No Shame: The Complete Series: Including exclusive bonus materials and deleted scenes

by Phoenix, Nora

“How?”

  “I’ll let you fuck me, and you can see with your own eyes how much pleasure you can bring me.”

  Indy’s mouth dropped open, and he raised a shaky hand to his forehead. Josh would let Indy top him? What the actual fuck? Josh's face was serious, which meant he wasn’t joking. But…why?

  “Why?” Indy managed. “Why would you let me do that?”

  “Because I love being fucked, I swear. And I like you a lot, and I want to show you how good it can be.”

  “I don’t…I’ve never…” Indy shook his head, shut his mouth when he couldn’t find words.

  Josh lowered himself on top of Indy again and kissed him softly. “It’s okay. Whenever you’re ready.”

  He dove in deep in Indy’s mouth again, licking and sucking and rekindling the fire he’d started before. Indy sighed into his mouth, releasing the tension the discussion about his dick had brought.

  Finally, Josh let go of Indy’s mouth and started exploring his way down again, dropping kisses on Indy’s chin, neck, his pecs, before settling on his right nipple. Indy leaned back with eyes closed, his lips releasing puffs and whimpers.

  Josh slid lower, kneeling on the floor again, licking down Indy’s stomach until he reached his cock.

  “You still okay?” he checked.

  Indy nodded. His system was almost short-circuiting with sensations. No one had ever touched him like that, and holy fuck, Josh was worshiping his body, loving every inch of his skin.

  Josh's tongue lapped the precum off his cock. Indy bucked off the couch, letting out a loud moan. “Oh, fuck!”

  Josh chuckled. “Feel good?” he said with a low voice.

  Good? Was he fucking kidding? It was absolutely amazing. Indescribable. And could he please stop talking and get his mouth back on his cock?

  Josh must’ve read his mind, because his eyes twinkled as he took Indy in his mouth again, until Indy’s balls hit his chin.

  “Ohhhh…fuuuuuck!”

  Indy’s hands fisted Josh's hair, desperate for something to hold on to as waves of ecstasy rolled over him. He pinched his eyes shut and let his head fall back.

  His cock was engulfed in Josh's wet, hot mouth all the way to his balls. And he was sucking with loud slurping noises that made Indy rise even higher. Indy shuddered, the building pleasure in his system almost too much to bear.

  Josh let Indy’s cock slide from his mouth until it popped free. Indy opened his eyes, wanting to see what Josh would do next. His dick quivered in Josh's hand, wet and glistening with saliva. Josh took one of Indy’s balls in his mouth. Damn, his tongue was…and the pressure…

  An inhuman sound fell from his lips. No words. He had no words left, surrendering to the fire in his body that threatened to engulf him whole.

  Josh switched his attention to his other nut, sucking and licking until Indy was squirming on the couch. His balls were heavy, aching with the need to unload.

  “Oh, please…I need to…Josh, please!”

  It made little sense, but maybe Josh had understood because he sucked his cock back in all the way. Gently cradling Indy’s balls, Josh went down on him in earnest.

  He’d never, ever felt anything like this. He’d always been the one to give blow jobs, but he’d never experienced one himself. Josh's head bobbed up and down as he sucked Indy’s cock. That slick, warm, sucking pressure was pure heaven.

  “Josh!” It was as much a warning as a shout of gratitude, and Josh never let up.

  Indy bucked off the couch, clenching his fists as he thrust into Josh's mouth in pure bliss. His balls set off with fervor, and he exploded into Josh's throat.

  “Fuuuuuuuck!” Indy let out, panting hard. “Thank you, thank you, thank you…That was…oh, my God, that was amazing.”

  Josh let Indy’s cock slide out, licking it clean before he sat up.

  “Damn, you taste good.” He licked his lips. “And you’re very welcome.”

  Aftershocks were still floating through Indy’s body, but he lifted a weak hand to cup Josh's cheek. “Different from Noah?” he blurted out.

  Josh grinned. “Yeah. His is saltier, yours is richer. Fuck, you taste good.”

  His eyes were laughing, and yet tension creeped into Indy’s stomach. Would Josh expect him to return the favor? That was how it worked, wasn’t it? It was damn selfish to not offer to do something in return, but the thought of having to blow him…Indy swallowed, slivers of fear taking over.

  “Do you want me to…” he pointed toward Josh's cock which was rock hard.

  “Hell, no. This was for you.” He sat up, then leaned over Indy to give him a wet kiss. “When you’re ready, you can take me up on my offer to fuck me, but until then I’m more than happy to suck you, anytime. Right now I have something else I need to do, which means you have to move.”

  * * *

  A nervous flutter moved in Noah’s stomach as Indy got up from the couch, naked and not embarrassed about it, as far as Noah could tell. He’d come so far since the panic attack in the hospital that it was nothing short of amazing.

  Josh's eyes made contact with Noah’s. Josh grabbed his own cock, which was glistening with precum, and fisted himself a few times. He was damn hard—and so was Noah. The challenge was clear.

  “Get over here.”

  Fucking hell. He was about to get fucked.

  “Excuse me?” he said, forcing his voice to be level.

  Josh pointed toward the pillows on the couch. “On your back.”

  Noah found himself getting off the chair and on the couch. His ass was propped up on the pillows, his stump resting comfortably against the soft back side of the couch. The fact that Josh wanted him to be as comfortable as possible made Noah want to surrender more than anything else.

  “Guys, should I…?” Indy asked hesitantly.

  Noah and Josh answered him at the same time, “Stay.”

  Indy lowered himself on the chair Noah had vacated.

  Josh walked over to the dresser and yanked open the top drawer where they usually had a bottle of lube. He found it, and strode back to Noah, dropped it on the couch.

  Their eyes met, and Josh pressed his lips together. Noah shivered. Shit was about to get real.

  Josh kneeled on the couch and casually lubed his cock with fluid, efficient moves. Noah watched him, his stomach fluttering.

  “Spread your legs.”

  Noah put his head back against the armrest of the couch. He turned his head to face Indy, who viewed them with heated eyes, a look of complete focus on his face.

  When Josh's slick finger touched his entrance, Noah shivered and faced his best friend. He wanted to ask Josh to be gentle, even though he didn’t need to. The vulnerability of his position made him weak inside. Fuck, it went against all his instincts, and he had to fight to let go of the control.

  Josh's finger pushed against Noah’s anal sphincter.

  “Bear down on me,” Josh said.

  God, he knew how this worked, had done it hundreds of times to Josh, so why was it so fucking hard to relax? He overrode his instinctive urge of clamming up and instead pushed back. Josh's finger slipped in. It burned, and it certainly felt strange to have something in his hole. What the fuck was he doing? Could he do this? Would his damaged body even be able to handle this intrusion?

  Josh swirled his finger around, and Noah breathed to relax. It didn’t hurt. Not compared to, say, getting blown up, or recovering from an amputation. It was more of a discomfort, he told himself. After a bit it felt okay. Not good, but not too bad either.

  Josh inserted a second digit, gently pushing and stretching and expanding him. The burning sensation returned in full force.

  Was he really gonna do this? All it would take was one word. One ‘no’ and Josh would stop immediately. But it would also mean that Josh would never try again. Noah wanted this, for Josh. He had to do this, for them both.

  “You’re so tight, Noah,” Josh whispered, and Noah sensed his resolve crumbling.

  “Please, fuc
k me, Josh,” he said, pushing his ass back against Josh's fingers. They slipped in way deeper, and Noah involuntarily clenched at the intrusion. Damn, that stung. His breath caught before he pushed out a shaky exhale.

  Josh pulled back his fingers.

  “Don’t stop.”

  “I need more lube,” Josh said. He grabbed the bottle and squirted some on his fingers. “I won’t hurt you, so we’ll take our time, okay?”

  The fingers returned, this time super-slick with lube. Noah tensed, then relaxed again. He could do this. Fuck, he wanted to do this. How bad could it be if Josh loved it so much? Josh kept stroking him, and the burning subsided.

  “Keep going,” he urged Josh.

  Josh's fingers pulled out, then pushed in again. Noah clenched his teeth at the increased pressure. Josh must have added a third finger, because his hole was being stretched even wider. It smarted like a son of a bitch.

  Noah closed his eyes so Josh wouldn’t see the tears that forced themselves out of his eyes. There was nothing he could do about his cock, however, which had been hard when they started, but had grown soft as a result of the pain.

  “You good?” Josh asked, a tremble in his voice.

  “Yeah. I’m ready,” Noah said with way more confidence than he felt. But the burning had stopped, and he wanted to get it over with. Fuck, he'd survived being blown to bits, surely he could take a cock up his ass.

  The pressure disappeared as Josh pulled out his fingers. Noah kept his eyes closed as heard the lube being opened again and assumed Josh coated his cock once more. His breath froze in his lungs as Josh's cock brushed his entrance. Noah opened his eyes, letting his head drop sideways. Indy’s soft eyes were trained on him, his cheeks flushed and his chest heaving with breaths. Indy had pulled up his legs, but his cock was still visible—and it was rock hard. His tongue darted out to lick his lips. Did he have any idea how sexy that was?

  “Try to relax, Noah.” Josh's voice was tight with tension.

  Noah ripped his gaze away from Indy and focused on Josh, whose jaw was set as his eyes were completely focused on Noah. Noah breathed, then forced his muscles to relax. Josh pushed in against the outer ring and Noah bore down on him, allowing him to slide in a bit farther. Noah’s breath stopped, then resumed with effort.

  Josh made little thrusts, gently moving in deeper and deeper. Noah closed his eyes, focusing on the sensation of Josh's cock in his ass, even if it was in only an inch or two. It ached a little, but it also gave a titillating, full sensation.

  “Are you okay?” Josh asked, stopping.

  Noah opened his eyes to find Josh looking at him with concern. “I’m good. Don’t stop.”

  “I don’t want to hurt you. You’re so fucking tight.”

  “It’s okay. I want this. Keep going.”

  Josh gave another careful push, adding another inch of his cock inside. Noah closed his eyes again and clenched his fists as pain hit him all over again. How the fuck did Josh do this? How could he take Noah pounding him? And his cock was a hell of a lot thicker than Josh's, so it had to tear Josh apart. He breathed through the sting in his ass. What the hell had he agreed to?

  Josh pulled out, which caused a glorious sensation in Noah’s ass that spread in tingling waves all the way to his toes. Oh, that had felt incredible. Finally they were getting to the good parts.

  “I can’t do this,” Josh said. Noah opened his eyes. “I’m hurting you, and I can’t do it.”

  Anger and compassion battled inside Noah. He wanted to slap Josh for being so timid, but at the same time kiss him silly for his obvious concern. What could he do to push Josh into committing fully? Tenderness right now would break him, trigger him into complete submission again.

  “Man up and fuck me, dammit. Come on, put your gorgeous cock in my ass and start pounding.” He looked Josh straight in the eyes. “Do I look like I will break? If you can take my thick cock, I can take yours.”

  Authoritative dirty talk: his secret weapon.

  Hesitantly, Josh slid in again, and Noah lifted his ass to give it a little extra push. Pain hit, but he forced himself to not show it. Had Josh's cock grown softer or was that his imagination?

  “I know how long your cock is, man, I’ve had it in my mouth. Well, half of it anyway. I know you’re not even halfway in, so come on.”

  Josh's hips pulled back and thrust forward. Another inch in. Noah tried to keep his breaths even. Josh slid out and in again, definitely rock hard now. Could they get this part over with so it would get good? Josh pulling out felt fantastic, but the pushing in was a nightmare.

  “Dammit, Joshua, fuck me already!” he groaned. When Josh moved forward for another thrust, Noah lifted his butt off the pillows and moved against him in an opposite push. All of a sudden, Josh's cock sunk in all the way and his balls slapped Noah’s ass.

  Stars exploded before Noah’s eyes as his ass felt like it was tearing, and he cried out. “Fucking hell!”

  Even in his pain, he felt Josh move back and grabbed his friend’s ass and locked his left knee around his leg, trapping him in place. “You’re not going anywhere,” he growled.

  “Noah, no…” Josh protested, but Noah grabbed his head not too softly and dragged his mouth down for a hard kiss. He plummeted his tongue into Josh's mouth, kissing him as he had never kissed him before. Anything to get his mind off the sensation that his ass had been ripped in two.

  The erotic sensation of their slick tongues dueling helped Noah relax, and the throb in his ass faded, to be replaced by an entirely new sensation. Josh's cock was filling him completely, and he was on the verge of pleasure. He experimentally moved his hips a little, and the ensuing slick friction made him tingle. His cock grew hard, filling him with sweet relief.

  He let go of Josh's mouth. “I’m good now.”

  Josh stared at him as if he was speaking another language. Noah moved his hips again to underscore his point. “You feel good. Now fuck me and make me come.”

  It was like a switch flipped inside Josh's brain. Or body. Or both. He raised himself up and moved his hips, sliding in and out of Noah in a delicious rhythm. The pain was gone, and instead, there was a wonderful full feeling and a connection to Josh he had never experienced before. Josh rotated his hips, and Noah gasped as a burst of pleasure flooded through his insides.

  “Fuck! What was that?”

  Josh smiled for the first time since he’d started fucking Noah. “Bingo! That’s what’s gonna make you come.”

  He gyrated again, and Noah let out a groan. “Ohhh!”

  Josh increased the tempo, and Noah matched his strokes beat for beat, all thoughts of pain gone. Tingles danced on his skin, teasing him with tendrils of pleasure in his belly, his balls, and his dick. Hot damn, this was unlike anything he’d ever felt before.

  Then Josh changed his position, and his next thrust hit that magic spot Noah only knew from fucking Josh. He lost the ability to form words and a shivery growl rolled from his lips. Instant ecstasy blazed through his body.

  Josh pulled back farther, then slammed home all the way. Noah dropped his arms from Josh's back, no longer able to hold on. The air exploded from his lungs as Josh surged in again. Noah’s balls swelled, the pressure almost painful.

  “I’ll give you four more strokes,” Josh said, and Noah laughed at the payback. When Josh rammed into him, his laugh evolved into an embarrassingly long moan. The pleasure inside him surged, radiating everywhere until his skin itched with the need to come.

  “Two,” Josh said between clenched teeth, burying himself to the hilt again.

  “Harder,” Noah begged, never thinking he’d be in this position. God, he’d do anything to come, his nuts desperately clinching to unleash.

  “Three.”

  “Dammit, fuck me harder, Joshua.”

  Josh lost control. Instead of the fourth deep thrust, he erupted into frantic fucking, pounding Noah so hard his whole body moved. Noah’s balls detonated with fury, and his cock blew up with an almost painful e
ruption, spewing all over Josh's torso. Josh didn’t even notice, but kept hammering until his entire body tensed, then spasmed as his hot cum filled Noah’s ass.

  “Ohhhh!” Josh grunted, throwing his head back in complete rapture. A massive shudder tore through his body, and he collapsed on top of Noah.

  Noah’s arms came around Josh, and he hugged him tight. Their panting breaths mingled, and Josh's heart hammered in his chest, reverberating in Noah’s ears.

  For the first time after a fuck, Josh was quiet. After a minute, Noah became concerned.

  “Are you okay?” he asked the question that was usually on Josh's lips. He kept stroking Josh's back, his head, his lean body, slick with sweat.

  “I went total caveman on you,” Josh said, his voice barely audible.

  Noah smiled, remembering their conversation from two nights before. “Yeah, you did. And I’m not complaining.”

  “I hurt you.”

  “For a bit, but it got good after that.”

  Josh pulled out with a soft sigh that touched Noah deep. The head of Josh's cock plopped out with a delicious dirty sound. Noah’s body returned to somewhat resembling normal, which was ridiculous considering he had jizz dripping out of his ass.

  Indy.

  He’d forgotten about him. He turned his head and found Indy watching the two of them with tears streaming down his face.

  “How are you doing over there?” Noah asked, not weirded out at all that Indy had seen all that. If anything, it made him even more proud of what he had done.

  “The two of you … You’re amazing. Seriously, I’ve never seen anything like it.”

  Josh turned his head as well. “What, you mean the spectacularly clumsy sex we had?”

  “What do you mean, clumsy?” Noah said with feigned indignation. “You fucked me good, lover boy.”

  Josh rose up on his arms to look at Noah. “I did, didn’t I? I mean, it took a while for me to get there, but I finished well.”

  “I’ll say. Your cum is still dripping out of my ass.”

  Josh broke out in giggles and Noah chuckled. Josh swiped a finger down his chest and held it before Noah’s face, all sticky and juicy. “You came all over me. Seriously, we’re a mess.”