sit in the middle if you want, but you have to let go of me for a second so I can put your seatbelt on.” She nods her head yes then she climbs off then moves so she can sit right next to me. I reach over and buckle her up and plant a kiss on her on her forehead before she lays her head on my shoulder. She wraps her arms around my arm and just fucking sobs.. Not knowing why or what’s causing her to be like this makes me feel like shit because I can’t fix it. I know it isn’t me this time because she wants me to hold her. So much is going through my head, but right now she wants to go home so that’s what I’m focusing on. I don’t know what’s going on, but I’m going to fucking find out one way or another.

  By the time we get home she’s already passed out. She fell asleep not too long after we left her parents house. I don’t want to wake her up, but I need for her to be in bed where she can sleep better. I kiss her and say, “Babe, wake up. We’re home.”

  Her eyes slowly open and she says “I’m sorry.”

  I grab her chin and lift her head up so she can see me. “There’s nothing to be sorry about Babe. I know something happened, but I won’t make you talk okay? I just want you to know that you’re going to have to tell me what’s wrong eventually. And if we’re going to be an US, there will be no secrets. Deal?” She doesn’
t answer but she nods her head yes. I kiss her again then I get out of the truck.

  I slide my arms around her waist and carry her out of the truck. I hold her by her waist and she locks her hands around me. I head to the front door, unlocking it and walking inside.

  “Why don’t you go take a warm shower and I’ll make us something to eat” I say.

  She looks at me and says “I’m not hungry.”

  “Then you go take a warm shower and I’ll find us something to watch on t.v” I tell her.

  She gives me a sad smile and my heart starts aching for her.

  “Can we watch it in your room?” she asks..

  “Whatever you want to do babe.”

  She raises up on her tip-toes and kisses me. “Thank you Eli” she whispers, then she leaves to go take her bath. I’m so worried about her, I’m going to make sure that she relaxes tonight. I grab my phone so I can call Luka. He answers after two rings.

  “Wassup Bro” he says.

  “Hey I just wanted to let you know that we left your parents place” I say.

  “Is Sina okay?” he asks.

  I check to make sure that she’s taking her shower before I say, “Look, don't say anything to her, but I don’t know what happened when we were there. Everything was fine until all of a sudden it wasn’t. I found her in the truck fucking crying man, and it was a different kind of cry”

  “What the hell was she doing in the truck? I thought she went to use the bathroom” Luka says.

  “She was, but she went to grab her phone from the truck” I tell him.

  “How did you know that she was in the truck crying?”

  I check over my shoulder again and say, “Your cousin Jax mentioned it when he was in the garage.” The line goes silent and I’m not sure if he’s ended the call so I pull my phone from my ear to check the screen, nope, he’s still on the line. That's weird.