All I Want Is You

by Ms. Neicy

  “Can a nigga catch a fucking break?” I said before snatching the notice off the door. That damn house was funky. The dog had tore up all types of stuff, and he pissed and shitted everywhere. I didn’t even want to deal with any of this shit right now, so I grabbed a few things and went and checked into a hotel room. I would just deal with all this shit later. Today had been one of the longest days, so as soon as I got to the room, I crashed.

  I woke up a few hours later to a few missed text from Myeshia and not a single text or call from Renee. She was really doing a nigga dirty, and for no damn reason. She knew all I wanted was her, but if she wanted to play hard to get, that was cool; I was going to let her. I sent Myeshia a text with the address, because I needed a release. I went to hop in the shower and was out about ten minutes later.

  As I waited for Myeshia to get there, I decided to scroll through Facebook, and the first thing that grabbed my attention was the post that Renee had been posting tagging some nigga name Moneymakingrenzo or some bullshit like that. As I went through a few of his pictures, I just assumed that nigga was a dope boy. I couldn’t lie; that nigga was most definitely getting money. I called her only to find out that she blocked my number or the phone was disconnected, but either way, I couldn’t get through. I just didn’t understand Renee.

  In the beginning, shit was all good, but the past year, I felt her moving further and further away from me. I didn’t know what it was, or maybe I did, but I wanted Renee. I had trust issues, but she knew that shit from the jump. I didn’t hide any of that from her. She knew I didn’t trust bitches, because I didn’t even trust my mother. I felt like the trust had to start there, and if it didn’t, then your foundation would always be rocky. Renee was cool with all that shit. We kept it on a friendship level for a minute, but she worked her way into my heart. She was doing the shit any nigga would love for his woman to do. She would cook, she would clean, and she would go out there and make her own damn money, and I appreciated her for that shit. Then, we threw sex in the mix, and I taught her ass exactly what I liked. Once she mastered it, she had that shit on lock too, so I eventually fell for her. That was never my intentions, but it happened, and here she was, two years later, saying that she was forcing some shit with me. Had she said that from jump, I wouldn’t be tripping, but the fact that she led me on, hell nah. I was having serious issues with that.

  Something told me it was another nigga though. Renee was more of a one man’s woman, meaning she would only deal with one dude at a time, so the clues were always there, but the fact that we were still fucking clouded my judgment. I honestly didn’t mind being with her long term, and I was actually getting to the point where I was thinking about ring shopping, but like I said, lately she had been pulling back.

  KNOCK! KNOCK!

  The knock at the door interrupted me from my thoughts. I knew it was Myeshia, because she was the only person that knew where I was. Now this girl and Renee were completely opposite. I didn’t like anything about her but the head. I didn’t even like talking to her, because it seemed like the only thing that came from her mouth was bullshit. She was one of those bitches trying to get a nigga to pay her way, and I couldn’t be that guy for her.

  “What’s up?” I said, opening the door for her. She walked in wearing nothing but a trench coat and six-inch stilettos. We were in Houston, and it was summer meaning it was entirely too hot outside for that shit, so I already knew what time it was. She didn’t even let me close the door good enough before she was climbing on top of me.

  “Damn, Ma. Calm down.”

  “I have been wanting you Jacob. I just want to feel that thing inside of me.” she said pushing me on the bed. She climbed on top of me straddling me, and I laid there and let her do her thing. She tried kissing me, but I turned my head the other way. I didn’t play that shit. She sucked on my dick for about five minutes, before my boy was standing at full attention. She removed her jacket and tried to climb on top, but she knew damn well I wasn’t fucking her ass raw. On the cool, I didn’t want to fuck her ass at all.

  “Go ahead and grab that rubber.” I said, directing her to where the condoms were. She looked at me crazy, and I returned the look.

  “Really, Jacob? You don’t make me suck your dick with a rubber on.”

  “True, I don’t, but I guess you can start. I don’t know where your pussy been. So either you can grab that rubber and come on, or you can go, your call.” I said, still laying on the bed. She mumbled some shit, but she got her ass up and got the rubber.

  Now, she had to do more work, because my shit got soft again. This time, it took damn near twenty minutes before I was rock hard again. She climbed on top of me and stuck it in, and I knew this was the reason I didn’t want to fuck her ass. That bitch was riding me and didn’t have no damn walls. I couldn’t feel shit but air. She was entirely too thirsty, so I knew she had been ran through before, but this was out of control. Like, damn bitch, was you fucking a different nigga every damn night. I started to push her ass off of me, but she did come through when I needed her, so I decided to rush the shit, act like I nutted, and was too tired to do anything else. After about five minutes of her being up there, I faked it. She was pissed; I could tell by the look in her face, but I didn’t give a damn.

  “That’s it.” She said.

  “Yep, that’s all I got for you.” I said, getting up to go clean myself up. When I came out, she was sitting on the bed with this pissed off expression on her face.

  “What’s your deal?”

  “Why do you act that way with me? I have been nothing more than good to you, and you treat me like shit. You make me wait all this time for sex, and you give me five funky ass minutes. Man, what’s up with that?” she said. I was really trying to spare this bitch feelings but she was getting ready to make me go there with her ass.

  “I’m not acting like anything it has just been one hell of a day and I’m tired. Of course I’m going to bust quick I haven’t had any in weeks. I’m about to lay down.” I said getting in the bed.

  “Can I lay down with you?” she said. She just didn’t stop. I guess I could respect her persistence, huh? I shrugged my shoulders and she came over and laid next to me. She begin to massage my dick, and I was cool with that. After playing with my mans for about two minutes, she went underneath the covers and replaced her hands with her mouth. I was cool with that shit, too, but for whatever reason, I kept thinking of Renee. I had a few pictures in my phone that Renee had sent me during the course of our relationship. I looked at the pictures, and the harder Myeshia went, the madder I got.

  “Fuck it!” I said, as I released my kids down the bitches throat, and I uploaded the pictures to Facebook and tagging her in them. My job here was complete. I could now get a little rest and figure out everything else later. Before I left though, Renee was playing with the right one. If I couldn’t have her ass, nobody could.

  Chapter 20

  Renzo

  After the night I had with Renee, I knew it was going to be hard as hell to tell her what was up now. I tried to tell her before we decided to call it a night, but she didn’t want to hear it. I was starting to feel like, the sooner I told her, the better off we would be, but I had been procrastinating, which was only going to make things worse. That scene in the bedroom though, boy, I knew I wouldn’t be able to leave her along after that shit. I would’ve never guessed that she had a wild side, but she proved me wrong. It was Friday, and she was gassed up about this trip. I was on my way to pick her up when my mother called me.

  “What’s up, Ma?” I said, as soon as I answered the call.

  “Hey son. I was just calling to tell you we should be back home by Saturday night, and I’m going to go pick Raven up from Gisele’s if that’s okay with you.”

  “Sure, that’s cool. Y’all be careful out on that road.”

  “You, too, and we left early this morning, so we should be back in no time. Hold on, your father wants to talk to you.” My mother said.

 
; “What’s up son?”

  “Nothing much, Dad. I’m on my way to pick up my lady friend, and we’re headed to San Antonio for the weekend.” I said. I had already told my mom about Renee, so I’m sure she had already told my father. I was really feeling that woman, so it wasn’t much that no one was going to be able to tell me about seeing her anyway.

  “Lady friend, huh? You know your mother told me about her. This is the one who wrecked your car huh?” my daddy said. That caused me to laugh. My mother could’ve definitely left that part out.

  “Yes dad. Her, and she didn’t wreck the car; it was just a little fender bender.”

  “Whatever you say son. Well, we would like to meet her. I haven’t had all my kids together in a while, so Sunday we are going to do a barbecue at the house. We’ll start at three pm sharp. Be sure you leave in time enough to get there. Can you get the word to Gisele and Gucci. Of course, Marc will be there since he lives there, but anyway, we just want to have a nice dinner with the family. I’m on the road so damn much, I haven’t really seen y’all and Raven, oh boy, she’s getting so big. You are going to have to get that gun ready.” He said, chuckling. I already knew that shit, though. For Raven to be three, she already had a little personality of her own.

  “Don’t I know it. Well, we will be there. You didn’t invite Jessa, did you?”

  “Now, you know we don’t deal with her on that level, but the fact that you asked has me thinking you still haven’t told that girl that, legally, you are still married.” I heard my mother say. This wasn’t really a conversation I was trying to have at the moment.

  “I’m going to tell her mom. Y’all be careful.” I said, releasing the call. I didn’t want to have no long drawn out conversation about how I needed to tell her this and tell her that like I didn’t already know. I was going to get to it, shit. I needed everyone to quit trying to tell me how to run my damn life. Jessa had been blowing me up, but the bills were paid, she had spending money, and Raven wasn’t with her, so I never found a need to answer the phone unless she was talking about signing the dotted lines. I pulled up to Renee’s job not even ten minutes later.

  “Hey baby girl.”

  “Hey.” She said. She was talking like she had an attitude or something.

  “What’s up with the attitude?”

  “I’m sorry, baby, but I guess Jacob is out of jail and that motherfucker is over there doing some super foul shit.” she said. I didn’t like that nigga at all. Every time she said something about him, it was always something negative. He was what I would call a fuck nigga, and if she said the word, I would definitely handle his bitch ass. She had told me about him coming to her mom’s crib and starting shit with her brother.

  “Calm down, baby girl. So what that nigga do now?” I said, hopping on Katy Freeway and heading to San Antonio.

  “Well, when he and I were fucking around, I sent him some pictures.” She said. I already wasn’t feeling where that conversation was going.

  “He posted all the got damn pictures online Renzo.” She cried. That nigga was a bitch for real, and the more she told me about him, the more I wanted to put my hands on his bitch ass.

  “Man, you know where that nigga at?”

  “No. Once we got serious, I cut all ties with him. I even changed my number so that he didn’t have a way to contact me, so I guess this is his way of reaching out. I don’t know what the fuck I ever saw in that nigga.” She whined.

  “So we serious now?” I asked, completely changing the subject. I didn’t give a damn what that bitch nigga did. He would be handled accordingly, but I was more interested in that serious statement she had made.

  “I mean, we’ve been dating for about three going on four months. You have been the only man that I have even thought about. I don’t really know why I’m saying this, but all I want is you Renzo. I’m done with Jacob, and you have made me feel like a completely new person, so this is where I want to be. I hope that you want the same, and if not, I totally understand.” She said, as she fidgeted with her hands. I thought that she was so cute telling me her true feelings. I just hoped that she felt the same way after I told her everything I needed to tell her.

  “I want you too, baby girl. I want you so much that I’m taking you to meet my mother Sunday for a barbecue. My father seems to think that the family hasn’t been together in a while, so he invited us.”

  “Oh, yes baby, I would love to go as your date. I’m super excited.”

  “I want you there as my woman.” I said. When I was with Renee, I felt emotions that I’ve never felt, so I knew for a fact that I wanted to give us a try. I just hoped that she would understand the shit I had to tell her.

  “Are you serious baby?”

  “Do I sound like I’m playing?”

  “Well, then. I guess I’m your woman. Take me away.” She said, as she relaxed in her seat. Before she got too comfortable. I wanted to tell her something.

  “Wait, baby girl, I do want to tell you this first.”

  “Oh boy, what is it?” she said, looking at me. I could see the seriousness in her face.

  “I have a little girl. Her name is Raven. She will be four soon.” I said. I tried to read her facial expression, while still watching the road, but her facial expression remained the same. Then, she started to smile.

  “Well, I don’t have a problem with children. I just don’t have any of my own. I’m okay with that. I don’t know why you just now telling me and a little girl? We could’ve been doing so much together. I bet my niece would love her.” She said, rambling off at the mouth, then she stopped.

  “Where’s is her mother? Are you all still together?” she asked.

  “No.” I said to her with a straight face. She looked at me a second or two longer before accepting my answer. She said, as long as she didn’t bring any problems her way, she was fine. She didn’t ask any other questions, so I didn’t volunteer any additional information. The rest of the ride, we talked and laughed about nothing in particular. The entire trip was amazing, and I’m not saying that because the sex was off the charts. I’m saying that because it really was. I had a great time with Renee in San Antonio, but now it was time for her to meet the parents. I hoped like hell she was ready for them and all the other baggage I came along with.

  Chapter 21

  Renee

  I can’t lie, I was definitely feeling some type of way when Renzo told me he had a daughter, but she was three, so I couldn’t trip out too much. I didn’t understand why he took so long to tell me, but I guess. He said him and the mother were no longer together, so as long as we didn’t have those types of issues, I was cool. I wanted kids of my own one day, but no time soon, so his one was good enough for me. I’m actually surprised his ass didn’t have more than that running around here. He was almost thirty, and only had one child. Shit, in Houston, that was rare, so I guess I should’ve been happy.

  San Antonio was super refreshing, and I needed that getaway, but Sunday rolled around a lot quicker than I would’ve liked. We hit the road at nine that morning; that way we were back to Houston in time enough to meet his family for dinner. I was excited that he even asked me. I was so excited that I had called my mother and told her. She said, “I told you God sent that man your way.” I laughed, because leave it to my mother to say something like that. I hadn’t told Renzo, because I was just trying to enjoy my time with him, but Jacob had been messaging me all weekend from Facebook, and he even went as far as hitting me up on Instagram. I mean, that lil’ nigga was all in my DM’s. I reported the pictures, so Facebook removed them which had me very happy and a few times, I replied to a message or two, but for the most part, I kept it sweet and simple.

  “Baby, do you need me to stop and grab you anything before we head that way?” Renzo asked, as we were getting ready to leave his house and head to his parents for the meet and greet.

  “No, I’m good. Will Gisele be there?” I asked. He laughed at me, but I didn’t give a damn. I was shy, and I knew he
r, so at least I could get some interaction with her, if no one else. What if his mother didn’t like me, and what if his daughter was bad as hell? That would probably be a deal breaker.

  “Yes baby, she’ll be there. Stop acting all nervous; you gonna be good. My people will love you; trust me.” he said. I grabbed my bag, slipped on my shoes, and we headed for the door. It took us almost forty-five minutes to an hour, but when we pulled into the subdivision, I was blown away. These houses were so damn big and beautiful. We pulled up to this gray brick stone house, and I was in love.

  “This the house? Oh my, Renzo, this is beautiful.” I said, as I stared up in awe.

  “Yes, now come on so you can meet everyone.” He said, getting out of the car to come get my door. I didn’t miss all the nice cars sitting in the driveway.

  “What’s up, Marc? This is Renee. Renee, this is my baby brother, Marc.” Renzo said.

  “Hello, nice to meet you.” I said, extending my hand, but he grabbed me in for a hug. The way he hugged me was a little awkward, but I didn’t speak on it. I just smiled and grabbed Renzo by the hand, who was giving his brother the death stare.

  “Damn nigga, she looks better than--”

  “Come on, Renee. Let’s go meet everyone else.” Renzo said, interrupting his brother and pulling me into the house. I didn’t know what that was all about, but I’m sure he would tell me when the time was right. I did pick up this vibe from his brother, though. One that I really didn’t care for.

  “Hey everyone. This is my girl, Renee. Renee, this is everyone.” He said introducing me. Everyone looked at him crazy, and then, started laughing. I was glad they broke the ice, because that was definitely a horrible introduction.

  “Hello, baby. I’m Mrs. Waters, and this is Mr. Waters. You are beautiful. Let’s get you all cleaned up and go in the back with the other ladies.” His mother said. Her son was a splitting image of her; she was just brighter. After getting all cleaned up, she made me a drink, and we went to the back deck.