CANARY

by Tijan

  Not a normal endearment a significant other would want to hear on this announcement, but for us and this world, it just made me cry even harder. The good tears.

  “I love you.”

  He rested his forehead to mine, his hand sweeping over my stomach. “I love you, too. Both of you.” He moved down, pushing my shirt up, and I felt his lips touching my stomach.

  I lay there, almost gasping in disbelief because I never would’ve suspected this would be our ending, but there it was.

  This was our happily ever after.

  Raize lifted his head, his eyes finding mine, and he paused, pushing some hair from my forehead. “You’re happy?” He was asking about everything, and I nodded.

  I said, “I am.” And I would be because I knew Raize meant it when he said my safety and our baby’s safety above anyone else.

  Over the last few years, I enjoyed working for Roman Marakov.

  I shouldn’t, but I did.

  He cared about his employees, and while he had to run a mafia, he seemed to give a fuck. I enjoyed being the one to tell him when someone was lying or cheating or wanted to hurt him. I enjoyed when he made it his mission to find out who his rivals were that were trafficking women and when he’d send Raize to go and ‘deal with them.’ Everyone knew what that was code for. I mean, we returned to Texas and I was able to blow Oscar’s building up, finally and only after I was reassured it was empty, so yeah, I knew what the code meant.

  Fighting that shit in my way, and now this? A kid? With Raize?

  I was happy.

  I was happier than I ever thought I could’ve been, so I’d take it.

  This was my happily ever after.

  Everything else? We’d deal because that’s what you did when you found your place, right? You just handled it.

  Jacob Cavers Raize was born almost nine months later.

  A year later, we had Veronique Ashley Raize.

  Ashley was there when both were born. So was her family.

  Shit happened.

  That was going to happen in this lifestyle, but like I knew, we handled it.

  In the meantime, we were happy and we remained being happy.

  And I officially became Ash Canary Raize a year after we had Veronique.

  I kept my blonde hair.

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  Carter Reed Series

  Cole

  Bennett Mafia

  Jonah Bennett

  Frisco

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  Stay tuned because I have more mafia coming!

  Acknowledgments

  A special thank you again to my editor, my beta readers, and the proofreaders. You guys either worked me into your schedule or read Canary so quickly for me. I truly appreciate it so much!

  Thank you to Heather and Crystal for helping with the audio of Canary! A special thank you to Gloria Gonzalez for helping me with some Mexico questions.

  A very special thank you to the ladies in my reader group. You guys are so active in there and it truly helps me to keep writing.

  I couldn’t end this without a huge thank you to my cuddle partner, and the guy who is always checking on me, Bailey! My pup. Love you so much!

  Also by Tijan

  Mafia Standalones:

  Cole

  Bennett Mafia

  Jonah Bennett

  Frisco

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  Fallen Crest/Roussou Universe

  Fallen Crest Series

  Crew Series

  The Boy I Grew Up With (standalone)

  Rich Prick (standalone)

  Nate

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  Other series:

  Broken and Screwed Series (YA/NA)

  Jaded Series (YA/NA suspense)

  Davy Harwood Series (paranormal)

  Carter Reed Series (mafia)

  The Insiders (trilogy)

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  Sports Romance Standalones:

  Enemies

  Teardrop Shot

  Hate To Love You

  The Not-Outcast

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  Young Adult Standalones:

  Ryan’s Bed

  A Whole New Crowd

  Brady Remington Landed Me in Jail

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  College Standalones:

  Antistepbrother

  Kian

  * * *

  Contemporary Romances:

  Bad Boy Brody

  Home Tears

  Fighter

  * * *

  Rockstar Romance Standalone:

  Sustain

  * * *

  Paranormal Standalone:

  Evil

  Micaela’s Big Bad

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  More books to come!

  Bennett Mafia

  Chapter one

  “Die, you fly!”

  I locked eyes with a black fly, or maybe our eyes weren’t locked, but he was perched on the rock next to me. He was going down. He had been harassing me for the last hour. I was outside, trying to clean up the yard, but I was going nuts with this damn thing buzzing all around me.

  He was teasing me, taunting me. He flew out of the way every time I swung at him. He was too fast, and as he paused on my shoulder, I swung at the same time the screen door opened. I heard its creak across the yard right before a numbing pain exploded in my shoulder.

  “Ry—did you just clock yourself?”

  Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

  I groaned, my knees buckling.

  I had.

  I’d swung with the rock in my hands, and now I felt blood trickling down my shoulder and arm. My shirtsleeve was rapidly turning red.

  The fly fucker was trying to kill me, by outsmarting me.

  “Shit.”

  The door slammed shut, and I heard Blade’s feet scuffling down the stairs as he ran to me. The gravel crunched under his weight, and then he slid in behind me. His pants would be ripped up, but knowing Blade, he wouldn’t care.

  He rarely cared about clothes. We were just happy he wore them, most of the time.

  “Fuck.” He swore under his breath, his very tanned and slightly oily fingers gentle as he looked at my wound. His dark eyes seemed to penetrate my shoulder before he sat back on his heels, raking a hand through his dreadlocks. “What were you doing?”

  I wasn’t going to admit a fly had outwitted me.

  When I was doing yard work, Blade made himself scarce. For the years he’d been living with us, he’d been content to clean the inside. He did most of the cooking, cleaning, and dishes, and it wasn’t uncommon for us to come home from shopping and find him wearing a maid’s apron and duster—and nothing else.

  So for him to come looking for me outside like this wasn’t normal.

  “What is it?” I jerked my head toward the house, hearing the television blaring.

  His concerned eyes lifted to mine, and a whole different look slid over him.

  My alarm level went up three notches.

  Of the three of us living in this little cabin outside of Calgary, or Cowtown as we called it sometimes, Blade wasn’t the one who got concerned about things. He enjoyed indulging in marijuana, kept his hair in tight dreadlocks, and dressed like a child from the sixties in a brown vest, no shirt, and a tie-dyed bandana over his hair. Only instead of bell-bottoms, he wore tight, frayed jeans over regular runners. He handled all our computer stuff, and when we walked inside, I wasn’t surprised to find he had switched over the news he’d caught on his computer to the main television screen.

  I also wasn’t surprised to be watching a report from New York City.

  “—ennett mafia princess has been missing for forty-nine hours now.”

  Ice lined my insides.

  A picture of my old boarding school roommate, Brooke Bennett, flashed on the screen, along with numbers to cal
l if she was found.

  Found…

  As in, she was lost?

  I felt punched in the chest.

  Brooke was missing.

  Dazed, I reached out for a chair to sit in. Blade moved to my side.

  “That’s your old roommate, right?” The chair protested. Blade’s hand left my arm, and his voice came from my side. “The one you had at that rich school.”

  I almost snorted at his wording, but I was still in a daze. I nodded instead.

  Brooke. Man.

  The news was showing pictures from her social media accounts, and she was gorgeous. Fourteen years. I don’t know why that number popped into my head, but it felt right. It’d been so long since I last saw her, or was it fourteen years since we first met? One of those.

  “She was always so girly,” I murmured, almost to myself. She’d been so full of life.

  Not me. I’d been a numbed-down, post-traumatized zombie when I walked into that room.

  “Oh my gosh! You must be my roommate!” She had launched herself at me from behind the moment I entered the room, wrapping her arms around me. Her face had pressed into my shoulder.

  Janine had squawked. “Oh my.”

  I’d ignored my dad’s secretary and had taken one second before the girl let me go and hurried around in front of me. Her hands went to my arms, just underneath my shoulders and she’d looked me up and down.

  I did the same: black oval eyes, stunning jet-black hair, a pert nose, small mouth—but lips formed just like the ones that had been a stamp on my last Valentine’s Day party invitation, full and plump.

  I was slightly envious, or as envious as I could get since I wasn’t usually the jealous type. She had a small chin to end her perfect heart-shaped face, and her eyes were glittering and alive.

  That had been the one moment when I truly was jealous of her. Life. She had what I didn’t. I wasn’t jealous of her looks, though if I’d had a different upbringing maybe I might’ve been? In a way, that was something I was thankful for. Life meant more to me than looks or things. It meant yearning for safety, smiles, the feeling of being loved.

  The other girls had been jealous of her money. For a “rich kids” school, everyone seemed to be pissed about how much money they had. They always wanted more, and they seemed to know who had the most. I was toward the lower end of the wealthy crowd, but Brooke—as it had been whispered around school—was at the top.

  There’d been other whispers, other looks, but we were twelve in our first year there. I didn’t understand what the word mafia actually meant. But it was used often as a taunt by our second semester at Hillcrest. The first semester there hadn’t been that kind of bullying. Some girls liked us. Some girls didn’t. A few hung out with us, and our room became known as the “hot guy” room. Not because we had guys there. Far from it. I would’ve died if a cute guy even looked my way. No, no. Our room had the name because of all the posters and photographs Brooke plastered all over our room. All gorgeous males.

  It never made sense that some of her pictures didn’t look professionally taken, but the posters were real, and who wouldn’t drool over a full-length shot of Aaron Jonahson, the best football player in the United States—or the celebrity actor from everyone’s favorite television show, or the so-hot model that’d been a convict first. Brooke seemed to have all the guys covered, but some pictures seemed more like snapshots. Which was the truth.

  I found out around the holidays: they were her family.

  They weren’t celebrities—not in the sense that I understood back then—they were her brothers, all four of them.

  Cord was the oldest at eighteen.

  Kai was fifteen.

  Tanner was fourteen.

  Brooke was twelve.

  And Jonah brought up the rear at nine years old.

  Brooke was quiet about her family, really quiet. But when I found out those boys were her brothers, and their names, I was fascinated. I couldn’t lie about that. I just hadn’t known who I was becoming obsessed about.

  Cord kept his hair short, almost a crew cut above his more angular face. Brooke told me he was usually the reserved one, and artsy. She almost hissed when she used that word, as if it was a curse, but then she shrugged. “It’s the truth. He wants to be a painter one day.”

  Next in line hadn’t been Kai. She’d skipped over him and chewed on her lip, pausing before pointing to Tanner. As she did, her eyes lit up and a bright smile took over her face.

  “Tanner has this shaggy hair that he bleaches blond, and sometimes it’s dark when I see him. He’s funny, Ry. He’s so funny, but he also has an attitude. All the girls here would die over him, literally just die.”

  I still remembered all the emails she got from a tannerinyourmama—almost her entire inbox was emails from him.

  When she’d gotten to Jonah’s picture, she’d quieted, but a fondness had shone through her. She’d spoken almost as if he were in the room and words could break him.

  “Jonah’s the baby,” she said gently. “He worships Kai…” She’d paused and scratched at her forehead before continuing. “But he doesn’t look like the rest of us.” That’s all she’d said about him.

  I’d inspected the picture of her and him together. She had pulled Jonah onto her lap, her arms around him, and his still-baby cheek pressed against hers as he smiled. His skin had a darker tone than the others, but they all had the most luscious facial features. All dark eyes.

  Cord and Kai had black hair in their pictures. Tanner’s was lighter, and Brooke’s a lovely shade of dark copper. Jonah’s hair matched hers, with a twinge of curl in it too. Tanner’s was long and shaggy, sticking up all over. Kai’s was short, where a hand could run through it easily and it’d fall back in place—just a touch longer than Cord’s barely-there hair.

  I returned my attention to the television now, coming back to the present.

  In the photos on the screen, Brooke’s hair was still the length it’d been in school. She’d kept it trimmed just above her waist and had been adamant that no one would cut it. She’d whispered one night about a fight with her dad, that her father went after her with a pair of scissors. But her hair was still long when she told me, so whatever the fight, he hadn’t been successful. And like all the other times she talked about her family, she didn’t go into detail. She always said just enough so I knew what she was talking about, and then she would close up. Her shoulders would shudder before a wall slammed down, and that night had been the same.

  A soft sigh left me as I continued to watch the images on the news.

  Brooke had her chin up, proud, as her braided hair curved around her neck. In another she struck a sultry pose in a bikini. She could’ve been a model, except maybe she didn’t have the height—not like me. She’d been an inch shorter than me in school, though now I had shot up even taller to five ten.

  They teased us about being sisters at school.

  I had loved it, though I never said a word. I didn’t know if Brooke enjoyed it. She never spoke for or against it, but I could see now why people thought that way. We both had dark black hair. Okay. Maybe I couldn’t see why now. That was the end of our similarities. Brooke had a rounder face. I was fairer in skin. My eyes were more narrow. My face a little longer. And taller. I was always taller.

  Brooke used to sigh that I could be a model, but she was wrong. She was the future model. I saw the proof now.

  She looked like she’d gotten a tad bit taller too, maybe another inch, but that was it. It didn’t matter. Brooke could’ve been a model just because she had turned into a celebrity—which was also why the story about her being missing had been picked up by a news channel from New York City, where I didn’t think she lived.

  “That’s her, right?” Blade prompted again. He shoved back his chair to stand as I heard the sounds of an approaching car outside.

  We lived near Cowtown, but we kept to the forest for a reason. The cabin we were renting belonged to a friend of a friend of a friend of another fri
end, and there were probably three other sets of friends before we actually got to the owner. There was a reason for that, just like there was a reason Blade hurried to his computer, turning off the news as he brought up the feed from the electronic sensors outside.

  A second later, he relaxed and flipped the screen back.

  All was clear. It was our third roommate, Carol. But I wasn’t paying attention to her or to the sound I heard when the screen door opened and something dropped with a thud on the floor. Carol cursed.

  My eyes returned to the screen, glued there because an image of Kai Bennett appeared now.

  Just like the last time I saw my friend, the bile of loathing pooled in my mouth. Kai stared right at the camera, offering whoever had taken his picture the same look he’d given me before taking my roommate away so many years ago.

  While I couldn’t remember the last look on Brooke’s face, I couldn’t get his out of my mind.

  Death.

  His eyes were dead, just like they’d been back then.

  A shiver went up my spine. I’d only seen Kai Bennett in person once, but it was enough.

  I hated him.

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