Love Grows In The Dark

by Eli Lowe

  Cause, after making me promise, she chose to break hers and did not come to meet me ever again. She might have succeeded to hide from me for the rest of her life as well, if not I got to catch her one day, when she tried to make me reject her.

  But I could not even get to see who she was, that day either. It was just that one thing led to another and one day strangely I found her again, when she was in heat for me.

  I thought that now I will never allow her to run away from me ever again, as I was determined to win her heart this time no matter what. I was ready to do whatever it takes to make her happily stay by my side always.

  But look how unfortunate I am.

  Just after the day, when I discovered her as the one and only Summer from our school, I was told that staying with her will definitely cause her death if I wanted to take revenge for mom and dad. I was told that I must leave her, no matter what.

  You tell me, how could I have done that? I just found my happiness after years, and that too had a span for just one day? I have a heart too, and it has feelings that could get heart as well.

  Even though I was dying to be with her each and every second, the thought of leaving her was killing me. I could not decide how I would go back on my own words, when it was also me who made her agree to stay with me forever, with all her love and warmth.

  I was so hard, believe me.

  And then you appeared in between us, all of a sudden. I never thought that you would also try to snatch her away from me, but that was not at all going to help even if I let you two be together. Cause we are both the sons of those two whom he once killed along with Summer's mom and dad.

  I was really struggling to decide. The feeling of leaving the only one I desired to love was killing me bit by bit as the greed of keeping her to myself only was saying me otherwise. And thinking her with someone else was making me even mad.

  Do, that night I ended up at the bar and got drunk. But just when I saw you together, I did not know why, I could not stop envy you two. I might have lost my mind completely and decided to do the worst to Summer, which I thought that it might solve my problems all together.

  And.. And that night the drunk me, made love to her without her consent. I...I kind of forced her that night. And that was the last time, as I decided to leave her alone forever making me one hateful person to her and go on with my plans to take the revenge on behalf of all of us.

  But I...I could never imagine that all the worst things that I did will be nothing but futile, cause I will end up wishing to keep her by my side once again along with a little one of our own which I did not know was growing inside her since before.

  Yes, I ruined everything with my own hands. I am a sinner too.” Whatever Kazan said, shook me completely. I never expected Kazan to do such a pathetic thing to his own mate, to Summer. Even though I had no right to meddle in between them, I did not know why I could not stop feeling angry at Kazan. And at last, without being able to hold the rage any longer, I lifted one of my hands only to grab him by his collar, while the other one was balled up into a fist once again, as I yelled,

  “Then how are you different than that brute Benjamin?”

  Episode 59

  Summer's P.O.V

  I was lying on my bed once again, but it seemed that sleep was not at all going to come to me tonight. As I just could not get it all out of my mind what happened today. I kept thinking about how one's perspective could change within just one single day, only if they could enable themselves to think by standing in other's shoes.

  Today I got to know so many things, which indeed helped me to clear so many suspicions all at once. And now I must rethink what to do and what not to.

  But the main concern which kept holding me back from taking any sudden decision as a reflex of the current situation, was the newly discovered existence of this little brat inside me. How was I suppose to keep it safe from each and every danger that I would be engaging myself in, later any time soon?

  Tonight, my room appeared even darker than the dark night outside. The cold night breeze kept coming to me through the open window while I left the curtains untied, allowing them to fly as much as they wished, just for this one night. Because it was getting more and more suffocating for me to stay inside as I badly needed to run through the empty streets, the woods by the roads, only to chase the free wind in this cold dark night.

  But I knew very well, that I must not go outside at this late hours, not now, and not tonight at least. Cause if I do, Kaith will never stop yelling at me ever, for my such reckless behaviour when I am still pregnant with a pup. And even though I could have managed to sneak in and out of his sight like before, this time I knew that I must not play with the dangers except it was much needed. Cause I just can not overlook the attack of those vicious rogues from last night.

  I must stay alert all the time, when I had already involved myself in some process to stand against someone specific. I must be ready to face the consequences to get the man out of the secret chamber this morning. So, it was better not to give them an opportunity voluntarily to attack.

  And that was why I can not go out as I wished.

  I kept lying on my bed with my eyes closed. Even though I was trying hard to get some sleep, it seemed that tonight was going to turn into another sleepless night again, and I would be left with nothing but a lot of thoughts to keep my mind busy the whole night.

  With a deep sigh, I pulled up the cover on my body only to keep myself warm for a little bit as the cold wind was surely making the air inside my room chilled tonight.

  In no time, a sudden noise pulled me back from my thoughts in an instant but I did not dare to open my eyes to look at the source. Cause by then the very familiar smell came to me without a delay, and I did not fail to recognise it either.

  It did not take much time for me to realise what was happening right at this instant.

  There was no doubt that it was Kazan who jumped in only to come inside my room and that was the thud which declared his arrival to me. Yes, I can tell very well who exactly it was between the twins, as by now I can distinguish between the two smells which are almost the same. Even after having the same smell, something was always more captivating when it comes to Kazan and I was so very familiar by the intense pull every time which never ever stopped leaving an impact on me even when I did not want that. But why did he even bother to come? And that too in such a way?

  Then...then was it really a dream last night or he really came to me which I mistook as a dream?

  What was happening?

  No, I must know what motives he has got in his pockets now?

  So, I decided not to make any kind of abrupt movement which might make him aware of the fact that I am still awake. I pretended to be asleep only to know what was he planning to do next. I did not even open my eyes while I kept anticipating what he was about to do.

  For quite some while, nothing happened at all. I could hear no sound of any movements, neither he came closer to touch me. He absolutely stayed quiet for all this while as if no one was there in the room except me. But how could it be when the intense intoxicating smell was still there, announcing the presence of Kazan.

  Was he thinking about something?

  Or did he just forgot the reason to come here this late at night?

  My mind kept thinking hard while my heart did not stop beating loudly even for a bit. And after some time, finally, I heard the sounds of a few heavy yet careful footsteps while the smell grew even stronger with each passing second, only to stop just by the side of my bed.

  And in no time a million of sparks started to spread all over my body all at once, causing me to shiver with some feelings which I did not want to feel now.

  Because, I clearly felt him lifting up my cover from my body ever so carefully, so that he could lay down on the bed while making sure that I do not need the cover to warm myself up anymore. And the next moment, I became fully entrapped in-between his arms while he pulled me to his chest from behind, sof
tly.

  For some reason, his body was cold tonight, but as I kept lying with him, I felt him getting warmer while I even felt his heart beating ever so fast.

  Kazan tightened his arms around me after some time while he kept rubbing his head on my neck carefully and softly, being careful enough not to make me up. His hairs kept brushing against my skin, causing me to feel some kind of weird desire that I must not let my mind cloud with right now. But it was just that I could not stop feeling such as my mind, my soul my own body kept betraying me ever since he came into my life.

  How could I keep my mind at ease when he was holding me so close to himself that I can even feel his breaths, his heartbeats and everything else. There was no doubt that it was just the mate bond which was kind of compelling me right now to submit to him even when I should have never allowed him to come near me.

  His cold lips touched the crook of my neck at last, while I even felt the warm tears which could not help but fall on my skin, making it very clear to me that Kazan was in tears once again. But why now when he ruined everything with his own hands.

  “I am sorry, Summer.” Just when I was about to ask him to leave, without bothering much to tolerate his nonsense anymore, I heard Kazan just beside my ears. His voice was even trembling this time.

  I could not move as I was now determined to listen to whatever he had to say that he could never say to me directly. But, to my surprise, his tears did not stop at all from getting my shoulder wet while he went on with his words with his same trembling voice,

  “I know that you will never give me another chance after what I did, but still I want you to know that I am so sorry.

  I never wanted to abandon you willingly, but I had to. And you have every right to hate me. But you know what, I love you the most. I do not know now if I will ever get to stay with you one day, just like I always dreamed. Even if I do not, you must know that I want to live all my life with you only. I want to make our own family. I always wanted so many pups but I have never thought that you would give me one this soon.” He stopped, while his hand moved down to my belly and rubbed around, letting me feel the warmth of his hand.

  And in no moment, he repositioned himself as he made me lay on my back while hovered over me all of a sudden.

  What the hell did he want to do?

  Did he find out that I was awake all this while?

  I got scared for a little while. But to my surprise, he scooted down to my belly only to lift up the shirt that I was wearing tonight.

  First, his hands caressed me all over the place and then he started to shower me with a lot of kisses there. No, this time his kisses were not for me actually. It was for his pup.

  “Daddy loves you, okay? Be good, and do not trouble your mommy much.” With that, he carefully laid down beside me again. I guess now it was my turn to get kissed as I felt his lips once again on my forehead, while he kept his hand on my stomach all the time.

  “Daddy loves your mommy so much. But your mommy is angry with me because daddy had hurt him. Would you tell your mommy that daddy loves her?

  Will you help daddy to win mommy's heart once again?

  If you could do that, then I can also promise to bring you a brother or sister to play with.

  So, can we have a deal?” Kazan kept saying on his own, as if he was talking to the pup.

  My heart was becoming a hollow all of a sudden. I did not know how to react cause I have never seen Kazan in such a way? He was behaving just like a child.

  And I was struggling inside about what to do with him now. I just can not pretend any more. If I kept listening to his words any longer I might end up forgetting about what he did to me for the sake of this pup, which I did not want to do at all, not at least now. So, he must go.

  But even before I could open my eyes, his arms pulled me close to his chest once again, leaving no space between us, while he made sure to enclose the last bit of distance as his lips touched mine ever so softly.

  “Don't ask me to stay away from both of you Summer. It was already heard to leave you once, but how could I do that again, when all my happiness is with you only. It is our love that is growing inside you now, and I want to stay by your side all the time cause I want to see you growing chubbier within a few months maybe. Now I am dying to see you with your huge belly. I just can not wait to feel that little thing kicking inside you. Oh! Summer, I think I am going to go crazy.

  Because, I will have a family of my own very soon, which I always desired but never had one.

  But...but that can only happen if you agree.” Kazan's excited voice came down to sound like a depressed one just when he uttered the last few words and I could not help but let my heart thump like crazy cause the word 'family' did not fail to arise my desire as well to look forward to a little family which I could call my own.

  In a few ways, I and Kazan were no different, as I can see.

  But still, I was not at all ready to forgive him just like that.

  Once again, Kazan enclosed my lips with his own as if no matter how many times he kisses me, he was just not getting enough. But, I knew that it was now time to stop him, otherwise I might lose against my own heart.

  So, with just one go, I opened my eyes and pushed his chest away, and I did not even forget to say,

  “Leave, right now.”

  Episode 60

  ****sexual content****

  Summer's P.O.V

  “Since when you are awake?” After realising that I was not sleeping at all, his voice changed again into a deep grumpy tone, completely different from the one in which he was talking to this little brat inside me, just a while ago.

  His whole body stiffened in no time, tightening his grip around me, while once again he turned into the heartless Kazan like before. As he showed no sign at all to do what I just asked him to do. He just kept lying on the bed with no intention to let go of me, bothering least about the fact that I was not at all liking whatever he was doing right now.

  “You do not need to know whether I was up or not. The thing is, how dare you to come here? How dare you to touch me without my consent, also when I had already told you very clearly not to touch me ever again. I do not want to see you. Leave me alone. Get the hell out of here, Kazan.” I screamed with all my might in the middle of the night, while I never stopped even for once pushing his body away from mine as much as I could, only to get myself free from his hold. But it seemed, the more I tried to push him away, the more he kept coming closer to me.

  “No. I changed my mind. I do not want to let you go, ever. Do whatever you want to do. If you ever succeed to kill me, only then you can free yourself from me, otherwise, I would suggest you to stop all your futile attempts to stay away from me. Cause that is not possible now. I want my pup to stay with me forever along with its mother. So you are now stuck with me forever. Do you get that?” Kazan's voice appeared menacing to my ears while for some strange reason I was feeling some kind of warmth inside my heart, and I realised how I was already on the verge of losing against my heart, once again.

  I needed to think about something else. I just can not lose. I must stay strong.

  So, without thinking much I kept struggling, attempting to break the tight hug, while I even kicked him wherever I could, but nothing worked.

  It caused me to get entangled with Kazan even badly.

  Cause, in order to stop me from fighting, Kazan twisted my arms behind my back only to hold them together carefully without hurting me even for a bit. His big rock like legs straddled me in no moment, making me completely unable to move, not even for the slightest distance.

  “Don't you dare to touch me. Let me go, Kazan.” I had no other options left than screaming. But soon, I was deprived of doing that as well, as he lifted up my chin with his hand, only to pull me close to his lips, and then I clearly heard him saying,

  “Never.” With that, he made sure to seal my lips, while he shoved his tongue inside my mouth, and kept teasing mine. There was no doubt that he was mak
ing me out of breath, but it seemed he had no intention to stop before he could savour all the pleasure that he needed. His cold lips soon warmed up, which kept sucking and nibbling on my lips, making them all swollen due to his intense kiss.

  I could not move anymore, as I found myself in a weird state right now. Only tonight, I realised, how my body could even crave to have someone, from whom I wanted to stay away. As if I was kept tearing in between my mind and my heart.

  The night was getting ever harder for me, while all the sparks, the tingles, the sensations and everything was telling me to listen to my heart while my conscience was telling me that I should never ever consider making love with my mate ever again.

  But, what kind of dilemma is this?

  At last, he pulled himself back from the torture that his lips were doing on mine till now, only to catch some breath as he left both of us breathless.

  “You know what, you should have understood by now, that you are all mine to touch however and whenever I wish, just like I am all yours to do anything you want. So, no one, not even you have the right to stop me if I want to kiss you or make love to you, and that too when I want to have so many pups with my mate, Summer. Five or six would be fine. What do you think?” His smile appeared so very cruel to me. How could he even say that, as if nothing happened between us at all?

  But if he says so, then let's try to play in such a way as well.

  “Okay then. If you want us to be this way, then who am I to stop.” I said, making Kazan a bit startled with such a reply, but he did not care much, as I made both of us move so that he could lay on his back this time and I could ride on him, while he still made sure not to loosen his grip around me, and I still could not get myself free.

  But, I had no intention to push him away anymore.

  “Take off your clothes then. All of it. One by one.” I ordered while I started grinding my butt on Kazan, making sure that he could feel the warmth and craze that I wanted to show him right now.