Something or Everything

by Lily St Michael

  “It's okay...let me take care of you…I know you need to,” Julia whispered as Maddie groaned into her shoulder and pressed her hips harder against her thigh.

  Julia began to flex her thigh muscle against Maddie's center as she squeezed Maddie’s ass in the same cadence. “God, you’re so sexy…I can feel...on my leg...how hot you are,” Julia whispered against her ear.

  Maddie could do nothing but simply whimper as one of her hands tried to find purchase on Julia’s shoulders and the other gripped the back of the table that Julia was leaning against. Maddie felt Julia slip her finger deeper into the damp crevice between her ass cheeks.

  “You feel so good against me…take what you need,” Julia whispered.

  Maddie’s hips began to move in shorter and quicker jerks as desire exploded, as her need escalated.

  Julia licked Maddie’s ear. “I’m going to take you upstairs…have you naked under me...I want to taste you...to be inside you…to claim you.”

  Maddie’s hips jerked wildly, her breathing becoming ragged and sharp against Julia’s neck. Maddie felt Julia slip her finger further between her ass cheeks until it was actually brushing against Maddie’s puckered rear opening and Maddie gasped at the incredible sensation, rearing up wildly, shocked at how much her body wanted this.

  “Can I have your ass?” Julia whispered loudly, her rough and raspy voice causing the cadence of Maddie’s hips to increase.

  “God…Jule…yessss…”

  Maddie reached out and braced her hand against the wall behind Julia as the sensations and her desire spiraled out of control. She could hear the table Julia was leaning against thud rhythmically against the wall behind it with each wild jerk of her hips, but she did not care. Julia’s teasing and probing finger against her ass was making her crazy.

  “You are so beautiful…God, Maddie…”

  Maddie felt Julia push the pad of her finger gently, but insistently, against her rear opening and she silently begged Julia to breach that last frontier, the taboo nature of the act as exciting as the sensations it was creating. As if Julia could read her mind, Julia’s finger pushed inside the tight opening of her ass as her hips reared up wildly. Maddie ground her clit against Julia’s leg as Julia’s finger moved tantalizingly in her ass and she could not quite believe the intensity of sensation, her shout barely muffled against Julia’s shoulder as she exploded in an orgasm that shook her violently.

  Maddie slumped against Julia, her legs wobbly, her internal muscles still clenching from the intense orgasm as Julia held her up with a tight arm, kissing the side of her head. It was long moments before Maddie came back to herself and she could not quite believe what had just happened.

  “What the hell was that?” Maddie finally whispered, her voice sounding hoarse to her own ears.

  Maddie felt more than heard Julia laugh softly, shaking them gently. “That was the sexiest thing ever,” Julia whispered. “You seemed to like that…a lot.”

  Maddie nestled further into Julia’s shoulder, her face flaming in embarrassment at what she had allowed Julia to do to her. The forbidden nature of it, however, had not prevented her from coming like a freight train and feeling incredibly sexy.

  “I didn’t know…I’ve never…”

  “It’s okay, I’ve never…either. You make me feel things and God, Maddie, the things I want to do to you.”

  “Like what?” Maddie whispered against her shoulder.

  Julia pulled her closer. “I never understood penis envy until I had you in my bed, wet and open and the sexiest thing I have ever seen.”

  “I can buy you one of those,” Maddie whispered, surprised at herself.

  Julia’s laugh was low and raspy and Maddie felt it against her and inside her. “I’ll keep that in mind. Come to bed with me.” Julia’s sexy, whiskey-soaked voice made Maddie shiver and she nodded again, willing to follow this woman anywhere.

  Chapter 16

  Julia watched Maddie walk into her bedroom in her bare feet, her pumps hanging from her fingers, as Julia waited to shut her bedroom door behind them. She heard the pumps hit the hardwood floor and when she turned, Maddie was already starting to unbutton her blouse and their gazes met. Julia toed off her own shoes as she moved quickly toward Maddie. She reached out to unbutton the last button on Maddie’s blouse and they slowly undressed each other. They reached for each other’s bras, impatiently unhooking and pulling at straps, yanking at panties until they were both naked and softly panting.

  Julia shivered as Maddie’s gaze prowled slowly down her body, lingering on her breasts before drifting down to her center, unabashedly staring as Julia tried to catch her breath. Julia could not ever remember anyone turning her on by simply looking at her, but Maddie’s gaze was intense and Julia felt it as a caress. Maddie stepped toward her, bringing them together, skin to skin and Julia moaned. Julia hung onto Maddie as their mouths connected and they kissed deeply.

  Julia let her hands roam over Maddie, pulling her close as she tried to kiss her deeper. She moved her hands down to squeeze Maddie’s ass firmly as her own hips jerked toward Maddie, any self-restraint a distant memory.

  “God…I want you,” Julia moaned against her mouth.

  Hearing that seemed to incite Maddie into action and she pushed Julia back onto the mattress, following her and waiting for her to scoot back to the middle of the bed before she ran her hands up her legs and across her middle, capturing both breasts in her hands. Julia arched up as Maddie’s mouth found her nipple, latching on as her hand dipped into Julia’s center. Julia heard Maddie gasp at the first touch and Julia knew that she was beyond wet.

  Julia did not realize how much she had missed this part of being with Maddie, the excitement of being desired, the way that Maddie seemed to know what she needed and how to give it to her. How Maddie’s touch was firm but gentle at the same time. Julia’s hips seemed to be moving of their own accord, wanting more.

  Julia felt Maddie work her way down her body, placing small kisses and gentle caresses up to her neck and back down to her nipples, pulling them into her mouth firmly, sucking as her hands continued to roam along the landscape of her body. Julia moaned and stretched at the delicious attention and she reached a hand to squeeze and pull at the hair at the back of Maddie’s head.

  Maddie pulled her mouth away from her nipple. “You want my mouth somewhere else?”

  “God, yes, please,” Julia whispered, not above begging at this point.

  She felt Maddie quickly move down between her legs and gently spread her folds open. Julia could feel how incredibly wet she was as the cool air hit her clit, feeling like a touch.

  “Hurry,” Julia rasped out. She knew her whisper was a desperate plea, but she did not care. She wanted Maddie’s mouth on her now and she was not disappointed as Maddie lowered her open mouth to cover her clit.

  Julia nearly screamed as Maddie’s mouth seemed to devour her, her tongue lashing, her lips sucking. Julia put her hand on the back of Maddie’s head, giving her something to hang onto and holding Maddie’s mouth where she needed it. Julia could not believe how sharply intense every stroke of Maddie’s tongue felt as she tried to control the wild bucking of her hips, tried not to bathe Maddie’s entire face in her juices. The sensation was focused and intense and Julia tried to hang on, tried to make it last, but it was no use as her body had a mind of its own and her body wanted to come. Julia heard the shout explode from her throat as an orgasm tore through her in explosive waves.

  When Julia came back to some awareness, Maddie was kissing her way back up Julia’s body. Julia pulled her close, shuddering, a few stray tears escaping and Maddie kissed those away.

  “I love doing that,” Maddie whispered to her.

  Julia let out a sound that was half-sob and half-snort. “Good because I love it when you do that.”

  They lay in each other’s arms quietly for long moments before Maddie kissed her cheek sweetly. Julia ran her gaze slowly over Maddie’s features. “So, tell me what else is g
oing on. Why is Gabe touring the high school and what were you doing in New Bedford?”

  Maddie seemed to hesitate and averted her gaze for a moment, but then she returned it to Julia. “Gabe’s Dad, Sam, had asked Gabe a while ago to think about moving down here to live with him. Gabe really wants to so I’m trying to make that happen, sooner rather than later. My mother has been trying to prevent this for years, threatening all kinds of things, but that’s no longer a consideration.”

  “Love shouldn’t be conditional. You said that to me the night we met when referring to your family.”

  Maddie smiled. “You remember that?” Julia nodded and Maddie continued. “My mother has always tried to dictate how Gabe was raised, expressing her opinions and pushing her advice freely and constantly. Gabe and I have always talked about everything…we make a lot of decisions together. She thinks that’s ridiculous…and once she finds out what my plans are…I shudder to think what she might try, but it doesn’t matter, it’s not going to work.”

  Julia frowned. “Gabe seems mature enough to make that decision. He seems to have a good head on his shoulders. Maddie, you should be more than proud of yourself and of Gabriel. You’ve done an amazing job with him. He’s polite and…thoughtful and smart.”

  Maddie smiled. “Thank you. Gabe likes my ‘girlfriend’ by the way. He texted me as soon as he left the restaurant.”

  Julia laughed. “I haven’t been anyone’s girlfriend in many years.”

  “But you want to be mine?” Maddie asked.

  “I want to be more than your girlfriend,” Julia said clearly, meeting Maddie’s gaze.

  Maddie nodded. “I want that too, Julia. I just need to take care of some things, get Gabe situated.”

  Julia simply nodded, suddenly overcome with a fear that Maddie would leave and it would be weeks before she saw her again. Julia was painfully aware that Maddie had failed to answer her about what she was doing in New Bedford and Julia was afraid to jeopardize this delicate balance of trust and emotion and ask again.

  “Is there anything I can help you with?”

  Maddie smiled. “Not right now, but probably at some point. Thank you for offering, Julia.”

  “And you won’t disappear on me while you’re taking care of these things?”

  “I will not disappear. You have a phone, too, you know.”

  Julia sighed. “I know, but the more time that passed, the more I was convinced that you had decided I was too much trouble.”

  “You are no trouble, Julia, you never have been. So, maybe we should agree, right here and now, that no contact is unacceptable.”

  Julia nodded. “I need to have a lot of contact from now on, okay?”

  “That actually sounds really nice.”

  “Maddie, I want to be with you.”

  Julia thought that Maddie’s smile was magnificent, her dimples popping. “I want to be with you, too.”

  Julia pulled Maddie forward and covered her mouth with a soft, wet and glorious kiss. Julia closed her eyes for a moment and inhaled deeply. Just this morning she had wondered if she would ever see Maddie again and here she was, in her bed and making plans with Julia.

  “Tell me again,” Julia whispered.

  “I want to be with you, Jule, querida, and everyone knows it,” Maddie added.

  “Who’s everyone?”

  “My son, my brother, my sister-in-law, my entire family. My friend, Steve, from work. Everyone.”

  Julia smiled as she kissed her lightly. “That makes me very happy, but I’m sorry if that’s causing a rift in your family.”

  “Don’t be. You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me, Julia Sinclair.” Julia was slightly stunned at the declaration, simply staring at Maddie, overcome with emotion. Maddie touched her face. “Did I say something wrong?”

  “No. I’ve just never been anyone’s best thing before,” Julia whispered.

  Maddie placed a small but firm kiss to Julia’s lips. “Well then, you’ve been with idiots because that’s just ridiculous. You’re my best thing…by far.”

  They made love again, slowly and softly and Julia was overwhelmed at the emotion, the absolute joy of being with Maddie in this way. Julia actually found herself smiling as she brought Maddie to an orgasm, her tongue delving deeply into Maddie’s soft warm folds, Maddie’s thighs squeezing against her head as her hips bucked to completion. After Maddie lovingly brought her to another orgasm with her gently probing fingers while holding her in her arms, she could not stop the tears that flowed, but Maddie simply kissed them away.

  Julia inhaled deeply, letting the emotions roll over her in a giant wave. Julia made an instant decision, taking the biggest leap of faith of her life. “Maddie, would you like to meet Eleanor?”

  ◆◆◆

  Maddie paced nervously in the foyer of Julia’s home, the sound of her pumps across the hardwood floor keeping pace with the pounding of her nervous heart. They had quickly showered and dressed and Julia had walked down to the corner to greet her daughter at the bus stop. Julia wanted to talk to her about what had happened before meeting Maddie. Maddie shook out her hands and straightened her blouse as the front door flew open.

  Eleanor stopped short and looked at Maddie. Then she smiled widely. “Are you Madalena?”

  Eleanor was tall for her age, long and lean like her sister, but her hair was dirty blond, her eyes blue, and she looked like Julia. Maddie smiled back. “Yes, I am, but you can call me Maddie. It’s good to meet you, Eleanor.”

  “You can call me Norie like my Mom does.” Maddie saw the surprised look on Julia’s face at her daughter’s comment as she came in behind her and shut the door.

  Maddie smiled. “Okay, Norie it is then.”

  “Is Gabe here? Can I meet him? How long are you visiting?”

  Julia smiled at her daughter. “Hey, little miss hurricane, can you take it down a notch?”

  Maddie laughed. “Gabe is with his Dad and we’ll be here until Sunday so maybe you’ll get to meet him.” Then she looked at Julia, not wanting to overstep since she and Julia had been too busy making love to discuss the details of the remainder of the weekend. “If you already have plans…”

  Julia smiled. “Not really and we haven’t talked about it, but if you and Gabe are free tomorrow night maybe we could all go out and have dinner together, if that’s alright with you?”

  Maddie felt herself blush, warmed by the way Julia looked at her. “I’ll check with Gabe, but I’d like that.”

  Eleanor clapped her hands together. “Can we go to Amelia’s for dinner? We love Amelia’s.”

  Julia looked her daughter. “You love Amelia’s and maybe. Do you have homework, Nor?”

  “Not while Maddie is here.”

  “Oh yes, while Maddie is here, but you can sit out on the deck with us while you do it.”

  Eleanor sighed dramatically. “Alright.”

  Maddie tried to stifle a smile at Eleanor’s display. Eleanor looked at her, her blue eyes bright and Maddie realized how much of Julia she could see in her daughter. “It won’t take me long to finish my homework.”

  Maddie smiled. “Don’t rush on my account. I’m not going anywhere just yet.”

  Julia smiled as she ushered her daughter toward the stairs. “Put your stuff away and wash your hands and face please.” When Eleanor was at the top of the stairs Julia walked back to Maddie. “That girl is more than a handful.”

  Maddie kissed Julia quickly and lightly. “I think she gets that from her mother.”

  Julia laughed and pushed Maddie back into the living room and against the wall, kissing her deeply, her tongue delving into her mouth before she pulled away. Maddie ran her gaze slowly over Julia’s features and smiled at her. She knew it had taken a lot of trust on Julia’s part to let her meet Eleanor.

  “What?” Julia whispered.

  “Thank you for letting me meet Eleanor. I know what it means. Thank you for trusting me.”

  “You’re welcome.”

 
; “Do you mind if I run out to my car to get some things out of my bag? I would really like to change, get out of these pumps,” Maddie said.

  Julia’s gaze was fixed on Maddie’s. “Just bring your bag in with you. Cancel your reservation at the Sea Breeze. Stay here with me…with us.”

  Maddie took a moment and thought about spending the weekend with Julia, in her home, allowed into her life. She shivered as she thought about sleeping in Julia’s bed, closely entwined with her. She reached for Julia’s face, caressing it softly.

  “I’d love that.”

  ◆◆◆

  Maddie woke early, as she usually did, the unfamiliar but welcome scent and sounds of the ocean gently wafting in through the open windows in Julia’s bedroom. Maddie watched Julia sleep beside her, inhaling deeply at the emotion stirred in her by simply looking at this woman. Out of respect for the fact that Eleanor was in the house, they had simply kissed each other good night and slept fully clothed, but Maddie had still slept deeply and contentedly, and she still wanted Julia with every fiber of her being.

  The previous day had almost seemed like a dream to her. She had spent the remainder of the afternoon on the deck with Julia and Eleanor, drinking wine and nibbling on various snacks that Julia had put together for them. The day had been clear and warm, the view of the harbor beautiful, and the view of Julia even more so. Eleanor had joined in their conversation as she did her homework at a nearby table. Maddie had noticed her sneaking occasional looks at her.

  “What kind of homework are you working on, Norie?” Maddie asked her.

  “Language Arts.” Eleanor answered as she turned to her. “We’re reading To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee. Have you read it?”

  “Yes, but it was quite a while ago. Gabe had to read it for class, too.”

  “I read it last summer,” Eleanor sighed, “and I’m glad I got to enjoy it before I have to read it again for class and analyze everything. I don’t want to have to think about how a particular line of dialogue moves the story forward.”