The Hand That Holds Me ((The Forever Mine Series) Book 1)

by H. J. Marshall

  “God Lucas. That feels so good.” I groaned as I wound my fingers into his hair, pulling him closer into me. He rewarded me by pulling my clit into his mouth and tongued it until I felt intense tingles begin to spread throughout my body. He was determined to make me come and I wanted to explode on his face.

  “I’m going to come. Don’t stop! Don’t stop! Oh! Oh! Lucas!” I screamed into the room as my back bowed off the bed and my legs clamped around his head.

  He continued to lick me through my orgasm, the entire time, his fingers pumping into me, making me wetter and wetter. The sounds of my desire and his pursuit of another orgasm had me coming again like a rocket again as I fought to get away from his mouth, my clit becoming sensitive to his ministrations.

  “Stop, please baby. Its too much.” I begged him as he kept my legs pinned down beside me.

  “It will never be enough” he said as he looked up at me, his beard glistening with my release, his lips swollen and red from his endeavors. Love shining back from his eyes.

  “Please make love to me.” I mewled at him, gyrating my hips.

  He flipped me to my stomach and pulled me onto my knees, his hand wrapping around my wet hair, as be pulled my back flush against his hard front. He began to kiss down my neck and shoulder as he whispered into my ear. “I’m going to fuck you Maddie. Hard and fast like I know we both want it but make no mistake, it will be me making love to you. Every time I touch you, I am making love to you. Do you understand?”

  I couldn’t find the words to respond so I nodded my head as much as his grip in my hair would allow. He slowly plucked at my hard nipples as he kissed my jaw, my neck and any other exposed skin he could reach with his amazing mouth. The feeling of his beard was causing my skin to break out in goosebumps and my pussy to leak down my thighs.

  “Are you ready baby? Are you ready for me to make you mine?”

  “Please. Please.” I found myself chanting. I needed Lucas to claim me, to take away my pain and replace it with pleasure.

  He grabbed his thick cock and began to slide it across my slick lips, collecting my moisture and using it to strum my throbbing clit. Suddenly, he slipped in and pushed forcefully to the hilt, knocking all the wind our of my lungs and forcing a groan from both of us.

  “You feel so fucking good baby. Like your pussy was made just for my cock. Do you feel it? The way we fit together so perfectly?” he grunted as he began to pick up his pace, forcing me onto my hands and knees, his strong hands gripping my hips tightly. I knew there would be bruises tomorrow and I wanted my body to wear his marks of passion.

  From this position I could feel every inch of his amazing cock, hitting spots deeper than I knew I had, causing me to push back, bucking and moaning against his hardness. The intense orgasm that I felt brewing was deeper and stronger than I had ever felt before and I was afraid of the power he had over my body. I began to pull back from him and he shoved me harder onto his cock.

  “Take it Maddie. Take it because you love me. Take every inch and feel my love for you.” He said, as his furious pace caused me to collapse onto the bed, his body following me down and continuing to fuck me into the mattress.

  He slid his hand under my prone body and began to strum my hard clit, forcing my impending orgasm into another level.

  “Come for me baby. Come all over my cock Maddie.” He grunted as sweat dripped onto my back and rolled off my side.

  The force of the orgasm caused my eyes to close, starbursts lighting behind my eyes, as I slowly began to fall into a tunnel. My hearing was a muffled whisper and my body was twitching with the height of the peak I was still climbing. Lucas had brought me to the brink of destruction and pulled me back again, all through the power of his love.

  As my pussy clamped down around his hard cock, I could tell he was close to his own release, his grunts and groans a whisper of love through the haze of our frenzy lovemaking. The only sounds in the room were our grunted moans and the hollow sound of skin on skin slapping. His thrusts became erratic and he stilled, shoving into me and pausing, the feeling of his cock erupting inside of me pushed me into another mini orgasm, causing the fireworks to crackle back to life.

  “I love you Maddie!” he moaned as his rolled us onto our side, his cock still inside of me, his arms wrapped tightly around me.

  “I love you too.”

  We fell asleep in each other’s arms, with Lucas still inside of me. It felt right for us to be connected so intimately, to be encased in our bubble of love and perfection. All too soon we would have to face the rest of the situation and I was going to have to confront my past. I had fitful dreams and woke up to Lucas head between my legs, his tongue waking me from a nightmare into a daydream. He licked me to another orgasm and crawled back up to me to slowly make love to me in the weaning afternoon sunlight. It was everything I could ask for. Lucas had told me everything that had led up to our meeting and now I had to find the courage to meet Jason.

  We took a shower and made love again before we went in search of food. It had been hours since I had eaten and all the physical activity had made me ravenous. We found some shrimp and scallops in the refrigerator and Lucas fired up the grill to cook us dinner. He made us a wonderful grilled seafood salad and opened a bottle of wine he had brought with him for us to take out to the beach to enjoy after dinner.

  “I love it here. I can always find peace of mind when I sit by the ocean. I feel so small and my troubles seem so insignificant when I look out at the vast expanse of water. Does that make sense?” I asked him as we sipped wine under my umbrella and watched the sunset in the horizon.

  “I used to visit the ocean when I was growing up but looking back, I took it for granted. It was part of my backdrop, my everyday life, so I didn’t really connect with the power the oceans have over us. Sitting with you now, I can see things from differently. It really does make you feel tiny in the big scheme of things doesn’t it?” he said as he pulled me into his lap, my head falling back to his shoulder as we watched the blackness overtake the day.

  “I’m glad you came to find me. I’m sorry I ran from you.” I said into the air, hoping to relay my guilt for not giving him the chance to explain before I thought the worst. What he did was wrong but he did it for the right reasons.

  “I will always come for you Maddie. That’s what you do when you love someone. You fight for them, you hold them when they are weak, and you love them with all of your heart. Please don’t run from me. If you are scared or confused, run to me, baby. Let me hold you up until you can stand on your own. Let me be the one you depend on. Let me love you.” He said as he turned my head and kissed me slowly, his tongue pressing past my lips to explore my mouth in a slow pace.

  This kiss was nothing like the passion we shared this afternoon. This kiss was a slow blending of souls, a promise of redemption, a chance at forever.

  I turned back toward the ocean and smiled at the luck of it all. What are the chances that your soul mate is the “adopted” son of your estranged father? That meeting Lucas would change the course of my life and finally teach me about love.

  “I think we need to head back tomorrow. There are a few things we need to look over with the program and I would like for you to finally meet Jason.” I tensed at the thought of finally meeting my father. For so long I had held him in low regard, not caring of he was a part of my life. Now, all I wanted to do is get to know him and finally have the connection I had longed for my entire life.

  “You’re right. We can’t hide at the beach forever. Work has to come first.”

  “No. Work comes in about sixth on my list of important things. You are number one. I just want to get all of this behind us so we can move forward. I want to start a life with you and meeting Jason is the first step in that happening. Are you ready to meet your dad, Maddie?” He asked cautiously.

  He was right to be worried. Hell, I was worried. What if he doesn’t like me?

  “He loves you already baby. There isn’t any way he can hate
you.” He hugged me harder against his firm body.

  “Can we stop by Aunt Lisa and Uncle Joes on the way back to Atlanta? I want to talk to them and discuss everything before I meet with Jason.”

  “Of course, we can stop by and see them, they are your family and I want us to be able to clear the air and start fresh. They only want the best for you, baby. Just like everyone does. We love you. All of us.”

  I turned until I was straddling him and wrapped my arms around his neck, hugging his body to mine. I felt safe and cherished in Lucas’s arms. I finally felt at home.

  The drive back home was filled with lots of questions and answers about Lucas’s time with Jason but I still felt like there was something that he wasn’t telling me. There were quite a few times that Lucas said to wait until I spoke with Jason because that there are some answers I deserved to hear from him. I was less hesitant about meeting him as I was after I spoke with my aunt and uncle. We had spent a few hours with them, talking about the meeting Lucas had with them and the conversations they had with Jason. I understood a little better after they reminded me about how many times I had shut them out in the past where Jason was concerned. Uncle Joe was a little cold toward Lucas when we first arrived but after talking for a few hours, they were joking around in the garage while Aunt Lisa and I discussed my mom and dad.

  I admitted to her that I was scared about meeting him but she reassured me that it was what my mom would have wanted and I needed to give him a chance to explain. I had lived my entire life thinking that I wasn’t wanted and now I was on the cusp of having a part of me back I didn’t realize I was missing. We ate dinner and got back on the road to Atlanta, knowing that tomorrow was going to be a a long and emotionally exhausting day.

  Lucas had called Jason while he and Uncle Joe were outside and they had set up a time for us to meet tomorrow. Originally Jason wanted me to come to his house in Buckhead but the memories I had of that place gave me anxiety thinking about going back. They had agreed to meet in Centennial Park for coffee at ten. Lucas thought the wide-open space might make me less nervous and more willing to listen.

  We got back to my apartment and visited with Caroline before Lucas and I headed to bed. The last few days had exhausted me and while I spelt last night, I was running on very few hours of sleep over the last few days. We laid down and he curled his body around mine, his hand protectively around my waist, as I drifted off into a fitful sleep. All night long I fought against the rejection of the past, my dreams morphing from pleasant to lonely and back again. It was like my heart and my brain were fighting over who was right and wrong he would instinctively pull me tighter against him each time I began to fidget.

  I woke up before the sun began to peek through the blinds, the gray and blacks giving way to the bright blue they were predicting today. I was wrapped up in Lucas’s arms and wanted nothing more than to stay hidden away in my room, avoiding all the secrets and lies the past had proven to be. I knew in my heart that whatever reason Jason had for deserting me and my mom must have been monumental and I feared hearing his pain would break a little part of my soul.

  Before I met Lucas, I couldn’t understand why my mom had given her heart to a man who didn’t want her. Now I know when you find the one who completes you, your heart belongs to them and you are powerless to stop your feelings. They have the part of yourself that you don’t share with others: the pain, the desire, and the love so deep it takes your breath away.

  With Lucas, I had found that profound love. The one in a million love that allows you to forgive the past and work for the future. A love so deep that you aren’t sure where your life was before they became a part of it.

  I felt Lucas begin to kiss my neck and the sensations cause me to begin to squirm and writhe against his hardness. His strong hands massaging my breasts, his cock nestled into the crack of my ass, making my pussy leak from need. He released my aching breast and worked his hand down until his fingers made their way into my drenched panties. As his thick fingers began to stroke my wet cleft, he groaned into my neck and pushed his thickness harder into me.

  “Your pussy is so wet for me, baby.”

  “I need you Lucas” I panted as I lifted my leg and hooked it over his hip, opening myself up to him. I reached down and slide my panties to the side as he pulled his hard cock out and gently began to coat himself with my moisture.

  I needed him and began to move my hips, hoping to get him to push inside of me. He rolled me flat on my back and removed my panties before crawling back up my body and sliding into me with a gentle push. He was so thick and long that it was almost painful when he entered me but I knew the pleasure would outweigh any discomfort I had.

  He rocked against each other in a slow dance, our hips meeting as he ground himself against my clit, causing my impending orgasm to grow closer to the surface. The delicate way he made love to me, his gentle caress and the feeling of love surrounding us was too much for me as I felt the tingles spread out and my orgasm crashed into me like a wave, getting stronger and stronger with each thrust of his hips.

  “Your pussy feels amazing, baby. Squeeze my cock, Maddie. Come for me.” He panted as he picked up his pace and began to thrust harder into me, forcing me up the bed with each push of his hips. He buried his face into my neck as he groaned out his release, our pleasure melding us into one being.

  We lay in bed, tangled in each-other’s arms and all to soon it was time for us to start getting ready to meet Jason. Our lovemaking had relaxed me and I know with Lucas by my side today, I could face whatever came my way.

  Nervous energy had overtaken me as we walked through the park toward the meeting with my father. Never, in my wildest dreams, did I think that I would ever want to meet him. I had carried a grudge against him for so many years and was deeply afraid he would reject me again. As we moved through the park toward the center, I began to worry more and more, causing Lucas to stop me with a tug of his hand.

  He spun me around into his strong arms as he kissed me with a passion reserved for the movies. I felt myself dipped backwards and his strong lips smash against mine, his tongue forcing my lips apart so he could make love my mouth. That is the only way to describe the way he was kissing me. A deep, intense forging of souls, causing a calm to wash over me, my body becoming pliant in his arms.

  As he pulled away and righted me onto my feet I was only able to mutter a single word at the display of love he had given me. “Wow!”

  “Feel better? You seemed a little out of it and I wanted to calm you down a bit.” He smirked at me.

  I gently touched my hand to my lips, the tingling sensation strong, sending pulses to my core. I shook my head and he took my hand back in his as we continued on our walk toward my past and my future. I found myself smiling as we began to approach the shaded benches.

  As we sat down, I allowed myself to look around the park, taking in the Ferris wheel spinning high above the park, fountain in the shape of the Olympic rings and all the tourists’ attractions that make this a fun, yet peaceful place to visit and spend time. Being the middle of the week, there were very few people moving around the park, giving us some privacy.

  I was lost in thought when I felt Lucas’s grip tighten slightly, causing me to look up and see Jason walking down the path toward us. He was dressed in a pair of khaki pants and a soft blue polo shirt and even though he had aged since I had seen him last, I recognized him as the man who I‘d feared and hated my entire life. The man whose eyes looked exactly like mine. I forced myself to stand but couldn’t will my feet to move.

  Jason walked up and stood a few feet from us, tears falling down his face as he looked at me in awe. Neither one of us spoke a word as we just stared at each other, not knowing if we should embrace or not. Lucas broke the ice by reaching out and shaking Jason’s hand, effectively breaking the spell.

  “Its good to see you Jason. Please allow me to introduce you to your daughter. Jason this is Maddie. Maddie, this is your father Jason.

 
“Its so good to see you again Maddie. Thank you for agreeing to meet with me. I know this whole thing has been confusing and upsetting for you but I would like the chance to share a few things with you. Hopefully it can clear up some of the confusion about the past and give us a path to build some kind of future.”

  Lucas and I sat down, his hand in mine, giving me strength to not run away or lash out. I was working on faith right now. Faith in Lucas. Faith in my mother. The one thing my mother wanted for me was to give my father a chance. Everything in me wanted to yell at him, to demand he explain how he could hurt my mom so badly, how he could let her die alone. Instead I gripped Lucas’s hand tighter and settled in for what guaranteed to be the hardest conversation I would experience in my life.

  Jason sat on the bench next to me his hands crossed in front of him, his posture letting me know he was affected by this meeting as I was. He kept staring at me but hadn’t spoke since we sat down. The silence of us, surrounded by a city full of people, was telling of the magnitude of pain we both carried inside.

  Lucas spoke first, trying to ease the conversation, without pushing too hard. “I know this is difficult for both of you but you have to say something. Jason why don’t you start.”

  He nodded his head and began to speak. “I met your mom when she was seventeen years old and it was love at first site. It sounds cliché but I fell in love with her before we ever spoke a word to each other. There was something about her that caused her to shine. I can see so much of her in you.”

  He cleared his throat, trying to continue but failed as he put his head in his hands and silently sobbed for the memory of her. I let the tears fall as Lucas slipped his arm around me and hugged me to his body, giving me warmth and the strength to not break down. My mother created a light around her that people wanted to be a part of. Her laugh was infectious and her beauty was unrivaled. She gave freely of herself to others and I had tried my whole life to follow in her footsteps.